I LIED
Deep down in my heart I knew I wasn't okay Everytime I broke down I knew there was more to let go but I kept them in my heart I hide all issues in my heart with a fake smile which haunted me I kept putting on different faces but it was so evident that I didn't know how to hide my feelings and thoughts My tears were masked by people around me trying to show them how happy I was I was all alone with my pain I forced myself to be happy but I couldn't I forced my friends to believe I am okay but they didn't understand me I was all alone They thought I just through tantrum but deep down I was hurting Some will say she is always like that but the truth is I wanted to avoid people and even the thoughts which was going around my mind for so many years I lied when I said am okay I lied and regretted why I had to but that was the only option I was left with I needed to tell people I am okay and so I lied The pain was so strong for me to deal with it I hated education, everything close to me I couldn't understand why me I couldn't withstand seeing my peers graduate but all what I was doing was to regret I hated myself and Everything that I had I cried day and night but no one noticed I fought my battle's in the chamber's of my heart and lied to myself I will be okay
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Furaha Bahati
I love it
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John Sarah
I love it, you have expressed everything I feel at times in this piece
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