NVNSENSE AT 3AM

CVLD BLVVDED

3 a.m. I look in the mirror and don't know who I am, Deceitful and two-faced man, or just a lost soul, I can't answer the questions that I ask myself, Maybe because I lost my own self, In any case, insomnia still exists, I don't know the reason why I still breathe, I still haven't changed and there is no chrest 'round my neck, Angel whispers in my ear but I covered it with my hands, I don't know who to trust, fear of everything made me paranoid, Nowhere to go, I'm a lost boy, Emptiness crowded out all joy, People are the ones I avoid. The door is locked, The windows are boarded up, My mind is fucked, I still do not feel alone. Someone's standing next to me, Being safe is all I want to be, I can't stand the new life and its new shit, Although fate works and will be against me and I knew it. Demons always stand by my side when I'm 'boutta go to bed, They creak, make noise, as if in my head, I can't escape them like I'm dead, At times I see no perspective from the existence of my breath. The sky is so dark but there is no one to help me, My life's existence and I don't consider myself healthy, I still have problems that I still haven't dealt with, They will always haunt me till I personally meet death. It is scary to look back, Ghosts still hunt me from the past, Life still hasn't given me a check, and I'm not sure if will ever give away. I take off my masks, their thickness is large, I'm tired of them all, frequent change is hard, I left it in the past, I don't want it to come back, My head's full of a mess that just can't be gone from there...

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shadowlinxxx morgan

ENGLISH;I am happy, when the sun shines bright and your smile is genuine.I am sad,when the rain pours down and your eyes flood with tears.I am angry,when you lie and are selfish.I am jelous,when you spend your time with everyone but me.I am excited,when I know I have a day ahead with only you.I am worried,when your promises are slipping away from my reach.I am heartbroken,when you prove to me I will forever be alone.I am scared,when my nightmares turn into a reality.I am lonely,when you walk away for good.I am so damaged,when you break my heart over and over again.. I am tired,when I feel all these emotions at once.I feel so alone,that I'm starting to like it that way.I feel too many emotions,and that's what makes me human.I feel things,and that is something I'm not capable of stopping.I am not going to hide away my emotions,because without them I mean nothing,with out them I am nothing. Lillian *Sorry about errors* RUSSIAN; Фамили счастлив, когда ярко светит солнце и "твоя улыбка искренняя". Мне грустно, когда льет дождь, а твои глаза наполняются слезами. Я злюсь, когда ты лжешь и эгоистичен. Я болею, когда ты проводишь время со всеми, кроме меня. Я взволнован, когда я знаю, что у меня впереди только один день. Я волнуюсь, когда твои обещания ускользают от моей досягаемости. Я с разбитым сердцем, когда ты Докажи мне, что я навсегда останусь один. Мне страшно, когда мои кошмары превращаются в реальность. Я одинок, когда ты уходишь навсегда. Я так поврежден, когда ты разбиваешь мне сердце снова и снова .. Я устал , когда я чувствую все эти эмоции одновременно. Я чувствую себя настолько одиноким, что мне это начинает нравиться. Я чувствую многие эмоции, и это то, что делает меня человеком. Я чувствую вещи, и это то, что я Я не собираюсь прятать свои эмоции, потому что без них я ничего не значу. Лилиан и моя дорогая подруга Фиалка Я скучаю по ультрафиолету LILLIAN xx

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shadowlinxxx morgan

The girl that questions everything,is a girl that needs many answers.She wanders the earth trying to find the person that can answer her many queries.Everthing she writes has a hidden question that makes her heart ache and her head hurt.She spends days writing sad story's that she forgets her sad life.Shes in a painful story that never ends,she's in a story that writes itself.The pages in the book were filled ever so easy,because her heart wrote it for her.She spent her life being afraid,that's what made it so boring.Finding her passion was easy,but fulfilling it was the hardest part of all.Her writing may be boring and sad,but it's what keeps her sane. "She had all the questions in the word,and he had all the answers." Lillian xx

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