Emily's POV:

I felt horrible and disgusting. I closed my ears,trying to stuff pillow but to no vain. Man, Edward really had some balls to have sex with Lara when I was in the next room. The walls were much of a negative soundproof than I could ever comprehend. I closed my eyes, trying to sleep but Lara was moaning literally loud, I had to bit my lips to stop myself from shouting at her. I knew Edward was experienced in this field, but did she really need to make it this obvious. Damn her!!

I sighed. It was always there. That hopelessness. It comes and goes but it will never leave me.

I was always a happy go lucky girl, some called me goody two shoes,some tomboy, some Nerd and some boy,but I was okay.

I have already been okay with everything in my life because I didn't think I deserve to complain. I was high spirited,boisterous,fierce,loud-mouthed, mature from outside but from inside,I was always scared.

Scared of losing.

I lost my grandparents. And then my father.

People say You only have one dad and one mom.

I guess I realised its meaning little too early at my tender age of 13 when I lost my father in car accident, when he was chasing terrorists. He was a martyr and I am so proud of him. Though mom say I look a lot like him, I couldnt help but miss him. If he were here, he would always make my day by telling me about Police stuffs, fighting,dodging,firing,escaping and much more. He was the one who taught me martials, though I wasn't good at it from start, I eventually pulled it off,by practising on Edward. Heh. He really was the only one who accepted me with my flaws,even encouraging me to go with what I want in life. I didn't know at what point I fell for him but what I know is I love him.

And I don't regret it.

Though I don't deserve his love. That's the reason I Never told him about my feelings. That thought of being rejected was there but mostly of my worthiness, was more important. I knew I could never be anything which Lara was. I can't give him what she can give.

His happiness. Hey,I didn't even have a chance against it.

I walked to my corner of the room and opened up the curtains. Soft breeze caressed my cheeks,flushing them. It was spring season. I was never a season freak. I loved all the seasons and treated them as my friends thats why when one season goes, I kinda feel sad. I zipped open my suitcase and took the photo of my father, placing it carefully on the side desk of my bed.

How I really want to be like him! . I always wished to die like my dad,doing something big for someone. He did it for our country. And I did the same. By becoming a doctor. I will be joining hospital in months!

I went downstairs to do the dishes,Miranda had already cleaned the tables where we ate our dinner. It was awkward to eat with her but Lara was friendly. That's what I like about her. Sometimes, I am proud that Edward found such a dream girl for himself. I smiled remembering the times when we would play all day, doing all sorts of pranks that were ever invented or discovered.

I turned on the tap,cold water tingling my senses. Wearing gloves,I started to wash the plates when I felt moisture on my arms. I quickly looked up only to see ceiling, covered with glasses. I turned the tap off.

"Honey,what happened? Why are you crying?",Miranda said,her eyes glistening with concern,cloth on Her hands to help me clean the kitchen.

My head quickly snapped. I looked at her in confusion before placing my hands slowly over my face,as if I were afraid of the truth and reality. I felt moisture,the salt and water on my tongue,making my senses go numb.I quickly wiped them away.

I really was crying?

"I am? Was I crying? You mean when I had chilly peppers on my eyes accidently while washing the plates? Oh Miranda, you know today's stew was spicy, you said so yourself. It's burning when you pointed it out. Here. Let me.. ",I opened the tap, splashing water on my face, "wash my face. Here, see I am fine as sunshine",I said, spinning Once to show I was alright everywhere.

Miranda nodded and it took actually a lot of time to convince her of my well being. I wiped my face off towel, my eyes red with prolonged moisture. I completed washing rest of dishes and headed to my room to take keys of my car. I will stay at Mia's today.

It was already past 3 when I reached and Mia went into fist of maniaism upon seeing me at such hour. She thought I was robbed or something. I never told her the reason.

What! I was fine this way.

We slept on the same bed,chatting about our school days. Yeah, I miss them. We all miss them.

I woke up,rays of sun falling on my eyes. It was 6 am.After doing my daily routine, I went down to make us strawberry fruitshake. I was craving for something sweet.

As I was about to drink it, the door opened and someone dragged me by my shirt to their lawn, like literally dragged me to their lawn. I cried, screamed, screeched, but to no avail. modern day people are not of morning types I guess. Anyway, I continued to scream.

"Shout one more time and I will gift your lungs to this nation",they said, rather harshly.

I turned my head to see.. Jake. That son of a bull. I kicked him hard on his butt, he fell face on his stomach in his lawn, mud splattered on his face.

You messed with the wrong girl, Hah! My karate pose.

"Hey, I was just trying to have a conversation with you",Jake said, rising from the mud.

"You literally dragged me,jake.!! I am sorry to break it you, and to your picometer Brain,Mr Anderson but in my dictionary, having a conversation means actually speaking with your mouths, not dragging the other by their shirts",I barked at him, patting my shirt clean of creases.

"I was going to talk.. After dragging you of course. I didn't want Mia to know that I needed your help thats why I was borrowing You secretly",He said in his defence.

I urged him to continue. We sat in his room and he actually offered me a drink. Oh no! He is going to ask for something big.

"Emily,I want you to know that I always considered You as a potential friend,a best buddy, a nice partner in crime and a cool -"

"Get To the point already before I gift your tongue to this nation",I said.

"iwanttoapologizetomia"

"What? I am afraid I didn't hear-"

"Okay. I will say it once more. I want..to.. Apologize.. To.. Mia",he said, his head actually hung low in guilt.

"For what? ",someone said.

We turned our heads to see Mia standing at the door,her eyes glistening with tears.

Oh no! That isn't good.

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