Tada! Who wants to read Edward's Pov? 'Cause I decided to give you all a major insight into his mind for all your doubts!

Enjoy!

Author's Pov:

"How can you be so cruel to your own friend, Edward!" Mrs Jones glared menacingly at her son, who just stared at her blankly, his mind somewhere else.

"I'm talking to you, Edward!" Mrs Jones rubbed her temples to relieve some stress, before she sighed at her son. "I had never known I'd live to see a day where my own son would scam me for his selfish desires!"

"I apologized already Mom. I'm sorry-"

"You're sorry!? That's it!? Did you say this word to Emily!? Did you apologize to her properly after you played with her feelings all this time!? Did you even know how much that poor girl must be hurting playing the role of cupid for you and your stupid girlfr-" She sighed loudly and attempted to sit on a nearby chair, her heart beating wildly, her blood pressure rising rapidly. She clutched the dinning table for support, stumbling slightly when Edward ran towards her, gripping her shoulders and making her sit on the couch.

He poured her a glass of water, and unwrapped some medicines from the kitchen counter, bringing the pills close to his mother's mouth.

"I won't eat them! I'd rather die than live to face the humiliation of Mr and Mrs Willows broken hope! Throw these pills away-"

"Mom. It's not the time to be stubborn-"

"I'm being stubborn?! I? After what you did to all of us, you still don't see what you did wrong!? I'm utterly speechless for ever giving birth to the evil in the name of a son-"

"I know, Mom. I know I'm evil. Okay. I admit it. Now please eat these-" He held the pills once again close to her mouth but his mother swatted his hand away, looking anywhere but him.

"It's not good to play with your health-" Edward once again tried to feed her medicine but she looked at him, in sadness and desertion.

Her eyes watered a bit before tears started flowing down her almost aged face. She gripped her chest to ease her agony and roughly shoved Edward's hand away when he tried to rub her back to soothe her burning pain.

"I'm sorry, Mom. I'm really sorry. I promise I'll be a better son to you. I really do. Please don't be like this. Your health is falling down rapidly and if it continued like this-" He took her hands, and joined them together with his own. "Please Mom. I know I'm a horrible person. I know you regret giving me birth. I know you won't ever forgive me for what I did but please, do it all this when your health becomes better. You need to eat these-"

"How can I, Edward!?" She detached her hands from his grip and walked towards the window, stumbling sllghtly. "How can I get better on my own? How can I be selfish enough to ignore what you did to Emily and think of myself and my health?! That poor child didnt even utter a word, Edward! All this time she'd been suffering it all alone-"

Edward walked towards his mom. "But she agreed to all this, Mom. I never forced her into doing anything she never wanted to do-"

"How can I dare to get better when my heart is burning deep inside and that's all because my son never thought of his family before taking such a big step in his life alone! Did you never think how this would affect us!?

"I'm sorry-"

"You really don't value relationships, Edward. Not because you can't. You just choose not to. And that's why I won't be surprised if you lose your years long friendship over your stubborn-"

"I won't lose, Emily, Mom! How can you say it so easily like that!? Don't you know how much she means to me!? I'd never let her leave me! She's with me and will always be with me forever!" Edward shouted at his mom, his hands balled into fists before he placed a glass of water roughly on the sink, making it stagger around the corner and it fell on the tile floor with a loud clash, cold water spilling on the floor like a blood-bathed corpse.

Mrs Jones looked at her son with derision and contempt.

"You think she's some robot you can make to dance on your will? I never remember teaching you to treat girls like trash-"

"I don't treat her like a trash, Mom! She is my friend-"

"How can you just be friends with her after all this time!?" Mrs Jones shouted at her son, making Edward's eye widen an inch before he recovered and stood still in his place.

He opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came out except for the evidence of his doubtful mind not being able to form his feelings into words.

"How, Edward? Just how, sometimes I ask myself? I don't understand how this works anymore. I can't see anything which doesn't make Emily perfect for you, I admit she has her own flaws but" She glanced at Edward before continuing."Her flaws are nothing compared to what you did to her after being friends with her all your life."

Edward didn't say anything. He just stood in front of his mom, his eyes glued to the floor.

He was dying of guilt everyday as it was, did his mother need to remind him everyday what a horrible person he was?

He knew he messed up big this time, but it wasn't like he knew it was going to go the wrong way when he proposed her for that fake marriage!

He thought they'd never be discovered.

He thought he'd reamain married to her forever.

He thought he'd live as her husband forever, just as she'd live as his wife, till death do them apart.

To be honest, he wasn't even planning to divorce her anytime soon. After giving her divorce papers, signed by him, on her birthday, he literally forgot all about them.

If he had remembered about those damn papers anytime soon, he'd burned those a long time ago.

"I won't start mentioning everything she's ever done for you as I suppose you're more than aware of her empathetic side. I just want to ask this question which has been bugging me forever." She walked towards her son, and seeing his mother standing in front of him, Edward looked up.

"Why'd you do that?"

"I'm sorry..." Edward trailed off but one look at his mom made him shut up for once.

"Why'd you do that to Emily? Why her? Why did you use her? We thought you really loved her when you told us that you were marrying her. And the way she was blushing madly when you informed us, we didn't have any reason to doubt your intentions anymore. After all, love is something which can't be proven by actions so we trusted you with all our heart. But then-"

"I didn't mean to deceive you, Mom-"

"But you did exactly that! How can you lie to your own parents about your marriage!? How can you use your own friend for something ridiculous as that!? I can't believe Emily agreed to this stupid act! But then again, I'm sure the poor girl didn't even had time to refuse you, considering you must've forced her into this-"

"I didn't force her into anything Mom! I told you! She did everything on her own consent! How do you think she managed to marry me in front of the whole crowd if she wouldn't have agreed to all that in the first place!? You think I blackmailed her or something into marrying me!?"

"You shameless brat! How could she say no to your stupid requests? Did she ever refuse you anything!? Can you remember a single thing which she wasn't willing to share with you-"

He sighed loudly. "That's why I'm thankful she's my be-"

"Don't complete the word, Edward. Just don't! You don't deserve Emily as your friend. Let alone your best friend. As your mother, I feel no regrets in telling you I despise my own son for befriending a girl and making a total fool out of her feelings-"

"Not again. I told you, Mom, Emily doesn't hold any feelings for me-"

"How can you be so sure!? How do you know when you didn't even ask her anything about it-"

"I don't have to ask her anything about this! We're just best friends, Mom and best friends don't love each other! Atleast not like lovers!"

Mrs Jones glared at Edward. "You're delusional as always. Why do you think she agreed to this fake marriage when she didn't held any feelings for you? I'm a woman, a mother of yours, Edward. I can clearly see what she feels for my son and I'm glad she's the one who chose you first. Otherwise I had no hopes for you settling with any decent girl-"

"Emily didn't choose me, Mom. She loves someone else." Edward whispered, his eyes reflecting sadness.

Her eyebrows furrowed. "Who? Who does she love? I think you've misunderstood something-"

"It's Eric. It's always been him. In her heart. I saw it with my own eyes when she was writing a love letter to him." He looked at the floor, his shoulders slumped down in defeat."It was never me to begin with."

Mom's eyes softened a bit at her son's distant revelation. "Are you happy that she is in love with Eric then?"

His head snapped at his mother's direction, anger flashing in his eyes. "Why would I be happy for it?"

"Why not? Was she not happy for you when you told her you were in love with Lara?"

He looked hesitant for a moment before looking up at his mom's expectant face. "Yes. She was. She congratulated me for falling in love with an amazing person. I don't remember her ever talking ill of Lara so I assumed Emily must like her very much."

"See. You shared your happines with her. She willingly accepted to be a part of it. If you still don't know what it is, it's called friendship between two people. But can you ever be happy with her being with someone..."

"I'll try to be happy for her-" Edward started.

"...who's not you?" Mrs Jones completed her sentence, questioning her son to a very raging doubt in her mind.

"Trust me, Mom. I don't want to say it aloud but I'm not the one for her." He looked at his mother's eyes, trying to convey his thoughts. "Yet I don't like her with someone else. Anyone else, to be honest. I think I'm just overprotective, that's it. And I'm willing to change myself for Emily if she'd want me to. I just don't want her to-"

"Leave you? Ever?" Mrs Jones asked, eyeing her son warily.

Edward nodded in approval, running his hands through his hairs in anxiety.

"Why? Because she's your best friend? Because best friends are supposed to be with each other all their life? Because you think she can't be with any other man who's not you but you can be with any woman, not applying your rules of friendship on yourself? Why-"

"It's difficult to explain, Mom. I can't say it in words."

"Why not in words, Edward? Why can't you see her in love with Eric? For what seems like misunderstanding on your part, I must say if Eric were to be with Emily, she'd be very happy in her life. He treats her like a girl she was, like a woman she is now and I'm sure in the future..." She glanced at Edward before continuing."If they ever get married and have children..." Edward shifted uncomfortably in his position, closing his eyes shut in annoyance, his face burning red as his hands gripped the kitchen counter for support.

"...He'd shower all his love, effort and time to keep Emily and his family happy, not sparing anyone who'd dare to hurt his wife, not anyone." She repeated as she walked towards Edward and gripped his shoulders tightly, making him look into her eyes. "Because that's how a man loves a woman. His woman. And that's how the woman knows she can't be with anyone else, but him."

For a moment, he was flabbergasted, not being able to say anything as a comeback.

Mrs Jones patted her son's shoulders as an approval of the reaction he showed to her words. "That'd be better for all of us, including you, if Emily marries Eric. I should've known better to not let her marry you in the first place. I should've known she's in love with someone else. I should've known better."

She smiled a little. "How silly of me to assume Emily was in love with you! How can she be in love with someone like you? How can she be? After all, you don't love her, as you say yourself-"

"I never said anything like that-"

"But you always made it seem otherwise!"

"How can I love Emily, Mom? She is my friend. It'd feel awkward between us-"

"Yeah. You're right. It'd indeed feel awkward. And as you're my son and she's my desired daughter-in-law, I had to make things right for both of you, after all that shit you made her go through."

Mrs Jones picked her phone from the table and dialed a number, waiting for the user to pick the call.

"What're you doing, mom?"

"I'm calling the one person who can make everything go right back to normal."

Edward narrowed his eyebrows."Who?"

"Why dear, Eric, of course. After all, someone has to be by Emily's side to give her a shoulder to cry. And as you've mentioned, she's in love with him, she'd love to spend some quality time with him. That would soothe her bruised heart and maybe, she'd be able to forgive you for making her do something she-"

"No! Don't call Eric! He'd make everything difficult for both of us."

After keeping her phone down, Mom frowned at Edward. "Why? Can things get anymore diificult between both of you than they are now?"

"No... But.. He..."

"If you can't be the man Emily wants you to be, then let someone else take your place, Edward. You can't keep her in shade forever. She needs to have her own happiness in life-"

"I'll give her everything, Mom! Anything she'd want from me! I told you I'm willing to change for her!"

"Anything?"

"Yes! Anything!"

"Then for God's sake don't ever meet her again and leave her to herself. This is the best and least you can do for her. And for yourself too. She needs time to recover which you aren't willing to give to her! She'd kill herself in frustration if you continued to push her like this!"

"I'm giving her time, Mom! Can't you see!? It's been fucking three months since I last saw her face! I am dying to see her, it kills me everyday not to talk to her, not to share my day with her, it hurts like hell here!" His hand curled into fists and he bumped his fist twiceon his chest. "Here it hurts so much! I'm in pain and I don't know what to do anymore. If I knew I'd end up pushing her away from me like this, I'd never have asked her to marry me! Never!" He slid down the wall slowly, as his legs gave up due to agony and pressure and he buried his face into his knees.

"I miss her so much that I'm afraid I'd forget her face someday if I don't see her anytime soon. I regret proposing her that day so much I want to kill myself over and over again for making her go through all that! Do you think I enjoyed signing the divorce papers!? Do you think I loved giving those fucking legal rag to her on her birthday when I came home after fucking my girlfriend on her(Lara) birthday!?"

Mrs Jones looked at her child with sympathy. "Edward..."

"No! I didn't! I didn't enjoy breaking her heart! I realised on the first week of our marriage that it had been so wrong of me to push her into my business. I felt guilty. But I coudn't do anything after seeing it had been too late for everything. I had to go on with Emily as my life partner. But you know what!? I didn't feel one bit awkward about all that! You know that husband-wife thing?! It was as if it was natural between us. I didn't even have to pretend to like her as a wife! With Emily by my side, everyday became so peaceful for a moment I forgot she wasn't meant to be married to me for real!"

"Then why did you take such a big step in life, Edward? Why did you let her go?"

Edward's eyes glistened with moisture as he swallowed a lump in his throat. "She was the best wife any man could ever ask for. And I realised she wasn't meant to be with me. I forced her to do it for me, and she did it just as I asked. She didn't complain one bit. And once again, I realised she'd never be mine. I always put her around with my silly requests and my selfishness grew everyday as she continued to give and give and give everything to me."

"I became greedy for her and it scared the shit out of me. That wasn't meant to happen. I thought she's never forgive me if she knew what I thought of her. She hates being treated like woman. I want so badly to treat her like one. I really do. Sometimes she makes me lose all my self-control, it makes me go crazy for her. And I don't want to hurt her. I'd never live a day if something happens to her because of me."

"It all happened so fast in me but I can't see her with any man but I can't tell her the truth. She thinks I am possessive and jealous, and I'm glad even after all this, she never left me for some stupid man to live her own life."

He looked at her mom. "We are supposed to be together forever. Mom. I won't ever let her leave me in between like this. You know how much I value her."

"Yet you don't love her?" Mom asked, now caressing her son's hair in pity and affection.

"I don't know. It's difficult."

"How can you not know, Edward? It's so clear to all of us that you do. Then why do you keep on denying it"?"

"I can't, Mom. You have to understand that."

"Why not? Emily loves you fine then why can't you?"

"She doesn't love me, Mom! How many times would you make me say it with my own mouth!?"

"Unless you say you care who she loves or spends her life with!"

"I do! I admit I care! A lot! Dammit! I also admit I don't like her looking at some other guy as a man! And I most definitely don't like her having a crush on Eric, though he is my cousin-"

"Why?"

"I don't know! It just happened that way. I don't know when. I don't know why!"

"Doesn't it hurt when she looks at Eric that way, and not at you?"

Edward leaned her head against the wall, his eyes now swollen red with unshed moisture. "You've no idea."

Mrs Jones shook her head in disappointment. "How can you be not in love with her, after all these years of being with her?"

"Don't ask me. It just happened that way."

"Nothing happnes without a reason, Edward. You're scared to love her, why don't you admit it already? You're scared she knows you as the back of her hand, that she might betray you and leave you for someone else-"

"Emily will never leave me-"

"She already did. You may not realise it now but it's already too late to bring her back. You were also his best friend, Edward. Why do you think she isn't picking up your calls and replying your texts? Shouldn't she be missing you as much as you're missing her? Shouldn't she be trying to contact you as much as you have tried contacting her for months? It all means she has moved on. From you. Your friendship. Her fake marriage. Everything. And I'll be glad if she could go back to being her normal self-"

"No! Why'd she move on? She has me-"

"I'm not sure if she'd want to be with you now, Edward. Take my advise. Move on yourself. Give both of you time and go on your own ways-"

"Hell No! What're you saying, Mom? How can I live without her!? She's a part of my life, how can I ever go on without her being my side!? How can you even say that-" Hurriedly, he stood up in rage, his eyes slightly widened in awe and realisation before he almost ran towards his room and picked up his coat from the closet, wearing it in haste.

Fumbling slighly with the contents of the table, he managed to get hold of his car's key, stuffing it messily in his pocket while Mrs Jones watched her son's sudden change in behaviour with confusion.

"Where're you going, Edward?"

As if brought back to earth, he looked up to stare at his mother with determination in his eyes. "To bring Emily back."

He didn't wait for her response, as he strode towards the door, turning the doorknob.

"Wait! You can't go there like this! Her parents still haven't forgiven you for what you did. They'll never let you have around their daughter again! Let it rest for some more time and then we can all go together and beg for their forgiveness."

Edward turned around a little, to face his Mom, his hand gripping the doorknob tightly, before he turned it around and the door opened with a soft click. "I don't care. I'm ready to face everything now. I want Emily back in my life, and I'll do anything to make her forgive me. She isn't going to live her life without me and I'm not going to let her have someone..." He turned around to face his mother. "...who is not me."

When he took one step out of his house, he stopped abruptly and furrowed his eyebrows too to see his mother gripping his hands in worry.

"I'll be fine, Mom. Don't worry about me."

"But do you... I mean are you really going to... profess your love for her?"

"No. I'm going to make her realise she doesn't need to be loved by me to live her life with me."

Mom sighed in defeat. "Edward, on the contrary, she needs to be loved by you to live her life with you."

"The world says a guy and a girl can't be just friends. But me and Emily have already contradicted this saying for twenty years now. Whoever still holds this view, I'll prove them wrong-"

"What about Emily then? What do you think she'll feel about all this?"

"She doesn't have to feel anything. She just needs to return back to her normal self and we can solve the rest from there."

"A woman wants to be loved by a man, Edward. I know it's not easy to love someone but if you believe in that person, they can be the only reason you'd want to live one more day of your boring life."

"I know. It's not easy. But for me, it's complicated. I'm ready to give her everything, anything she would ever want from me, so that she'd never miss something as small as love in her life."

"Love is not small, Edward. Never underestimate it. You don't know how much it can hold power over you. It can make you turn something you'd never want yourself to turn into!"

"I don't love her! I don't need to! Is it necessary to love everyone I want in my life!? Is it now, Mom!?"

Mrs Jones eye's widened with surprise."You don't?"

"Yes! I don't love Emily Jone-Willows! That's it! End of the conversation! I want her back just as a longtime friend! We are friends! Nothing more. Nothing less. And we can never be anything more!"


*banging my head repeatedly against the kitchen counter*

*shoving Edward's ass in boiling milk*

*making him do pole dance on fully mature cactus*

*burning his sorry ass in a volcano and making potato chips out of it*

*making him apologize to Emily over and over again*

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Bah! You shouldn't have updated 'cause this chapter reminded me of my hatred for Edward and now I really want to kill him so much!? *cracks knuckles*

I expected something like this was from Edward from the start! He is the most inconsiderate jerk ever!?

I actually love Edward. I mean he is honest and everything and atleast he is not like those men who pretend to love someone to have them! If he doesn't love Emily, he doesn't lie about it!?

I still ship Emily and Edward?

I want Emily with someone else now? Please!?

I want Edward to suffer a lot, like hell, he should rot in heaven before he ever gets to have Emily?

Are you satisfied even a little with this update?

⏭It's kinda awkward writing man's words lol but I'm glad I wrote Edward's thought.

Maybe if I practised a little, I'd end up writing Edward's POV in later chapters, or as a bonus chapter!

Depends on if you guys would like me to write it or not, of course!

Anyway, why do you think Edward is being like this?

What is going on his mind?

Is it any reason he is not wanting to love Emily? Or he just doesn't want to? Like he finds her ugly and unattractive and not up-to his taste?

*burns his tongue with phenol*

What do you think will happen in the upcoming chapters now? Will everything really go back to being normal? Or will someone has to take a courageous step to confess to someone?

Maybe Emily?

Just saying though. Can be Edward also.

So it feels kinda refreshing to write again after a long time. After 9 months!

Though I updated a new book "Half hope, half love"

and most of you haven't read it yet.

It's OK, I don't mind much, I just wanted to remind you all, no pressure cause it's strictly exam time and I wouldnt want you to lose your grades just because of my stupid request.

Read it in your free time. Good luck with your exams.

I also have my exams due on May and I had been so much stressed because of them that I haven't studied a word since January

Like I studied my butt off without sleeping a wink and now when the final showdown is around the corner, I am very nervous.

I think I have cold feet.

It's my first attempt at NEET. People take 3-4 years and 4-5 attempts to qualify it and that's why I am not confident enough that I would be able to do it in first attempt!

I really need to study. I want to. But I can't. That's why I came to wattpad to get some fresh air and I am so happy to meet my old friends here!

I chatted with some of them and I loved to share a lot with them!

I think it will be my last update till May or June.

But will you be waiting for the next update? *winks like mosquito*

Qyestion of the day:

Do you watch K dramas? If yes, then which is your favourite one?

If you don't, you should really want some kdramas! They are the good stress-relivers and I learn a lot from them.

Anyone would want to recommend me some good kdramas?

And I am also happy you people actually took time to read my ridiculous interview.

I wanted to write something, almost I decided to write further in my interview, Part 2, but then I decided I would give you all a new chapter rather than babbling about my boring life!

Word Count: 4891

*picks my fallen fingers from the ground and sew them back up with my teeth*

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Ritika❤