One day, when we two were alone at home, he blasted "How can you be so calm when in front of your eyes, your husband brings home new mistresses every day and sleeps with them?! And you, knowing this, are behaving as if nothing is wrong". "The answer is simple, I just don't love you. I don't even hate you. You are such raff in my eyes, that I don't even notice you. I don't care and as you said you are a free man now so you can do whatever your heart desires". Richard's eyes and mouth were open wide. He stood like that for 2 minutes and then, suddenly pulled me to himself and started kissing. I tried to resist, but couldn't...
After two days I got to know that I'm pregnant and after nine months I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl whom me and Richard named as Alexandra.
Yes, my journey was difficult and full of thorns, but it did teach me good lessons. First lesson was that, before everything else, the first thing a female should be is to be a woman. Not just by gender, but by her way of life and her way of thinking as well. Before becoming a careerist, woman must be able to be a good wife and mother. In some cases, she should be soft and must concede her husband in some things. She shouldn't contradict him. This is called female wisdom. Of course, she should have her own opinion, but it doesn't mean that she should poke it in her husband's eyes where it's not necessary. Misunderstandings are started when both man and woman are trying to shout out their opinions, without trying to understand and listen to each other. And second lesson was that, the woman shouldn't lose her dignity as well. If the man is treating her like shit, she must throw him out of her life and when the woman stops chasing the man and leads her own life, the man starts to feel uncomfortable and starts to feel curious and jealous as to why the woman is not chasing after him. Then he starts to chase her. In my case, Richard wasn't a bad person, he was just trying to do things to spite me and I, in return, tried to behave opposite to what I really felt. I showed him that I won't always chase after him no matter what he does and also, I made sure to make him believe that I don't really care about him. And he did believe in that. When a man realises that the woman doesn't need him in order to be happy, he gets jealous, goes crazy, gets pissed and etc and tries to regain her attention. He starts chasing her. Men have such a nature that they are hunters and when the woman tries changing the cycle, it goes wrong and she starts chasing the man which is not right. My case was extreme of course, as I closed my eyes to Richard changing mistresses like gloves and bringing them to our home, to him not paying attention to me and not considering my opinion, to him acting like an asshole, etc. I acted as cold as ice. I tried getting new interests, finding a hobby for myself, spending more time at work and acting as if Richard does not even exist. It sounds like nonsense but it was like that. And this way, I saved my relationship with Richard, which was almost ending. Special thanks to Mary, who pushed me to such a courage. Without her help, I would hardly be able to save my family.