❝ i promise ❞

i always loved your eyes, especially when a small ray of sunshine came on them, they shined so bright. i used to stare at them, while you weren't watching what i was doing. and i always wanted you to look at my ugly eyes, the same way i looked at yours.
and when you kissed me, it was like you set fire on my whole body, bleeding from the edges, so i set my heart on fire, so yours could breathe, but even like this, i still love you, with all my burnt heart and soul.

cluj-napoca, romania
2020. january 24.
kristóf


it was a drizzly thursday, whilst the couple, again, met at the same meeting point. he was again, waiting for her.
and when she arrived to the sora shopping center, they greeted each other with a hello, and a hi, after that with a soft hug. he was fussy, while he gave her the short hug.
two days ago they met at the entrance of vivo shopping center; have you noticed they usually meet at places like these? just some centers, and entrances.
two days ago he said "fuck it" and then held her hand, softly, slowly, as they separated, he gave her a big kiss on the forehead, which, she thought to herself, means that there's something more in that relationship. he wants to be there for you even if you are just friends. it actually reflects he truly cares about you. a boy not often do this with his every female friends, so you'll probably mean much more to him than everyone else. and she was cheerful after she got on that bus, which led her to her home, to a place where there was no him. she waited until the next meeting, and that was that rainy thursday.
they went to a little store at caroline square, where he bought three ursus beers, and after that went to the coast of someș. they opened the beers, and started drinking it. and after talking about useless things, he touched her face, and run his fingers through her short, almost black hair. after, she started to become hungry, like always.
they went to eat, obviously at mcdonald's, because where is that best food in town, when not at mcdonald's? they were staying there, eating some disgusting, junk food, while talking to each other. then he posted an instagram story on his page. she smiled, and she was happy, and she felt like that it's a good start, if he wants to tell everyone that "damn, that's my girlfriend!".
he was nervous, again. actually wanting to tell her that he wants to kiss her. the girl, with who he fell in deep love with. but he couldn't tell her, he was so afraid, even though he knew that nothing bad would happen.
as they ate, they got their things up, and started walking through the beautiful city of cluj-napoca. they even got lost, because he didn't even know what to do or where to go. then she had an idea. she always loved trains. big bad objects, which can kill people, and which can led them to their destination, even if their destination is the afterlife, or another city of transylvania. so they went to the train station, they sat down on a abandoned bench, whilst looking at the train tracks, and the trains, how they left to the nothingness, to the white room in the end of the tunnel, where these object can scare away dogs with their loud harmony, and scary guard on them.
they started talking, about stupid things, because they had no other stuff to talk about, from his point of view.
the girl and the boy were just sitting on a bench, along the lost train tracks, where trains didn't wanted to go anymore. it was a cold january afternoon, they could even see their breathing turning into a small cloud.
they opened up the last bottle of beer, and she didn't know that it was a twist off piece of glass. he laughed, so loudly, that she could not open it, as easily as he did. and they started drinking, from the same bottle, it was like kissing. and she started telling him about her past. she told him about how she made new friends at her new school last year, and she told him how she was used as an object for other people throughout her entire teenage years. everyone just used her kindness, and loneliness. she told him how she was sexually abused, and how she felt like she was a mistake. he got melancholic, while he was gently listening to his girlfriend. they stopped talking for a bit.
then he spoke, he told her that there aren't gonna be more heartbreaks, or break-ups, or anymore pain, cuz he were gonna make sure that she is safe from any problem, or any harm. she calmly listened to him, as he said "nothing bad ever gonna happen again, 'cause i'm not gonna let anyone ever hurt you again"
"i love you" he said.
"really?" she asked, having a big smile on her face, then she said back to him, his words. "i love you too" he smiled, and stopped for a bit, then thought to himself, now is the time, now or never. and then he slowly gone closer to her, and pressed his lips against hers. there it was; their first kiss, while all of his problems disappeared, and everything went calm, and lightly. their first kiss, on a train station, sitting next to a train track, drinking cheap beer, while talking about the future, and how nothing is gonna hurt her anymore.
"i promise" he said.