The meeting after letter
I went back , took my jacket , and hurry went outside, I started to go without stop , go to her home... Even with little hope , hope that we can talk and I will find the answer for my question... I started to go as fast as I could , was holding my breath, I had billion thoughts in my mind ... What if she doesn't want to see me , what if she did it because she's scared of something ? What if... What if she's just scared to open up to me ? But even these thoughts that she will not wanna talk to me didn't stop me. I came to this place and started to ring on the door-bell as crazy... After a while , she opened the door and said:
-I knew you won't listen, I knew you will come here... She said it like she wasn't mad but at the same time was tired of me.
- Don't try to run from me , it won't help... Just let me talk to you , let me know the truth , i wanna know what happened ...wanna know why you did it! I said it without even thinking... She looked in my eyes and quietly said:
- Come in.
I came in, sat on the chair and said:
- So, tell me what happened... I wanna know why you did it... Don't worry, i won't judge you , i just wanna know the truth, I want to understand what can i do then...
- Well... Listen, you are really good person and... I really feel like I fell in love... for the first time ever fell in love like that... With girl that i didn't even know for a long time... You gave me the chance to understand that to fall in love like that is actually possible but... Don't think , problem is actually not in you... The problem is in me... I am the problem...
- But why? Why would you think so ?If you really feel this way to me... Why would you do that? I hold my breath strong and asked her fast. She took my hand and held in hers...I swear, I had a goosebumps on my body... My heart was jumping as fast as it was at the first time I saw her... She suspended my thoughts by saying:
- I am not this person you are searching for... You deserve better...but, not me...
I stopped her and said:
- I am not searching for anybody and I don't need anybody... I don't need anybody else... I fell in love really for the first time ever, I've never felt this way before... I felt like you are not like others, you are special... And... I've never felt more comfortable with anybody like I felt with you! You know, if you would love me like you said , you would never do that! I yelled with tears in my eyes... and I was going to run away but she took my hand , stopped me and said:
- No, i really do but... I just don't want you to get a broken heart because of me , i love you! She held me tight... I cried and then said:
- I don't want to lose you... I never want to lose you! She didn't say anything , just kept holding me tight...
after a while she quietly said:
- Hush-hush, I promise you will never lose me .
-I knew you won't listen, I knew you will come here... She said it like she wasn't mad but at the same time was tired of me.
- Don't try to run from me , it won't help... Just let me talk to you , let me know the truth , i wanna know what happened ...wanna know why you did it! I said it without even thinking... She looked in my eyes and quietly said:
- Come in.
I came in, sat on the chair and said:
- So, tell me what happened... I wanna know why you did it... Don't worry, i won't judge you , i just wanna know the truth, I want to understand what can i do then...
- Well... Listen, you are really good person and... I really feel like I fell in love... for the first time ever fell in love like that... With girl that i didn't even know for a long time... You gave me the chance to understand that to fall in love like that is actually possible but... Don't think , problem is actually not in you... The problem is in me... I am the problem...
- But why? Why would you think so ?If you really feel this way to me... Why would you do that? I hold my breath strong and asked her fast. She took my hand and held in hers...I swear, I had a goosebumps on my body... My heart was jumping as fast as it was at the first time I saw her... She suspended my thoughts by saying:
- I am not this person you are searching for... You deserve better...but, not me...
I stopped her and said:
- I am not searching for anybody and I don't need anybody... I don't need anybody else... I fell in love really for the first time ever, I've never felt this way before... I felt like you are not like others, you are special... And... I've never felt more comfortable with anybody like I felt with you! You know, if you would love me like you said , you would never do that! I yelled with tears in my eyes... and I was going to run away but she took my hand , stopped me and said:
- No, i really do but... I just don't want you to get a broken heart because of me , i love you! She held me tight... I cried and then said:
- I don't want to lose you... I never want to lose you! She didn't say anything , just kept holding me tight...
after a while she quietly said:
- Hush-hush, I promise you will never lose me .
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