Very tired
Have you ever felt like you can never relate to those around. You can try so hard but never get results.
Like me I recently went through something, now I have no friends. It seems like this happens all the time.
I wonder if there's something wrong me. Or do I try too hard, push people away. I try to give advice to others of the same situation. I try to talk to them, give them the watered down version.
Then months later, the same happens to me. Are they rubbing off on me ? I think sometimes.
Am I meant to have friends ? Should I just stop, walk this earth alone ? Same with relationships with guys they never work out. So I stopped trying.
Am I really destined to walk this earth alone. I see all the happy couples. I find myself feeling sad because of my lameness.
I'm stuck in my mind right now. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to hold on to a piece of something that makes me want to stay. But it seems to be shrinking day by day.
I know my parents care for me. But one day they might not be here. And everytime I think of it. It makes me feels disappointed in myself for having these thoughts.
I'm tired. I'm truly tired of faking happiness when I'm really not.
I just wanna get somewhere. Where I don't have to worry about anything anymore.
2019-06-10 01:08:11
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