Epigraph
Riverlane.
The big truck opens its door infront for the first time after Ella's old place. Back when her mother was a dutiful baptist church leader Ella's life was good at her old place but everything changed when her mother felled from a horse and realized the greatest epiphany that true religion doesnt cage one person to a regular monotonic duty but it encourages one to see the world's beauty. But according to Ella that spiritual awakening got them booted from their old place and ruined their lives.
Couches, beds, paintings everything was new to Ella. Ella's mother starts unpacking while her father ran for the telephone to order pizza. Ella climbs the stairs and opens the door to a room which she never saw before. The Yellow wallpaper is giving her the summer vibes.Ella lies one the mattress and stairs at the ceiling. she don't want to sit on unpacked box and eat pizza. After spending so many days in a motel room with her parents all she want is to lock herself in this room and curl up in the bed.
Ella turns up to face the window but her eyes catches some carved word under the window like words carved in prison cells. through layers of peeling yellow, then blue, then white, the fresh words sliced through decades of paint:
Kill me now.
I'm already dead.
Ella's breath caughts in her throat. Seeing the words of a stranger who must have lived in the same room as she is going to live. Was their bed in the same place?
How intimate this little words are. How much a person felt alone to cry out to someone they can't even see.
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Across town Jessica who was lying in her bed too thinking about strange things which only her brain can produce. She is thinking how much she wants to be a robot than human being but she's more than capable of feelings. she is a raw nerve and the world always tries to touch her.
Mom says "It's a beautiful day why don't you go outside ?" with exclamation. But Jessica's skin is almost pale as a robot she doesn't like to sweat and these discomfort reminds her that she lives in a imperfect human body. Her mom knows this about her ,yet she keeps saying things she thinks normal moms of normal kids are supposed to say, as if Jessica is capable of being a normal kid, as if that is something she would even aspire to be.
Jessica is, unapologetically, a science geek. She knows this is an Asperger’s stereotype, as are many other things about her—the difficulties expressing emotion, the social awkwardness, the sometimes inappropriate behavior. But what can she do? These are parts of who she is. It’s everyone else who decided to make them a stereotype.
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In the slowly but steadily growing Mexican part of the town , there's a household of big Mexican family of five adult, two teenagers and seven children.Marina the only child of a single mother who's husband died after five months of their marriage. Instead of a father, Marina has an extended family of aunts and uncles and cousins who move in and out of her house as if it were their own.
As the eldest and only daughter, Marina’s mother has inherited the duty to house and look after her grandmother, who has a tendency to wander off when no one’s looking. And because Marina is her family’s eldest daughter, it is also her duty to look after the entire brood of cousins, in addition to her regular shifts at her uncle José’s restaurant, La Cocina, the best Mexican restaurant in Riverlane.
Marina spends the two and a half hours between the end of school and the start of her shift at the restaurant at her other uncle’s house watching her seven young cousins while somehow takes a nap on a chair in the corner despite the screaming horde of children.
How is Marina ever going to form a band if she’s busy every afternoon changing diapers and keeping the toddlers from sticking sharp knives in electrical sockets? She should be rocking, she should be screaming into a mic onstage, not singing lullabies to her unappreciative little shit cousins while they smear boogers on her favorite pair of black jeans, which she has to hang outside to dry because the dryer’s broken again, where they’re going to get faded and absorb the smell of so many neighbors’ tortillas frying.
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In another state, an invisible girl named Lucy tries to forget a story that will define her for the rest of her life, a story no one claimed to believe.
The big truck opens its door infront for the first time after Ella's old place. Back when her mother was a dutiful baptist church leader Ella's life was good at her old place but everything changed when her mother felled from a horse and realized the greatest epiphany that true religion doesnt cage one person to a regular monotonic duty but it encourages one to see the world's beauty. But according to Ella that spiritual awakening got them booted from their old place and ruined their lives.
Couches, beds, paintings everything was new to Ella. Ella's mother starts unpacking while her father ran for the telephone to order pizza. Ella climbs the stairs and opens the door to a room which she never saw before. The Yellow wallpaper is giving her the summer vibes.Ella lies one the mattress and stairs at the ceiling. she don't want to sit on unpacked box and eat pizza. After spending so many days in a motel room with her parents all she want is to lock herself in this room and curl up in the bed.
Ella turns up to face the window but her eyes catches some carved word under the window like words carved in prison cells. through layers of peeling yellow, then blue, then white, the fresh words sliced through decades of paint:
Kill me now.
I'm already dead.
Ella's breath caughts in her throat. Seeing the words of a stranger who must have lived in the same room as she is going to live. Was their bed in the same place?
How intimate this little words are. How much a person felt alone to cry out to someone they can't even see.
************
Across town Jessica who was lying in her bed too thinking about strange things which only her brain can produce. She is thinking how much she wants to be a robot than human being but she's more than capable of feelings. she is a raw nerve and the world always tries to touch her.
Mom says "It's a beautiful day why don't you go outside ?" with exclamation. But Jessica's skin is almost pale as a robot she doesn't like to sweat and these discomfort reminds her that she lives in a imperfect human body. Her mom knows this about her ,yet she keeps saying things she thinks normal moms of normal kids are supposed to say, as if Jessica is capable of being a normal kid, as if that is something she would even aspire to be.
Jessica is, unapologetically, a science geek. She knows this is an Asperger’s stereotype, as are many other things about her—the difficulties expressing emotion, the social awkwardness, the sometimes inappropriate behavior. But what can she do? These are parts of who she is. It’s everyone else who decided to make them a stereotype.
***********
In the slowly but steadily growing Mexican part of the town , there's a household of big Mexican family of five adult, two teenagers and seven children.Marina the only child of a single mother who's husband died after five months of their marriage. Instead of a father, Marina has an extended family of aunts and uncles and cousins who move in and out of her house as if it were their own.
As the eldest and only daughter, Marina’s mother has inherited the duty to house and look after her grandmother, who has a tendency to wander off when no one’s looking. And because Marina is her family’s eldest daughter, it is also her duty to look after the entire brood of cousins, in addition to her regular shifts at her uncle José’s restaurant, La Cocina, the best Mexican restaurant in Riverlane.
Marina spends the two and a half hours between the end of school and the start of her shift at the restaurant at her other uncle’s house watching her seven young cousins while somehow takes a nap on a chair in the corner despite the screaming horde of children.
How is Marina ever going to form a band if she’s busy every afternoon changing diapers and keeping the toddlers from sticking sharp knives in electrical sockets? She should be rocking, she should be screaming into a mic onstage, not singing lullabies to her unappreciative little shit cousins while they smear boogers on her favorite pair of black jeans, which she has to hang outside to dry because the dryer’s broken again, where they’re going to get faded and absorb the smell of so many neighbors’ tortillas frying.
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In another state, an invisible girl named Lucy tries to forget a story that will define her for the rest of her life, a story no one claimed to believe.
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