Shadows
Shadows,
Shadows,
All I see are shadows,
Shadows everywhere,
Where were you?
when the pain was consuming me?
Where?
What were you doing?
Were you just there standing in the corner?
Where were you when I needed you the most?
When life had given me a punch?
When I was cutting myself,
and I had wounds deep that only red was the colour in dominance,
Where?
When I was drinking myself to death,
With the supposedly merlot wine you bought on my birthday!
Why do I only see in my celebrations and not in my near moments of death?
Why are you a friend with different shades?
Why are hues of colour only brilliant on my canvas,
In your moment of need,
Why are you a concerned friend in moments of abundance only,
Or when you are cornered by your desires,
Why truly?
Is it because of the guys I had and you never had?
Is it because I can provide and you are yet to?
Or is it because yesterday I lived your dream,
By getting the job you didn't get?
Or is it because I do not deserve it?
We've been through alot.
It hurts,
it really hurts.
That you saw the pomp and show,
And forgot everything.
I guess loving someone sure does suck.
You remember the lessons we had In archery.
As I taught you saying that
"I wish never to feel the pain of the arrow as it pierces deep within.
Because deep within is where the arrow hold ground and sticks closer to home."
Greater than the greatest tragedy,
Is hurt from A loved one.
I guess people can be shadows,
I guess we lost the realness and genuineness, we had.
You showed me all of it.
All I have now is darkness,
It's consuming me.
Lately I've been thinking that,
Even...
" A white rose has a dark shadow. "
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