Phobia
(18+)
In a sudden twisted-inward moment I am lurched into an altered consiusness of palpitating silent fear, fighting invisible strangling fingers of irrational thought. Neurons are playing pinball in my head, at someone else is looking out through my eye at the people around me, who are all fine and well and breathing normal air. My heart is desperately afraid, it runs and run away so hard from a threat that exist only in my mind - but I am distorted by panic and my breathing betrays me. My mind is clamouring wearily at me to relax, get a trip - there is no cause for such extreme sensitivity. It is only my own self-consciousness, nothing in really wrong but I am plunging headlong into social indequency and my parachute won't open.
In a sudden twisted-inward moment I am lurched into an altered consiusness of palpitating silent fear, fighting invisible strangling fingers of irrational thought. Neurons are playing pinball in my head, at someone else is looking out through my eye at the people around me, who are all fine and well and breathing normal air. My heart is desperately afraid, it runs and run away so hard from a threat that exist only in my mind - but I am distorted by panic and my breathing betrays me. My mind is clamouring wearily at me to relax, get a trip - there is no cause for such extreme sensitivity. It is only my own self-consciousness, nothing in really wrong but I am plunging headlong into social indequency and my parachute won't open.
2018-05-26 01:29:32
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