MIA

It's already midnight but we are still practicing our choreography. Misa is having a hard time today. Her mind and body are somehow not sync. I don't know what happened to her.

Mina is not completely fine, her knee was injured a few days ago but surprisingly she can manage. I'm really proud of her.

Maira is still the same. Occasionally doing her art with her sketchpad. I haven't saw what is inside the sketchpad. All I know is that her work is really good. She doesn't have her own art museum for nothing right?

Me? Aside from practicing, all I do is sleep and eat. Thank you for that wonderful bread I also have my energy to move. I really don't know what to do without my precious bread.

Speaking of bread. I did order again. Since there is a promo I order a lot of bread which will be delivered later. It's kind a funny because I think their app is broken. It says that it will be delivered later, like “1:30 in the morning” I mean come on! It's a joke. Right?

"Are you okay?" Asked Misa while drinking her water.

“Oh sorry! I'm fine. Why? ” I answered.

“It seems like you're thinking something deep” Misa said then smirked.

I did smirked back then look straight through the mirror in front of us. We are inside the practice room where there's a huge mirror in front of us.

“I think we should take a break for a moment. You all look so tired ”Maira said while doing her hair a ponytail.

“Sure sure” said Misa.

The room went quiet for a moment. The four of us are trying out best to catch our breath. We are too tired to talk but I know sooner or later our energy will be back in no time.

As I drink my water and wipe out my sweat I can't stop looking at my friends. I consider them as my family too. I can see how tired and hardworking they are. They keep on doing their best for every comeback we make.

Losing them is one of my biggest fear.

I just can't.

“Mia. Mia. Mia! ” Misa shouted while waving her hand.

“Eh? Uhm. Sorry why? " I asked while putting myself together.

“Someone's calling you” Mina said while pointing my phone with her lips. The way Mina pout is really cute.

“Oh sorry” I apologized then grab my phone to see who's calling me.

“I should take this call. I'll be right back ”said I then gave each and everyone a smile.

I went outside the practice room and answer the call. It's the delivery guy again.

"Hello?"

[Oh Hi! Uhm. I know it's late but I'm here outside your building again to deliver the bread you ordered]

"Oh really?"

[Well. Yeah. ]

“I'll be right there in a minute”

[Okay. Okay. Thank you]

"Okay bye!"

[End call]

So it's really true that they still deliver their bread during this time. I thought it's a joke or an error. What a nice shop to order.

“Hey. I'll be right back ”Said I while holding the doorknob.

“Sure sure. We're on a short break after all ”Maira said.

I rushed down the lobby. I wasn't able to use the elevator because it takes time before I could even go in.

Good thing I'm using my sneakers tonight.

The time I got there I saw someone familiar. Wait. I know that I saw this guy somewhere. I must think hard.

The guy is wearing a brown jacket with his restaurant uniform inside. Also a pants that suits his shoes too.

Ah- it's him again. The one guy who delivered my order before.

“Oh- Uhm. Sorry coming here at this time. I do hope you're aware ”Said he while scratching his head like a kid.

“It's fine. It's fine. I'm actually aware but I thought it is some kind of error ”said I then giggles.

“Ahh. Yes. I heard that all the time- anyway here's your order ”said he then gave me bread.

I gave him the payment and he's already ready to go but-

“Yes Ma'am? Something's wrong? " He asked.

I really don't know why? But I just grab his right arm. This is pretty unusual to me.

"Can I have some coffee?" I asked.

“Oh sure Ma'am! Just order again and I'll do my to de- "

“No. I mean. Can we get some coffee? ”

There is a complete silence that time. I really don't know what am I doing? I just really like to talk to someone.

“I mean. Uhm. Sure? I guess? " Said he.

It's actually funny how he still not recognize me as an idol or is he just pretending that he doesn't know? I'm really confused right now.

I asked the guard that I'll be gone for awhile just to grab some coffee. I still have time before going back to practice so- yeah! Let me have this time for a moment.

There is a coffee shop near the building. It is actually pretty good so I really love going there.

As we enter the coffee shop, few people are already there. Some of them are students who is probably doing their thesis and some of them are hardworking workers who just loves their job despite of how tired they are.

“Here” he offered me the chair so that I could sit. The guy slowly pulled the chair and let me seat.

It does not take much time when we order something. We had a small talk for awhile then the coffee arrived.

“Sorry for dragging you here” I apologized then took a sip.

“No. It's fine ... so are you okay? " He asked.

It's been a long time since I heard someone asking me if I'm fine aside from my co members. I took a deep breath and look directly at his eyes.

“Have you ever thought of not being enough? And people will leave you no matter how long you've been together? " I really don't know why am I telling this to him.

“Doing everything but you feel like you're not enough. Having a lot of friends but sometimes you feel so alone? "

My tears are ready to fall. There's a complete silence while we are looking at each other. He put down the cup of coffee and took a deep breath.

“First of all. You are already worth it. No matter what you do. Small or big. You're already enough so don't push yourself ”said he like we are experiencing the same thing.

“Second. There are two types of people, the one who stays and the one who will teach us something. Maybe people do just come and go? "

“Lastly. I really don't have all the answers but if you're feeling alone. I know there are people who are willing to listen to your stories ”He smiled while looking at the window beside us.

I mean he's right though. I have my members yet I don't usually talk to them about my feelings. I have them.

I was about to talk to him about few more things but-

“Oh shoot! They're looking for me already! ” I shouted.

“I'm really sorry but I really need to go. Thank you very much for your time ”Said I while panicking.

“It's fine. Thank you also ”

I was about to leave when I realized something. I don't know his name yet.

"What's your name by the way?" I asked.

“Dos. You can call me Dos, Ma'am ”

“No need to call me ma'am. It's Mia. Nice to meet you Dos ”then I offered my hand to shake hands.

As I walked back to our practice room. I'm really surprised that Dos does not really know me. Which is actually a good thing.

Without me knowing I'm already smiling.