Who knew that love could be this complicated? For the first time in my life I feel so drawn to someone who's so close but yet so far, even though jade and I aren't the best of friends I can't betray her. I thought of quitting the job just to get away from the drama but it wouldn't solve anything even if I tried.
Ever since I had the conversation with David he's been distant and it hurts so much, I know it's what's best for all of us but I've never felt this lonely. Whatever it is that he told his fiancée worked and I've never seen them closer and happier than ever and as much as I would love to say I'm relieved that this has come to an end I can't when my heart is breaking into pieces day by day.

All my life I've always wanted to be in control, independent and never let emotions get the best of me, work hard and have nothing to worry about but work. Romance is something that never crossed my mind, after what happened between my parents I pushed love aside and only watched it from a distance and laughed at anyone who claimed to be in love, to me love was a myth, a metaphor something you only see in romantic movies and novels never did I ever think it would knock me down so hard and leave me broken and hopeless.

Seeing David every day to work and not saying anything to him hurts me so much, silence is the worst thing that can happen between two people.
These past weeks have not been easy for me and neither has been the decision that I've made and hope to never regret in the future. Signing the resignation letter felt like a hard pill to swallow but it's for the my best as well as David's, the moment you decide to break down your walls something's going to shake you and wipe you off like a strong hurricane, why does love have to be this hard? A tear rolled down my eye. Signing this letter felt like writing a heart breaking letter, as soon as I finished I rushed to get my things and burst into tears the moment I entered my car. It wasn't easy saying goodbye to everyone at work, they've been so kind to me and I've learned so much more than just work from them, they've been like family and I couldn't ask for more, saying farewell to David would have been the hardest thing and I would probably be shaken in his presence but I'm glad he was not at the office.
I called mom to let her know I was coming, at least been around them would give me the feeling of relief and hopefully I can find the old Adeline. I'm sure by now he must have read the letter I left in office right in the spot he only knows,,, I thought to myself as I looked out the window hoping he would show up like most guys do in romantic movies when they hear the girl they love is about to leave.
(scoffs) what a joke, what am I thinking? Why would he come looking for me when he's busy planning his wedding. I don't hold any grudge against him if anything I'm grateful for all the experiences I've had with him good or bad, all this while I thought I'd found the one even if it wasn't true, it felt good to play pretend sometimes even though the consequences were much more painful.
I locked the door and put my suitcases in the trunk and I kept looking at the end of the driveway hoping David's car would appear, I thought of calling him but that would be too silly of me when I know too well that he asked me to keep my distance , what would I get from it anyway? I got into the car and drove away guess this is it and there's no looking back.