I Lack Motivation
Black is the only colour in my life
I lack motivation for anything
I tell myself that no one cares about my existence
I have negative and evil thoughts of taking my life
I know people care but thoughts are stronger than my will to believe
I taught my heart and mind to block all these emotions
I give myself physical and emotional pain
Saying that I deserve the hurt and the sufferings
I don’t really know why but I take it all
But I always let it overpower and crowd my mind.
My friends ask why am always quiet, sad, and very thoughtful
I tell them that am tired very tired
All thanks to my fake grin that fools them all
It convinces them that am fine very fine.
I hate to think of the day
The day I lost my sweet self, the day I lost all
The day the world took away my innocence
The day I learnt that people can survive without me
The day they inflicted pain on me, forced to join the enemies
The day they swore to take my life and that of my loved ones
If I ever opened my big mouth to tell the world the truth
The day they feed me with fear, I hate it cz I did their dirty works
2018-12-19 15:25:14
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