After my conversation with mom, I sort of distanced myself from Chad, hearing everything that she said took a huge toll on me and I was having a hard time deciding what to do...I was placed in between two people that I care the most about how could I pick one over the other


Knowing about Chad's condition made it harder to stay away from him... he was at the most vulnerable point in his life I couldn't leave him especially when he needed me more than ever 

He noticed how distant I had been with him and when I talked to him it was hard to lie to him, I told him about my conversation with mum and to my surprise he took it really well.

" I guess we can talk to her about this, maybe she'd understand and be on our side," he says, desperation was written all over his face and I could tell just how much he was willing to do anything for me to be in his life.


"What about your parents," I burst his bubble at the mention of those words, his demeanor changed, it was like reality hit him and for whatever reason, that was one risk he wasn't willing to take it seemed as though fear had overcome him....what is it about the Park that everyone seems so afraid of.

A couple of days had passed and we still had to keep our relationship hidden from everyone including mom, even though her suspicions were right she didn't have the proof. 

It kills me to hide something so big from her I'm screaming in silence and I wish she could hear me...if only she could.

It was late in the afternoon and no one was in sight, my thoughts quickly shifted to Chad and at that moment I was heading in the direction of his room. Ever since we've been together it's been quite hard to stay away from each other despite the warnings, I think about him all day and night...the thoughts of him touching my body or locking his hands in mine are wrapped around my head.


I could barely focus, with every minute that passes by I get distracted easily....his lips on mine or how he looks at me with his gentle hazy eyes, the soft little smile that forcefully escapes his mouth each time he wants to assure me that everything is alright even when it's not, I can't shake that image, I can't keep it away from distracting me no matter how much I try. To be honest, Chad's been the happiest he's ever been, though a dark shadow clouds him all the time he finds positivity in every moment, or at least that's what he shows me.



My thoughts escaped my mind, all that was left was a blank space...totally zoned out of the moment, and by the time I got back to my senses I was already on Chad's doorstep just an inch away from forcing myself in, I looked around and still no one was in sight * it's still safe* I thought to myself


I slowly pushed the door open and to my surprise, Chad was nowhere to be seen either. Knowing about the other places he could be I toured every known place I felt certain I could find him and after searching for a couple of minutes I finally found him in the garden(guess I was too desperate)after catching my breath I ran to him and before I could surprise him he turned to look at me, a moment of hesitation wondered about for a split second then his warmth was all I could feel...his strong arms wrapped around my body like he was holding onto me for dear life. I swear nothing else matters when I'm standing close to him.

"I missed you" he whispered, his voice was a bit shaky but clear enough to understand what he was saying. I gripped onto his shirt so tight too scared to let go...not after we found each other...

Seconds after he slowly let me go with a stare that was fixated on something or someone...his face was nothing but bewildered and anxious...I turned to look at whatever or whoever he was looking at to my surprise mom was standing right there...looking so infuriated and disappointed at the same time.

" I told you two to stop seeing each other what part of that don't you understand?"

"Ms. Ellen we swear we're not doing anything wrong, I love your daughter and nothing you say can change that"

Mom stayed quiet for a while then suddenly grabbed my hand...forcefully pulling me away from Chad. Torn in between I didn't know how to react.

"I am not going to stand here and listen to all this...I know that you love my daughter but I'm not going to let you hurt her.."

"You know I mean no harm when it comes to your daughter..sure I've been mean to her and said a lot of mean things to her but that was then...you know I can never hurt her"

"You being with her is hurtful enough, do you know how much trouble you could put us through if your parents found out about this?"

"I know my parents are very protective of me but trust me they would never do anything that would hurt me?"

" Well then maybe you don't know your parents that well..."

Chad seemed confused about what mom said and before he could say a word mom continued,

"Let this be the last time we're having this conversation..."

she then dragged me out of the garden into the room to scold me about what happened...but all I could think about that time was Chad, his health, his love for me, his safety.


  

It was the last week of school and I couldn't wait for a summer break, it had been a long hard year and despite everything that was happening I couldn't wait. Been his last year in high school he didn't care about all the events or the preparations that were going on, the graduation, the prom day, the parties non of that mattered to him.

His health had seriously affected him not just health-wise but in every aspect of his life...

"Here, try this on," I said as I threw a baby blue collard shirt at him

"What am I 13?" he said sarcastically

"You know I don't care about going to prom or graduation...I mean what's the point.. with....."

"Shh....don't say another word" I quickly cut him off, you'll be fine and everything will go back to the way it was...well maybe not everything...you have college to go to."

" Us...what about us, where do we stand in all of this..?" he said as he held my hand

"We can discuss that later but right now we need to plan on how you're going to astonish everyone at school..."

"I'm serious" he interrupted, "what your mother said, are you going to listen to her? are you going to leave me?"

"I'm scared of what your parents might do to you or my mother, you know I love you and only want what's best for you...what I don't understand is why your parents wouldn't want us to be together?"


He cupped my cheeks in his hand and slowly tilted my head to kiss him, his eyes were filled with sadness, his beautiful hazy eyes were cloudy and teary. 

"I'm scared of losing you" his shakey voice escaped his mouth

Not knowing what to say I held his hands and kissed him...*why do bad things happen to good people* I thought to myself...we both have been through so much and now that we've found each other this had to happen? I gripped onto his shirt so tight at the thought of losing him...I couldn't imagine losing him, 

Suddenly we heard the door open and right there was Mrs. Park staring back at us, her face fuming with anger and only God knows what was running through her mind.