How did I become like this?why did I ? These 2 questions are going back and forth in my mind since a while.. how can a person be cold,careless, alone,brutal,cruel like this... is it a matter of time..is it a matter of ppl.. is it a matter of actions.. is it a matter of friends.. is it a matter of fake emotions that he has been given..maybe it's a matter of treatment... Actually is a matter of all of the above ...how you treat ppl is important.. don't treat em like shit and expect them to smile at your face ... you,if they treat you like garbage you won't like it..how can the other prsn take it... for fuck sake spreading rumors abt someone doesn't get you a reward.. you won't get paid for it.. you just wanna be noticed,right!...you got theme talking.. so what?!was that your aim..? congrats, you got theme where you wanted... happy now! .. this is why you should not trust ppl at all..any time, they will turn their back to you..how abt faking emotions... you pretend to love the prsn..do anything to make him/her fall for you...and when you get what you wanted..boom surprise motherfucker we are no longer for each other... or create a stupid thing to break up or to walk away... is that a man's act!! srsly?!.. if that what a man is.. so fuck it..I'll better be alone then stick around some bitches calling themselves "men". ..breaking a heart is not a game. .. when you break Glass..its not going to be fixed..the only solution is to throw it..to not hurt yourself.. how can you do that to a person n make em live with that broken glass.. if you got afraid of cutting yourself ..how do you expect them to live with that.. it hurts so much.. What about your fake friends... Are they still their with you or they are gone when they got what they wanted... Never expect less from them they might be the ones you trusted and exposed your sacred secrets ..you might need to check that out . nothing is good in my life... other than food there is nothing good at all.. I seem happy.. my life seems good and full of happiness.. but hey! don't judge a book by its cover...I had enough physically, psychologically, emotionally, mentally.. I'm tired... am not good..matter of fact I might have never been.. a mother that doesn't treat you like you are from her own flesh and blood ... the only prsn that supposed to feel and love you support you and be by your side and guide u...is not there for you..what do you expect... from others to love you..no way..if your own mother didn't love you how can they .. a dad that doesn't know your bday until lately.. does not know what you like or dislike..or what's happening in your life you happening to u...how you expect others to understand you.. no one can help you other than yourself..