NVNSENSE AT 3AM
3 a.m.
I look in the mirror and don't know who I am,
Deceitful and two-faced man, or just a lost soul,
I can't answer the questions that I ask myself,
Maybe because I lost my own self,
In any case, insomnia still exists,
I don't know the reason why I still breathe,
I still haven't changed and there is no chrest 'round my neck,
Angel whispers in my ear but I covered it with my hands,
I don't know who to trust, fear of everything made me paranoid,
Nowhere to go, I'm a lost boy,
Emptiness crowded out all joy,
People are the ones I avoid.
The door is locked,
The windows are boarded up,
My mind is fucked,
I still do not feel alone.
Someone's standing next to me,
Being safe is all I want to be,
I can't stand the new life and its new shit,
Although fate works and will be against me and I knew it.
Demons always stand by my side when I'm 'boutta go to bed,
They creak, make noise, as if in my head,
I can't escape them like I'm dead,
At times I see no perspective from the existence of my breath.
The sky is so dark but there is no one to help me,
My life's existence and I don't consider myself healthy,
I still have problems that I still haven't dealt with,
They will always haunt me till I personally meet death.
It is scary to look back,
Ghosts still hunt me from the past,
Life still hasn't given me a check, and
I'm not sure if will ever give away.
I take off my masks, their thickness is large,
I'm tired of them all, frequent change is hard,
I left it in the past, I don't want it to come back,
My head's full of a mess that just can't be gone from there...
2021-02-20 18:39:39
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