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25.12.2022
Новини, Думки вголос, Особисте
Пройшов майже рік, з моменту, коли все моє життя перевернулося догори дригом, разом із моїм світоглядом. Близько трьох років я вів сторінку SurgeBook'у англійською та російською мовами. За другу мову мені щиро соромно. Я писав про все, що думав (нічого розумного). І цей період часу, коли я кожного дня заходив в цей додаток та публікував свої найприхованіші від усіх думки надовго закарбувався в моїй пам'яті та серці.
Спочатку, я, не вникнувши в саме питання, видалив SurgeBook, адже гадав, що це є російським додатком. Я перейшов на чешський аналог - Poetizer. Я вже звик до нього, правду кажучи, та й вірші я пишу не українською, а англійською. Я читав, що тут варто публікувати вірші виключно українською мовою, тому я наврядчи буду щось публікувати тут. Я, звісно, розумію ці обмеження та підтримую їх, адже наша вітчизняна мова має збагачуватися та бути домінуючою на українських медіа-ресурсах. Тому, українізація має проходити активним та стрімким темпом.
Думаю, це все, що я хотів сказати за цей морально важкий для мене, як і всіх, рік. А так, всіх з різдвом та слава Україні ☃️❄️
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Новини, Цікаве, Думки вголос
Being indifferent is an advantage. Not in the sense when you're withdrawn and not interested in anything. No. I mean when you take all things in cold blood and when you have to feel pain, you just don't give a fuck about this object. I have seen and continue seeing many people who are worried 'cause of love, school stuff, or because of friends or acquaintances. And you know what? This scene looks like a kindergarten to me. Of course, I can underestimate someone's feelings, but if they hurt, it's obvious that something is wrong. Isn't it? After all, everything is quite simple, there is a path further along which you need to go further, erasing the entire past path. People will always be a mystery to me, and more specifically, their feelings. I just simply don’t understand them. That's it. That's all I wanted to say.
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WWIII
Who's that knocking on the door? Say the name,
I heard screams and saw gore, should I be afraid?
Where are my parents? I don't wan' remain alone,
Greed is poisonous, that is why you've filthy lungs,
The war's not started now, it has always been before,
You were just wearing sheepskin, like a smile with fake warm heart,
Make a farm with people, an incubator for soldiers,
All of those are evil, you must enjoy how they suffer,
No one goes to heaven 'cause you're lacking that mercy,
Delusion of grandeur, the whole budget is dirty,
Robbery of freedom, that's the norm, don't worry,
Shut the fuck up, go to prison, you're nobody, not important,
Unlike the image with the glory
Dough is the reason why they're horny,
Ahhh...
I'm fed up with these stories
'Bout a better future and an uncertain morning...
Let's chill the blood with the mind and analyze the current situation,
Uh...
How's it that everyone finds it alright to kill their own kind without any regrets?
Huh?
I won't renounce my words, they're mine, I don't change my shoes on quick,
Huh?
How can I trust those who hiss?
I find it hard to describe, but it's easier to kiss,
To convey what's inside, it's buried too deep,
Relax and close your eyes to feel and to see,
It's easier for my mind to hide,
Beat my conscience to a pulp behind a bright smile,
Lying to myself like everything I feel is fine,
Oh, I know it's all my fault, it's mine everytime...
Hah, hahaha...
Love would help me through the war,
'Cause my bleeding heart is sore,
Bodies fall dead to the ground,
Thinking if I will be found,
Blood's replaced the water,
The shepherd's gone insane, but for some reason the sheeps must suffer,
Spread the propaganda,
Atrophy the remaining critical thinking, no doubt, as it's the pure God's word...
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HUG FROM A ROPE AROUND MY NECK
THE COGNITIVE DISSONANCE,
ABSOLUTELY ALL LOVE IS IRRELEVANT,
WANTED TO TRY TO TRUST, BUT IT LOOKS LIKE IT WAS A MISTAKE,
THE REMNANTS OF HONESTY HAVE ROTTED AWAY
MY SPINE STILL HURTS PLAINTIVELY,
THE SOUL HAS EXHAUSTED ALL ITS STRENGTH FOR HATE,
IT WANTS A HUG FROM A ROPE 'ROUND MY NECK
I'm tired of putting on a smile,
I'M TIRED OF ALL THIS LIFE,
Can't shed all the pain anymore through a quiet cry,
SILENCE ON THE OUTSIDE
DOESN'T MEAN THAT
I FEEL GOOD
ON THE INSIDE
Watching your words turn to empty phrase,
I won't let you wipe a tear from my empty face,
You're the only source of my endless pain,
Even if I let you into my heart,
It won't change the things, but only aggravate
My mental state
Anyway...
THE COGNITIVE DISSONANCE,
ABSOLUTELY ALL LOVE IS IRRELEVANT,
WANTED TO TRY TO TRUST, BUT IT LOOKS LIKE IT WAS A MISTAKE,
THE REMNANTS OF HONESTY HAVE ROTTED AWAY
MY SPINE STILL HURTS PLAINTIVELY,
THE SOUL HAS EXHAUSTED ALL ITS STRENGTH FOR HATE,
IT WANTS A HUG FROM A ROPE 'ROUND MY NECK
I'm tired of putting on a smile,
I'M TIRED OF ALL THIS LIFE,
Can't shed all the pain anymore through a quiet cry,
SILENCE ON THE OUTSIDE
DOESN'T MEAN THAT
I FEEL GOOD ON THE INSIDE...
Watching your words turn to empty phrase,
I won't let you wipe a tear from my empty face,
You're the only source of my endless pain,
Even if I let you into my heart,
It won't change the things, but only aggravate
My mental state
Anyway...
THE SOUL HAS EXHAUSTED ALL ITS STRENGTH FOR HATE,
IT WANTS A HUG FROM A ROPE 'ROUND MY NECK...
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GVRELUST
Watching the violence, my heart rate only goes up,
I'll hug you from the back then gently bend over to your ear till you've shivers and goosebumps,
Kiss you passionately, I love the taste of your soft tongue,
Grabbing the blade I stab you till you pass out,
Oh, it looks like you are right,
I'm really crazy,
I'VE A GORELUST,
I have no excuses, I just have specific tastes,
You'll know more about me on the news when I make another case,
I wanna hear your moans as I massage softly gently right between your legs,
Something might be wrong, but I ain't see nothing strange
Looking out of the window my gaze freezes on the stars,
So what have I done right and which part of it is wrong?
I can't escape reality, even immersed in love,
I try to grab hold of sanity, but this way only pulls me down,
Tryin' to take root in a state of euphoria,
But the ghosts of the past never stop pushing,
"What should I do?" is the question I ask myself when looking in the mirror,
And with my eyes closed I await the sentence of my execution
Time to pay the price,
I don't hate my life,
I just feel like I'm wasting my time,
I've more reasons to commit suicide,
My time is up, there's no point no more in hidin',
Feelings must be bottled up, there's no point in crying,
I have come to terms with it, this is how I live my life,
You won't see me smiling, 'cause I extinguish all emotions,
There's almost nothing left inside me, I was forced to be more cautious,
Perhaps my inner world could've been a little brighter,
If I remained a closed kid further...
Breathe to die,
Wonder why,
Why's life not so bright,
Everything you heard when you were a child was just a lie,
The world's collapsing,
Reality's acid for innocent eyes,
Shocked heart is racing,
Yes, I admit it, I am afraid of this life....
I want to escape,
Everything seems to be a mistake,
I want to escape, I want to escape...
Why did everyone change?
Once everyone loved me but now they only hate...
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