In the morning I was so happy. She wanted to go for a walk with me. I would see her face again, I would listen her voice again, I would look at her green eyes again, I would feel again, feel again happiness.
I went to her house to take her. We went to a beautiful garden. We both had never been there before.

''This garden is very beautiful, isn’t it? '' Belle asked.

''Yes, the garden is beautiful, but here is something more beautiful.'' I said.

''What is it?'' she asked.

''You!'' I said.

''Oh, thank you.'' she said and smiled.

But really, she was so beautiful, so beautiful with the sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was so beautiful with her ability to make me smile, I found light in her smile, I found my cure in her smile. I found me.

''Ray!'' she said. ''What is happiness for you?''

''This moment,'' I said,'' and for you?''

''Don’t know, I haven’t felt happiness for a long time.'' she said.

''Why?'' I asked.

''My parents died in a car accident years ago and I live with my elder sister. I don’t know why, but she has always blamed me for it. I know it was hard for her, now is hard too. I have always looked for something which would make me happy, and now too. Even if I get hurt, I want to try it. As far as I can go, I want to go, to go and find my happiness.'' said Belle.

''Sorry.'' I said.

''No, everything is okay. '' she said.

''I don’t want you to be sad, because you have got a beautiful smile, very beautiful. I will help you to find your happiness, I promise.'' I said.

''Thank you Ray, you are a good boy.'' said Belle.

''Thank you.'' I said and smiled.

We were walking side by side. It was so good, so fantastic.

''Would you like to come here again?'' I asked.

''Yes, I like everything here. I will keep it in my memory wherever I go.'' she said.

''We will come here again and again, I promise.'' I said.

She smiled.

''My sister is calling me, it is too late, we have to go.'' said Belle.

''Of course, let’s go.'' I said.

We went.

I thought it was time to be happy again. I didn’t want to feel empty inside anymore. I wanted to make her happy, because with her smile mine was  complete. I loved her, loved every moment spent with her. I just understood what love really was. It was kind, patient and it was mine.

The next day I called her. I dared because I needed to listen to her voice.

''Hello Belle.''

''Hi Ray.''

''How are you?''

''Fine, what about you?''

''Fine, thank you.''

''The garden has called me, she wants us to go to her.''

She laughed.

''I see,'' she said, ''tell the garden that I agree.''

''Okay.'' I said and we laughed.  

I thought to take flowers with me, because love is like a flower, we have to let it grow.

I was waiting for her. I thought to tell her about my love, but I was afraid it might be the end of our good acquaintance. She came.

''Hi'' she said. I smiled.

''Why are you smiling?'' she said and smiled.

I gave her the flowers and said.

''Belle, I want to tell you something. I love you. I know you'll find it hard to believe me if I tell you now how much you mean to me. I could hardly understand what I feel for you, knowing how to endure those long sleepless nights just thinking only of you. There is nothing more valuable for me than my love, you. You are my life, my entire world, my everything. You are the one that I want, the one that I need. I love that feeling I get when I see your smile, when I hear your voice or when I see the shine of your green eyes. You are my first thought when I wake up and the last thought before I fall asleep. I don’t want you to be shy or to feel bad. I just wanted to tell you that you are in my heart. If we can’t be together, I just want you to keep me in your heart, I will stay there forever.''      
There were tears in her eyes, but her eyes were smiling too. She looked at me.

''Thank you for that beautiful words. No one ever told me such words before. I just can’t tell you anything now. Sorry, but I want to go.'' she said and went.

I thought everything was finished, I lost her.

I was wandering. I didn’t know where to go and I went to him.

''I have promised to come back Edward. I am sad my friend, maybe you know why. I wish you were with me now. I miss you.''

Hours passed and I went home. I didn’t want to do anything.

My life had been better since the day I found Belle, but it was like I lost her again. I just wanted to hug her, nothing more.

5 days passed and I had no news from her. I wanted to call Alex for going to drink and suddenly I received an sms.

''Come to our garden.'' It was from Belle.

It was a cold rainy day. I was running to her. It was pouring with rain.

I saw her. She came, hugged me and said.

''I like autumn. I like being wet from walking out in the rain all day. I like being lost in mist like I want to be lost in your eyes every minute. I like when wind blows through my hair and touches me, because it's like you are taking me far away from this world. I like everything in autumn: sitting in the dark and listening to the silence, watching stars and thinking about you. I just love it, like I love you, I love you Ray.''

I thought I was in a dream. I didn’t want to open my eyes, because I thought I wouldn’t see that wonder.

''Thank you Belle, thank you for being in my mind and in my heart. Thank you for just being in me. I will not ever let you down, I promise.'' I said.

''Do you know Ray? It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign or just greet you behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in mud only yesterday, has suddenly blossomed, everything changes.'' said Belle.
Day by day we loved each other more and more. We were so happy.

Months passed. A day she told me that she wanted to introduce me to her sister. We did it.

''I think Jessica liked me.'' I said.

''Yes, she is kind.'' said Belle.

''And don’t you want to get acquainted with my parents and Jackie?'' I asked.

''Of course, I want.'' she said. I smiled.

In the evening I went to take Belle. My parents and Jackie were waiting for us.

''I want to buy flowers Ray'' said Belle.

''I will buy them for you dear.'' I said.

''I want to present flowers to your mom.'' she said.

''Okay dear, if you want we will do it.'' I said.

''I love you Ray.'' she said.

''I love you too my angel.'' I said.

We went.

Belle gave flowers to my mom, we had a very good evening. They liked Belle very much.

''Come to us again, Belle'' said Jackie.

We laughed.

''I will darling.'' said Belle.

''I see Belle home.'' I said.

''Okay.'' they said.

We went.

''You have got a wonderful family.'' said Belle.

''Thank you dear.'' I said and hugged her.

''Ray, I want to ask you something,'' she said, ''I remember that day, near my house, that place. You were there. You were crying. What was going on?''

''I will tell you. '' I said.

''If it is hard for you, you can not tell.''

''No dear, years ago I had a wonderful friend, real friend, who always was with me in good or bad days. He always gave me true advice, he always listened to me and helped me.'' I said.

''And where is he now?'' asked Belle.

''In Heaven.'' I said.

''What?'' she asked.

''He died Belle, he died because of me. Years ago I suggested him to go to seashore. He didn’t want it, because his girl had left him and run away with another. He was sad and I wanted to cheer him up. And we went. He was driving the car. An accident took place. A drunk driver hit our car. I was saved, but Edward died.'' I said.

''Sorry, Ray.'' said Belle.

''I couldn’t adjust with it.'' I said.

''But you did nothing Ray, why do you blame you, you are not guilty. You just wanted to make you friend happy.'' said Belle.

I saw tears in her eyes.

''Don’t cry Belle.'' I said.

''I just imagine your grief. You blamed yourself and nobody told you that you are not guilty and that you were an amazing friend. Please Ray, don’t blame you, you are an amazing friend, a friend everyone dreams to have. I am proud that I have you. You are my power, my pride, my kindness. I love you. I will always be with you. I will always help you and make you smile, I promise.'' said Belle.

I couldn’t tell her a word.

''Your eyes are always sad, even when you are smiling.'' she said and hugged me.

The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved. Love is everything: fineness, power, harmony. Love is an endless mystery, there is no explanation for it. Love is calmness, it is the beauty of the soul. Love is hard to find, difficult to get and impossible to forget. And first of all, love is a gift, it is beautiful.

Belle was my happiness, she was adorable.