I LIED
Deep down in my heart I knew I wasn't okay
Everytime I broke down I knew there was more to let go but I kept them in my heart
I hide all issues in my heart with a fake smile which haunted me
I kept putting on different faces but it was so evident that I didn't know how to hide my feelings and thoughts
My tears were masked by people around me trying to show them how happy I was
I was all alone with my pain
I forced myself to be happy but I couldn't
I forced my friends to believe I am okay but they didn't understand me
I was all alone
They thought I just through tantrum but deep down I was hurting
Some will say she is always like that but the truth is I wanted to avoid people and even the thoughts which was going around my mind for so many years
I lied when I said am okay
I lied and regretted why I had to but that was the only option I was left with
I needed to tell people I am okay and so I lied
The pain was so strong for me to deal with it
I hated education, everything close to me
I couldn't understand why me
I couldn't withstand seeing my peers graduate but all what I was doing was to regret
I hated myself and Everything that I had
I cried day and night but no one noticed
I fought my battle's in the chamber's of my heart and lied to myself I will be okay
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