Tommy


I should really be on the football pitch, practicing with the team but I was too busy and other things to worry about. Instead I went to the school library to try and find any books about dreams. I had been lucky to find one but it didn’t help. I still couldn’t figure out my dream.


As I read I just thought more and more about it and the more I started to believe that the dream was exactly what it was. That deep down I had feelings for Merton but it couldn’t be true. I have always liked girls but I just didn’t know. I just didn’t know what to think or what I felt.


Merton


I was positive that the football team was practicing this free period. I remember Tommy saying something about it, well I think I did. Whenever he talks about football I never really listen and my mind always trail off to different subjects. I made my way outside and head towards the pitch.


When I reached it I looked around the field but I couldn’t see him. Huh, I was sure that he would be here. Where else could be? I thought.


A jock walked away from the pitch towards the seating area and picked up a bottle of water from one of the chairs. I walked towards him and said, "excuse me."


He turned to face me. "Yes, can I help you?" He asked me.


"Yes, have you seen Tommy Dawkins?" I asked him.


"What do you want with Tommy?" He wondered.


"It doesn’t matter why I just need to find him," I answered.


"He said that he needed to go to the library to research something for class," he told me.


"Thank you," I said and then walked off and headed to the library.


Tommy


As I was about to close the book when someone jumped in to the seat next to me.


"Hey, Tommy," Merton said.


"Hi, Merton," I said back turning to face him.


"How you feeling?" He asked me.


"Still a little unwell but better than I was this morning," I replied.


"That’s good," he said before adding, "Are you telling the truth?"


"Of course I am. Why would I lie?" I wondered. He was on to me. He knew I was hiding something.


"Well because I don’t believe that you are just quite due to feeling unwell because of the full moon tonight. It seems as if you know something but won’t tell me," he said.


"Well I’m telling the truth," I lied.


"Okay, fine," he said.


"Will you stop asking me if I am okay all the time now?" I asked him.


"Okay," he agreed.


"Are you coming around to my house tonight?" He asked.


"Yeah, if that’s okay? I don’t want to be alone because I don’t know if I’ll be able to stay in control. I don’t know how the full moon will effect me," I said.


"It’s okay," he told me.


A while later the bell ran so I put the book back and we left the library. Then headed to our next lesson.


After school me and Merton left together. Once we were in the hearse and the doors were shut, I had a change of mind. I couldn’t keep pretending that it wasn’t bothering me. I didn’t like lying to Merton but I thought that if I told him the truth he would hate me, and I didn’t want that to happen. He was my best friend and the only person who knew about my secret, so I couldn’t lose him. But I needed to say something or it would just keep eating away at me. I just couldn’t keep it to myself anymore.


"Erm...Merton," I said turning to face him.


"Yeah?" He wondered.


"Do you know when you said earlier you didn’t believe me that I was quite just because of the full moon?" I started.


"I knew it. You are keeping something from me aren’t you?" He said cutting me off.


"If I tell you, promise that you won’t hate me," I told him.


"Tommy, you’re my best and only friend why would I hate you?" He asked.


"Just promise okay," I ordered him.


"Cross my heart," he said, drawing a invisible cross across his chest with his finger.


"Okay, this might be kind of a shock. This is a little hard for me to say but I need to say it. Well I had this dream last night and well something strange happened in it. It was about- me and you kissed in it," I explained.


"What?" He exclaimed. His eyes were wide in shock.


"I didn’t want to tell you about it but it’s been getting to me," I said feeling a little bit of relief but I was also very worried. What if he now hated me?


"Well I wouldn’t worry about it. It’s probably just one of those strange dreams. It’s not like you have feelings for me," he said.


I didn’t know how to respond. I looked down to the car floor trying to think of a response because I didn’t really know if I had feelings for him or if I didn’t.


"You do?"


"No, well I don’t know. I don’t really know how I feel. I’m confused," I replied looking back up.


"Out!" He ordered pointing towards the door behind me.


"But you said that you wouldn’t hate me if I told you," I said.


"I don’t hate you. I’m just in shock and need time to process what you just told me," he told me.


"But what about the full moon tonight? I don’t know if I’ll be able to stay in control. You said that you was going to help me," I wondered.


"Well you’ll have to help yourself," he said.


"Merton don’t. You’re my best friend and the only person who knows about my secret. I need you," I begged.


"I just need time to think that’s all. I’ll call you later," he said.


"Thanks," I said.


"Now out," he told me. So I left.


Hopefully, he would call me before it got dark. I didn’t know if I could trust myself not to attack someone when the full moon was out. I didn’t want to have to deal with the full moon by myself.
I shut the door and stepped back. Then I watched Merton drive away.


I then decided to walk home instead of running there. I wasn’t really in the mood to run.