I try to take moments out of every day, To count my blessings. They help with the pain. Even the teardrops That stain my cheeks, I count those too. Because I'm still here making it. I'm still trying to get through. I've been trying to heal Since the day you left. But nothing has been the same. Hasn't been right. The past floods my mind. When I felt happy to be breathing, You were that reason. I wasn't looking for anything. But what I had found in you, Was sudden. You enveloped my world. Made me feel brand new. And then, In the blink of an eye, You were gone. It isn't right. The pain I will always feel, Stopped my heart still. It's getting worse. I just no longer have the will. I'm unhappy. Incomplete. You were the only one I wanted. The only one I needed for me. Like an October leaf, I struggle to hold on tight. But this breeze is so strong, That it just might break my branch. Causing me to fall slowly to the ground. Like how I felt that day. When I was told You would no longer be around. The day you were just...gone. The day my world turned upside down. How could it be? Moments before you were next to me. Dropped me off at my house Just a few hours before. And now you're just...gone. No more. There isn't an us anymore. Or a chance to be. I'll never get to tell you What you meant to me. I didn't get to say goodbye. That alone forever haunts me. I love you so much! Although looking back, I didn't have a clue! Or realized how much You had changed me. When you left this world, That was the moment I realized, How deep my feelings actually went For you. I took our time for granted. I wish I could do it over again. To take it all in. Really cherish our time spent. God how much I need you! The tears I have cried for you.... You are impossible to forget! You are a part of who I am now! Tell me what it takes To overcome this wave. This big one... That is sure to wash me away. Will I be able to see you again? Will I be able to feel you Gently upon my skin? Will too much of this breeze Finally be the one that sets me free? Will it be over and done? This agony? Please tell me! I'm ready! To see you again, I'd give anything! Surrendering my heart To the sea of tears that I have cried, I wonder... Is it here? Is it my time? Will my dreams come true? Will this wave pull me under? Will it take me to you? This wave that's getting closer... It sure looks bigger. Bigger than the ones before. I guess I'll find out When it gets here. Until then, I will be here. Waiting for you, To walk with you, Along Heaven's Shores. ©shantilly