June
Selfishness
The Charming Man Part One
The Charming Man part two (end)
My racer
June
June you told me it's your birthday you didn't say anything else but i know what i should do it's the first week of my first semester but your school is still closed but i managed to  Goodbye to first bless you, I spent days looking for a song that was always with you for a long time to get Mr.perfectly.  fine it works for you I don't know if you listen to it or not i loaded it in the car before sending it to you so hope you like it tuesday 2 i drew a picture for you all night  Well, I've never liked to draw a picture, but I drew it for you. Midnight and the picture wasn't finished yet. The green and orange colors started to paint over the letters I wrote. I think you  I didn't really like it but it was the first time I ever sent it to a guy I had a crush on. I never wanted to do this to anyone, but this time I took the risk, no matter how painful it was.  Even if there is a river in front of me, I will swim to reach the other side. Wednesday June 3 I think you haven't woken up yet. Our time is too far apart. You're sleeping but I'm still studying.  For a while, I came out of the room to take a clear picture for you. All messages want you to know that they are from the heart, not taken from the Internet. I waited all day for messages so that  Waiting for you to reply in the end 16.00 You reply saying

:thank you very much🎉🎉

Me:Tell you what are you going to do today? (Want me to mention)

You said: I'm going to hang out with my friends and celebrate at a local restaurant.  (secret tears)

I replied: ok good luck °-°

I didn't ask you if you played the music, but I'm still waiting for you to send me a picture of your birthday tonight, but it's been a day since we didn't talk to each other.  So sorry for doing that, maybe my heart is showing too much, this is the year I think is the best. June last year has never made my heart excited like this before. The heat has come.  Burning outside the glass, the cold is no more until you walk in. This month is another special month when someone's birthday is on my calendar.  Is it important to me or not? Think for yourself. The person driving and smiling at the person who plays the same song over and over until my friends say change, please!! Someone I gave my whole heart to by  Don't look carefully so you don't have to be sad like this alone again.

It's been half a month and a few weeks until my birthday, I can't ask you or anyone to wish me a gift, it's been put on the box again, I'm the one who dusted it off instead of letting it go.  Throw it away but I still keep it. Some people say that the old story will keep it in my brain. Why do I still think it's bad but it's still beautiful?  Always, even if it's old or many years ago, but I still remember it very well. Some good stories I will remember well, no matter how many people pass by.  But I still feel that we are still by my side as before. Day 29 has come and gone over the past few weeks, I still think you will text me even though I  I won't send it to you but wait and wait. You won't send it. Don't make me like a madman who keeps checking my phone all the time. Like every breath I breathe is your name Tuesday.  i woke up this morning to check my phone but no sign of unloved since then i never texted you again maybe sorry i text you everyday today you should at least send a stick  I'll be happy to have a cake. Sleep well. I prepared a cake for everyone to join.  I should be delighted to everyone who attended and focused on what was in front of me and my brain was waiting for the phone to ring for what, the party had begun, the music was turned up, everyone looked good.  But I sat there frowning until my parents asked me what was wrong. I walked out and told myself I wouldn't talk to you again and looked down at the picture I just took in the red Mi-patterned shirt.  The mickey mouse I was waiting to wear on my birthday but it didn't look right for me. Today the event ended with a numb and sad feeling inside, but had to hold back a smile. Everyone dispersed but I returned in  I'm alone in the room, I sit and think about everything that has happened in my life, listen to sad songs and have a good mood. What will your eyes look like when you look at the pictures I sent you, like the eyes that look at you?  Can the plain, sad eyes that look at me still be able to fix it and change it...
© Jarida Nalisa,
книга «Two distance».
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