Motherhood

John Sarah

Tiny clothes, shoes, diapers, I thought I had this thing called motherhood mapped out I thought my childbirth would be smooth But the roadblocks I encountered are a story for another day Coming home with my tiny bundle of joy I never thought of the lonely sleepless nights Colicky cries, breastfeeding was the worst of all The adverse effect they would have on me Frustrations were many from "well-meaning" folks Their opinions abundant on anything and everything I was doing wrong They made me feel weak, inadequate in every way and the worst mother ever Isolating myself in the safety of my room, exhausted, slowly loosing it The person who was to protect me from this Was the one feeding the hungry ears Their tongues wagged, words became vile Sinking deeper and deeper in this abyss Feeling numb, no pleasure in motherhood Slowly loosing the battle and letting darkness engulf me Getting professional help was the only way out my mum said Medicine prescribed, I said fuck their advice and opinions Cradling my baby, swaying her side to side I chose sanity, I chose life, I chose my baby My pride, the daughter of my youth

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The girl that questions everything,is a girl that needs many answers.She wanders the earth trying to find the person that can answer her many queries.Everthing she writes has a hidden question that makes her heart ache and her head hurt.She spends days writing sad story's that she forgets her sad life.Shes in a painful story that never ends,she's in a story that writes itself.The pages in the book were filled ever so easy,because her heart wrote it for her.She spent her life being afraid,that's what made it so boring.Finding her passion was easy,but fulfilling it was the hardest part of all.Her writing may be boring and sad,but it's what keeps her sane. "She had all the questions in the word,and he had all the answers." Lillian xx

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Юлія Богута

«And in my hour of darkness She is standing right in front of me Speaking words of wisdom, "Let it be"» Beatles - Let it be Хай буде так. Прийми своє життя. Прийми негоду, біль і в серці рану. Прийми свою не вічність, як буття. Прийми, що у людей на тебе інші плани. І не кричи, не плач, коли летиш із неба. Земля тверда. Це так. Реальна. Не м'яка. Живи та не шкодуй. Так було треба. Можливо не тобі. Комусь. Чиясь рука. Ти витримав. Стерпів. Усі пройшов дороги. Ти не зламався, ні. Ти просто біг не так. Ти просто падав. Просто вірив богу, І довіряв не тим. Кохав не так. Хай буде так. Прийми, що ти один І залишайся сильним, що б не було далі. Життя лиш мить, в яку стікає плин годин. Лиш зайчик сонячний, ребро медалі. Бо що б не було - ти не вічний, ні. І те що має тут коштовність, там - згорає. Ти помираєш тут. Зникаєш на війні. Та пам'ятай - у смерті щастя аж ніяк немає.

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