"I'm sorry"

That's the last thing I came up to, then run away with Hana. Bumping everyone who's in our way. I can see their eyes glaring at me but in this situation. I just dont care anymore. This is all about Hana's happiness. Is it? Or this is just about mine? Sigh* I have no choice anymore but to take a stand to what decision I made.
I can see Hana's lips smiling but her eyes says a different story. I keep on apologizing while we keep on running. I can see them keeping up on us. So I have no choice but to run much faster than usual.
Despite of having a trauma about the heavy rain,I still continue running for Hana's sake. I dont want her to go back to the place she ran away. The place she was trying to escape.
Few more moment I found somewhere safe, for now.

It was an old church, nobody visits it anymore. Except me. There's an old altar and statues that are also damaged even the old chairs inside the church are still there. I often visit this place especially when I need somewhere peaceful. I drag Hana inside the church so that we can hide.
As expected nobody is around except the two of us. I can feel something inside my chest. It feels like something is punching it so hard. The moment we both stops, is also the moment that we realized our whole body is already wet.

"I'm sorry." Once again, I apologize. Suddenly I feel something touching my cheeks. It was Hana's hand. I look at her then I once see Hana's beautiful smile.
Despite of all the running she suddenly laugh.
I'm really confused? Why is she laughing? But I just smiled and laugh with her.
She hug me like there's no more tomorrow. I can't barely move because of how nervous I am. I just hug her back as hard as I can because I know this might be it.

"Darling?" Hana breaking the silence.
"Yes?"
"Thank you, thank you for giving me the happiness I was looking for" I'm trying not to cry. Holding it because I dont want her to see me breaking infront of her. I'm doing my best not to make it fall.
"Max?" She once again broke the silence. But this time Hana calls me with my real name. Hana give me her best to look at me straight in the eyes. I can feel my whole body being vulnerable.
"Ye-yes?" I respond. I was surprised that my voice is also cracking. Please. Dont you breakdown Max. Not now.
"No matter what happen. No matter what is the ending. No matter what..." she stops for awhile then.

" Always remember that I'll always love you. Day and Night. I'll always love you."

That was the moment I burst into tears. I can feel my heart breaking. Those words used to complete me but why does it breaks me now? Do we both know that this will be the last time?
Is this really it? Is this really goodbye?

"I love you too,Hana" Said I, doing my best not to crack my voice.

And for the last time. One last time. I gave her a kiss but this time, I make sure it was long enough. We both burst into tears. We can feel how hot our tears are, flowing through our cheeks. After kissing her, I hold her hand.
"One day. I hope we'll see each other again. And I'm going to put a ring on this cute little finger of yours" said I, teasing her. Hana smiled and trying not to laugh.
"I'm hoping for that to happen" said Hana.
We just sit down for a moment, waiting for the rain to stop while looking at the altar.
I wish that day will soon to come. And one day. She'll find someone better then she deserves to be happy. I have no wealth nor anything to give to make her than my pure love. But one day. When the time is right. I'm going to face her and Hana's parents with something I can brag to. One day.

That night was the last time I saw her. Hana's personal body guards found us hiding inside the church. We didnt run anymore, we just sit there and do nothing but looked at each other. Smiling. We both know that this "love story" we called will never end well for now.
That dumb-ass guy took Hana away from me. I saw her vanishing slowly. I can't look away even though the police are arresting me because of hiding her for a week. I dont know what charge they will give to me but the only thing that comes into my mind is that, everything is worth it. Spending my few days with her is such a memorable moments.

That night, even the clouds are crying. The thunder is shouting. You can see the anger of lightning. My heart was broken into many pieces. I'm picking myself up once again.

It was already a month since that night happened. I was not found guilty because Hana's help. Now, I'm on the rooftop looking at billboard with the picture of Hana being removed. I can feel my heart aching once again but I have no intention of breaking down. I just smiled and hoping she's alright.
I'm holding the necklace she gave me. I can see the sun shinning so bright.

"Max?" I heard Elizabeth's voice coming from behind. I didnt answer.
"Max,I tried my best to help you that night. I was calling you for so many times but you didnt answer" she explained. I swiped my phone lockscreen so that I can unlock it. Then I realized I accessed my phone to airplane mode. The moment I turned it off, 32 missed call was notified. It was all my fault.
If only ... I answered that phone call. If.

I can feel my blood flowing so fast through my veins. Without controling myself I didnt realized I'm already screaming. I can't help it anymore. I want to scream so loud that the world can hear how my heart is broken.
I once burst into tears and I can feel Elizabeth's arms hugging me.

I want to see her again. One last time.
But its too impossible now to ask for
One last time.