Meisongdi Riamroi
2019-09-04 14:36:29
WHAT NEXT#A#STORY
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WHAT NEXT?!!
I thought of writing a farewell page for you this day, I'm distracted once more. I thought of presenting departure song, with a tears I can't sing out once again . After since I heard from you my heart started to ache what love really gonna happen.. no this is not the End! No farewell, for my love remains still for you and on. I've kept your love to the deepest of my heart that no one gonna take it away, but now what my heart long (that warmth of your love) really gonna happened? From the time I saw you my eyes burns for your presence but now I'm all alone almost left behind in your love.
The place we first met,and the day we were together remains in my mind reminding what precious memories to be kept. You are the only one that makes me think alive. Your cares and love for me are much higher than anything precious found which will be remaining in my life .
Your time sacrificed for our love by every riches can't be bought with- but a gift worth than everything.
What will I do now, I've been fooled now, my only aching heart burning with a flame of my love for you. Is this our love! Your tears flowing all alone, burning face with tears of love, every heartbeats remind of our love from the first sight. How do I spent this days without your love, your heart, your presence of sweet fragrance filled with sweet voice whispers.
(Baby) I need your love today, tomorrow and forever. Tears after tears in my pity heart what can be done to restart our love. It has been four years now from the day our love bind us to this days and those years were running much shorter than before. I longed you in my arms today but I'm sure this time won't come back again. I've no words to express my love for you dear, but only this non-stop aching heart longing and begging for those days spent in love, making laughs of love, cries of love, tears of love, words of love, time spent in your cheerful voice ,singing with responses . What the Earth has made for us to long for each other day and night!!
I have nothing more to give you rather than a wordless heart burning with love for you. The time that we made, the days that we spent, the words that we talked will be my memories forever and ever till my last breath. I wanna meet you once more, wanna be together in arms even for just a second, wanna see your radiant blooming face just for a blink BUT will time permit us for this days? And I know for sure you do love me more than you can express from your whole of your heart. But this compelling phenomena(situations) prevent us so. .... I've no words to beg you farewell for my love for you remain the same and longing more and more . What the world thinks of our love , what time thinks of us??
The days spent together will be a days for my life, that I've started to think I'm alive with loves and your presence besides me reminded me that I'm not alone in this world but with someone who can be shared with sorrows, happiness, love, sadness and every events of my entire life because you are so much meant for me. I'm so sorry for you too for I can't be a phenomena for your life. For not able to be with you forever as we used to talked about in the near past days. I'm sorry for being me in your life but not being him. I've sorry for myself for not being able to be with you all day long.
I've started to think away our Love full of sorrow what would happen next???? Thinking and thinking , trying hard to be away from that world of emotions but how will I stop thinking of it. It reminds me of our love again and again with continuously ringing in my mind and beating of love along with heartbeats that I owned. Would you think at once what my love for you is all about. What will I do next ,,,,,,to remAre in relationship once more with you baby.
No clue, just heartaches, burning with your love filling all my blood . I wanna spend every breathe with you. I wanna grow as old as our loves remain with you only.
If this is our Love than why god has made us so tired , feeling for each other or why has he not taken away the feelings that are prevailing in every seconds of our life?
Is True love like this to suffered? Is true love a mere play that can't stop thinking one another but a strong burden between?
If I'm to think and think ,again and again for our love , what might come after! I'm not sure the good might not present me and for you especially 😢 but it will be okay. But I'm sorry for I can't take you away from that burden which is not a bearable one for you facing now and then. I'm sorry for I'm not the one who is coming after. I'm sorry for I can't be a person you gonna chose for your life long. I'm sorry for I can't be with you forever as we want it.
I'm sorry for my life too for I don't possessed a MAN LIKE ACTION in this situation. I'm sorry for I came into your virgin Love(life) and burdening you, suffering you that much. I'm sorry for I'm a man of not yours as of now. I'm sorry for the time, days ,words that might hurts you and suffered you a lot much. But baby I've not really meant to let you suffered.
Now I've to leave our world of love , happiness, and everything as this world might be the reasons (problems) that you and I are facing (suffering) now.
I've to beg you every forgiveness from you now that I might have disturb you in your daily chores, daily life , your studies, your purposeful career and every mistake that I've done to you. Actually I'm not really meant to disturb you darling. For the named that I've called you, for the interruption that I've made, for the angers that I blamed upon, for the stories that I joke on you but I really meant to cheers you, for everything that might hurts you. But darling those things are not what I wanted to be.
I've learned so many things , which are more than a beneficial for my life. Thank you for everything that you made me what I'm today. If I'm without you I might not be in this position too. Thank you for the encouragement in my studies, in my disappointments, and many more that you have been just for me. Thank you so much for being for me throughout this days. Thank you for every times that you spent just for my sake. Thank you for your life spending every seconds, every breath just for me. Thank you for living in my days of depression, sorrows,sadn sad and many more that I can't mentioned now. Thank you for your cares, precious time, energy and everything just for my life. ..... I've no words to express my gratitude and love for you BUT you I have loved you more than everything I could in this Universe. And Thank you for LOVING ME AS YOUR LOVE. Please do include me as your TRUE BEST FRIEND 🙏 .
With tears filled and Love from the deepest of my Heart I WISH you a prosperous woman in the days to come. I wish you You love your life mate as you have Loved me and much more. Wishing you a life filled with happiness in your heart. A life with care for everyone. A life of THE BEST EXAMPLE FOR THE WORLD TO BE NAMED. A love for all human ,love for near and dear ones, love for friends, love for enemy too. Be a blessed woman in near future. A blessed woman for a near generations to come. Wishing you from bottom of my heart and mind and Love- BE A WOMAN OF OUR GOD THE FATHER AS YOU HAVE BEEN LOVING NOW . Love for everyone, care for everyone,kind for everyone, respect for everyone , a hopes and desires for everyone is also Love for our God. Please do remember this line.
This is a world of pity, a world of sorrows, a world of hatred, a world of foolish wars, a world of jealous, a world of foolish competition, a world of discouragement. To live in this world is to face every battlefield approaching in our daily life. Wish you have courage to face(overcome) all of them from now on. I wish I could be able to overcome (faced ) them too in near coming. Fight for the best with a feeling of Love for everyone, everything and with our God.
To leave you is not what I really wanted to be.
To leave you is to face a sorrowful life to live on.
To leave you is not a destiny but a circumstances.
To leave you is what is to leave everything at once.
To leave you at once is to leave my life.
To leave my life is to leave my Love for you.
To leave my love for you is to leave this whole world at once.
To leave this world at once is to live no more!😢
I never thought of leaving you my love, and I'm still confused , not clear whether I will leave you now or nog 🤔.
But I'm sure leaving each other does not mean we are no more a friend, no need to love each other again as before, No!!! But we are going to love more and more. Care for each other, encouraging for each other, living for each other in the days to come. Leaving you in my life is what I'm going to face the most undesirable pain than anything I can come across in my life. I have a feelings for you too the same pain when we have to leave each other.
But Love is what actually the power to adjust to the circumstances facing day to day with time.
Loving you is the most precious time spent , the most perfect cared I got, . To love you is what we called " Everything" in my life.
I wish this must be a dream for it pain me so much, thinking of you ends up my day. But what can I bring this to be a dreamland 😢.
Love is an immortal and so you in my life!
If I were Your ROMEO what would be our life? I'm again sorried for not being able to be your Perfect Romeo.......
What can I do now to rub (erase, vanish) away our tears from this world of Love for each other......
NOW, I'M SCARED WHAT NEXT BE???????????????????????????
M. Riamroi.
