Sometimes...
Sometimes i wish i could disappear.. Not be invisible,no that's boring... Just disappear.. Stop existing.. My existence has not bring much either.. I have known more pain than i should.. More failures.. More rejections.. Sometimes i see my life like a sick joke.. My arrival on earth was a mistake.. Besides animals i do not get along with people much.. I stay on my own as i have seen that humans are the bigger monsters to be around.. Yet,its with the human itself i fall in love with.. Sometimes i wish i could forget... Who i am.. Who i was.. Who i will be.. Going after goals for what? A stabilised job? Have a house of my own? A car? My independence? Then what? More goals? Its a miserable routine with no ends.. Or get married,have children,look after them? Another miserable routine... So much i wish i could have done differently.. Choose differently.. Die when i should have died.. Its a lonely lonely world.. With creatures ready to swallow you everywhere... Sometimes i wish i could have some peace... Peace from everyone... If they are incapable of love... Yet, give me peace... Dysfunctional families really make the worse kind of individuals out there.. Being bullied too.. Being rejected countless times too.. Being not enough.. Being different.. Sometimes i wish i was the monster people believe me to be... Atleast no one would be disappointed then.. I crawled out from my darkness to stand where i am today yet it seems it was not the right choice to do..
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sje_107
I understand where you coming from. We might be here to write down our pain, even our joy for others to read
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2018-11-27 20:45:58
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alvahmara
I hope nobody continues this way of life I hope everybody will find their way back
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