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WWIII
Who's that knocking on the door? Say the name,
I heard screams and saw gore, should I be afraid?
Where are my parents? I don't wan' remain alone,
Greed is poisonous, that is why you've filthy lungs,
The war's not started now, it has always been before,
You were just wearing sheepskin, like a smile with fake warm heart,
Make a farm with people, an incubator for soldiers,
All of those are evil, you must enjoy how they suffer,
No one goes to heaven 'cause you're lacking that mercy,
Delusion of grandeur, the whole budget is dirty,
Robbery of freedom, that's the norm, don't worry,
Shut the fuck up, go to prison, you're nobody, not important,
Unlike the image with the glory
Dough is the reason why they're horny,
Ahhh...
I'm fed up with these stories
'Bout a better future and an uncertain morning...
Let's chill the blood with the mind and analyze the current situation,
Uh...
How's it that everyone finds it alright to kill their own kind without any regrets?
Huh?
I won't renounce my words, they're mine, I don't change my shoes on quick,
Huh?
How can I trust those who hiss?
I find it hard to describe, but it's easier to kiss,
To convey what's inside, it's buried too deep,
Relax and close your eyes to feel and to see,
It's easier for my mind to hide,
Beat my conscience to a pulp behind a bright smile,
Lying to myself like everything I feel is fine,
Oh, I know it's all my fault, it's mine everytime...
Hah, hahaha...
Love would help me through the war,
'Cause my bleeding heart is sore,
Bodies fall dead to the ground,
Thinking if I will be found,
Blood's replaced the water,
The shepherd's gone insane, but for some reason the sheeps must suffer,
Spread the propaganda,
Atrophy the remaining critical thinking, no doubt, as it's the pure God's word...
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HUG FROM A ROPE AROUND MY NECK
THE COGNITIVE DISSONANCE,
ABSOLUTELY ALL LOVE IS IRRELEVANT,
WANTED TO TRY TO TRUST, BUT IT LOOKS LIKE IT WAS A MISTAKE,
THE REMNANTS OF HONESTY HAVE ROTTED AWAY
MY SPINE STILL HURTS PLAINTIVELY,
THE SOUL HAS EXHAUSTED ALL ITS STRENGTH FOR HATE,
IT WANTS A HUG FROM A ROPE 'ROUND MY NECK
I'm tired of putting on a smile,
I'M TIRED OF ALL THIS LIFE,
Can't shed all the pain anymore through a quiet cry,
SILENCE ON THE OUTSIDE
DOESN'T MEAN THAT
I FEEL GOOD
ON THE INSIDE
Watching your words turn to empty phrase,
I won't let you wipe a tear from my empty face,
You're the only source of my endless pain,
Even if I let you into my heart,
It won't change the things, but only aggravate
My mental state
Anyway...
THE COGNITIVE DISSONANCE,
ABSOLUTELY ALL LOVE IS IRRELEVANT,
WANTED TO TRY TO TRUST, BUT IT LOOKS LIKE IT WAS A MISTAKE,
THE REMNANTS OF HONESTY HAVE ROTTED AWAY
MY SPINE STILL HURTS PLAINTIVELY,
THE SOUL HAS EXHAUSTED ALL ITS STRENGTH FOR HATE,
IT WANTS A HUG FROM A ROPE 'ROUND MY NECK
I'm tired of putting on a smile,
I'M TIRED OF ALL THIS LIFE,
Can't shed all the pain anymore through a quiet cry,
SILENCE ON THE OUTSIDE
DOESN'T MEAN THAT
I FEEL GOOD ON THE INSIDE...
Watching your words turn to empty phrase,
I won't let you wipe a tear from my empty face,
You're the only source of my endless pain,
Even if I let you into my heart,
It won't change the things, but only aggravate
My mental state
Anyway...
THE SOUL HAS EXHAUSTED ALL ITS STRENGTH FOR HATE,
IT WANTS A HUG FROM A ROPE 'ROUND MY NECK...
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GVRELUST
Watching the violence, my heart rate only goes up,
I'll hug you from the back then gently bend over to your ear till you've shivers and goosebumps,
Kiss you passionately, I love the taste of your soft tongue,
Grabbing the blade I stab you till you pass out,
Oh, it looks like you are right,
I'm really crazy,
I'VE A GORELUST,
I have no excuses, I just have specific tastes,
You'll know more about me on the news when I make another case,
I wanna hear your moans as I massage softly gently right between your legs,
Something might be wrong, but I ain't see nothing strange
Looking out of the window my gaze freezes on the stars,
So what have I done right and which part of it is wrong?
I can't escape reality, even immersed in love,
I try to grab hold of sanity, but this way only pulls me down,
Tryin' to take root in a state of euphoria,
But the ghosts of the past never stop pushing,
"What should I do?" is the question I ask myself when looking in the mirror,
And with my eyes closed I await the sentence of my execution
Time to pay the price,
I don't hate my life,
I just feel like I'm wasting my time,
I've more reasons to commit suicide,
My time is up, there's no point no more in hidin',
Feelings must be bottled up, there's no point in crying,
I have come to terms with it, this is how I live my life,
You won't see me smiling, 'cause I extinguish all emotions,
There's almost nothing left inside me, I was forced to be more cautious,
Perhaps my inner world could've been a little brighter,
If I remained a closed kid further...
Breathe to die,
Wonder why,
Why's life not so bright,
Everything you heard when you were a child was just a lie,
The world's collapsing,
Reality's acid for innocent eyes,
Shocked heart is racing,
Yes, I admit it, I am afraid of this life....
I want to escape,
Everything seems to be a mistake,
I want to escape, I want to escape...
Why did everyone change?
Once everyone loved me but now they only hate...
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STILL NOT FOUND
Blackened heart became my catalyst,
My composure ain't a disease,
I have animal instincts,
Trample all insects,
They ain't worth living,
They're simple victims,
Their voice is a squeak,
Fuck what they think,
'Cause soon they will die and then will decay,
It's a vicious circle, that's fine, that's okay,
This isn't a failure, this is natural fate,
I hold the knife you fall dead from my blade,
Moral values were my weaknesses,
To continue to exist I'd to get rid of 'em,
I've erased all mind boundaries,
With this, I became colder and calculating and emotionless
Life and death,
Love and hate,
Affection and violence,
Sociality and mental silence,
I only feel alive when I close my eyelids,
But even this way my dreams are nightmares,
I look into the eyes of a friend and see another liar,
And when I rip my eyelids open, I find myself on my bed on fire,
My world is burning,
I should control my desires,
Don't tell me you're sorry,
WE KNOW THAT THIS IS NO LONGER CHILDISH
Couldn't keep the truth inside me,
I had to finish off my conscience,
I confess, I couldn't stay quiet,
I AGREE TO PAY IN BLOOD FOR THE WORDS I'VE SPOKEN
Love vulnerability is still my cancer,
A strong mind with a spirit, but a weak heart is the answer,
I had to put a point once and for all that my feelings shouldn't matter,
You're a sweet wrapper, but unfortunately nasty candy,
I WON'T ACCEPT THIS BEING FLATTERED,
Morally broken,
Spiritually battle-hardened,
Abandoned fallen,
But at last no longer burdened,
Cut off all the leeches,
Now there's no need for stitches,
But there's one more thing,
MY SOUL'S STILL THE SAME PITCH BLACK...
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MISUNDERSTANDING
I live my life without understanding its purpose,
My vision of the world is still blind, it is not formed,
All that I've ever seen and observed now it's a lie that I have made up,
Or not?
I wonder how many nightmares do I have to face before I wake up?
The mirror hurts my eyes,
Can someone tell me why?
In the past, I looked at life,
And it seemed pleasantly bright,
I've waited too much for the change,
My patience was wasted in vain,
SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN OBSESSED WITH LOVE FOR SO LONG,
'CAUSE LOVE PASSES BY AND EVENTUALLY GETS REPLACED
It doesn't make the slightest sense,
It dulls the ability to think in advance,
I don't need fake love with stress,
It only brings me closer to death,
I'll let the blade cut through my heart,
In any case it's just a piece of meat,
I won't feel pain, I'm sure that I won't be hurt,
I'd rather die in the heartbeat after being meanly hit...
Why should I risk it if I'm fine?
I only feel pain watchin' the sky at night,
My tears under my eyes are already dry,
I'm tired of grieving 'bout the past,
I feel the present being excised,
I know about it, I swear that I'm tired...
Many thoughts I want to forget,
A heavy burden that I don’t have the strength to bear,
Every step brings up another doubt,
I know that I need to go further, oh,
Have you ever dealt with this before?
I'll accept your help, I'm weak at heart,
I insisted on being alone, but I realized that I was wrong,
Forgive me please, for everything I've ever done,
It's always been 'me' and has never been 'us',
That's the reason I'm so withdrawn
It's easier for me to keep staying closed,
'Cause when I'm sincere you say it always makes me dumb,
I don't wanna be with you here, because you make me sad,
Ohh...
When I'm neutral, you say that I look like a cold-blooded psychopath...
Frankly, I'm confused,
I can't understand your aim,
Staying comfortably closed is what I choose,
I don't wanna talk to you,
Please forget about my name,
Frankly, I'm confused,
I can't understand your aim
I don't wanna talk to you,
Please forget about my name...
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CONFLICT + SCREAMS
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KILLED LOVE & PAIN
I'm tired of your reproaches that you take from nowhere,
I thought about affection and warmth when you told me to my face that you love me,
All scandals and tantrums give me migraines, is this what you wanted?
You don't hear my words that I'm trying to convey to you,
I just want to prevent another conflict,
And my parents with their scandals,
Badly affects on my mental,
All these screams with pain I find it hard to handle,
I've absolutely no reason to hate you,
All I ever wanted to do was help you to be happy,
I know I cannot change you, but I wish it didn't happen:
A detrimental mental breakdown for the psyche, someday it will break it,
I feel a headache with a heartache that only gets worse, I doubt this is healthy,
Why are you throwing mud at me behind my back?
How many lies have you told your naive friends?
All this burden with pain and disappointment makes me swiftly and deliberately approach my end,
Because my existence literally makes no sense...
Please let me just escape reality,
I'm not able to endure the pain while maintaining sanity,
You have no idea how it feels to me to feel
Like people who were dear to me before
Turn into my enemies,
It just turns out that I'm alone,
I'm alone with the pain I have to handle,
My hands shake with fear while holding the barrel,
I cannot sleep peacefully,
My hand is itchy and it wants to put the barrel of a gun to my temple...
Perhaps it would have ended this way,
If not for the fear of realizin' the magnitude of all the pain,
All my loved ones just pretended to care,
All those words that you said to me 'bout pure love simply turned out to be fake...
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CHRØNIC PØVERTY
BORN SLAVE,
BORN NOBODY BUT A RESOURCE,
SLAVERY IS FATE,
INCUBATOR FOR CHILDBIRTH IN THE MUD
THERE'S NO ESCAPE,
DIE OF BLEEDING WITH A LIVING CHILD IN YOUR ARMS IN YOUR OWN BLOOD,
BOTTLE UP THE HATE,
THOUGHTS OF LACK OF FAITH
VISIT THE BRAIN
IT'S EASIER TO JUST TWINE A ROPE AROUND THE THROAT,
FORGET 'BOUT ALL THE PROBLEMS AND RUN AWAY,
IT'S EASIER TO JUST TWINE A ROPE AROUND THE THROAT,
FORGET 'BOUT ALL THE PROBLEMS AND RUN AWAY...
THERE'S NO MORE STRENGTH
TO TRY TO GET OUT OF THE ROT,
WHEN THESE BIG SHOTS TAKE YOUR FREEDOM AND PULL YOU BACK IN THIS BLACK HOLE...
STUCK SINCE BIRTH IN RUSSIA,
WITHOUT PROSPECTS AND FUTURE,
STEALING MONEY IS THEIR HUNGER,
GOING TO JAIL FOR EXPRESSING AN OPINION
INCANDESCENT IRON TO YOUR FACE,
I'LL WAIT FOR PEOPLE TO EXTERMINATE THEMSELVES,
YES INDEED MY PATIENCE IS MY ACE,
THE HATE Y'ALL SAW IN ME WAS THE ANTICIPATION OF COMING DEATH...
Yes indeed my patience is my ace,
The hate y'all saw in me was the anticipation of COMING DEATH...
BORN SLAVE,
BORN NOBODY BUT A RESOURCE,
SLAVERY IS FATE,
INCUBATOR FOR CHILDBIRTH IN THE MUD,
BORN SLAVE,
BORN NOBODY BUT A RESOURCE,
SLAVERY IS FATE,
INCUBATOR FOR CHILDBIRTH IN THE MUD
THERE'S NO ESCAPE,
DIE OF BLEEDING WITH A LIVING CHILD IN YOUR ARMS IN YOUR OWN BLOOD,
BOTTLE UP THE HATE,
THOUGHTS OF LACK OF FAITH
VISIT THE BRAIN
IT'S EASIER TO JUST TWINE A ROPE AROUND THE THROAT,
FORGET 'BOUT ALL THE PROBLEMS AND RUN AWAY...
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NVTHINGNESS
I wish I felt the same as you,
But I can't help myself it's true,
I cannot experience any emotion,
Everything inside the soul is distorted,
I feel strange when I smile,
It's like a shame I can't describe,
I don't feel anything right here I'm blind
I've lived long enough to realize
That I cannot change my life,
I've lived long enough to realize
I can't just kill what is inside,
Nothing changes even if I cry,
So I'm not going to
Waste no time...
Waste no time...
I wish I felt the same as you,
But I can't help myself it's true,
I can't experience no emotion,
Everything inside the soul's distorted,
I feel strange when I smile,
It's like a shame I can't describe,
I don't feel anything and right here I am blind
I've lived long enough to realize that I cannot change my life,
I've lived long enough to realize I can't just kill what is inside,
It's like a shame,
I can't describe,
I don't feel anything
And right here
I'm blind
I wish I felt the same as you,
But I can't help myself it's true,
I can't experience no emotion,
Everything inside the soul's distorted,
I feel strange when I smile,
It's like a shame I can't describe,
I don't feel anything and right here I'm blind...
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I'D BETTER KEEP THE DISTANCE
My heart is dipping in blood,
I am tired of you playing with trust,
I repeat again, I've had enough,
Your gleeful smiles show your self-interest it disgusts me,
A minute ago you said we were friends,
After a minute you stick a knife in my back,
Not a second has passed since you changed your face,
My soul begins to cool with my veins,
My soul is dragged down with chains,
I feel sorry for those who smile fake,
It really drains moral strength
The result does not justify the remedy in this case
GET OUT OF MY BRAIN,
LUCK WILL NOT SMILE AT YOU A SECOND TIME,
ALL YOUR QUALITIES MATCH THE CRITERIA OF THOSE THINGS THAT I HATE,
I DON'T LOSE FACE EVEN THOUGH I'M ON THE DEMON SIDE,
I'll rip you apart with my bare hands alive,
You think that I don't have enough fortitude,
BUT YOU AIN'T KNOW WHAT I'M LIKE,
HALF OF YOUR ASSUMPTIONS AIN'T TRUE,
YOU BRANDED ME SICK ALTHOUGH WHAT IS YOUR CLUE?
I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU TAKE CONCLUSIONS OUT OF THE BLUE,
I HATE YOU FOR USING MY HEART,
I WILL NOT LET YOU SEW MY MOUTH
You won't make me feel guilty,
I won't let you kill feelings,
FUCK ALL THE BULLSHIT YOU THINKING ABOUT,
You pissed me off to the point WHERE MY HANDS WERE ITCHING,
THEY REACHED FOR YOUR THROAT,
They couldn't stand the fact THAT YOU WERE STILL BREATHING,
THEY WANTED YOU TO DIE,
ALL THIS PAIN IS ONLY STORED IN MY MIND,
NOBODY CARES WHAT'S INSIDE,
AS LONG AS I'M ALIVE I'LL BE VULNERABLE AND BLINDED...
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CAN'T FEEL A THING
There's no way
I can escape my problems,
But I think it is okay,
I'll just replace the gear that broke then,
I already have a soulmate,
She will not betray me 'cause she is an angel,
Feeling like I am still missing something,
Behind my ribs I cannot feel the organ,
Paranoia is my torture,
The everlasting feeling of jitters is my future
I am ready to endure all the pain to feel at least something,
I hate when emptiness consumes my brain I can't exist in nowhere,
I'm locked in a cage and chained, I'm the one who tortures,
I HAVE NEVER FELT SO COLD BEFORE, UGH,
ALL THE PAIN STRUCK ME IN LAUGHTER,
GOT NO MORE STITCHES FOR MORAL WOUNDS LEFT TO COVER,
FUCK PRIDE, I WILL CUT YOU OPEN,
I WON'T TOLERATE YOUR ARROGANCE
I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT CARE WHAT YOU THINK OF ME,
STOP PISSING IN MY EARS, NOBODY CARES ABOUT YOUR PAIN,
IT'S OBVIOUS THAT LIFE'S NOT FAIR, NO ONE IS SURPRISED BY THIS,
LIFE HAS NO REASON TO SPARE, WE KEEP KILLING OUR OWN LUNGS,
WHY SHOULD RAPED NATURE CARE ABOUT THE LIKES OF US?
FUCK,
WITH SUCH A SURROUNDINGS I WON'T LAST LONG,
I'LL ONLY STAY ALIVE IF I'M ALONE,
EVERYONE PURSUES SELFISH GOALS,
INCLUDING ME,
I DON'T CARE 'BOUT ANYONE,
YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME
I CAN'T FEEL A THING,
UHH,
I SEE SOMETHING YOU CAN'T EVEN SEE,
Uhh,
I SEE A PERSON UNDER THE SKIN,
UHH,
WHILE YOU'RE BLINDED AND LIKE A FISH ON A FISHING ROD,
If my face is emotionless, IT DOESN’T MEAN THAT I’M MISERABLE,
You don't see what I hide inside me, IN YOUR VISION THERE'S ONLY WHAT'S VISIBLE,
My nerves endings are atrophied SO YOU CANNOT PISS ME OFF...
I cannot feel anything so I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU...
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HAPPY DEATHDAY TO ME!
[05.10.2021]
Since my birth, I began to feel empty gradually,
Uh,
All the time I was neutral dry emotionally,
But today I wanna have some fun doing knife swings,
Uhh, fuck,
My mood swings,
HAPPY DEATHDAY TO ME
Since my birth, I began to feel empty gradually,
Uh,
All the time I was neutral dry emotionally,
But today I wanna have some fun doing knife swings,
Uhh, fuck,
My mood swings,
HAPPY DEATHDAY TO ME
I'm gonna clear my brain of all the junk,
Noise in my ears, I'm deaf from their talk,
Where are my parents? Uh? I feel like I'm stuck,
Why are these girls laughing?
Do they take my words as a joke?
I'm gonna clear my brain of all the junk,
Noise in my ears, I'm deaf from their talk,
Where are my parents? Uh? I feel like I'm stuck,
Why are these girl laughing?
Do they take my words as a joke?
Now I'm fourteen,
I'm not wearing a mask because of quarantine,
Even if it didn't exist,
I would still keep my pale face closed
This is my complex,
There's an image of a killer in my head,
I'm not sure if I am healthy 'cause I'd think about the question:
"Should I pull the trigger at my temple?"
I've got so much pain in my life to deal with,
Nobody can understand how I'm feeling,
I don't know if tenderness could heal it...
All this joy seems so primitive,
It looks like I should enjoy it, but I only feel emptiness,
Maybe I should just relax,
But I'm still too young for sex,
Although it would be enough for me
The usual gentle caresses..
Mutually beneficial warmth,
It will hide the fact of being lost,
For more effective pleasure,
I will take off your T-shirt
Maybe I should just relax,
But I'm still too young for sex,
Although it would be enough for me
The usual gentle caresses
Since my birth, I began to feel empty gradually,
Uh,
All the time I was neutral dry emotionally,
But today I wanna have some fun doing knife swings,
Uhh, fuck,
My mood swings,
HAPPY DEATHDAY TO ME
I'm gonna clear my brain of all the junk,
Noise in my ears, I'm deaf from their talk,
Where are my parents? Uh? I feel like I'm stuck,
Why are these girls laughing?
Do they take my words as a joke?...
HOW MANY TIMES ALREADY SAID,
LOVE DOES NOT EXIST,
HOW MANY MORE TIMES WILL I BE BETRAYED?
TILL I UNDERSTAND THE TRUTH...
I JUST WANNA SHARPEN THE BLADE,
AND THEN MAKE A SWING
AFTER WHICH BLOOD WILL SPRAY,
I DON'T UNDERSTAND A THING,
I will punch a hole in my chest, RIP OUT MY WHOLE HEART,
I don't need no pain disguised as PURE LOVE ANYMORE
WHO'S THAT KNOCKING AT MY DOOR?
I FEEL LIKE A LIVING CORPSE,
NEXT TO ME THERE'S A LYING GIRL,
SHE GAVE ME THAT SWEET CARESS AND WARMTH,
THIS IS THE REASON WHY I FEEL AFFECTION FOR HER,
SHE OPENED UP TO ME, ACCEPTED MY PAIN,
AND 'CAUSE OF THIS, WE HEALED EACH OTHER'S HEARTS
She became my cure,
I don't know who I'm to her, but she's important to me,
She became my world,
I'm not sure if without her I would live...
She became my world,
I'm not sure if without her I would live...
HAPPY DEATHDAY TO ME!
[THE END 🌟]
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RETHINKING
I CAN'T CALM DOWN,
CAN'T GET RID OF THEM,
THEY HAUNT ME,
THE GHOSTS OF THE PAST
WON'T LEAVE ME
TILL THEY FIND ME,
Uhhh...
ANOTHER CONCERN
IS TEARING MY RIBS
FROM THE INSIDE OUT,
AFTER DEATH I WILL NOT BURN,
I WILL FIND MYSELF
IN A CAGE OF HELL,
JUST LIKE IN A TRAP OF THE SPIDER...
AGHHHHH...
Feeling like I've given up,
Everybody says I sucked,
But I try to give no fucks,
I'll set my ridge myself if someone breaks it,
What do you care if I fell or not,
I just stumbled,
I HAVEN'T FAILED YET,
I am ingrained,
Why are you trying to change me?
KEEP FUCKING PUSHING,
BREAK ALL MY RIBS,
I'LL WAIT FOR MY PATIENCE TO RUN OUT
AHHH,
AHHH,
PUT THE BLADE IN MY PALM,
SLIDE IT 'CROSS MY WRIST,
I'M A SIMPLE DOLL,
BREAK MY LEGS SO THAT I CAN KNEEL UNQUESTIONINGLY...
I JUST REALIZED THAT I WAS A PUPPET SINCE MY BIRTH,
WITH A SEWN-UP MOUTH OBLIGED TO ENDURE,
I THOUGHT I LOST MY SELF-ESTEEM,
IT TURNS OUT THAT I NEVER HAD MY WORTH,
I COULD ONLY YELL INSIDE MYSELF,
WONDERING WHAT I CRY FOR
EVERY NIGHT,
I JUST REALIZED THAT I WAS A PUPPET SINCE MY BIRTH,
WITH A SEWN-UP MOUTH OBLIGED TO ENDURE,
I THOUGHT I LOST MY SELF-ESTEEM,
IT TURNS OUT THAT I NEVER HAD MY WORTH,
I COULD ONLY YELL INSIDE MYSELF,
WONDERING WHAT I CRY FOR...
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REALITY
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FIGMENT OF THE IMAGINATIVN
I open my eyes
In the early morning
Watching as if the last sunrise,
Every day the groundhog's boring
I remember some
Kind of corpse
In my basement,
My mind turned upside down
As a child
When I did a face-plant,
When I looked
In the mirror
I saw a faceless,
Heart breaks my ribs,
I am still restless...
Rats devour a corpse
Somewhere underground,
I will drop the lighter,
Then all the rats will be hugged by fire,
Careful with desires,
The object of desire will become a trap,
I put a rope 'round your neck when I let it go IT WILL BREAK,
Only in the future will you realize YOUR MISSED MISTAKE,
Guilt will devour you from the inside JUST LIKE A PLAGUE,
The ability to control temptation will ADD A FEW BONUS DAYS
I open my eyes
In the early morning
Watching as if the last sunrise,
Every day the groundhog's boring,
I remember some
Kind of corpse
In my basement,
My mind turned upside down
As a child
When I did a face-plant,
When I looked
In the mirror
I saw a faceless,
Heart breaks my ribs,
I am still restless...
What will you do
If the police
Turn out to be the killer?
What will you do
If the water
Contains quicksilver?
You will not do anything,
YOU WILL JUST DIE,
If you think that you're one of humanity,
YOU ARE REALLY BLIND...
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KEEP BLEEDING ME DRY
I'VE BEEN STABBED WITH KNIVES ALL MY LIFE,
IT'S THE SAME EVERY DAY, IT'S A VICIOUS CYCLE,
Every time...
Bitch please stop feeding me lies,
UHH, UHHH, HAHA?
KEEP BLEEDING ME DRY,
I'M EXISTING TO DIE,
MY HEART FEELS IT INSIDE
I HAVE NO AGGRESSION,
I JUST CANNOT STAND THE VICIOUS CYCLE OF PAIN,
I RENOUNCED ATTACHMENT,
I WANT TO FEEL AT LEAST SOMETHING, BUT TO TAKE RISKS I'M AFRAID,
I'D LET GO OF ALL MY GRUDGES,
I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DROWN IN HATE FOR LONG,
I WILL BLEED TO DEATH FROM THE SHARP BLADES CALLED SORROW
TRY TO PLAY WITH ME A GAME,
HIDE YOUR HATE,
SOON YOU WILL DROWN IN THIS WAVE,
I WOULD WAIT,
AND WATCH YOU SLOWLY GO INSANE,
DON'T LOSE YOUR FACE,
PUT YOUR HOPES ON FAITH,
IT WILL NUMB YOUR MIGRAINE FOR A LITTLE WHILE,
INSTILL IN YOUR BLIND BRAIN THAT EVERYTHING IS FINE
I'VE BEEN STABBED WITH KNIVES ALL MY LIFE,
IT'S THE SAME EVERY DAY, IT'S A VICIOUS CYCLE,
Every time...
Bitch please stop feeding me lies,
UHH, UHHH, HAHA?
KEEP BLEEDING ME DRY
AGHH, NAH-Nah-nah-nah...
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CARESSING A LITTLE GIRL
Insert two fingers in her mouth,
My two nails are reaching her throat,
The closed path for the air makes her cough,
My ears got really clogged of her moans,
Light touches made her tremble,
The past instantly turns to shadow,
The mind's involuntarily gets dulled by pleasure,
I FELL IN LOVE WITH AN ANGEL
UHH,
I KNOW YOU LOVE IT WHEN I STROKE YOUR BELLY,
I CAN FEEL IT, I CAN FEEL YOUR EVERY TWITCH,
YOUR BODY BENDS IN THE SPINE,
AND YOU STILL INSIST THAT THIS IS SOMETHING THAT YOU ABSOLUTELY DO NOT LIKE,
I'm offended by the fact that you're lying,
So many feelings inside, even though outside there's silence,
You can hide a smile, it doesn't make my critical thinking blinded,
Feel the heat on your skin,
The degree only increases as soon as I SQUEEZE YOU TIGHTER
I might wrap my arms 'round your neck,
'Cause of the pain in my heart, IT BLEEDS THROUGH THE CRACK,
It's not your fault, I JUST HAVE BAD REFLEXES,
I've an itchy scar on my soul, IT FEELS LIKE IT'S BEING RIPPED OPEN WITH BLADES,
Uhhhh...
MY MIND IS CLOUDED BY PAINFUL FLASHBACKS
I'm sorry if I hurt you,
I didn't mean it...
I am cold inside,
My heart is a piece of ice,
I broke the boundaries of my mind,
Appreciated the situation, eradicated all the lies,
But I still don't feel satisfied,
Even though I literally reached the skies,
It's unpleasant for me to hide,
That I'll never win this fight...
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I'M SØRRØWFUL
THIS IS HOW LOVE TURNS INTO HATE,
THE SHARDS OF MY BROKEN HEART HAVE INCREASED TODAY,
MY SPIRIT IS COMPLETELY BROKEN BUT I'M STILL HUMANE,
YOU MADE ME FEEL SORROWFUL PAIN,
YOU ARE TWO-FACED,
IT'S A KNIFE TO MY VEINS,
WRAP THOSE LIES 'ROUND MY NECK LIKE A SHOE LACE,
TAKE OFF YOUR MASK AND SHOW A NEW FACE,
YOUR WORDS ARE WORTHLESS,
YOU DESTROYED THE TRUST FROM THE CARCASS,
YOU'VE NO WORDS TO JUSTIFY,
YOUR WHOLE WORLD IS A LIE
I'M SØRRØWFUL,
YOU RUBBED INTO MY SOUL,
I'M A BLACK HOLE,
I WON'T SWALLOW IT ALL,
NOW THERE'S NO LOVE,
ONLY SADNESS AND DEVASTATION,
I'M THE ONE WHO FELL,
LOVE IS POISON, BUT LONELINESS IS SALVATION,
ALL THE PAIN AND SORROW I'VE ALREADY FELT
YOUR
WORDS
ARE
WORTHLESS,
YOU
DESTROYED
THE TRUST
FROM
THE
CARCASS
I'm sorrowful that's why I want to RIP YOUR ROTTEN HEART OUT OF YOUR RIBS...
A couple of torn nerves is my daily portion,
This is not love, this is a distortion,
I had to fence myself off for caution,
CUT MY HEART LIKE A SADISTIC SURGEON,
I'm not gonna lie, you only hurt me,
I would like to cry, but it's a flawed sight,
I only lose my eyesight when tears fill my eyes,
Pain impairment, this is the foundation of my whole life...
I'M SØRRØWFUL...
1
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258
BIPØLAR
I erased my past,
I snapped my fingers and changed my mask,
Several years have passed my brain is messed,
I'm still alone with regrets but at least I've dealt with the stress,
I POURED SOME EVIL FROM MY VEINS,
LIFE TOOK ON NEW VALUE AFTER I EXPERIENCED DEATH,
I STAYED ALIVE AFTER GOING THROUGH THE PAIN,
FINALLY I GOT LIFE, BEFORE I ONLY HAD BREATH,
I have played enough games,
I learned a lesson from pain,
Words hurt deeper than a blade,
The most painful feeling is when you're to blame,
It eats away from the inside,
Eats away at all thoughts in the mind,
No escape when the cage is your mind,
THAT VERY FORGIVENESS CANNOT BE FOUND
Digging in my soul, still can't reach my goal,
Thinking of my being, this is annoying feeling,
Signs on the walls, they're carved in blood,
Drowning in my thoughts that are incoherent,
My phone is tearing apart from calls,
I'm gone without saying a thing to my loved ones,
I'm sorry, I didn't want 'em to worry,
I worked on myself I was just like under water,
So much pain from worry, I WOULD RIP MY HEART OUT,
It all sounds like a fictional tale, BUT IT'S TRUE I'M BIPOLAR,
I'M LIKE AN EXTRA WORM
IN THIS WORLD
AT THE LEVEL OF DIRT,
I DON'T WANT TO RESTRAIN MYSELF ANYMORE,
MY SECOND PERSONALITY WILL KILL EVERYONE...
AHAHHHH...
I'm just tired... Ahhhhhhh...
4
0
253
LET THE PEOPLE KILL THEMSELVES
LET THE PEOPLE KILL THEMSELVES,
THEY DON'T EVEN NEED NO HELP,
I WILL SPILL ALL THE ANGER I HELD,
IF THERE'S NO ROPE THEY'LL REPLACE IT WITH A BELT,
FEED ME LIES ABOUT A BRIGHT FUTURE,
THE SECOND TIME I WON'T BELIEVE THIS BULLSHIT,
THIS IS NOT LIFE, SO I DON'T CARE IF I LOSE IT,
STAB ME IN THE BACK OR SHOOT ME WITH A BULLET,
UHHH,
I am on my own,
I've exhausted all love,
I just want to get as far as possible from y'all,
Don't even try to make me feel guilty,
I didn't hold the lighter 'fore throwing it into the gasoline
Fuck your distorted critical thinking,
Words just fall from your mouths they've no meaning,
My angel went crazy when she saw this,
It made her cry, she closed her eyes, burying her face in my shoulder,
Her heart tore apart, she felt like it was made by a vulture,
LET THE PEOPLE KILL THEMSELVES,
THEY DON'T EVEN NEED NO HELP,
I WILL SPILL ALL THE ANGER I HELD,
IF THERE'S NO ROPE THEY'LL REPLACE IT WITH A BELT
I live by my code,
Keep the blood always cold,
Assess the situation in cold blood,
Don't kneel before anyone
Keep my
Eyesight
Always
CLEAR,
Hide all
Weaknesses
With
FEAR,
Remember
That the
World ain't
Always FAIR,
HOLD TIGHTLY
The masks
ON MY FACE
THAT I WEAR
UHHHH...
LET THE PEOPLE KILL THEMSELVES,
Life seems to them more boring than death...
2
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250
"ONE FVR ALL AND ALL FVR ONE"
I regret having a heart,
This is the tool with which they tear me apart,
I should never have started,
I will never learn from scars,
People are superfluous in this world,
Without them, the earth would not have burned,
Coughing up blood is just a warning,
THIS IS A SIGNAL THAT IT'S TIME TO WORRY,
I RIPPED MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST ON MY OWN AND THEN TORE IT,
I REGRET THAT I WAS BORN IN SUCH A CENTURY,
I'M SEPARATE FROM PEOPLE DON'T MENTION ME IN HISTORY,
ALL OF YOU SO DUMB THAT YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE YOUR OWN ENEMIES,
ROT YOURSELF,
DON'T ASK FOR HELP,
I LIVE MY LIFE SEPARATELY,
I'VE BEEN THINKING 'BOUT DISTANCE MYSELF FROM ALL OF YOU LATELY,
ALL OF YOU ARE DIGGING YOUR OWN GRAVES,
I WOULD LEAVE THIS ROTTEN PLACE,
I DON'T WANT MY FACE TO BE REMEMBERED,
I DON'T WANT TO BE AMONG THOSE WHO DESTROYED THIS FUCKING PLANET
Lungs clogged with smoke,
It's hard to breathe,
I'm about to choke,
There's no future and no reason to live,
THE PAST JUST TURNS TO DUST,
I'm just tired I'm not lost,
I DON'T FEEL REMORSE for other people's sins,
I ALREADY SAID BEFORE that I am on my own,
I'VE EXHAUSTED ALL THE HATE, you'll pay for all the pain you caused,
I won't pay for you, I'M RESPONSIBLE FOR MYSELF
ROT YOURSELF,
DON'T ASK FOR HELP...
1
0
263
SLIT THRØAT
Nervous tics,
I want to spill blood burgundy,
My mind is still in the past, while the body is living currently,
I can't open my eyes when I try to it feels like in my eyes there's citrus acid,
I want to ease the pain,
My senses are distorted,
My hands reach for the blade,
About to chop the road of corpses
When I spill some blood,
I like it,
Then I feel like there's something stuck in my throat,
It's saliva,
I can't contain my true self, you know?
I find it hard to,
Keeping a monster in a cage brings to death and it's true,
Throwing a corpse across the floor is my heart tune,
Nothing personal, just my passion is violence,
I lost my common sense when I was locked in the dark, sitting alone in TOTAL SILENCE
Fill the floor with blood, it's already a pond
Damn,
I guess I need a boat,
Heal the wounds you got, you've no strength to make a sound,
That's the time when you should pray to god,
Watching your blood drain,
I can't get enough,
Even if I wanted to change,
THERE IS NO WAY
I COULD TO
I want to ease the pain,
My senses are distorted,
Slit across your throat,
PERVERSE BLISS IS MY PURPOSE...
1
0
194
CVLD FISH
I've a deficit of emotions,
Life just sold my soul at auction,
My senses are distorted,
I swear it wasn't on purpose,
I'm just negligent, my role is not a serpent,
I don’t feel despair, so I don’t drown in alcohol,
It’s empty behind my ribs, in other words, I’m heartless,
I'm used to analyzin' the situation on the facts with a cool head,
So it's stupid that you think that there's a curse,
Lack of soul is the reason why I'm ruthless,
Spill some blood and then I want more,
I chose the role of the spectator and now I use it to the fullest,
Heal your wounds on your broken heart,
I knew the outcome from the very beginning I knew it,
Feel the pain you were looking for,
For me this is already a past scenario,
I already went THROUGH IT ALL
I'm a weird trash better get rid of me,
I'm just a system crash that should be deleted,
Give no fucks 'bout what I think 'cuz I'm not the same,
I guess all of you will crucify me in flames,
I'm a weird trash better GET RID OF ME,
I'm just a system crash that SHOULD BE DELETED,
Give no fucks 'bout WHAT I THINK 'CUZ I'M NOT THE SAME,
I guess all of you will CRUCIFY ME IN FLAMES
Even when I'm silent I scare people around me,
It is like a siren in my head that I'm not normal,
I'm honestly not buying it, I hate it when I'm out of caution,
I have to keep my face, I'm a cold fish,
I'm not going to change, have I told it?
Maybe I'm evil, nobody's golden,
My ego's like a statue, motionless solid...
1
0
222
ARSENE
I have struggled with myself for too long,
Someone else in my head cannot go out,
Such a pathetic person, hopeless and worthless,
You are such a burden, you made me feel pain while I'm heartless,
YOU SHAKE MY PRIDE,
I'LL TAKE YOUR LIFE,
YOU SCRATCH MY MIND FROM THE INSIDE,
I HATE THE TIME WHEN YOU JUST CRY,
YOU'RE PATHETIC, I WANNA CUT YOU OUT,
I still realize that you're the cause of my memory lapses,
I feel like the lies I thought were true have their own reasons,
I can't get along with someone in my head,
It'll be easier for me to just erase you, or strangle you to death,
I'm tired of hearing someone's breath under my ear,
I will make the darkness enslave you, stealing your breath
ARSENE,
I'D PREFER IF YOU DIDN'T EXIST, YOU'RE MY BURDEN,
I'D NEVER BE SO SICK, YOU'RE A REAL SPLINTER,
YOU'RE THE WEAKEST PART OF ME, YOU MAKE ME ANGRY THAT I BITE MY GUMS TO THE POINT THAT MY TEETH HURT...
Ha,
I'm your nightmare,
I'm your life shade,
I'm the one you fear the most,
In your dreams you hear my words,
I'm your demon,
You're my weakness,
I want to get rid of you,
You're my body, I'm a weapon,
You're good-natured, but I'm cynical,
And this is the main difference between us...
You are a saint and I just don't care,
You are the same as everyone else,
You keep your soul pure,
All these frames will break you someday,
You're the one who used to endure,
You are not the one to complain,
You'll be silent holding all the pain,
You will cry so QUIETLY QUIETLY QUIETLY UNTIL YOUR PATIENCE BREAKS...
1
0
223
WHAT IS LØVE?
W-W-WHAT IS LOVE?
WHAT IS LOVE?
YOU CAN ONLY SPEAK BUT YOU CANNOT SHOW,
W-W-WHAT IS LOVE?
WHAT IS LOVE?
I'M TOO WEAK TO KNOW THIS FEELING, OR WHAT?
WHAT IS LOVE?
THIS FEELING IS VALUABLE AS IF FROM ABOVE
Maybe you think I'm a psychopath,
You can pray to the lord wishing me death,
Even when I say you pretend to be deaf,
You don't take my words seriously for you it's just white noise,
Every time you're 'round me you try to avoid,
I was born empty since I was a boy,
Since my birth, my path has been destroyed,
Looks like love is a thing I DO NOT DESERVE
W-W-WHAT IS LOVE?
W-W-WHAT IS LOVE?
YOU CAN ONLY SPEAK BUT YOU CAN'T SHOW,
WHAT IS LOVE?
WHAT IS LOVE?
I'M TOO WEAK TO KNOW THIS FEELING, OR WHAT?
WHAT IS LOVE?
THIS FEELING IS VALUABLE AS IF FROM ABOVE
I DON'T UNDERSTAND,
FEELINGS CAN'T BE EXPRESSED IN WORDS,
I CANNOT FEEL THEM,
IT SEEMS TO ME THAT THIS IS A CURSE,
I'M STILL AN INFANT,
WHO HAS JUST BEEN BORN,
NOT EVEN A SECOND HAS PASSED SINCE I'M ALREADY TORN...
W-W-WHAT IS LOVE?
WHAT IS LOVE?
YOU CAN ONLY SPEAK BUT YOU CAN'T SHOW,
WHAT IS LOVE?
WHAT IS LOVE?
I'M TOO WEAK TO KNOW THIS FEELING, OR WHAT?
WHAT IS LOVE?
THIS FEELING IS VALUABLE AS IF FROM ABOVE
I look at it as unknown,
I'VE NEVER FELT THIS WAY 'FORE,
Something inside me woke up,
FEELING LIKE IT WAS A HEART,
Happiness brings to the sorrow,
LOVE ALWAYS DISTORTS,
All those feelings will not go,
THIS WILL EAT AWAY AT THE HEART IN PARTS
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216
RELY VNLY ØN YXURSELF
Pretending everything's alright, doesn't help,
Everybody just plays the role of friends,
They take off their mask and throw when you ask for help,
Nobody gives a fuck 'bout you, rely only on yourself,
It cuts your feelings doesn't it?
What if the friend you thought was wasn't him?
Look at your back and count all the stab wounds,
I tried to keep my heart but it got captured,
Aaaa... HUHH...
I SHOULD HAVE RELIED ONLY ON MYSELF,
PERHAPS THEN, IN THAT CASE, I WOULDN'T HAVE GONE THROUGH HELL,
UHHHH,
I don't need a soul mate,
'CUZ I WAS BORN WHOLE,
I think I'm not broken,
JUST A BLACK HOLE ENGULFS ME,
I don't need a soul mate,
'CUZ I WAS BORN WHOLE,
I think I'm not broken,
JUST A BLACK HOLE ENGULFS ME...
THROW ME OFF THE CLIFF,
TEAR THE MASK OFF MY FACE AND FIND OUT WHAT'S UNDERNEATH,
I STILL FIND IT HARD TO BREATHE,
NIGHTMARES MAKE ME SWEAT,
I COVER MY EARS WHEN THEY SPEAK,
I DONT BEND, I BREAK THE SPINES, SO I SHOW THAT I'M NOT WEAK,
THE KNIVES ON MY BACK ARE SUCKED INTO THE SKIN,
THEREFORE, AFTER A WHILE THERE'LL BE NO TRACE LEFT,
THE MASK GIVES ME A FACE, NOW I'M NOT FACELESS,
I TRIED TO KEEP MY HEART BUT IT GOT CAPTURED
I SHOULD HAVE RELIED ONLY ON MYSELF,
PERHAPS THEN, IN THAT CASE, I WOULDN'T HAVE GONE THROUGH HELL,
I SHOULD HAVE RELIED ONLY ON MYSELF,
PERHAPS THEN, IN THAT CASE, I WOULDN'T HAVE GONE THROUGH HELL...
1
0
193
RVPE
I'm still coming to my senses,
Life fucked me, it is like rape,
I've lost something in me,
It looks like it was a face...
Life is the only bitch who fucked me,
Fuck this attention I have been tortured,
Can't look into the reflection, the blade of my life had no butter,
Now I'm torturing people,
I have no moral values,
I don't feel no empathy,
YOU COUGH UP BLOOD 'CUZ I KICK YOUR GUTS,
Huhhh,
COUGH UP A POND OF BLOOD,
LACK OF SLEEP LEFT BAGS UNDER MY EYES,
Looking back at my past MAKES ME SICK OF THAT LIFE,
I was just a bag of bones I WASN'T ALIVE,
Life just clapped its hands AND KILLED ME LIKE A FLY,
AM I THAT INSIGNIFICANT?
I went through hell and lost my feeling,
My heart turned pale, I'm a ghost with no coffin,
All the pain I felt, ADDICTED ME TO CRUELTY,
I didn't change myself, MY LIFE FORCED ME TO DO IT
I'm still coming to my senses,
Life fucked me, it is like rape,
I've lost something in me,
It looks like it was a face...
Life is the only bitch who fucked me,
Fuck this attention I have been tortured,
Can't look into the reflection, the blade of my life had no butter,
I've seen everything, everyone, I wonder what might surprise me,
Even 'fore the torture I was cynical, I always had this nature inside me,
Every day is like a groundhog, torture 24/7 and I survived it,
I feel like I'm hollow, I'VE NO MORE TEARS LEFT FOR CRYING
3
0
288
VNLY I CAN KILL MYSELF
I don't even notice how the blood merges with the rain,
Losing friends, losing loved ones, I can't take it again,
All nostalgic memories cut my brain,
When I look into my face I don't see no change,
Only I can kill myself,
For the fault that caused the interruption of our friendship with no farewell,
I value friendship, I can't stop being cold, I do not sell it,
It's just hard for me to pretend when I've never felt,
In the mirror there's the face of the one WHO CAN KILL ME,
I could easily pierce my veins with a blade, BUT THEN I WOULDN'T FEEL IT,
I'm going crazy alone, living in the past, AND FEELING GUILTY,
Lost all the shoulders I could lay on, I don't get a second chance 'cuz I'M A VILLAIN
Only I can kill myself...
Only I can kill myself...
Only I can kill myself...
I'm destined to burn in hell...
Only I can kill myself...
Only I can kill myself...
Only I can kill myself...
The devil has rung my bell...
Pain makes me smile,
I'm too tired to look for the light,
I had to get used to the pain,
Otherwise I would just go insane,
I guess I just changed my side,
I have never hated my life,
I just started to break down over time,
Uh,
PAIN MAKES ME SMILE,
I'M TOO TIRED TO LOOK FOR THE LIGHT,
I HAD TO GET USED TO THE PAIN,
OTHERWISE I WOULD JUST GO INSANE,
I GUESSED I JUST CHANGED MY SIDE,
I HAVE NEVER HATED MY LIFE,
I JUST STARTED TO BREAK DOWN OVER TIME...
UHHH,
Moral pain hurts harder than a blade...
1
0
283
CVLDHEARTED
I regret for what I am,
I can't fucking change myself,
I'm sorry I'm hurtin' my friends,
That is why I hate myself,
Fuckin', yeah, I feel that guilt!
I cannot forgive myself,
I apologize for my negligence,
I don't even feel like I'm hurting when I speak
I can't learn a lesson,
Not to get attached to people,
I don't have no demons,
My true essence is pure evil,
Evil flows in my veins,
I am tryna be humane,
Since my birth, I wasn't the same,
And since then I'm pretendin' to this day,
Uhh...
I can't learn a lesson,
Not to get attached to people,
I don't have no demons,
MY TRUE ESSENCE IS PURE EVIL,
EVIL FLOWS IN MY VEINS,
I am tryna be humane,
SINCE MY BIRTH, I WASN'T THE SAME,
And since then I'm pretendin' to this day...
I'm callous it's true,
I have no excuse,
The closer I get to someone, the more it hurts me to lose,
To be alone and not to harm anyone is what I choose,
Better to suffer alone,
Without hurting those around,
Perhaps it'll consume me from the inside like a black hole,
All my friends from the past to the present have turned into gray shadows
I regret for what I am,
I can't fucking change myself,
I'm sorry I'm hurtin' my friends,
That is why I hate myself,
Fuckin', yeah, I feel that guilt!
I cannot forgive myself,
I apologize for my negligence,
I don't even feel like I'm hurting when I speak
Cora and Helen, I sincerely apologize...
1
0
284
IT IS NOT ME
Why are they terrified?
What happened?
I just woke up...
I feel weak inside,
There is something fighting,
I hear grinding screams OUTSIDE THE WINDOW,
Uhh,
I am still alive?
I hear fucking sirens,
I'm afraid that I might pass out again,
AND DO TERRIBLE THINGS,
THERE IS SOMEONE INSIDE MY MIND
A pile of drunk bodies lie on the floor,
I keep demons in my heart,
Those guys won't leave, the demons won't let 'em,
I took all the money, there are cars on the street but they are rented,
I'VE GOT NOISES IN MY HEAD,
AND THE VOICES WANT ME DEAD
:KAFF-KAFF-KAFF-KAFF-Kaff-kaff:...
THEY'RE ALL IN MY HEAD,
IT FEELS LIKE I'M MAD,
I JUST WANNA CUT VOICES OUT OF MY HEAD,
WHEN I'M PASSED OUT, MY SECOND PERSONALITY TAKES THE BLADE,
THEREFORE, IT'S AS IF I'M ALREADY DEAD, SUNKEN UNDER WATER, I JUST SURFACE FOR A WHILE AND THEN PASS OUT AGAIN
Okay, let's estimate,
Even if I leave the house I will be instantly shot,
Snipers stand on the roof,
Heaven is closed to me 'cause of my hands that are covered in blood,
I broke all the rules,
I'm still trying to walk on tiptoe so as not to get caught,
Silence and stealth are my tools,
My goal is freedom, my demon is evil, I am just falling apart...
Why are they terrified?
What happened?
I just woke up...
0
0
240
SURVIVAL INSTINCT
I'm blinding like a splash of citrus in your eyes,
I find it like a game the excitement rises,
I hide in the bushes during the deep night,
I like to attack unexpectedly on the sly,
A firm grip of the hand holds the knife,
Wipe your eyes as if after crying,
Stab you with the knife now you're dying,
You've no strength to start the fighting,
That is why I dominate and you drown under water that only rises,
I'm not gonna grin 'cause I don't feel anything,
I am just a body with no soul, I am like a mannequin,
The only thing I feel is the distorted pleasure of suffering,
My senses passed out after being tortured up
I wrap my arms AROUND YOUR NECK,
I step quietly FROM THE BACK,
Out of the darkness I attack LIKE THE RIPPER JACK,
I'll devastate you from the inside JUST LIKE A PLAGUE,
I LET THE PAIN CONSUME ME FROM THE INSIDE,
I AM JUST A PUPPET, EVERYTHING I DO IS NOT CONTROLLED BY MY MIND,
TO BE HONEST I STILL LOOK BACK, LOOKING AT MY PAST LIFE,
I CARVED IN MY VEINS THAT I'M RUTHLESS AND IF I SHOW MY DEEPEST FEAR
IT WILL SHAKE MY PRIDE...
I'M NOT GONNA GRIN 'CAUSE I DON'T FEEL ANYTHING,
I AM JUST A BODY WITH NO SOUL, I AM LIKE A MANNEQUIN,
THE ONLY THING I FEEL IS THE DISTORTED PLEASURE OF SUFFERING,
MY SENSES PASSED OUT AFTER BEING TORTURED UP
It's just me or you, it's just kill or be killed...
0
0
296
ANIMAL
I dig my teeth into fresh flesh,
I don't remember how long I was starving,
Tearing up your neck,
Meat supplies are part of my glory,
You will pray for death,
You look so fucking innocent,
BUT THAT'S ONLY WOOL,
If I cut it off your body,
YOU'LL TURN OUT TO BE A WOLF.
SALIVA IS ALREADY FLOWING FROM MY MOUTH,
MY EYES BURN WITH HUNGER, MY TEETH BITE MY GUMS TO BLOOD,
I CAN'T WAIT NO LONGER, I WILL EAT YOU ON THE SPOT,
YOU ARE NOTHING MORE TO ME THAN SIMPLE FOOD...
I'M NOTHING MORE THAN AN ANIMAL,
I THIRST FOR YOUR BLOOD AND MEAT LIKE A CANNIBAL,
THE KIDNEY'S MY DELICACY, I MIGHT OPEN YOUR BELLY,
I SEE YOU AS A VICTIM BUT NOT AS AN ENEMY,
'CAUSE YOU'RE WEAK AS FUCK, IT'S OBVIOUS TO TELL IT,
I turn off feelings with ease,
Uh,
It makes it easier to kill,
Uh,
I NEED TO EAT TO SURVIVE,
IF NOT YOU THEN I'M THE ONE TO DIE
I THIRST FOR HUMAN FLESH I'M AN ANIMAL,
I CAN MAKE A TRAP WITH A MESH OR SET A TRAP IN BUSHES,
ABSOLUTELY GIVE NO FUCKS ABOUT YOUR LIFE, I'M CYNICAL,
THE ROLE OF THE VICTIM IS LOW IN THE HIERARCHY,
YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS PITIFUL,
YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS PITIFUL...
Uh,
I live in a cave,
Because of that I lost my face,
I play a game called cat-and-mouse,
I MAKE THE BLADE SPRAY FUCKING BLOOD,
I HATE THE WAY YOU RUN AWAY,
ESCAPE WON'T SAVE YOU FROM THAT FATE,
THE FACE OF DEATH WILL HAUNT YOU, YEAH...
My demons will remind you of who you are...
You will never run away from the past,
It will always remind you of itself...
1
0
209
COBWEB TRAP
GRAB ME WITH CHELICERA,
I'M STUCK IN A WEB,
IT TURNS OUT I'M A VICTIM,
CAUGHT IN YOUR TRAP,
MY BODY IS STUCK,
SHOULDN'T HAVE FOUGHT FOR YOUR LOVE,
NOW I GIVE NO FUCKS,
RIP MY HEART TO PIECES NOW
NOW...
I trusted again,
Can’t understand the mistake,
Now it remains to decay,
Over and over I start the game...
Unable to learn the rules,
Therefore in the end I become a broken fool,
Unable to learn the rules,
Therefore in the end I become a broken fool...
The thirst to pierce your ribs grows,
Pull the heart out, then destroy,
You don't use it anyway,
Throw your body like trash into a grave,
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT PAIN YOU GAVE ME,
Tear your soul away from your body NOTHING'LL CHANGE IF YOU DON’T HAVE IT,
Uh,
I opened my soul wide open to you IN THE HOPE THAT YOU WILL SAVE ME,
But you took me in your arms IT'D BE BETTER IF YOU LEFT ME
But you mentally torture me and you know I breathe but do not feel alive. You accepted me, but in order to destroy the remaining carcass of my life. I looked for love and found my pain. Now I'm in a daze realizing that I'm in a cage...
GRAB ME WITH CHELICERA,
I'M STUCK IN A WEB,
IT TURNS OUT I'M A VICTIM,
CAUGHT IN YOUR TRAP,
MY BODY IS STUCK,
SHOULDN'T HAVE FOUGHT FOR YOUR LOVE,
NOW I GIVE NO FUCKS,
RIP MY HEART TO PIECES NOW...
NOW...
0
0
257
SMILE MASK
It's strange to see a smile on your face,
I know that inside, you hide the pain,
So why keep it all to yourself?
Share it with me, I'll always help,
Hugging relieves stress,
But bottling up pain leads to death,
I'm afraid of this outcome,
Please, just trust me, don't withdraw
I am ready to die with you,
I've already made this decision,
You might think that I have issues with my head,
But I'm ready to go with you straight to death,
Holding your hand I won't let go,
Falling on the blades I'll breathe until I'm bleedin' out,
I'm ready to become the target by the red dot,
I don't know the name of this ambition, but it feels like chemistry
I will not survive if I lose you,
I consider it pure true love,
I'm in no hurry to open my heart to you,
I don't wanna overwhelm you with the trail of my past,
Touch my heart, the seams will break instantly,
Lingering scars leave almost no living space on my skin,
I didn’t come to self-harm, so I still have a pulse mentally,
You are the reason I'm still alive,
I could bleed crimson that night,
But with your help I found the light,
I'm hugely indebted to you for the size of my life...
Just share your pain with me,
Otherwise, you'll lose your sanity,
Pain breaks changing people,
And you're no exception...
I am ready to die with you,
I've already made this decision...
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KEEP BLEEDING ME DRY
I'VE BEEN STABBED WITH KNIVES ALL MY LIFE,
IT'S THE SAME EVERY DAY, IT'S A VICIOUS CYCLE,
Every time...
Bitch please stop feeding me lies,
UHH, UHHH, HAHA?
KEEP BLEEDING ME DRY,
I'M EXISTING TO DIE,
MY HEART FEELS IT INSIDE,
LITERS OF BLOOD IS MY PRICE,
MY LIFE HAS NO VALUE,
KEEP SUCKING ALL THE BLOOD FROM MY VEINS,
NO COMPASSION,
THE EMPATHY DEPARTMENT HAS BEEN CUT OUT OF YOUR BRAIN,
I HAVE NO AGGRESSION,
I JUST CANNOT STAND THE VICIOUS CYCLE OF PAIN,
I RENOUNCED ATTACHMENT,
I WANT TO FEEL AT LEAST SOMETHING, BUT TO TAKE RISKS I'M AFRAID,
I'D LET GO OF ALL MY GRUDGES,
I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DROWN IN HATE FOR LONG,
I WILL BLEED TO DEATH FROM THE SHARP BLADES CALLED SORROW
TRY TO PLAY WITH ME A GAME,
HIDE YOUR HATE,
SOON YOU WILL DROWN IN THIS WAVE,
I WOULD WAIT,
AND WATCH YOU SLOWLY GO INSANE,
DON'T LOSE YOUR FACE,
PUT YOUR HOPES ON FAITH,
IT WILL NUMB YOUR MIGRAINE FOR A LITTLE WHILE,
INSTILL IN YOUR BLIND BRAIN THAT EVERYTHING IS FINE
I'VE BEEN STABBED WITH KNIVES ALL MY LIFE,
IT'S THE SAME EVERY DAY, IT'S A VICIOUS CYCLE,
Every time...
Bitch please stop feeding me lies,
UHH, UHHH, HAHA?
KEEP BLEEDING ME DRY
AGHH, NAH-Nah-nah-nah...
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JVKER
BURN ALL THE MONEY,
THEY'RE ALL EMPTY,
UH,
I WILL SHOW A TRICK AFTER WHICH YOU DIE QUICKLY,
HA,
HA,
HA,
PUT A STICK ON THE BOARD AND PUNCH YOUR FOREHEAD RIGHT THROUGH IT,
I DON'T NEED NO BILLS, I NEED FUN,
I WANTED TO BE KIND BUT THEN I WAS ALONE,
THEY BEAT ME BLOODY WHILE I COUGHED ON THE GROUND,
I LET THE JOKER OUT,
HE WILL PLAY THE DEADLY JOKE.
PAINT A SMILE WITH BLOOD ON MY FACE,
HA,
HA,
VIOLENCE, I'LL MAKE WITH EXPLOSIVES A GAME,
KNIFE TO THE THROAT,
YOU KNOW WHERE THESE SCARS COME FROM?
LIFE'S LACKING IN JOY,
I DILUTE THE SADNESS IN MY OWN WAY,
MORAL VALUES ARE HIGHER THAN MONEY
The world is already rotten,
I am numb but not yet broken,
I tried to be funny, but apparently I'm a white crow,
I'm tired of holding a grudge, I let him out right now,
ARTHUR FLECK FELL INTO AN ETERNAL DREAM,
I HAVE NO FRAME NOW I AM FREE,
LAUGHTER GRADUALLY TURNS INTO A SCREAM,
I DON'T NEED FAME AS YOU CAN SEE
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BITTERSWEET
You know I can't stand a lie
ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S WITH A SMILE,
MY STOMACH'S TURNING,
MY BLOOD IS BURNING,
Huh?
I already shook hands with the devil,
All my feelings he took, NOW I CAN'T FEEL ANY PAIN,
All it cost WAS A BLOODY STAIN,
I don't close my eyes, I CALL A SPADE A SPADE,
When I reveal your lies, I'LL THROW OVER YOU A SHADE
Uhh...
Put a knife to your throat,
Now have you opened up your vile soul?
Your whole life is built on blood,
I see fear in your eyes, swallow your saliva,
Why do you think I'm crazy?
I just wanna exterminate you all liars,
AND YOU KNOW I HATE IT WHEN YOU LIE SMILING
Uhh,
I have held a grudge for too long,
Now this ain't a court but personal scores,
I don't give a fuck about your morals,
Yeah,
I AM MY OWN LAWYER,
YEAH,
I AM MY OWN LAWYER...
It's so bittersweet that it's already a pity,
I'm a killer, bitch, and I don't forgive no leeches,
No,
I won't come into yo' embrace while I'm bleedin',
I WON'T LET YOU SQUEEZE ME WHILE I'M BREATHIN'
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WHAT'S THE CATCH?
ALL THIS LOVE I CANNOT TAKE,
BECAUSE IT ONLY BRINGS PAIN,
ROTTING ON THE FLOOR IS WHAT I'M DOING EVERY DAY,
THE BRAIN IS DEAD, THE BODY'S LEFT TO DECAY,
WHAT DO YOU WANT?
I won't fall for the same trap, I will not get attached,
I don't understand what is the catch,
I went through pain AND YES I TURNED THIS PAGE,
I've a numb brain, THERE'S IN IT NO MORE RAGE,
WHAT'S SO STRANGE ABOUT THAT?
I'M SURPRISED MY BODY'S STILL CIRCULATIN' BLOOD,
BUT I FEEL THAT THE BLOOD DOESN'T REACH MY HEART
Hit to me and then leave,
Uh,
I have been through this scene,
Uh,
Emptied wallet in the blink,
Uh,
On the contrary, I'm not blind to see,
I see facts, don't blur my view,
I'm tired of the reproaches you get out of the blue,
You'll reproach me, no matter what I do,
That's why I don't accept your love EVEN THOUGH I LOVE YOU
WHAT IS LOVE?
I'M COMPLETELY CONFUSED,
ALL I SAW FROM LOVE IS ABUSE,
I don't understand WHAT IS THE CATCH,
I went through pain and YES I TURNED THIS PAGE
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ALTER EGO
I'm not going to change,
I got used to the pain,
People still end their lives,
Without realizin' their price,
My heart's stabbed with knives,
But I still hold the shards,
Hmm, should I roll the dice?
Wonderin' if I will lose my heart
Every day thousands of people jump from rooftops,
Are you still unhappy with your life?
I heard from close people that I'm a bad person and you know,
I was starting to get used to reproaches, but I couldn't stand it over time,
I've stood in front of the cliffs many times,
But I found the strength not to end my life,
Yes I am cruel and yes I am weak,
When I'm alone and everyone's against me,
Alter ego became the key,
Now I just put on masks and from time to time change 'em
Bend under people while their ego grows,
This is only the beginnin', they will make you clean their crown,
I showed 'em evil, they don't look down on me anymore,
I've lost my feelings,
I DON'T KNOW THE MEANING OF THE WORD LOVE,
AHHH...
YEAHHH...
I'm not going to change,
I got used to the pain,
People still end their lives,
Without realizin' their price,
My heart's stabbed with knives,
But I still hold the shards,
Hmm, should I roll the dice?
Wonderin' if I will lose my heart...
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BLVVDY DREAMS
A little more weight and my brains will crack,
I've a lot of stab wounds on my back,
Can't remember the names of those who made 'em,
I see ghosts that haunt me why the heck are they beheaded?
Uhhh,
Blood drips down the walls,
Blood drips from my soul,
I can't hear any calls,
My mind's in a black hole,
It's not healthy, yeah, I know,
I see hell even with my eyes closed,
Shouldn't have taken advice for white noise,
I'm haunted by demons, I'm paying the price now
I would like to pretend IT ALL JUST SEEMS,
But I'm in my mind, SEEING BLOODY DREAMS,
I want to go blind or just leave,
I can't find a reason WHY I SHOULD BREATHE...
Soon the vessel in my head will burst,
My mind ain't the first to die, my heart died first,
I'm confused with the worlds, which one is real?
Bruuuhhh...
I'm tired...
I want a world of peace without fire,
I would like to have a wish that will come true,
But I'm locked in a cage with no key to the lock,
As if drownin' in water I LOSE CONSCIOUSNESS
I can't sleep at night,
Nightmares are playing with my mind,
I wish I'd just close my eyes,
And came back to life...
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KVLD BLVVD KULT
SEARCHING FOR A VICTIM,
NEED SOME FRESH BLOOD,
TURN OFF ALL THE FEELINGS,
COVERING MY HEAD WITH A HOOD,
I TIE YOUR BODY WITH ROPES,
GOD DOESN'T HEAR YOUR SCREAMS,
ALL YOUR HOPES ARE FALSE,
DO NOT JERK YOUR LIMBS,
DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!
SO THE CEREMONY BEGAN,
One soul is sacrificed, the rest are blessed,
FEELS LIKE I'M DOING IT AGAIN,
After death, there'll be no lies, a paltry price for peace,
Isn't it?
Spilling some blood from your throat's a precaution
Speak for yourself 'fore criticizing my actions,
When death looks into your eyes, only then do you start talking 'bout justice,
YOU'RE DROWNING IN YOUR OWN LIES
HUH?
DOUBLE STANDARDS?...
I'll make a knife blade FROM THE BONES OF YOUR SPINE,
I haven't slept in days I'M NOT SURE IF I'M FINE,
I'll burn your corpse in fire, AND LEAVE IT AS A CASE,
I wear a mask I'm not a liar, I'VE A KIND FACE,
YOU'RE A VICTIM WE'RE A CULT,
OUR BLOOD'S LIKE FROST, IT'S COLD,
WE HAVE NO COMPASSION,
ARCHANGEL IS YOUR ONLY SAVIOR,
YOU'RE A VICTIM WE'RE A CULT,
OUR BLOOD'S LIKE FROST, IT'S COLD,
WE HAVE NO COMPASSION,
ARCHANGEL IS YOUR ONLY SAVIOR
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HYPVCRISY
YOU ALL CRITICIZE MY ACTIONS
BUT DON'T NOTICE YOURS,
TRY TO KILL ME WITH CROWD PRESSURE,
ADD MORE DROPS OF BLOOD TO MY HATRED FOR THE WHOLE WORLD,
SOMEDAY I'LL JUST BREAK DOWN,
BURN OUT WITH PATIENCE,
AND RIDE A KNIFE ACROSS YOUR FACES,
I AIN'T GIVE NO SECOND CHANCES
Bruh,
You destroy the concept of trust,
I'll destroy the likes of you to the last,
THERE'S A RAGE IN MY HEART FOR YOU ALL,
You're a waste of air, I'LL TAKE IT FROM Y'ALL,
For you this shit's not fair, BUT THERE'S NOTHING LEFT FOR ME,
I'm tired of your words, I'm slittin' your throat,
All patience has run out, drown in your own rot,
Your actions won't go unnoticed,
You've no good motives,
I may tie and lead you to the forest,
Anyway, without you, this world would be brighter,
Nothing in the world will make you holy,
You're just poison hurting people you are not fallen
I'm the grim reaper,
I'll reap your life,
If I dig deeper,
All lies will be revealed from the inside,
Try to turn a blind eye,
Either way, your life'll be cut short by my scythe,
THERE'S NO OTHER WAY,
GET USED TO SUFFERIN'...
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KILL ME/SVICIDAL V
My breath is a waste of air,
All the people 'round me just pretend to care,
Only when I stand with a knife in my hands are they scared,
With my eyes closed I see a great world,
When they're open it's just a nightmare,
I cannot make up my mind,
Demons give me signs,
It's time for me to end my life,
But something's holding me back,
Taking a swing, I swallow saliva,
I can't believe that I'm alone,
I'm not sure if I alone can survive this,
I just want to be gone
My body lies on the floor,
Something's written on the wall,
My palms are red,
I don't know what to feel,
My soul's already bled out,
What will change these things?
My skin is very cold, I
Guess it's time to fall asleep...
All my troubles after troubles KEEP PILING UP,
To be honest, to be honest, I'M ALREADY GIVING UP,
It's easier for me to just LET THINGS FALL APART,
'Cause all the stress with PANIC ATTACKS TEAR ME APART,
I have no time for games,
School stuff fills my brains,
I have no life I'm a slave,
All I long for is the free space,
But after school there will be work,
I remember with nostalgia the times when I was a baby,
But to be honest, I feel like a test patient,
Wanted to be distinctive
But at the end I merged with the crowd...
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VENØM
I told you not to fuck with me,
You become the same as me,
You're losing your humanity,
Just cut the web of friendship between me,
I am poison and you make yourself a victim,
I will shorten lil' by little your process of breathin',
Therefore, don't harbor false hopes,
They won't lead to anythin' good,
I cannot change every try I'm fucking up,
If you start digging you'll be sucked by evil by the root
No need to heal my wings they are poisonous,
Yes, they're black as coal, they will poison yours,
Eyes as black as emptiness I can't see anything at all,
Don't touch the wounds, they're bleedin' anyway,
I scratch them to punish myself,
What happened?
What's wrong?
What's the reason for the panic?
Didn't you want to help me a few minutes ago?
It's funny how your thoughts change by the snap of the fingers,
Quick change of mask and now you see me as a weaker,
Is it true that when you're higher than someone else,
You start to put yourself to him differently?
Is it true that when you're higher than someone else,
You start to put yourself to him differently?
Uhhh,
My wings are bleeding...
Leeches start to eat it...
I just blinked and found myself in this situation...
I just want to close my eyes and go to heaven...
My wings are bleeding...
Leeches start to eat it...
I just blinked and found myself in this situation...
Yeah,
I just want to close my eyes and go to heaven...
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LIFESTEAL
Snap and you're already dead,
I'm ambidextrous two pistols in both hands,
Alright don't be afraid I'll tell you what is going on now in my head,
Come on, come closer, I'm not stabbing in the back
Unlike others,
I do not give false hopes,
If you die in the near future from my hands,
I say this to the victims in the face before that,
YEEEEAHH,
Take a look, I'm the same as you,
I have as much pain as you,
I became a cold-blooded psychopath because of what I went through,
I became numb to blood and violence and I'm still learnin' new things about myself,
I began to see and hear the devil and I even began to believe in prospects in hell,
Maybe all the pain just broke me
But maybe it made me even stronger,
I keep control of the demons,
I use them as fuckin' weapons,
24/7 no sleep and no days off,
I bury my soul even deeper with a halo,
At first glance, I'm like Patrick Bateman,
BUT I'M ACTUALLY JACK THE RIPPER,
I'm always on the alert, CLOSE TO ME I KEEP MY CHAINSAW,
My childhood is like Dexter's, FROM BIRTH EVERYTHING IS PAINFUL
I'LL TAKE YOUR LIFE,
Darkness eats away at all light,
I'm not blind,
I'VE ADAPTED TO THE DARKNESS,
Uh,
RIP THE SPINE OUT OF THE CARCASS,
I THINK THERE'S NO LONGER WAY MUCH FURTHER,
Breakin' all the bones in your body,
I CHANGE THEIR STRUCTURE,
YOUR HEART FROM ME WILL GET A PUNCTURE,
I've as many mental problems AS YOUR BODY FRACTURES...
YEAH...
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DEMON LORD
Why do I feel ashamed?
When I look into my face,
Demons are callíng my name,
They say that I've gotta go to the grave,
I suspect that I'm the one to blame,
And that I made myself this way,
I can never catch a break,
I'm under water every day
The first bullet pierces the heart,
The second one prescribes a headshot,
Your soul will be sent to hell, my demons are gon' do this part,
BUT I'LL FILL THE FLOOR WITH YOUR RED BLOOD,
I decided to wear masks,
Thanks to nature, I'm an outcast,
Since my birth I used tó pretend,
Addiction for violence I had to imprison it in a cage in my head,
When I said that I wan' kill that is what I meant,
BUT YOU DIDN'T TAKE THESE WORDS A SERIOUS,
Now all my demons aren't my enemies,
I got the strength instead of nemesis,
I'm a crusader of demons
I AM THEIR LORD,
And together with 'em all
WE'LL TAKE OVER THE EARTH
YEEEEAHH...
My legion of demons will enslave your soul,
Then your corpse will be thrown into a coffin and I'll be the bolt,
I just bide my time and then blind,
You get in my eyes therefore I cant leave you alive,
Think twice, think twice,
'Fore saying somethin' to my eyes
Gray mice, gray mice,
Are often actually rats,
I can't stand lies,
Feeling like I'm just an ashtray,
It would be wise for you to be careful,
Do you hear it? MAYDAY, MAYDAY,
You aren't a psychopath,
DON'T PRETEND YOU ARE NOT FEARFUL
Uhhh... JUST TAKE OFF YOUR MASK, YOU'RE A TERRIFIED MOSQUITO...
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DVLCE VITA
All the positive is mixed with hate,
The end result's a bitter cake,
I wear smiles on my face,
If you see them there they're fake,
When I take off my mask everyone 'round gets scared,
Sometimes I come to cut the grass and catch all the snakes,
Yeah,
I still hope to feel the sugar life,
But it seems easier just to live in my mind,
Nobody bothers me there I can feel the wings with which I can fly,
My world is better there is more light
When I close my eyes I can feel an angel,
After its embrace, I no longer feel angry,
Sometimes my heart unloads some tears,
Perhaps it's out of fear... out... of... fear...
I'm already in paradise, without any god,
I reached this place without any prayer,
I feel the angels beside me I'm their crusader,
I'm in my world, my past deeds ain't counted here,
I feel my heart, IT FINALLY BEATS,
I ended the war AND NOW I AM FREE,
It's like I caught a star, THAT CLEANSED ME FROM MY SINS,
Went back to the start WHEN MY SOUL WAS CLEAN
This life is sugar and I love how it tastes,
Just a pinch of fantasy, that's all it takes,
That's a load off my mind, I'm in seventh heaven,
It doesn't matter if I'm alive 'cause now I feel my heartbeat,
My soul is healed,
It doesn't bleed,
I finally found my peace...
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CVME DXWN
Open your eyes, you are too high,
Expand the boundaries of your vision,
COME DOWN FROM THE SKY,
YOU'RE NO GOD, YOU'RE ALIVE,
Drop your chin,
It's disgusting to see,
YOU'RE ARROGANT,
You think you can spit in any face?
NO, MOTHERFUCKER, YOU CAN'T
FUUUCK,
I WILL RIP THE SKIN OFF YOUR FACE,
I WILL SLIT YOUR THROAT AND LEAVE IT AS A CASE,
What? WHAT'S ON YOUR FACE RIGHT NOW?
SURPRISE?
YOU'RE DROWNING IN YOUR OWN LIES,
EVERY MOTHERFUCKER WHO LIED DIES OVER TIME,
THEY POISON OTHER HUMAN LIVES...
I DON'T GOT TIME FOR YOU,
FUCK OFF,
WILL YOU GET A BROKE SPINE IT'S A FORTUNE,
LOG OFF,
DON'T RELY ON NATURE,
IT DOESN'T SPARE THE PUSSYBOYS,
Ah,
YOU WILL BE DESTROYED,
I WILL MAKE YOU PARANOID
Try to reach the sky, he sees all the sins you desperately try to hide,
He won't listen to your lies, do you really use it as a pride?
Uh,
If you start digging deeper you will reach hell,
If you see the face of a real devil you will turn pale,
Even though I've evil in my veins, IT DOESN'T MAKE ME CALLOUS,
You curse me so much that the vessel IN YOUR HEAD WILL SOON BURST
Open your eyes, you are too high,
Expand the boundaries of your vision,
COME DOWN FROM THE SKY,
YOU'RE NO GOD, YOU'RE ALIVE,
Drop your chin,
It's disgusting to see,
YOU'RE ARROGANT,
You think you can spit in any face?
NO, MOTHERFUCKER, YOU CAN'T...
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I KILLED MYSELF IN MY DREAM
Huh, where am I?
How am I still alive?
I felt like I killed myself,
Finished off life, outdid death,
Fragile on the outside, pathetic on the inside,
Outside with a knife, but inside lost and blind,
I want to die because of all the lies hidden behind a smile,
I'll do everything so that my body's empty of blood and remains dry,
PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP YOUR MOUTH,
Kicking your body ON THE FLOOR LIKE A BALL,
My blade is poisonous, NOW YOU'RE DOWN,
Swinging, I make a cut across, LEAVING YOUR BODY TO FILL A PUDDLE,
FUCK,
THIS IS ALREADY PERSONAL,
OPENING YOUR BELLY, PULLING OUT A KIDNEY I'M A CANNIBAL,
SADISM MERGED WITH RESENTMENT THAT I CAN'T LET GO,
ALL MY ACTIONS ARE NOT MY FAULT,
ALL MY ACTIONS, THEY AIN'T MY FAULT
I would kill myself not to return to the real world,
'Cause I cannot stand the pain, it hurts,
Every day I go through it only gets worse,
Maybe my life's not that worth,
Once I get hit over time I get more,
I bleed beaten on the floor,
Love and hugs are simple bait,
THEN THERE WILL BE TORTURE, AND YOU'LL FIND YOURSELF IN A LOCKED CAGE
HOW AM I STILL ALIVE?
I FELT LIKE I KILLED MYSELF,
You're just hypocritical but not kind,
It cuts my ears when you cut my skin and at the same time laugh,
I wanna stop drowning in nothingness I don't wanna die at all,
All your words don't mean a fucking thing, I'm not gonna cry, it's flawed,
I WILL KNOCK YOU OFF YOUR FEET AND THEN WILL LOOK DOWN AT YOU,
I WILL KILL YOU WITHOUT BATTING AN EYE IF I HAVE TO
Everyone lost my trust when some of my so-called friends just betrayed me,
All my past has turned to dust, I've been thinking 'bout isolating myself lately,
If I step on the same rake again, for my heart it will be deadly,
I am not aggressive yet, I enjoy the anticipation, AT THE MOMENT I AM PASSIVE,
AT THE MOMENT I AM PASSIVE
HUHHHH...
UMM...
I KILLED MYSELF IN MY DREAM...
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I SHOULD WATCH WHAT I SAY
I've a long tongue,
LIKE A POISONOUS SNAKE,
All the words are gone,
I WON'T TAKE THEM BACK
My mouth must be sewn up,
IT BRINGS LOTS OF PAIN,
I can't keep control,
I SHOULD WATCH WHAT I SAY
Yes I know my personality's awful,
HERE I SHARE YOUR HATE,
I feel guilty, but still I have a raw soul,
GUESS IT IS TOO LATE TO CHANGE,
IT-IT IS TOO LATE...
To be born and then to suffer is a vicious cycle,
I felt it on my flesh, whatever you say, I won't buy it,
I would go crazy less quickly if I lived isolated on an island,
Although I think I wouldn't stand being in total silence,
RIP OUT MY TONGUE,
STAY AWAY FROM ME,
YOU DON'T WANNA GET HURT,
BETTER LISTEN TO ME,
I WAS BORN IN A HEARSE,
I WAS JUST UNLUCKY,
I DON'T THINK IT'S A CURSE,
U-U-U-U-UHHHH...
I am grateful to my parents for everything,
I'm afraid to imagine who I'd be without 'em,
Mom and dad, you have never been my enemy,
I've always been happy with my family,
I'm ashamed of all the nasty things I said,
It still turns inside my belly and my chest,
I admit thinking that I was alone was a mistake,
I was foolish with no experience and young,
I have changed, I ain't like that anymore,
I'M NOT THE SAME,
I HAVE CHANGED...
Uhh...
I love you mom and dad...
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TOO MUCH PAIN TO HANDLE
My arms are bloodied up to my elbows,
I have itchy scars, they rapidly turn yellow,
Can't get out of the dark from my comfort zone,
I can't bring myself now,
I have mood swings,
I began to be on the side of demons more often, and because of this my angel became jealous,
I feel at the bottom even when I'm high,
Maybe 'cause sadness and pain are the foundation of my life?
I can't find a problem,
CAN'T EVEN BE HONEST WITH MYSELF,
My whole mind's distorted,
Sudden mood swings are DETRIMENTAL TO MY HEALTH
When I am nervous, unable to contain the pain, I LAUGH,
My bloody tears are gradually FILLING THE BATH
I CAN'T FIND MY WAY,
I keep wobbling FROM SIDE TO SIDE,
I've a groundhog every day,
I STILL WONDER IF IT'S TIME TO DIE,
I've lost so much soulmates,
I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO SAY GOODBYE,
I'm a ghost now, the one who's fallen,
I'VE NO REASON ANYMORE TO EVEN STAY ALIVE...
UHH,
I CAN'T FIND MY WAY,
I keep wobbling FROM SIDE TO SIDE,
I've a groundhog every day,
I STILL WONDER IF IT'S TIME TO DIE,
I've lost so much soulmates,
I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO SAY GOODBYE,
I'm a ghost now, the one who's fallen,
I'VE NO REASON ANYMORE TO EVEN STAY ALIVE...
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Explain to me please
LIFE AND DEATH,
LIFE AND DEATH,
DOESN'T DIFFER 'MONG THEMSELVES,
I CAN'T HELP,
I CAN'T HELP,
MY SIGNS OF LIFE ARE JUST MY BREATH
A TWISTED DISTORTED AND UNKNOWN FEELING JUST MAKES ME LAUGH,
WHAT IS LOVE?
WILL SOMEONE ANSWER ME OR NOT?
I CAN'T JUST GO,
CAN'T JUST RUN AWAY FROM MY OWN THOUGHTS
I AM BLIND IN THIS WORLD,
My life is not worth anything at all,
ASK ME WHY I'M SO DOWN,
My knees have been broken since I was born
DON'T PITY ME JUST BECAUSE I'M ALONE,
I have never felt so alive before,
IT DOESN'T MAKE MUCH SENSE TO RUN,
The poison's already eating my heart,
I'm still alone even when people are around,
When I ask for help they don't even turn around,
This is 'nother confirmation that I've always been alone,
Other scenes were just an illusion, now all delusions are gone...
Please explain to me,
Why am I not part of humanity?
I find it difficult to maintain sanity,
'Cause I see everyone as an enemy
I would kill myself out of boredom,
The emptiness inside is even worse than sorrow,
There is no point in living for tomorrow,
The fear of losing my life still makes me nervous,
The fear of losing my life still makes me nervous
Before aiming the muzzle of the gun at my temple,
I've no regrets, so for me you ain't have to light a candle,
They say that life is a scenario but for me it's a gamble,
I don't exclude the possibility that no one will care 'bout my death, just because I'm not special,
I'm just a psychopath who can be killed,
I'm just a psychopath who cannot feel,
Why am I not part of humanity?
I already understood, you may not explain to me
I am blind in this world,
My life is not worth anything at all,
Ask me why i'm so down,
My knees have been broken since I was born...
It's easy to die but it's hard to live,
But I find it really hard to breathe,
It leads my heart to bleed,
Recently, I've noticed that I've sudden mood swings,
You try not to change me, but to break me,
You are afraid of me 'cause of the fact
That I'm not the same,
You don't feel safe,
I can see all the fear that you desperately try to hide,
It still remains clearly visible to me, no matter how many lies you hide,
But I still get offended by the fact that you think I am blind,
This is an insult from you towards me, why are you forcibly putting on a smile?
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I WOULD DIE FVR YOUR LIFE
EVERYTHING'S FINE,
IT JUST SEEMS TO YOU THAT I'M CRYING,
I'VE PROVEN THAT I HAVE A SPINE,
DON'T GIVE A FUCK THAT I BLEED DYING,
NOW I FEEL RELIEF INSIDE,
ANGELS EMBRACE ME, I HOPE MY CHOICE WAS RIGHT,
I WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU, I WILL WATCH YOU FROM THE SKY,
I AM CALM THAT I HAVE PROVED,
I DIED FOR YOUR LIFE,
NOW I CAN QUIETLY CLOSE MY EYES,
I DON'T KNOW IF MY DECISION WAS WISE,
NOW I'M CALM BECAUSE I SAID GOODBYE,
NOW MY SOUL'S UNBURDENED AND I CAN RECLINE
I WOULD DIE
FOR YOUR LIFE,
EVERYTHING IS FINE,
NOW I FEEL RELIEF INSIDE
UHH,
I WOULD DIE FOR YOUR LIFE,
I PROVED IT BY ACTION,
I WOULD NEVER LIE,
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING YOU'RE MY PASSION,
Uhhhhh...
My heart will survive even among the ashes,
I had one thought more than once that my life has no meaning,
So much time has passed,
I still haven't changed my mind,
I'm beginning to quickly believe in it,
I'm sure that with you I am blessed,
I'm ready to die,
I'll become a victim so I will show my devotion and love with immeasurable feelings
Uhhh...
It's time for me to recline and quietly close my eyes...
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TØXSICK
It's hard to keep sanity when every friend becomes your sworn enemy,
I am not crazy I just lost my patience when everyone started to devalue me,
I feel like a patient, or worse, like a guinea pig,
Violence is my passion, are you surprised?
Crush your skull with a piece of brick,
They cut my skin and when the blood drained they licked,
They felt like they were dominating the weak,
But the weak just harbored anger,
Sharpen the blade and then swing later,
After putting all the facts together,
I realized that after the murder, only after it'll I start to feel better
I walk past the graves,
I see the ghosts who can't find a place for themselves,
I can't feel my breath,
I can feel their suffering and pain they went through in hell,
I'm afraid to become like them,
I want to fall asleep after death,
I want to escape the nightmare and fall into a deep sleep,
I want to escape the nightmare and fall into a sweet dream,
I was constantly hiding from the fire, but it found me, I'm bleeding,
I have no more tears left to cry, it fucking hurts while I'm breathing,
Add shards of glass to my plate while I can't see,
It hurts to death when they hide their hatred behind the smiles they wear,
It's a knife in the back, I walk on blades mixed with glass and bleed,
I became poisonous, toxic, sadistic; when you saw me being pierced with blades, did you care?
It's hard to keep your common sense when everyone stabs you with blades while laughing...
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SPINAL ANGEL WINGS
It's understandable, people get scared, they're as like to turn to God as anything else. God died with the gold standard. We're on to more concrete faith now. You have to rob Paul to pay Peter, there is no other way. Murder in its simplest form, but what happens when all the money is gone?
Well, money becomes a matter of faith.
Keep on claiming to be a saint,
You're the same as everyone else,
Keep changing the masks on your face,
You are digging your own grave by telling new lies, stop burying yourself,
I'm at least honest with myself,
I've a chronic diagnosis of a psychopath,
I'll feel like myself only after death,
But as long as I'm alive I will just pretend
I long for death, or rather for rest,
It's bitter to laugh, it makes me letting out some tears,
Speak for yourself, don't mention my past,
I ripped my heart out of my chest,
I got rid of weakness and turned it into AN ADVANTAGE OUT OF FEAR,
Wings sprout on my back straight from my spine,
Things still haven't changed, they're still wasting my time,
My heart and soul are still pitch black, they're better off when they're in silence,
My heart still bleeds and aches in pain,
MY SOUL'S GENERALLY CLOSED IN THE CORNER
ANGELS ARE ALL AROUND ME,
Pain behind the ribs, I CAN'T RELEASE IT THROUGH A LOUD SCREAM,
It seems to me MY BODY WILL SOON BE FOUND DEAD,
Angels are my judges,
Death will be a favor to me,
Breathing is a punishment,
The devil is the father to me...
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BVRN TV DIE
My life is dim and not too bright,
I'm drowning in a bathtub soaked in blood, I can't get out,
A silent scream cannot get out,
My destiny is laid out along a broken road, I was born to die,
Childhood is the beginning and adolescence is awareness,
No, don't try to convince me otherwise,
The soul is the subject of a sacrifice,
I am tired of choking on sweet lies,
My soul will be free only in paradise,
SORRY FOR MY SINCERITY AND DIRECTNESS,
I just can't keep quiet, can't shut my mouth, CAN'T HOLD ALL THE SADNESS,
Fuck it, otherwise, I would break inside, MAYBE I WILL BE BEHEADED,
I'm not stupid to realize that all your tips are LEANING TO THE BENEFIT
I'M BORN TO DIE,
I'M TORN ALIVE,
Stuck in the dark I SEE NOTHING I'M BLIND,
Cursed since the start, I'M NOT WORTHY OF LIFE,
I hide my scars, THEIR STORY SHOULDN'T BE FOUND,
Ahhhhh,
I went too far, my body had to ROT IN THE GROUND
Why am I still alive?
I WONDER WHY,
I WAS BORN TO DIE,
SO WHY PLAY FOR TIME?
WHY?...
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Who Am I?
Deep in my mind, I wonder who I am,
I don't really feel alive, without any name,
Breath and life are not the same,
I'm drowning in my questions inside, but I can't find an answer to them,
Life is as if not yours,
Everything is only getting worse,
This feeling's like some kind of curse,
And I'm locked up with this burden with closed doors,
The thoughts in my head are a maze,
This is a ball of thread that can't be deciphered,
I try to put a smile on my tired face,
I just want to understand who I am
But all is in vain...
Cold blooded, why do you deny your true nature?
Don't you look at the violence with pleasure?
Erase all norms forget about all measures,
EVERYONE CHANGES UNDER PRESSURE!
Nah, nah, nah,
Humanity is still in me,
My second personality is killing me,
Fighting with yourself will lead to the death of both,
Crying for some help will not save me 'cause I'm closed,
Even if you wanted to, you couldn't read my thoughts,
Because some kind of consciousness is pushing me out,
I try my best to hold on but it knocks me off...
Deep in my mind, I wonder who I am,
I don't really feel alive, without any name,
Breath and life are not the same,
I'm drowning in my questions inside, but I can't find an answer to them,
Life is as if not yours,
Everything is only getting worse,
This feeling's like some kind of curse,
And I'm locked up with this burden with closed doors,
The thoughts in my head are a maze,
This is a ball of thread that can't be deciphered,
I try to put a smile on my tired face,
I just want to understand who I am
But all is in vain...
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WICKED PSYCHOPATH
I have done bad things and only after did I looked back,
In order not to die of unbearable pain, I had to laugh,
It left a mark on my psyche but I didn't even notice,
MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE IS ONE BIG JOKE,
I'M TIRED OF LOOKING FOR LIGHT, I'D RATHER TAKE HELP FROM DEATH, I'M BROKE,
WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I WAS BLEEDING ON THE FLOOR?
YOU SAW MY INFERIORITY AND THEN YOU CLOSED THE DOOR,
YOU SAY THAT LOVE IS PURE SUPPORT,
BUT IN REALITY THE HEART IS A CURSE
Be careful with your actions in the dark,
I haven't forgotten what you did, it still hurts,
I will not accept defeat, this is war,
I was hoping though I knew the outcome since the start,
ANSWER ME,
WHAT'S THE MOTIVE OF ALL SUFFERING?
YOU SMOTHERED ME,
I DON'T WANNA TAKE YOUR HELP, I WOULD RATHER BLEED
I push everyone away knowing IT WILL DROWN ME EVEN MORE IN PAIN,
I'm an animal, I ran away from the past, they do not know me, AS WELL AS MY FACE,
I distanced myself, yeah, SO I FEEL SAFE,
You will never understand me, I'M ON A DIFFERENT WAVE
Blood on my lips, I love that blissful taste,
The heart is dead behind the ribs, it is rotten and black,
The price for my peace wasn't cheap, I gave my soul but in the end I was betrayed,
I'm cold outside but deeply I still hold a grudge, I can't just accept that fucking pain,
I am cold blooded,
But what prompted me to become like that?
You are deluded,
I came to the conclusion that the safest thing for me would be to be with myself,
NO LOVE, RESPECTIVELY, NO PAIN,
I've played enough torture, I'm out of the game...
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