Jackie is calling again, oh God.

"What Jackie?" I asked angrily.

"Ray mom is bad, come home." he said frightened.

"What is wrong? I can't now." I said.

"Why you can't? You always can't. What are you doing? Drinking?" he said.

"Shut up." I said.

"Heartless." said Jackie and hung up on me.


I decided to go to home, but when I reached I couldn't get in and when I wanted to leave again my dad angrily opened the door and started to shout at me.


"Ray! Where have you been? Do you know what the time is? Almost midnight." he said angrily.

"I am not in that mood to listen to your speeches dad, I am going to sleep." I said.

"Your mom felt bad, but I am sure you weren't interested in it." my dad said wounded.

"No dad, sorry." I said and left.


Jackie was sitting in the living-room. I was ashamed of looking at him.

When I finally reached my bedroom someone got in. It was Jackie.


"How can you do this to us?" Jackie asked.

"What do you want Jackie? Just leave me." I said.

"You don't go to college, you don't attend classes, you are always late and drunk. Give up living without sense Ray, please." said Jackie and left with tears in his eyes.


And however I tried to sleep I couldn't. I was sunk in thoughts. Why hadn't I told my dad that I love him? I love my mom, I love Jackie, I love them all.

Why do Jackie have to live in such atmosphere because of me? Who am I?

I want to change all my life, I have to be changed, I can't continue my miserable life, I can't hurt my parents and Jackie anymore.

Why Edward? I miss you. I miss all your useful advice, all our done things together. Why is everything so hard?

I want to come back to my old life. I will go to college tomorrow.

I went.
"Ray?" asked Mark. He was so surprised.

"Yes Mark, it's me." I said and smiled.

"I can't believe you are here." he said.

"I am here and I will be here, will you accompany me?" I asked.

"Sure. Let's go." he said.


And we went to the auditorium.

When we entered everyone was amazed. I greeted them. The lecturer was surprised too.


"Hello Ray!" she said.

"Hello Mrs." I said.

"Nice to meet you here." she said surprisingly.

"Thank you Mrs." I said.


"Ok students," she said, "today a new student will join your group. I hope you will welcome her with love."


Two hours later the lecturer entered with a newcomer. She was very beautiful and a little frightened.

"Introduce yourself Belle." said the lecturer.

"I am Belle, nice to meet you all. I am from Leeds. I have removed to London because my elder sister was suggested a good job here." said Belle.

"Take care of her students. You can get acquainted." said the lecturer and left.


"Hello."

"Hi Belle."

"What's your name?" she asked.

"I am Ray." I said.

"Good name, nice to meet you." she smiled and went.

I saw something in her eyes, sorrow maybe or happiness I don't know. But there is something, a deep, an invisible spirit of something.

She greeted everyone. The lecturer came again. Hours later we went home.