Been in the same school with Chad was something I couldn't stand but unfortunately couldn't do anything about it.
I missed being around my homies, I haven't talked to them since I came here and I am eager to know how they're doing.... I went to the balcony and watched the city from a horizon, it looks small from here and the trees in between make it look slightly hidden .
*why would someone want to isolate himself from the world? *I thought to myself. It's so lonely and there's nobody to talk to, people are ever indoors and there is nothing much going on here aside from the rich people parties that are hardly noticed because of how quiet and low-key they are.
I rested my head on my palm and just as I was about to close my eyes Chad popped out of nowhere and for a second I was paralyzed. I thought of leaving the place just to avoid a confrontation with him but again I didn't want to give him the pleasure of fulfilling his demands.
He looked at me in a way I couldn't figure out what it was about, he looked calm and collected but you'll never know what he's thinking about
I looked to the other side and continued looking at the view just to destruct myself from his presence.


"I bet you never get to see views like this quite often hey,"

How annoying, I know I don't come from a rich family but making a comment like that is the worst thing you can say to someone, so what if I don't see views like this a lot? I love my small neighborhood, and they are a lot of views back in my city that are far much better than this.
I decided not to respond cause I knew he would talk back.

"So I heard you'll be going to my school."

I turned to look at him and still couldn't figure out if he was angry or not.
I'm ashamed about accepting such an offer, Mrs Park is very kind but she didn't have to go this far... Now I'll forever feel indebted to her.


He stood up from where he was sitting then came close to me, at this point I just wanted to walk away but was still paralyzed. He leaned in and his  dark brown eyes pierced right into mine,and as much as I wanted to look away I couldn't.
He then said,

" I don't know who's idea it was but if you think that going to the same school I go to will perhaps bring us close, you're wrong.
We may be living in the same house but at school I don't know you, don't come close to me, don't call my name, don't talk to me or even look at me. You got that? "
He then walked away furiously and there was no way I could talk back or convince him that I'm against the idea as well.

So not only do I feel indebted to Mrs Park but I also feel like some kind of charity and its so uncomfortable, I couldn't hold back my tears and been away from everybody gave some privacy to cry and just my emotions out... I wish I could cry longer but unfortunately I get eye bags and my turn red in just a short amount of time so I had to wipe my tears and get back in before anyone found me crying.

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First day of school and I've never been this nervous and scared, I can't help but think about what Chad told me yesterday and to top it off I'll be in some kind of zone that's way further from mine, all the rich kids go to that school and what would somebody like me be doing in such a school other than humiliating myself. I could have counted on Chad having my back but after what he told me yesterday I'm all alone in this and besides it's not like he's ever had my back. Everything was in check thankfully Mrs Park got my uniform early enough so I didn't have to worry about looking so different from the rest, I stood in the mirror and tied my neck tie, took a deep breath and tried to imagine what my first day will be like, will people be nice to me? Are they going to think different of me? Are they going to ask me different questions? And if they ask me about Chad what should I say? Should I say we live together or pretend I don't know him? Where would they get the idea that I know Chad it's not like we'll be seen together especially after he told me to me to pretend not to know him..
*calm down calm down Olivia *I said to myself as I paced back and forth, shortly after Mrs Park and mom walked in and told me that it was about time to leave,, i thought I was going by bus.

"how do you feel?" Mrs Park asked.

"nervous"

"don't worry everything we'll turn great, first times are always like this" mom said.

"your mom's right, you'll see it's just today and before you know it you'll be the star of the school"

There words seemed to calm my nerves a little bit but didn't stop me from thinking about how Chad was going to treat me at school, It's not like he's been generous to me here so how worse or different can he treat me at school.

"where's Chad?" I asked hoping to know that he was only joking when he said we should pretend we don't know each other

"oh he just left, I know I'm asking for too much but I'd rather you give him some time to process everything, he's been going through a lot lately we've not been making it easier for him,,, I hope you understand."

"absolutely, he can be annoying but... '

" olivia"mom shouted trying to stop me from talking.

"it's okay Ellen I understand her, Chad can be quite annoying but when you get to know him you'll see just how big of a teddy bear he is inside."

Mrs Park was right, there's something about chad I've noticed but it's hard to point it out or explain, there're so many layers to him that I have to bring down step by step and get to see real Chad hiding behind the annoying, arrogant Chad park