Do you know what is love? I didn't know. And I didn't want to know. I had no time for this stupid things like the love. I had to work and learn. Or I would lost in the world. I have some dream, but it wasn't the love. But then why I met with him?

It's a good question right now, when I stand here, and see the plane. The plane which take my smile, my laugh, my world, my lips, my eyes, my shoulders and my everything away. I cry. I miss him so much, and I want to go with him. The only problem with this: I'm not famous but he is.
So I have to wait. Wait for him. But it isn't healthy.

I didn't want to fall in love.

"I hate Toronto." I say under my nose.

The plane now is so far, but I can't go. How can I go, when my heart is on the plane which go another place?

"The time is running." Says my best friend when she steps my right side. "You blink two, and he will be here." Locks me in her embrace.

I look into her eyes and blink two.

"Where is he?" I ask.

I know it's childish, but I tried to make a joke of this situation.

"Darlin'." She smile, but I know it isn't a happy smile.

"I miss him." I drill my head into her chest like a little kid.

"I know Sage, but you can talk with each other on your phone. You know. Skype, internet, facebook, instagram and so on."

"You are right." Take a big breath."But it's really hurt.

"I know Sage." Her voice is so sad too. "Come. We are going home and night we are going to go to a party."

"You know that I don't like parties."

"Yes, but you are sad, so I don't let you alone in your house with your love problem."

Her words makes me happier and I can't don't smile.

"I love you Carin. But I wouldn't be alone. My parents and my sister and my brother are at home." I say and follow her to the exit.

"I love you too." She says with a big and beautiful smile. "And I know that you wouldn't be alone, but I know you too. So I know that if you go home now, you will go to your room, close the door and look out the window."

I stop. She knows me too well and it's scary. But it's good too. Now I don't need a party. I need my best friend. And I have to tell it for her.

"Carin, I don't want to go to a party. I need you. I don't need some young adult who drinking until they can't walk."

She takes a big breath but in her eyes I see that she understands me.

"Okay." She says. "Then we are going to you, watching movie and eating some unhealthy food and talking with Shawn, when he calls you up and then we sleeping until noon tomorrow."

I let go a smile and look at her greatfully.

"Thank you." I say.

"That's what are friends for."

Okay, Shawn went to his tour, but I have never been a girl, who cry for a boy. I miss him so much, but it isn't the end of our love. We are together and he will come home. And lately I can go with him if I have enough money. So now I will work and live my life and my distance love. It's hurt, but I won't give up. I will fight for my love. And I will be happy. It's a nice thought. The only problem whit this is that I see Shawn everywhere. And then I didn't say the memories yet. Those beautiful but painful memories. Is one of my favorites memories. Memories where it all started...