"Sage, I have to ask something." He stepped front of me after the massage.

"Something wrong?" I asked fearing.

"No." He smiled. "Do you go on a date with me?" He smoothed out a curl from my face.

"Yes." I said with a big smile. "Yes of course Shawn." I kissed his face.

He hugged me with all of love and I was no longer afraid of the feelings I had from him. Honestly I loved this feelings and I didn't want to let it go.

I know I said that I didn't want to fall in love and it's true, but Shawn showed me something beautiful with his love.

"Sweetheart are you here?" Asks Shawn.

"Yes. Sorry I just remembered the day when you asked if I'd date you." I say and I slip into my pants. "I see you everywhere all day." I look at him on the facetime.

"I see you too." He says. "I miss you."

I try to be strong because I know Shawn has a conscience for having to leave here. I don't want this because I want he to enjoy his tour.

"I miss you too, but you will come home soon and then we will be together." I look into his eyes.

"I know, but I worried about you."

"Don't have to. I'm fine. And your last concert in the Rogers Center I will be with you. We have to hold on. It's just a month."

"More than a month." He says.

"I know. But we can meet in the meantime. For example in your birthday. You know." I smile.

He laughs and for this beautiful sound the cold shakes me but in the good sense.

While we talk I'm ready for the party. He tells me what happened to him today and I tell to him what happened with me.

"You are beautiful." He says when I'm ready. "Take good care of yourself please."

"Thank you." I say and my face become red. "Take care. I promise."

"Sage." Knocks on my door Carin. "I'm here. Can we go?"

"A moment." I say to her. "I have to go." Look into Shawn eyes. "I love you."

"I love you too. I'll call you later." He sends a kiss.

"Okay, Bye My Love." I send a kiss for him too.

"Bye Sweetheart."

                              ***

When we step into the house my teeth shake because of the loud music.

"Let's start the party." She says and start out to the kitchen.

I follow her with a big breath. I want to enjoy this party.

We talk with other, drink and dance for hours. And Carin and Josh are so cute together. Josh loves Carin I see it in his eyes. Shawn look at me same.

"They are sweet." Steps on my side Travis.

"Yes." I smile.

Travis Josh's best friend and he is quite sympathetic to me. A little embarrassed because I don't reciprocate his feelings because I don't cheat on Shawn. Nevertheless, I like travis as a friend so I like talk with him.

"And how are you?" He asks me.

"Fine." I look at him. "And you?"

"Fine." He smiles.


But the fate intervenes. I start to tremble and get dizzy and get terrible nausea.

"I'm sorry." I say and then I start out to the bathroom.

I'm not okay. Something really wrong with me. When I get to the bath, I have to release the contents of my stomach.

I think I'm sick. I have to go home, but I don't want to leave here Carin alone.

"Sage." I hear Carin's voice. "Are you okay? Travis said you ran up."

"Ye...yes I'm fine, just..."

"No, you are not fine." She breaks me off. "Come I take you home." Helps me stand up.

"But Josh..."

"Josh worried about you." Breaks me off again. "And you are my best friend. I help you." She hugs me.

"Thank you." I hide to her. "I love you."

"I love you too."

I hate myself because of that, but I'm really awful.

"I'm sorry." I whisper.

"Don't." She says and helps me to her car.

I sit into the car and close my eyes waiting for the sweet embrace of dreams. And I hope this dreams will be about of Shawn.