"I can't deal with this,"I said as I headed to the door....apparently I don't learn and was I expecting..I turned to look at him and he had this look that was so calm and charming but the words that came out of his mouth were so upsetting,been  defensive as if he didn't want anyone to get close to him.

*.perhaps he was hiding something*i thought to myself

Just as I was about to walk out of the room he called my name with the softest beautiful voice which was surprising to me..it's unlike him to talk to me in that way..

"shut the door behind you,,"he paused for a second like something stopped him from saying more,he later on added something else

"I get what you were trying to do..I didn't..I did I didn't mean to get mad at you,I hope you understand"he's eyes would turn away after every second he would look at me,like he was trying to avoid eye contact with me or something.

I just nodded my head and walked away,I didn't want to think anything more of it but something was going on with him...I wish I knew but he wouldn't give me the chance to find out even if I tried to.

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Spending the weekend with Taylor felt good and after been friends for so long I thought it was about time he met my mom,I've always kept it a tradition to always let mom know about the people that are in my life and if I didn't tell her about him she would have been so defensive.I thought about what Taylor was going to think after seeing the real side of me but at that point I felt so comfortable to show him my real world,I know so much about him,his family and friends and I thought it would be fair if he knew me and where I come from as well,I was quite nervous from the beginning and telling him the truth wasn't easy but I had to at least before he met my mom.

My expectations of his reactions were totally different...he took it very well,so understanding and surprisingly he was eager to meet my mom.

Looking back now I should have thought it through before bringing that idea up,upon getting to the house he got out of the car and opened the car door for me..he was quite a gentleman(as always)and as nervous as I was he helped calm down..it's funny how I am the one that's nervous about it when he should be the one nervous..mom was sitting in the garden and immediately I called her she stood up to welcome us..Taylor was so worried about making a good impression to my mom but he did a pretty good job..he handed her the flowers(her favorite flowers)and mom was very impressed at how he knew every little detail about her..tome had passed and mom was still talking about my embarrassing childhood memories(why am I not surprised that she would bring that up)

I stood up and headed to the house to get some drink,everything seemed  to be in norm until I ran into Chad,I stood still waiting for him to say something as usual but he just looked at me and walked away..I wish I could tell what he was thinking but it's impossible..he didn't seem upset but showed his calm side that had some mixed feelings into it or maybe he wasn't thinking about anything else other than trying not to be mad at me.

Later that evening I was on the balcony watching the stars and thinking about how everything went better than I expected it to go..Taylor definitely wiped my mom off her feet and she couldn't stop talking about him since he left..the night was so beautiful,so quiet until I heard footsteps approaching from a distant,I turned to see who it was and a tall figure appeared from the dimming light and stood right in front of me,it was Chad and he had this look he had when I ran into him earlier that day..he stood there for a few seconds then took a few steps forward and kissed me..his hand was capping my right cheek and my hand was placed on his trying to pull him away but I felt a deep hot sensation that made every part of my body numb but in a beautiful way..it was at that point that I surrendered all my strength to him and sunk into his kiss.