I Really Did Love You
I really did love you, there I didn't lie.
I wanted to forget about the past, I wanted us to last.
I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't plan it this way.
When I finally said bye, I tried not to make you cry.
I really did love you, but I can't help how I feel?
I can't make myself still love you, I won't give you love untrue.
You are kind and sweet and gentle. You deserve more then me.
You at least deserve, a love that's truly real.
But I'm lying to myself aren't I?
If I say I did it for you?
I ended it because I'm selfish!
I wanted love not eschew!
You were happy, you were fine!
Content while I was lying!
Lying to you, lying to myself.
Every false word given, you were buying.
That isnt your fault. You can't help I wanted to play pretend.
Pretend our love was true, pretend I had it with you.
I never spoke how uncomfortable the things you wanted made me.
At least you spoke your mind, at least you never lied.
At the end of the day while we are trying to be friends,
I hope someone can fix this mess I made, patch you back together.
I hope someone truly deeply, will love you happily forever.
When that day comes I'll have to pretend again that I'm happy,
That's twisted I know, I dont love you anymore!
But some part of me deep inside, still holds on to before...
because,
I really did love you.
09.07.2018
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