When did this become a thing?
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A child of spurt and curiosity will lead to faster knowledge. One of captivity by there own choice leads to a slower one. What of one who did both? What then...? I can no longer recall sometimes the answers that lie before us all. So, when did this, Become such a thing?! It started with migraines in 1st grade. Not long after did allergies come to play with us. We began making wonderful friends after that. Besides the excessive abuse, stalkers and collectors, we had many body friends. They came in sharp white stabbing, nauseating, pulsing, shaking, shivering blah blah pain!!!!! But oh, they mean well. Don't they. From migraines and allergies. To lupus, Fibromialga, Colon cancer, The tumors, The 9000 hours of testing, bleeding, x-rays, Dr's, medicine, needles in my head type of fun. The bile reflexes, The sacrum and vertebrae, The surgeries, Rhinitis, hives, breathing, that's not the problem. More so the PTSD, Anxiety and Depression maybe. But when did I need to take over 20 medications to try and feel better!? This only makes me cry, This only makes it want to hide. I lie. My friends don't know. My family don't know. The church doesn't even know. But GOD knows My dogs know I'm just sorry you all find out the hard way. But...none of you have ever really asked. That's, that part is you. When we first became friends... Oh how you loved and lied to me. Got payed to pity me. Hugged me with me holding the blade to our backs because trust, trust wasn't allowed between this party. Just like your Honesty- ... Now I have "BETTER" friends. - "Hey Ark, What's your life story? I'm really interested in how you became so awesome!" You aren't looking at me as I sit there on the three seater couch with you literally two inches away from me. And I'm excited, because you're the first since Manny, but he disappeared. I was ready with hope and happiness to tell you about myself and grow a great bond. My mouth wide open like my eyes! "But sum it in three words okay, I don't have time for the whole story." Never did you blink or rethink that phrase..... What am I to you.... Really?! I thought if anyone, maybe you! God I was wrong to look at him wasn't I!? So tell me, ..... When did this, Become such a THING!?! (GOD The Plague of it All)
A child of spurt and curiosity will lead to faster knowledge. One of captivity by there own choice leads to a slower one. What of one who did both? What then...? I can no longer recall sometimes the answers that lie before us all. So, when did this, Become such a thing?! It started with migraines in 1st grade. Not long after did allergies come to play with us. We began making wonderful friends after that. Besides the excessive abuse, stalkers and collectors, we had many body friends. They came in sharp white stabbing, nauseating, pulsing, shaking, shivering blah blah pain!!!!! But oh, they mean well. Don't they. From migraines and allergies. To lupus, Fibromialga, Colon cancer, The tumors, The 9000 hours of testing, bleeding, x-rays, Dr's, medicine, needles in my head type of fun. The bile reflexes, The sacrum and vertebrae, The surgeries, Rhinitis, hives, breathing, that's not the problem. More so the PTSD, Anxiety and Depression maybe. But when did I need to take over 20 medications to try and feel better!? This only makes me cry, This only makes it want to hide. I lie. My friends don't know. My family don't know. The church doesn't even know. But GOD knows My dogs know I'm just sorry you all find out the hard way. But...none of you have ever really asked. That's, that part is you. When we first became friends... Oh how you loved and lied to me. Got payed to pity me. Hugged me with me holding the blade to our backs because trust, trust wasn't allowed between this party. Just like your Honesty- ... Now I have "BETTER" friends. - "Hey Ark, What's your life story? I'm really interested in how you became so awesome!" You aren't looking at me as I sit there on the three seater couch with you literally two inches away from me. And I'm excited, because you're the first since Manny, but he disappeared. I was ready with hope and happiness to tell you about myself and grow a great bond. My mouth wide open like my eyes! "But sum it in three words okay, I don't have time for the whole story." Never did you blink or rethink that phrase..... What am I to you.... Really?! I thought if anyone, maybe you! God I was wrong to look at him wasn't I!? So tell me, ..... When did this, Become such a THING!?! (GOD The Plague of it All)
2021-08-26 01:05:11
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