I read my tarot reading again and I was crying so much when Ryu give a warning how he really want me to hear this message I keep crying my eyes out about it my gosh Ryu u r too much my heart were hurting me that what u been through n telling me how much you love me you r melting my heart and hurt at the same time y r u so sweet and now you r so honest with me dam it one of my tarot card keep on popping out Everytime I watch tarot reading they keep showing give a love to you another chance man Ryu you really did everything for my sake and you r having problem sleeping same goes to me when I was sleeping I couldn breath then I woke up really hard I don't Kno what just happen when I was trying to sleep but I'm now ok now. oh Ryu you r making me feel like I have to give u a second chance I feeling like I really did need to go back with you I will give you another chance this time I won't Chang my mind u really to much for me Ryu it make it more difficult now but I keep thinking about it again I need time to think again but still do feel like u have to come first which one of you guys came first I b ready to choose what one of you after two of you came to me first or at the same time I will b ready to choose who I will b with rest of my life I'm still thinking about me choosing you Ryu u r goin makin me change again back n forth Bak n forth dam it Ryu u really very too much for me but still not sure yet. Now I need to think again who I choose. Shane or you I'm going to see what my heart is telling who should I choose. Sigh

Omg my angels heaven good spirit ancestors and the universe is so prepare to battle alot of element is coming in helping me Shane And Ryu I'm so happy and prepared is going to be a big battle to all of evil people coming in on September I read my tarot reading there some1 after me that wanted to destroy me but I'm so prepared thank goodness my fantasy magic people coming in helpping me before Sept. Whew I'm so relieved that all of the magic creature is finally here to save and protect me and my two Boyz. Now we wait till September then we fight.

Tonight I was about to go sleep I freaken hear negetive people try to destroy me to make me lose hope I will not let myself down they will not beat me I will always think positive about myself not let any BS negetive people to try to make me give up my love to some1 I wanted to b with I will not lose!! U negetive people will b remove!! I hope still keep goin Ryu don't let negetive people make you go down to get you keep moving forward I will do a same alright. We will win the battle don't let anyone or anybody put you down and let the negetive people destroy us k will not lose!! U better do a same remember keep going. We will battle it together no matter what in r way alrighty.