Chapter 1 Black Swan
Black Swan
Recommend songs: Black Swan, Modern Loneliness, mostly sad songs
Warning: might get aggressive and brutal. Will talk about loneliness/depression. You have been warned.
I did a demi-tour and then balanced, but failed. I looked at my dance instructor. He looked at me blankly. He didn't show any emotion like he always did. When I did something wrong.
"Do again."
I sighed. I took a deep breath and did a demi-tour again. I did it over and over until my instructor was satisfied. I felt so dizzy. I couldn't stop until my instructor told me to stop. If I stop now my instructor will get furious. He will slap me on the cheeks and kick me like I'm just a plastic bag. My instructor looked at his watch and then clapped his hands.
"That's enough."
He went out of the dance studio. I sighed. I clasped down on the floor. I breathed heavily. I closed my eyes and focused on my breathing. The studio is silent and calm. Not a single second until I heard a knock. Nevermind.
"Come in!"
They went in. It was one of the maids. She gave me a wet towel and a water bottle. "Miss Jung, your father called for you. He wanted you to be there by 12 minutes." I nodded and the maid went out. I got out of the studio and went to my bedroom. I quickly got dressed. I wore a black t-shirt with black sweatpants. I looked at the time. It's 10:00 pm. "Great!" I yelled at myself. My father will get furious if I'm late. I quickly went out of my bedroom and went to my father's office. I ran to my father's office.
I knocked on the door.
"Come in!"
I went in and closed the door behind me. "Yes father, did you need me?" My father looked at me and mouthed, "You are late." He then looked back at his paperworks.
"Yes Jeongeuk go sit down." My father wasn't looking at me. Instead he was looking at the papers on his desk. I went to sit in front of him. He looked at me. He has a serious face with no smile. I took a big gulp. It must be important.
"Jeongeuk, you are going to college."
I looked at him confused. 'What did he mean?' I asked myself. I felt my leg shaking. I'm getting so nervous. I fidgeted my hands. I looked at my father. My father opened his mouth and I tensed up.
"Not any college, it's an academy." My father looked at me in the eyes. My father holds my gaze. I felt so nervous even more.
"This academy will help you get better."
My father looked at his paperworks again. I sighed in relief. I thought he was going to kill me. I opened then closed my mouth. I shouldn't say anything because I will lose anyway. My father looked at me blankly.
"You are leaving tomorrow, you may be dismissed."
I stood up and left. I know I can't say no because my father will take something precious from me. Like my mother's necklace that I love so dearly. I went to my bedroom and collapsed on my bed. I closed my eyes and focused on my breathing. I felt tears flowing down my cheek. I whimpered. I feel sick in this house.
This house is like a cage. A cage that I'm always stuck with since I was only 10 years old. I felt useless in this world. I wiped my tears away and sat up. I opened one of my nightstand drawers. I took out my mother's necklace and held it close to me. I missed you mother. I wish you were here today so everything went back to it used to be.
When I was 9 years old, my mother died because of her illness. It made me depressed. My father became brutal ever since mother died. He forced me to do things I don't like. For example, he made me study all of the languages in the world. That's not it. I'm just done taking his orders. He threatened me if I didn't do what he asked. He will take away my freedom and my friends.
I felt so lonely. I have never had any friends anymore because I'm afraid of my father. What is he going to do if I have friends? My father
I looked at the time. 11:00 pm. It's late now. I put my mother's necklace back in the drawer. Then, closed the drawer. I sighed thinking about the past. I got up from my bed and went to get ready to sleep. I guess I'm a Black Swan. Life is too hard for me to handle.
Author Note: I hope you like it. What do you think? Please vote and if you want you can comment.
Recommend songs: Black Swan, Modern Loneliness, mostly sad songs
Warning: might get aggressive and brutal. Will talk about loneliness/depression. You have been warned.
I did a demi-tour and then balanced, but failed. I looked at my dance instructor. He looked at me blankly. He didn't show any emotion like he always did. When I did something wrong.
"Do again."
I sighed. I took a deep breath and did a demi-tour again. I did it over and over until my instructor was satisfied. I felt so dizzy. I couldn't stop until my instructor told me to stop. If I stop now my instructor will get furious. He will slap me on the cheeks and kick me like I'm just a plastic bag. My instructor looked at his watch and then clapped his hands.
"That's enough."
He went out of the dance studio. I sighed. I clasped down on the floor. I breathed heavily. I closed my eyes and focused on my breathing. The studio is silent and calm. Not a single second until I heard a knock. Nevermind.
"Come in!"
They went in. It was one of the maids. She gave me a wet towel and a water bottle. "Miss Jung, your father called for you. He wanted you to be there by 12 minutes." I nodded and the maid went out. I got out of the studio and went to my bedroom. I quickly got dressed. I wore a black t-shirt with black sweatpants. I looked at the time. It's 10:00 pm. "Great!" I yelled at myself. My father will get furious if I'm late. I quickly went out of my bedroom and went to my father's office. I ran to my father's office.
I knocked on the door.
"Come in!"
I went in and closed the door behind me. "Yes father, did you need me?" My father looked at me and mouthed, "You are late." He then looked back at his paperworks.
"Yes Jeongeuk go sit down." My father wasn't looking at me. Instead he was looking at the papers on his desk. I went to sit in front of him. He looked at me. He has a serious face with no smile. I took a big gulp. It must be important.
"Jeongeuk, you are going to college."
I looked at him confused. 'What did he mean?' I asked myself. I felt my leg shaking. I'm getting so nervous. I fidgeted my hands. I looked at my father. My father opened his mouth and I tensed up.
"Not any college, it's an academy." My father looked at me in the eyes. My father holds my gaze. I felt so nervous even more.
"This academy will help you get better."
My father looked at his paperworks again. I sighed in relief. I thought he was going to kill me. I opened then closed my mouth. I shouldn't say anything because I will lose anyway. My father looked at me blankly.
"You are leaving tomorrow, you may be dismissed."
I stood up and left. I know I can't say no because my father will take something precious from me. Like my mother's necklace that I love so dearly. I went to my bedroom and collapsed on my bed. I closed my eyes and focused on my breathing. I felt tears flowing down my cheek. I whimpered. I feel sick in this house.
This house is like a cage. A cage that I'm always stuck with since I was only 10 years old. I felt useless in this world. I wiped my tears away and sat up. I opened one of my nightstand drawers. I took out my mother's necklace and held it close to me. I missed you mother. I wish you were here today so everything went back to it used to be.
When I was 9 years old, my mother died because of her illness. It made me depressed. My father became brutal ever since mother died. He forced me to do things I don't like. For example, he made me study all of the languages in the world. That's not it. I'm just done taking his orders. He threatened me if I didn't do what he asked. He will take away my freedom and my friends.
I felt so lonely. I have never had any friends anymore because I'm afraid of my father. What is he going to do if I have friends? My father
I looked at the time. 11:00 pm. It's late now. I put my mother's necklace back in the drawer. Then, closed the drawer. I sighed thinking about the past. I got up from my bed and went to get ready to sleep. I guess I'm a Black Swan. Life is too hard for me to handle.
Author Note: I hope you like it. What do you think? Please vote and if you want you can comment.
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