Like every summer, me and my family left our cold house in London , to spend our holiday in our summer villa in France , our usual destination . My parents loved French culture , French movies , French food . But I didn't like it much . What I really liked was the beaches and the beautiful  landscapes. Everything was so green , so colorful , so lively in opposition to the gray and sad atmosphere of London .
 
When we finally arrived at our Villa , I directly ran to my room , and fell in the bed . I was so tired . I just wanted to close my eyes and sleep for a very long , long time ...

My mother woke me up later , it was dinner time , and my family , my parents actually insist that we always eat dinner together , according to them it helps to consolidate our relationships particularly between me and my older brother with who I am not on the best terms . He always interfere with my life so much , he doesn't let me do anything within his consent , in addition to that my parents are the very traditional type . I have no liberty . I have to do what they want , behave like they want , eat what they want ... And it's so frustrating because I'm 17 I think I'm old enough to be aware of what I should do or shouldn't but for them I'm still an unconscious little girl who doesn't obey orders .

Giving the fact that my relationship with my family isn't what I exactly call good and that I can't go out without having them in my back , I usually spend my time in my bedroom , reading books , listening to music , watching movies ... But I can't complain , I like being alone , doing my things , enjoying them and forgetting about how much I feel imprisoned . When I read a book , it's like I'm dreaming , I'm so drown in it that I forget where I really am I can become someone else , an Elizabeth Bennett or a Jane Eyre . When I listen to music I let myself go to the point that  it's like there is nothing around me just my breath and I can start imagining things in my head , dreaming about what could have been my life if I had a different family , if I was someone else . When watching a movie especially a good one , I'm not me anymore , the characters feelings are mine , they are me , and I am them . So I can't really complain , I've created to myself a bubble that no one can penetrate , it's my comfort and trust zone where no one have access to it . It makes me feel  more secure , but it's also what keeps me from hating my life .