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SLAVE VF THE HEART
I can't understand why
I'm losing everyone I have,
So fuck them,
It feels like I'm being used
And I'm just a thing,
Nah,
ALL I DO IS PLAY THE ROLE OF A SLAVE,
This game is fucking sick,
IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO WIN,
I want to break the system AN' THEN JUST LIVE IN PEACE,
I think it's time to snap and spill blood in a stream,
I think this life's a crap, THERE'S NO REASON TO EXIST,
EVERY TIME I BECOME A SLAVE,
I HATE THIS ROLE,
TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL,
BREAKING MY LIFE,
WHAT HAPPENS IN YOUR MIND WHEN YOU INTENTIONALLY KILL?
I JUST DON'T SEE THE PROS OF BEING ALIVE
WHEN YOUR LIFE IS RULED
BY SOMEONE ELSE
I can't fucking fall asleep even for a little while,
All that pain I cannot keep, I JUST WANNA POUR IT OUT,
All this pain went very deep, I don't see a single light,
I hear voices in my head and
THEY'RE GETTIN' FUCKING LOUD
MY BODY HANGS IN THE AIR,
My soul wonders if it's fair,
BUT SOMEHOW I DON'T CARE,
Anyway,
Everything I do when I'm alive
AFTER DEATH GOES NOWHERE...
EVERYTHING I DO WHEN I'M ALIVE AFTER DEATH GOES NOWHERE...
I'm a slave of the heart and I guess it's my mistake...
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TRUE MASK
I'm so grateful to nature for makin' me cold-blooded,
I'm not afraid of torture it's a passion to be honest,
But I live on and wear masks often,
Without 'em, I would have been killed at school age,
So here is how,
I don't know
Who I'd be without cold blood,
But fuck it,
I guess,
I ACCEPT WHAT I AM,
I DO NOT HAVE TO REJECT MY REAL SELF
I'd to create a different personality to deal with all the pain,
It will take a lot of time and nerves to heal all wounds, insane
I'm about to kill this life my senses telling me it's happenin' again,
I cannot make up n' decide if I live this life for anythin' or in vain
I wonder why it made me a psychopath,
When someone dies bleeding I walk past,
Sometimes I regret I was made this way and then I'm so sad,
I can only imagine 'nother life with my eyes closed, bad,
When I'm angry I can kill,
I regret that I can't feel,
For all the pain and blood that spilled,
I will never feel no guilt...
I don't exclude the possibility that this could all be a dream,
And all the blood and all the cruelty 'round me really just seems,
And when I'm rude or seem like an psycho, then I just needa blow off some steam,
This may sound funny but it's true I still wake up in a cold sweat from some dreams...
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LEAVE ME DRØWNING HERE IN BLVVD
Of course
I don't feel no pain,
I don't wan' have anything to do with you,
You yourself cut my veins,
Leave me drowning here in blood,
I don't need your help,
I already hope for death,
All those feelings that I felt,
Turned my brain to fucking jell,
Leave me here to die alone,
My hand's still holding the gun,
But I don't think that it'll be useful to me,
I'm already bleeding I ask you to leave,
I don't want the last thing I saw was a mask on your face,
After death I'll be better, I'll melt in the death's embrace,
Your heart's blackened anyway,
I won't give a second chance
The sounds of sirens in my head,
Make me deaf,
BLOOD FROM MY BOTH EARS FLOWS THROUGH THE STREAM,
I'm already craving for death,
Ripping the heart out of your chest I feel equilibrium in justice,
All that I remember from the past is the pain you caused me,
I don't need your 'pology,
Love right now is anarchy,
Keep your lies to yourself,
Only when I'm by myself,
I'M ALRIGHT FOR REAL
YEAH,
JUST LEAVE ME DROWNING HERE IN BLOOD...
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CVLD BVDY
MY MIND'S COLLAPSIN' DOWN BY VIOLENCE,
AND I SIT HERE ALONE IN SILENCE,
WILL I BE PUNISHED FOR THE THINGS I DID?
NOW I'M DYING MENTALLY MY SOUL IS BLEEDIN',
BLOOD FLOWS BUT I'M NUMB,
PULSE DROPS, 'CAUSE OF THE BLOOD ON THE PALMS,
I'M NOT SURE IF I CAN PAY THE PRICE,
A FADING WORLD IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES...
MY HEART HAS BEEN WITHERED BECAUSE OF YOUR LIES,
YOU ARE THE KILLER WHO MADE MY DEMISE,
I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP, IT'S A MASK ON YOUR FACE,
I'M BETTER OFF MYSELF, YOU ARE DIGGIN' OUR GRAVE,
I'M FINE ON MY WAVE, AWAY FROM YOU I'M ALWAYS SAFE,
I KNOW IT HURTS TO HEAR, BUT YOU'RE THE SOURCE OF MY PAIN
THESE DAYS I DON'T GIVE A FUCK,
THE BLANK LOOK OF MY FACE THAT IS NUMB,
DROWNING IN THE WAR
OF MY MIND
AND MY HEART,
I DON'T CARE 'BOUT BLEEDING SCARS,
THEY AIN'T MINE,
SO WHY'D I WORRY 'BOUT SOMEONE?
Yes, I'm fucking cold,
The reason for this, THEY MADE ME WHO I'M NOW,
I already opened my heart,
I WON'T MAKE MISTAKES LIKE THIS ANYMORE
Huh?
WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME WITH SUCH A SURPRISED LOOK?...
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I DVN'T BELIEVE MY HEART
FUCK THE FEELINGS,
LOCK THEM UP,
THEY'RE KILLING ME AND DRAG ME DOWN,
I would rip my heart completely out of my chest,
I'VE BEEN FEELING BETTER LATELY WITHOUT LIVING IN MY PAST,
I got my love and it is death,
I didn't fall in front of some ass,
The devil made me blessed,
The evil in my veins started to run way faster,
Faster,
I slit my last bitch's throat she treated me like a duster,
Duster,
Then I threw her corpse into the river,
I AIN'T REGRET THIS ACT,
She made my heart silver,
I WROTE HER A CHECK,
I may be a killer,
BUT SHE TURNED MY HEART BLACK,
And since then I don't trust my heart,
I'VE NO MORE SPACE FOR KNIVES IN MY SCARRED BACK,
I've already heard about my status of nutty,
Nutty,
Those who said so are already drownin' in a pool of blood and it's funny,
Funny,
I have like-minded people only they are in my mind we're an one man army,
Army,
We'll swallow you with evil and darkness AND THEN KILL YOU WITH CUNNING
CUNNING,
YAH...
To be honest...
To be honest...
I do not believe my heart...
To be honest...
To be honest...
I'm tired of bleeding scars...
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SØURCE VF EVIL
I'M STILL THE SAME, I'M LIVING IN PAIN,
FORGOT MY NAME, AND CAME UP WITH A NEW PERSONALITY INSTEAD,
A TORN SOUL IS ALL THAT REMAINS,
FROM MY PAST LIFE, OR IS IT ALL A MADE-UP LIE?
I'M STILL DROWNING IN BLOOD,
I CANNOT FIND THE ROOT OF MY EVIL,
EVERY DAY I STARE AT ONE POINT,
TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY HEAD,
Who the fuck said you that I'm just a beast?
I have problems too I just want some peace,
FROM DESPERATION I HAVE TO KILL,
I DO NOT HAVE ANYONE ELSE TO BE
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-Gonna pierce your body and then hurt your brains,
Bitch,
It is like a hobby, waiting I'm losing my patience,
To me it's not disgusting, I feel the passion,
I don't feel that sorry my heart is very glacial.
Look into my eyes, you'll see and feel all the pain,
All those smiles are a disguise, I don't feel anythin',
Yeah, I'm full of lies from the inside, I keep it locked with a key,
My soul had a light, and I even tried to light it up, but emptiness filled everythin'...
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-I'm trying to change, I try to find the reason for my being... I try to find the source of my evil, but everything's to no avail...
No avail...
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I'M STILL THE SAME, I'M LIVING IN PAIN,
FORGOT MY NAME, AND CAME UP WITH A NEW PERSONALITY INSTEAD,
A TORN SOUL IS ALL THAT REMAINS,
FROM MY PAST LIFE, OR IS IT ALL A MADE-UP LIE?
I'M STILL THE SAME, I'M LIVING IN PAIN,
FORGOT MY NAME, AND CAME UP WITH A NEW PERSONALITY INSTEAD,
A TORN SOUL IS ALL THAT REMAINS,
FROM MY PAST LIFE, OR IS IT ALL A MADE-UP LIE?
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WHAT'S WRVNG WITH ME?
I PIERCE YOUR SKULL WITH THE SOLE OF MY BOOT,
I RECEIVED HATE BUT I CAN'T REACH ITS ROOT,
MY MIND IS INSANE IT CHANGES MY MOOD,
AND I'M HIS SLAVE HERE MY HANDS ARE TIED UP,
I'M TRYNA FIGURE OUT WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME,
BUT I CAN'T FIND A BLACK HOLE THAT ABSORBS THE POSITIVE,
I SCREAM IN A CAGE BUT IT LOOKS LIKE I'M ALONE,
I'LL RELEASE ALL THE RAGE AND BREAK ALL YOUR BONES
I PLAY WITH THE BLADE CUTTING PEOPLE TO PIECES,
HOW MANY CORPSES HAVE I MADE, BUT MY SOUL STILL DOESN'T FEEL A THING,
I WOULD SAY I LIKE TO SHED A LOT OF BLOOD AND LOOK LIKE A VILLAIN,
I SEEM TO TAKE OFF MY MASK AND REVEAL MY TRUE FACE AND GET RID OF THE NEED TO PRETEND.
BUT WAIT,
SOON I'LL MOVE INTO A NEW PHASE,
WHERE I'LL RIP THE BODIES WITH A CHAINSAW,
I'LL CHOP OFF YOUR LEGS IN THE KNEE AREA
AN' THEN YOU'LL HAVE TO USE A CANE...
I still hope that I'll change someday,
I can't live as a cannibal, it's disgusting,
With every kill my cursed soul grows more rotten,
I can't look into my face that's under the skin full of sins and pain,
I am not a human and far from a saint,
I bring chaos and pain I can't live with myself,
I WANT TO RUN FAR AWAY FROM MYSELF,
BUT THE PROBLEM IS THAT I CAN'T GET OUT OF MY SKIN,
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME,
MY SOUL NEVER BE FREE,
I'LL WATCH IT BLEED,
FOR THE THINGS THAT I DID,
ALL BLOODY TEARS WILL DISSOLVE INTO EMPTINESS
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FAREWELL NVTE
I HOPE YOU FIND MY FAREWELL NOTE,
AND LEAVE ME ALONE,
MY HEART IS WITHERED FROM YOUR ROT,
IT DOESN'T 'CCEPT YOUR LOVE,
I DON'T WANNA FIND YOU IN A POOL OF BLOOD,
WHERE YOUR BODY'LL BE ALL RED AND COLD,
I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU
BUT I'M DYING WHEN I'M 'ROUND YOU
Know it's not your, not your fault,
I want us to be happy that is all,
Perhaps you'll think that I've no balls,
But it won't matter anymore,
I'm writing this to you so that you know,
That I didn't disappear because of you,
Naturally there was a reason for this and it's because I love you,
I love you,
I didn't dissapear because of you...
It's because I love you...
I would glad to devote my life,
But it looks like we're two parallel lines,
WE'RE NOT COMPATIBLE,
I'M SO SORRY TO ADMIT IT,
I WOULD LIKE TO BE WITH YOU,
BUT THIS IS HOW I'M KILLING YOU...
And myself...
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OUT VF SANITY
DOC SAID I SHOULD BE CALMER,
BUT I BROKE DOWN AN' THEN SMASHED HIS SKULL WITH A HAMMER,
AND FALLING TO MY KNEES I WATCHED THE BRAIN FLOW FROM THE SKULL,
A FEW SECONDS LATER I CAME TO MY SENSES AND SAW THAT I WAS STANDIN' IN A BLOODY POOL,
I'VE A SPLIT PERSONALITY, I REMEMBER KEEPING SOMEONE IN THE FRIDGE,
THIS DOESN'T MAKE ME TERRIFIED, BUT THE DISTORTED JOY THAT I KILLED THAT BITCH,
PERHAPS OR NOT, I RIPPED OUT DEADLY HER RIDGE,
AND NOW I'VE A REPLACEMENT BLADE FOR MY BLOODY STICK,
YOU KNOW,
THESE DAYS MADE MY MENTAL STATE WORSE,
I'VE ALREADY MADE A LOT OF CORPSES AND I'LL MAKE MORE,
I'M NOT THE DEVIL'S SERVANT I AM NOT HIS SLAVE WHORE,
'FORE RIPPING, I PUT ON A ROBE AN' THEREFORE AFTER THAT I ALWAYS STAY PURE
UH, FUCK, I'M FUCKING VIOLENT... There's a reason for this, but I HAVEN'T FOUND IT YET...
HUHHHH.... Uhhh...
These days I lost my consciousness several times a day,
I don't want to be a monster, I want him to fade,
In my head there is a mess why can't find a way,
From this black hole that devours me literally all-day?
THESE DAYS I LOST MY CONSCIOUSNESS SEVERAL TIMES A DAY,
I don't want to be a monster, I WANT HIM TO FADE,
In my head there is a mess WHY CAN'T FIND A WAY,
FROM THIS BLACK HOLE THAT DEVOURS ME LITERALLY ALL-DAY?...
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SADISM IN RELATIVN TO THE SADIST
I'M A TWISTED SADIST,
I TORTURE THOSE WHO DON'T LEARN FROM MISTAKES,
MAYBE IT IS ALL MY TWISTED FANTASY,
I BEAT 'EM NOT WITH PLEASURE BUT WITH HATE
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE A VICTIM?
NO TIME TO HEAL YOUR WOUNDS. HOW DOES IT FEELING?
STAY IN THE PLACE OF THE VICTIMS YOU KILLED,
SAY WHAT YOU FEEL NOW,
SAY WHAT YOU FEEL...
EGHH...
I already smashed his face,
THE BLOOD OF THE CULPRIT IS ON MY HANDS,
And I just breathe out calmly after dozens of incomplete inhales,
IT WAS BRUTAL VIOLENCE,
I FELL ON MY SIDE,
AN' THEN ON MY BACK LOOKIN' AT THE SKY,
THINKING HOW I'M STILL ALIVE,
TIRED I CLOSE MY BOTH EYES...
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OK YØU'RE RIGHT I'M EVIL
They say I'm a nihilist,
I'm high enough not to believe 'em,
I'LL KILL YOU BY CUTTIN' YOUR WRIST,
OKAY YOU'RE RIGHT I'M REALLY EVIL,
I can wrap a rope around your neck,
Sorry, I cannot control myself,
I can rip the ridge off your already stabbed back,
WELL, MY DOC EXPECTED THAT I'D BREAK WITHOUT NO VIOLENCE,
IF I HAD A SOUL I WOULD BE SORRY FOR HIS EXPECTATIONS,
BUT I'M NOT SUBJECT TO NO SYMPATHY, I'M FRESH, I'M NOT EDGY,
I DON'T EVEN TRYNA BE THAT FRIENDLY,
I DO WHAT I WANT AND YEAH,
I'M BLOODTHIRSTY LATELY
I pierce holes in the backs of all traitors,
All of you should with your head to lay low,
Some of you may find yourself in YOUR OWN POOL OF BLOOD,
I'll make y'all pay the price for all the sins YOU'VE EVER DONE,
YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS BUILT ON SINS,
YOU LOCKED THE DEMON IN ME,
HE WILL ENSLAVE YOUR VILE SOUL
When all the hate is piled up I just wanna spill blood and then I feel better. That's a load off my mind when I take parasitic life and filter the world from filthy worms... Ahhh... I'm just blowing off steam... That's all...
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AFTERLIFE
I WATCH MY HEART DECAY WITH MY BONES,
I SHOULD HAVE STEPPED AWAY WHEN I MET MY LOVE,
I GOT A PLACE IN A COFFIN AS A RESULT,
I SHOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN ATTACHED TO ANYONE
'FORE I BECAME AN ADULT
HOW MANY TIMES ALREADY SAID,
LOVE DOES NOT EXIST,
HOW MANY MORE TIMES WILL I BE BETRAYED?
TILL I UNDERSTAND THE TRUTH,
I JUST WANNA SHARPEN THE BLADE,
AND THEN MAKE A SWING AFTER WHICH BLOOD WILL SPRAY,
I DON'T UNDERSTAND A THING,
WHY DOES ALL THE BLAME FALL ON ME ALL THE TIME?
YOU'RE ALL HYPOCRITICAL,
I AM NOT THE SAME AND 'CUZ OF THIS YOU KILL ME WITH YOUR LIES,
I'LL RIP OFF BOTH WINGS
OF YOUR LYING ANGELS AND LEAVE THEM BLEED TO DROWN IN THEIR OWN LIES
Uh,
I'm really pissed off and soon YOU WILL BRING ME TO A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN,
DON'T THINK THAT I'M A TOY AND YOU CAN DRAW YOURSELF A HALO,
I'll expose your lies by the roots and then let's see who's right,
My hate for those like you can make you lose yo' life,
You better sleep with one eye open tonight,
'CAUSE NOTHING HOLDS ME BACK FROM KILLING YOU, MAN
I hear someone's rustle, the reflex works in an instant,
I got along with violence, I don't feel myself so distant,
I don't feel disgusted, I just accepted my essence as it is,
My reaction now is faster and I'm using it to my advantage,
I had to throw the last corpse TO THE BOTTOM OF THE LAKE,
Yeah, I play at the expense, AND SO FAR I'M IN THE BLACK,
And I won't stop the carnage TILL I FILL MY THIRST FOR HATE
I consider almost all people to be garbage because they kill themselves and for this they don't even need anyone's help. It's just that they themselves are building a bridge straight to hell, and this is the doom of all people to a hopeless death... See you in the afterlife o/
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DEAD LVVK
I HAVE GOT ENOUGH,
IN MY VEINS THERE'S SOME KIND OF POISON,
ONE BULLET IN THE GLOCK,
THE QUESTION IS, WHOSE HEAD IS IT TO SHOOT,
I HAVE SO MUCH ROT BUT I CAN'T FIND ITS ROOT,
WHEN I SAW MY OWN REFLECTION IT MADE ME PUKE,
I HAVEN'T SLEPT FOR DAYS, IN THE MIRROR I SEE A DEAD LOOK
I can't imagine what might just change this,
I've already broken right through the bottom,
In my mind the war stopped and the rage quit,
My heart has been frozen, my soul is hollow,
Locked in my room I'm losing myself,
Thinkin' 'bout the doom and rottin' in a shell,
I tryna stay, dude, but it seems I fell,
I don't even have the strength to pretend that everything's well,
Ah,
I tried to shed some blood and drain all evil from my veins,
But I ended up in my own pool of blood aftér I faint,
I'm drowning in my questions but still tell me why I can't
Start a new life and get rid of the pain
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BRVKEN AMYGDALA
YEAH
YOU'RE RIGHT,
I'M REALLY A CRUEL GUY,
MY SOUL'S EXHAUSTED ALL LIGHT,
THAT'S WHY I'M SWINGIN' MY KNIFE,
NO ONE WILL SURVIVE,
THERE'S SIMPLY NO OTHER WAY,
HERE IS YOUR COFFIN PLACE,
HERE YOU WILL REST IN FEAR BUT NOT PEACE,
MY AMYGDALA IS BROKEN I SEE ALL PEOPLE AS MANNEQUINS,
I RIP YOUR EYEBALL OUT OF THE SOCKET
LOOKIN' INTO THE OTHER EYE WHICH HAS ALREADY SEEN MANY THINGS,
I'M OUT OF CONTROL I CAN DO ANYTHING,
I'M A COLD-BLOODED PSYCHOPATH MY BRAIN'S CONTROLLED BY INSANITY
I never change my life routine,
The kills keep me alive, yeah, still,
I KEEP BREAKIN' MY MENTAL STATE,
COUNTIN' DAYS TO A LETHAL DAY,
I'VE GOT NOTHING ELSE TO DO NOWHERE TO PUT ALL THE HATE,
SO I DO WHAT I'M USED TO, FILL UP THE BLOODBATH TO THE BRIM,
I MAKE AN INCISION 'CROSS THE THROAT SO THAT THE VICTIM DOESN'T SCREAM
MY AMYGDALA IS BROKEN I SEE ALL PEOPLE AS MANNEQUINS,
I RIP YOUR EYEBALL OUT OF THE SOCKET
LOOKIN' INTO THE OTHER EYE WHICH HAS ALREADY SEEN MANY THINGS
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MENTAL BREAKDXWN
THESE DÁYS I'VE BEEN CONSUMED WITH RAGE,
SO YOU SHOULD LEAVE OR RUN AWAY,
EVEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON NOW IN MY BRAIN,
I CAN DO ANYTHING WHEN I'M WITH A KNIFE INSANE,
I WARNED YOU, IN A SECOND I WILL BE A KILLIN' COMBINE,
I'LL HURT YOU IF YOU AIN'T RESPOND TO THE FUCKING WORDS I SAID,
I BEG YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND KEEP YOUR INNOCENT LIFE,
DON'T DISAPPOINT ME, TAKE THE RIGHT STEP,
YOU DON'T WAN' BE ON THE KNIFE EDGE
I received too much pain, I think now it's my turn,
They put evil in my veins, they will get what's deserved,
No time to play saints, you're already a corpse,
I wan' throw off the chains, this ain't desire but thirst,
NOTHING WILL STOP ME FROM FILLING THE BLOODBATH,
HUNTING FOR WORMS, DISABLING FEELINGS COLD BLOODED VEINS,
LEAN DOWN TO THE FLOOR I SEE A BLOOD TRAIL,
I HAVEN'T DRUNK BLOOD IN MONTHS, MY SKIN TURNED PALE
IT SEEMS I JUST HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. JUST A MOMENT AGO...
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I'm sorry...
I would like to say goodbye to you when you were with me,
You left me without sayin' goodbye and it really hurts me still,
I wouldn't want to be a rude guy in your posthumous memory,
It's true that I feel guilty that I couldn't save you then...
Guilt is exactly what I feel,
The pills are makin' me exist,
All I do 24/7 is drown in tears,
Your voice is all I want to hear...
My minute dreams are filled with sorrow,
When I open my eyes I feel the horror,
You left me alone in this black world,
You were the only bright ray of light and now I've lost you and I feel remorse...
How do I feel?
The sense of guilt...
Can I handle this burden?
And stay unbroken...
HOW DO I FEEL?...
THE SENSE OF GUILT...
CAN I HANDLE THIS BURDEN?...
AND STAY UNBROKEN...
I'M SO SORRY THAT I COULDN'T SAVE YOU THEN,
I REGRET NOT TAKIN' CARE OF YOU THEN,
ONLY AFTER I LOST YOU DID I REALIZE YOUR VALUE,
IT'S A REAL TRUTH I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU...
I
CANNOT
LIVE
WITHOUT
YOU...
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REALITY
I'VE BEEN LOCKED IN MY HEAD FOR A WHILE,
IT GAVE ME ENOUGH TIME TO REALIZE,
THAT THE WORLD I LIVE IN IS A LIE,
FOR A LONG TIME MY CONSCIENCE TRIED TO OPEN MY EYES,
AND I SEE THAT I ONLY TRIED TO DECEIVE MYSELF,
AND I EVEN MANAGED TO BELIEVE THAT I LIVE A WONDERFUL LIFE,
SOMEONE HAD TO WAKE ME UP,
BUT IT FEELS LIKE TIME IS UP,
IT SEEMS LIKE IT'D BE EASIER TO JUST END IT ALL,
END IT ALL
I DON'T SLEEP A SINGLE NIGHT,
MANY THINGS ARE SPINNING IN MY MIND BUT WHY,
MY BRAIN IS TIRED WITH RED EYES,
ROTTING 'LONE WITHIN FOUR WALLS, I AIN'T FEEL MYSELF ALIVE,
NOT A SINGLE BOTTLE PUTS ME TO SLEEP,
I CAN'T WIN THIS BATTLE AND LEAVE IN SOME PEACE,
I'M TIRED OF THE DEMONS WHISPERING THEY PISS ME OFF,
ALL THIS NOISE CLOGGED IN MY EARS I'M ON THE WAY TO THE BOILING POINT
I SEE DEMONS WATCHING ME FOR SOME REASON,
THEY'RE NOT EVIL, THEN WHY DO THEY STARE AT ME?
IT FEELS LIKE THEY'RE 'BOUT TO GRAB ME NOW,
AS IF THE DEVIL'S WATCHIN' ME AND AT THE SAME TIME SCARIN' ME.
Huh, it's still funny how I see the blanket as a shield,
The blood is runnin' through my veins now, feeling like I'm going to be killed,
Maybe I just need to close my eyes and in fact all this ain't real,
The heart is beating, the nerves are compressed, and there's an spontaneous thrill
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DVN'T SAY YØU LØVE ME
I'M FOCUSED ON FIGHTIN' WITH MY DEMONS,
YOU LOOK LIKE A LIAR, I CAN'T BE LOVED,
I SEE FIRE IN YOUR EYES,
BUT I CAN'T RESPOND IN KIND,
NOT TO INVOLVE YOU IN MY STRUGGLE IT WOULD BE WISE,
ALL MY FEELINGS SHOULD BE BOTTLED UP,
THIS IS NOT YOUR FIGHT,
SINCERELY SORRY BUT HERE YOU CAN MORALLY DIE,
I'M SO TIRED OF PUSHING EVERYONE AWAY BUT IT IS GOOD FOR YOU,
THE DARKNESS INSIDE ME IS A FUCKING VIRUS
Evil flows through my veins,
It eats away all the blood,
I'm gettin' used to the pain,
It's fucking awful,
All you know 'bout me is my name,
And it's a pity,
How you sincerely tryna save
At least what's left of me...
Yes, I'd rather die by myself,
I don't wan' be the cause of your death,
I've nothing left,
Besides you, I have no one else.
So live on without me,
I don't wanna be the cause of your depression,
You can forget about me,
But I'll always remember you even when I'm dead,
I will feel myself better when you really ain't sad,
I will feel myself better when you really ain't sad...
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KILL THE KILLER
THROWING A SMOKE GRENADE BEHIND MY BACK THERE'S AK-12,
I WILL KILL THE TERRORIST BEFORE THE BOMB GOES OFF,
I AM CALM COLD-BLOODED I'VE THE ADVANTAGE I'VE AN ANGEL,
MY INDEX FINGER ON THE TRIGGER, I AM ALWAYS ALERT,
YEAH, I WILL KILL THE KILLER, IT SOUNDS RATHER STRANGE,
BUT I AIN'T KILL NO INNOCENTS, IT IS NOT THE SAME,
MAYBE IT MIGHT EVEN BE CALLED REVENGE,
BUT FOR ME IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT ITS NAME IS
Yes, I would pierce right through that soulless body that is ready to eradicate the innocent without the slightest pity,
Tbh, I don't give a shit about the law because it's useless when people die one after 'nother for no reason,
This is a mess that someone needs to clean up,
I kept my humanity so I keep my chin up.
Killing the killer is the only way to survive,
But it ain't by the rules so you have to die,
It's no different from genocide or suicide,
And I'm ready to take this risk, I'll die at least with honor
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SPLIT PERSVNALITY 2
I have blackouts,
Feels like there's someone else in my head,
BECAUSE OF THIS, I BECOME THE CAUSE OF NERVOUS BREAKDOWNS,
I cannot control myself when someone controls me,
Then I get the role of a weapon AND SOMEONE'S SHIT CLEANER.
Don't get me wrong, I'M NOT A HYPOCRITE,
I have a demon THAT'S UNDER MY SKIN,
I've nowhere to run, I CAN'T FIGHT WHAT'S WITHIN,
I don't have no choice BUT TO PUT UP WITH IT
I don't know what kind of personality I have in my mind,
But I want it to disappear completely,
I wanna kill it, wipe it off the face of the earth, and move on with my life,
It's a 1 on 1 fight, everybody calls me crazy...
MY SECOND PERSONALITY WANTS EVERYONE TO DIE,
IT CAN DO ANYTHING IT CAN COMMIT GENOCIDE,
THIS IS A MONSTER WITH A SENSE OF THE BEAST FROM IT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO HIDE,
BUT THE QUESTION IS, WILL YOU TAKE MY WORDS AS HELP OR THINK THAT IT'S ALL A LIE
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321
PRE-DEATH
EVERY NIGHT I TRY TO SLEEP,
MY SOUL BLEEDS AND ALL TEARS DRIPS,
MY SOUL IS BLEEDING AND TEARS
ARE FALLING BEHIND ITS DROPS OF BLOOD.
WILL I EVER BE ABLE TO SLEEP EVEN FOR A SECOND?
OR WILL I STILL BE SOUR WITH MY SO DEPRESSED DEMON?
I FEEL LIKE A SQUEEZED ORANGE,
MY SOUL'S STATUS IS GARBAGE.
Feeling like I'm in a pre-death,
The ceiling is all I see when I'm in bed,
I still wonder at the existence of my breath,
It seems to me that all the tears I've 'lready bled...
I'M PARALYZED IN SHOCK FROM MY HELPLESSNESS,
I AIN'T GIVE A FUCK AT ALL, I'M ROTTIN' IN THE NOTHINGNESS,
I TURNED TO DUST IN MY OWN FUCKIN' SELFISHNESS,
I FEEL LIKE I'M NAILED TO THE BED, UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING...
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356
TRUE ESSENCE
Knife game, they say it is crazy, yeah
But I don't care about théir thrill, uh
Broke something in some boy's body but I'm not worried,
The adults took me by the scruff of the neck and made me say sorry.
MY TRUE ESSENCE MAKES ME A MONSTER FROM A HUMAN,
I FEEL RAGE FROM WITHIN AND THE KNIFE ITSELF REACHES FOR MY HANDS,
I CAN’T HOLD IT BACK,
EVERYTHING INSIDE HAS TURNED BLACK.
MY EYES TURNED RED,
My spirit burned óut,
THEIR SCREAMS I CAN'T FORGET,
I'VE A THIRST FOR BLOOD...
I cut the skin on your face,
Take blood and drip a drop between two glass plates,
I will throw your dead corpse IN A SACK INTO THE OPEN SEA,
After that, I'll be pure, WITHOUT SUSPICION AND UNNOTICED.
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1
449
DEXTER MVRGAN
BORN IN BLOOD,
TORN FROM BIRTH,
I LOST MY FEELINGS WITHOUT EVEN GETTIN' 'EM.
I'VE NO COMPASSION,
THEREFORE, AT TIMES I'M CRUEL,
WISH I COULD FEEL ANYTHIN'.
NOW I'M AN ADULT,
BUT STILL HAVE A TENDENCY TO CRUELTY,
I KILL CRIMINALS WITH PASSION 'FORE WRAPPIN' THE WHOLE ROOM IN POLYETHYLENE.
I WORK FOR THE POLICE SO I'M ALWAYS SAFE, YEAH.
My heart ain't beating,
I tryna fit in even though I do not feel anything,
Every night I take a knife,
Stun the killer, then I kill him in a specially prepared room,
He took many lives,
The lives of innocent people, so my method of killing him is cruel,
The police will never hit my trail,
So I kill with a free soul, I've thought 'bout every move,
I'll kill all the guilty and no one will know my terrible truth.
Mutilate the body alive WITH A CHAINSAW FOR TOUCHING MY FAMILY,
People that I care about would say that THIS IS ALL FUCKING INSANITY,
But I cannot contain it, MY PITCH BLACK ENTITY,
So I live with it and TRYNA KEEP MY SANITY...
2
1
485
UNFILLABLE BLACK HVLE
I hide in closets from people who haunt me,
They melt my brain and are constantly 'round me,
The reality's so scary 'cause of this I live in my self-made world,
Eyes closed and immediately there is a beautiful world in which no one hurts...
Everything you do to me destroys me,
You make me crazy, you should avoid me...
Everything you do to me destroys me...
You make me crazy, you should avoid me...
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392
STAND ØUT VF THE CRØWD
I'm a white crow among brainless hens,
I am alone, there's no sense TO HAVE A FRIEND,
Uh,
There is no one who can understand me, ONLY I CAN,
I've a star in my forehead, I'm SELF-CONFIDENT.
Well,
If I'm any different, they immediately call me a nihilist,
This is in a sense proud but in fact discriminate,
I cannot keep my chin all the same high,
I don't like the way they see me, I DON'T LIKE THIS WAY,
I BECOME A LAUGHIN' STOCK, I AIN'T LIKE THEIR SIGHTS.
I just cannot face them all,
In any case, they'll drag me to the bottom,
But no, I can't just fall down,
Look
EVERYONE 'ROUND
wants to
SEE ME
IN THE
CROWD...
IN THE CROWD...
If I'm not in their bunch they stand on their toes,
But somehow I don't give a fuck, I DON'T NEED THOSE EXTRA HOES,
When I was betrayed EVERYONE RESIDUALLY THEN LOST MY TRUST,
YEAH,
WHY IS EVERYONE SO ENVIOUS?
I'M JUST TRYNA CLIMB THE LADDER,
ALL YOUR ATTEMPTS TO THROW ME DOWN IS A WASTE OF TIME,
YOU FOLLOW THE PATTERN,
AND YOU GET MAD WHEN SOMEONE GETS BETTER,
I ADVISE YOU TO GO TO A PSYCHOLOGIST OR IMMEDIATELY TO A PSYCHIC CHAMBER...
The pressure that they point to me,
Shouldn't break or change me,
Their words are white noise to me,
Nothing'll stop their wave of hatin'...
That's why I think ALONE,
Got no numbers ON MY PHONE,
I had friends but when they entered my mind AT THAT TIME THEY WERE GONE...
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INTIMIDATED
When I'm isolated from people only then do I feel safe,
They are not the support they drown all the friends, they are all fake,
Keep calling me a sociopath while under your feet there'll be lots of rakes,
You'll blame me for everythin' without even realizing your real mistake...
No, do not come near me,
I'm tired of sufferin',
The black hole in me STILL CONSUMES EVERYTHIN',
I'm afraid of all people, THIS IS PARANOIA,
My life is existence, I'M THE LOST OWNER,
You are a parasite, BUT NOT A LAWYER,
Take off this mask, AN' DON'T PLAY AMONG US...
You don't know me, NOBODY DOES,
Do a favor, SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH,
Your assumption, albeit with facts, BUT BIASED,
If you look at my past, YOU'LL BE A LIAR...
I was born in blood like dexter morgan,
I have no emotion, my heart is my missing organ,
Ever since I was a kid my feelings were stolen,
So I had to walk the path that is broken...
I was born in blood LIKE DEXTER MORGAN,
I have no emotion, MY HEART IS MY MISSING ORGAN,
Ever since I was a kid MY FEELINGS WERE STOLEN,
So I had to walk the path THAT IS BROKEN...
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352
ALL MY DEMVNS ARE DEPRESSED
I WAKE UP EVERY DAY BUT SEE NO REASON TO GET UP,
I'VE EXHAUSTED ALL HATE AND HAVE ONLY AN EMPTY SOUL.
ALL MY DEMONS ARE DEPRESSED
AND I'M AT ONE WITH 'EM,
I'VE NO FEELINGS EVEN STRESS,
WISH I COULD FEEL ANYTHING.
ALL MY DEMONS ARE DEPRESSED,
I'VE NO BEAT BEHIND MY CHEST,
AND IT'S SO WEIRD TO FEEL LIKE I'M ALIVE BUT DEAD,
THIS FEELING OF EMPTINESS OR RATHER, NOTHIN'NESS,
NOTHIN'NESS...
ALL MY DEMONS ARE DEPRESSED,
I'VE NO BEAT BEHIND MY CHEST,
AND IT'S SO WEIRD TO FEEL LIKE I'M ALIVE BUT DEAD,
THIS FEELING OF EMPTINESS OR RATHER, NOTHIN'NESS,
NOTHIN'NESS...
MY HEART IS BLEEDING BLACK,
AND NO, I AIN'T NEED YOUR FAKE HELP,
IT'S ALL UNREAL AND FAKE,
YOUR WORDS THEY'RE EMPTY AND NONSENSE,
UH,
THEY ARE EMPTY...
MY HEART IS BLEEDING BLACK,
AND NO, I AIN'T NEED YOUR FAKE HELP,
IT'S ALL UNREAL AND FAKE,
YOUR WORDS THEY'RE EMPTY N' NONSENSE...
I WAKE UP EVERY DAY BUT SEE NO REASON TO GET UP,
I'VE EXHAUSTED ALL HATE AND HAVE ONLY AN EMPTY SOUL.
ALL MY DEMONS ARE DEPRESSED
AND I'M AT ONE WITH 'EM,
I'VE NO FEELINGS EVEN STRESS,
WISH I COULD FEEL ANYTHING.
I WAKE UP EVERY DAY BUT SEE NO REASON TO GET UP,
I'VE EXHAUSTED ALL HATE AND HAVE ONLY AN EMPTY SOUL.
ALL MY DEMONS ARE DEPRESSED
AND I'M AT ONE WITH 'EM,
I'VE NO FEELINGS EVEN STRESS,
WISH I COULD FEEL ANYTHING...
ANYTHING...
0
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407
I'M NVT SVRRY
I'M NOT SORRY, YOU'RE STILL A BITCH,
YEAH,
YOU'RE DISGUSTING AND TOXIC,
MY HEART'S STILL POISONED BY SOMETHING,
PAIN IS SO SHARP THAT IT FEELS LIKE BURNING.
I KNOW MY WORTH,
ALL YOU GET FROM ME IS A KNIFE IN YOUR HEART,
YOUR SOUL IS DIRT,
THAT BLACKENS ALL HEARTS 'FORE BREAKING 'EM APART.
I CAUGHT A TRAP BUT I WILL BE THE LAST,
I WILL PUNCH RIGHT THROUGH YOUR HEART, I REMEMBER OUR PAST,
YOU DON'T HAVE A SOUL, YOU MADE ME A GHAST,
WHY DO YOU THINK OF ME AS A TOY OR AN OUTCAST?
I AM NOT SORRY FOR HATING YOU,
I WISH I WEREN'T WORRIED BUT IT IS TRUE,
I'm still attached to you and AT THE SAME TIME WANT TO SEE YOU COVERED IN YOUR BLOOD,
It tears me apart and I can't decide WHETHER TO RETURN TO YOU AND TRY TO START ALL OVER AGAIN,
Or send everything to hell and take a knife and PLUNGE IT INTO YOUR BLACK HEART...
I WANNA SEE YOU COVERED IN YOUR BLOOD,
Uh,
I WANNA SEE YOU COVERED...
IN
YOUR
OWN
BLOOD...
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453
MACHETE SLICING
You will not have time to duck,
This time you are out of luck,
Try to make a block,
At the same time, I'LL STICK THROUGH YOUR STOMACH.
I remember those black crows,
They talked shit to my labor,
In which I put my whole heart,
The words that fell from their mouths hurt.
Their mouths are drooling now,
Who's already fooling whom?
All the brave guys rule the world,
THEY DROWN EVERYONE WHO PULLS THEM DOWN.
And you know it is a mo'fuckin' pity,
All withdrawn disappear into oblivion,
I went through hell but I seem to have lost my heart,
Why is everything I tackle tearing me apart?
I put all my soul into my biz,
I was always serious with closed teeth,
I had no trump cards up my sleeve,
I was hoping for luck and that is it.
I cut your head into slices like a watermelon,
It will go through your skin just like fucking butter, fellow,
I lost my title of saint long ago, just like the halo,
I don't need to be decent and obedient, so I bring chaos.
I'm not afraid of death AND I'VE ALREADY MET IT,
So why don't I just have fun AND PULL OUT YOUR TEETH LIKE A DENTIST?
I'm sure that a judge from heaven WOULD HAVE PASSED MY DEATH SENTENCE,
But now I live in the present AND CUT EVERYONE INTO SLICES WITH A MACHETE
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544
BLEEDING HEART
TORN APART,
I KNEW IT FROM THE START,
THAT THAT BITCH'LL LEAVE ME A SCAR,
AS A RESULT I GOT A BLEEDING HEART...
EVERY TIME I TRYNA GET CLOSE TO SOMEONE,
SHE STABS ME IN THE BACK AND MAKES FEEL HOLLOW,
I AIN'T DISTINGUISH BETWEEN NEUTRAL PEOPLE N' ENEMIES,
APPARENTLY I'M DESTINED TO BE ALONE AND NEVER HAVE A FAMILY...
MY HEART IS COVERED IN BLOOD BEHIND MY RIBS,
24/7 IN A LOW MOOD AND NOTHING FIXES IT,
I'VE TRIED EVERYTHING BUT HEART IS BLEEDING,
I CAN'T FORGET THAT BITCH I CAN'T LOVE OR LET HER GO..
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420
LET ME GV
Let me go,
I don't need you just like you me,
This is torture for me,
I hope that you ain't gonna hurt me,
Take the press off,
And so you'll be better like me,
I never wished you harm,
I wanted you to live on, with you, I'm dying...
Let me live my quiet life,
I don't wanna offend you,
And I don't want you to drown in tears...
My heart's breaking with the cry I hear...
I miss the times when I was with you,
But I have changed and it is true,
I still can't accept or let you go...
IT'S SO HEARTBREAKING TO ME,
IT'S TRUE I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU,
BUT I DON'T SEE OTHER OUTCOMES OF EVENTS IN WHICH I COULD BE,
AND I CAN'T FORGET ALL THE GOOD THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO US N' YOU...
I WOULD LIKE TO DISAPPEAR,
I HAVE NO PLACE HERE,
I FEEL NOT HATE BUT PAIN AND FEAR,
FOR SOME REASON MY HEART STILL FEELS YOU AS DEAR,
BUT THE MIND REMEMBERS ALL THE PAIN AND SCARS ON THE HEART,
BUT IT STILL SEES YOU AS A KINDRED SPIRIT,
WHILE THE HEART IS CRYING N' BLEEDIN',
IT MIGHT BE BETTER IF I'M WITH YOU,
BUT MY TRUST IN YOU'S ALREADY BROKEN
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382
ADD GASVLINE TV THE FIRE
THE EARTH IS THAT PATHETIC BITCH THAT EVERYBODY FUCK,
THIS ERA IS SAD LIKE THE LIVES THAT ROT IN THE MUD,
THE DEVIL WILL WATCH AS WE BURNED OUR WORLD N' TURN TO DUST.
WE ADD GASOLINE TO THE FIRE OURSELVES,
WE ARE BUILDING OUR OWN FUCKING PATH TO HELL.
Torn apart for other people's sins,
Blackened heart behind the fucking ribs,
Torn apart for the sins of a stranger,
Nothing'll quench the feeling of hate with anger.
THE BLOOD OF INNOCENT PEOPLE FLOWS IN THE RIVERS...
FOR ALL KINDNESS THE REWARD IS A KNIFE IN THE LIVER...
THE WORLD GOES DOWN STRAIGHT TO HELL...
THROW EVERYONE INTO THE FIRE AND SAVE YOURSELF...
You, without even noticing it, will kill everyone around,
After you're alone on earth you'll exist without any remorse,
Only after you realize what you have done will you commit suicide,
After long hours of loneliness, YOU WILL LONG TO DIE...
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BACK TV VIØLENCE
[03/12/20]
FUCK THE TRASH COPS,
IF THEY ABUSE THEIR RANK,
HUH?
I WON'T GIVE A FUCK
ABOUT BEING SURROUNDED,
IF THEY DISCRIMINATE AGAINST AFRICAN AMERICANS.
It doesn't make any sense...
BUT EVERYONE IS BRAINLESS!
YOU HAVE A TOOL BUT HAVE NO PROBLEM,
YOU HAVE POWER BUT NO GOALS YET,
THIS SELFISHNESS YOU AIN'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL IT.
I RIP OFF THE HEADS OF THOSE THEY DON'T USE,
EITHER WAY I WILL DIE I'VE NOTHING LEFT TO LOSE,
THIS POWER THAT THEY HAVE THEY'LL ALWAYS ABUSE,
Looks like I'm the only one WHO PERCEIVES THIS VIEW
OH,
I ALREADY HAVE A COP TAIL,
I STILL THINK IT WASN'T THE WRONG WAY,
YOU GREEDY SCUM, BITE YOUR TONGUE
AND THEN FILL YOUR MOUTH WITH DIRTY DOUGH,
THE ONE WHO KILLS A PERSON 'CUZ OF THE COLOR OF HIS SKIN CANNOT HAVE A SOUL,
SO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND KEEP SITTING ON YOUR THRONE...
I'M SURE I'LL BE GAGGED SOMEDAY,
THE TRUTH IS THAT IT WON'T CHANGE,
I'M SURE I'LL BE GAGGED SOMEDAY,
THE TRUTH IS THAT IT WON'T CHANGE...
I cut the body 'cross the belt with a blade,
LIKE YUNO GASAI, THERE'S MADNESS IN MY BRAIN,
I'M SPILLING BLOOD TO TAKE ALL THE PAIN AWAY,
EVERYONE IN MY WAY WILL BE INSTANTLY SLAIN...
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BLACK BLVVD IN THE VEINS
Huh, what?
Who said that I'm friendly inside as well as at first sight?
Black blood runs through my veins but it's not the worst pie,
My heart is beating somewhere behind the ribs, but I don't hear a sound,
I don't want to think about the scars on it and the old wounds.
In my eyes, you'll not see the pupils, CUZ THEY'RE COMPLETELY FILLED WITH BLACK,
Trust me, don't dig into my past, YOU'RE GONNA GO CRAZY IN MY HEAD,
YOU WILL REGRET THAT STEP,
AND THEN NOTHING WILL HELP.
If I open my soul I become a living virus,
The fact that I'm distant doesn't make me a sick psycho,
I'm just tryna find myself in this world and find a title,
UNLIKE Y'ALL, I DON'T WEAR ANY MASKS N' I'M NOT A LIAR.
Funny shit that everything I write partly happens only in my head,
It's all just my fantasy, I'm tryna make my world in my own brain...
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376
I REALIZED EVERYTHING!
You do not realize
How much a vile truth is sweeter than a pleasant lie,
In an instant, the truth stood in front of my both eyes,
What were you hoping for?
Before you opened your own heart,
Looks like you wanted TO KILL MY SOUL FROM THE START,
CONGRATULATIONS, YOU DID IT, YOU BROKE IT APART
I AIN'T NEED ANY RÉMORSE FROM YOU,
YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT BEFORE ACTING,
NOTHING INSIDE, IN MY SOUL THERE'S ONLY NUMBNESS,
NOTHING OUTSIDE, MY FACE ONLY SHOWS DAMN DUMBNESS
DON'T EVEN THINK TO OPEN YOUR MOUTH IN MY DIRECTION,
SINCE YOUR WORDS FOR ME ARE NOTHING MORE THAN NOTHING,
IF YOU REALLY LOVED AND APPRECIATED ME,
YOU WOULD FEEL DISGUSTED BY YOUR OWN REFLECTION.
I'VE NO MORE TEARS CUZ OF THIS I CRY BLOOD,
YOU MADE ME THIS WAY SO LISTEN I'M OUT,
I WON'T BELIEVE A WORD THAT FALLS OUT OF YOUR MOUTH,
THEY MAKE NO SENSE, AS THEY DON'T HAVE FRANKNESS,
THEY'RE ALL FUCKING EMPTY,
LEAVE ME ALONE, ALL YOU GIVE ME IS SADNESS, I'M NOT GOING TO ENDURE IT
COME ON BREAK ME COMPLETELY,
HIDE BEHIND A SMILE THE FACT THAT YOU HATE ME,
I'M JUST TIRED OF YOU AND THE LIES THAT YOU FEED ME ALL THE TIME,
I'M VOMITIN' WHEN I HEAR YOUR LIES,
LET ME LIVE MY SINGLE LIFE...
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YXU'RE CAUGHT
RUN TRYING TO FIND YOUR WAY OUT,
YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE,
DON'T LOOK FOR A NON-EXISTENT HALO,
BOOMERANG COMES BACK TO YOU,
RUN TO YOUR PATHETIC HOLE N' THEN LAY LOW,
I'm gon' wipe the likes of you off the earth,
You're fucking poison and your worth's a loss.
You live at the expense of others...
AND WHO IS THE LAST TO LAUGH HERE?...
YOU'VE NOWHERE TO RUN YOU HAVE CAUGHT, FEAR!...
BOOMERANG IS BACK NOW YOU'LL SUFFER...
Karma is a bitch, yeah, you are right,
THE DEMON IS UNLEASHED, HE WON'T LEAD TO YOUR LIES,
But he will gladly watch your demise...
AND THEN JUSTICE WITH KARMA WILL RISE...
I cut with a knife the grass in which you snakes hide,
There's no longer a hole in which you can disappear without a trace, right?
You all sit in darkness and shade during daylight,
Your way of life is parasitic, you've a gray life,
Aww, yeah...
You're caught, you nasty worm!...
THE DAY OF RECKONING HAS COME...
YOU'RE ALREADY A CORPSE!
THERE IS NO TURNING BACK...
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544
GVING CRAZY IN QUARANTINE
Cvldie's still in quarantine,
Rotting brain with bones again?
Painting with blood on the walls, bliss!
Thanks to all people for all this!
But that's just the tip of the iceberg,
Further - it'll be worse,
Let this world burn in flames of fire,
The world will not be the same anymore,
In a couple of years we'll see who's the liar
We'll be the ones who threw the lighter,
Nothing'll remain of the earth, except perhaps ashes.
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590
EXISTENCE IN THE REAL WORLD
I speak only to myself,
And to no one else,
Me and my ego are alone,
Still holding the sword blade in my heart like Excalibur in stone,
There is no soul below,
It disappeared long ago,
Ah...
I wear a mask daily to survive,
Without a mask, I would immediately be on the blade of a knife,
I have nothing else to do but pretend,
If I show my real face, they will not accept.
I missed the moment when hypocrisy became normal,
I don't know 'bout you, but the world has long had gray colors,
It was just a matter of who was pretendin' n' hiding from reality,
AND WHO PERCEIVED EVERYTHING WITHOUT ANY FILTERS.
I HAVE ALWAYS SEEN THE ROT OF THE WORLD,
THE WORLD WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AS BEFORE,
WE'RE TRYIN' TO KEEP AT LEAST WHAT IS LEFT,
BUT THE THING IS WE KEEP KILLING OURSELVES,
WE'RE TRYIN' TO KEEP AT LEAST WHAT IS LEFT,
BUT THE THING IS WE KEEP KILLING OURSELVES
LIFE IS A GAME IN WHICH PEOPLE PLAY TO PROGRESS,
GENERATION AFTER GENERATION IS CHANGIN' CONSCIOUSNESS,
NATURE DIES WHILE
PEOPLE'S EXPECTATIONS OF LIFE ARE CONSTANTLY GROWIN',
WE USE, BUT GIVE NOTHING,
WE AIN'T EVOLVING, BUT ROTTING...
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0
444
FILTRATVN
Leave me alone, I barely dodged your web,
I wanted to forget you, but you just cannot get off,
Why cannot you just take this fuckin' step?
I watch you change your mask literally every second,
DON'T MAKE ME DOUBT THAT IT WAS YOU WHO MADE THE HOLE IN MY HEART,
DON'T MAKE ME GET ATTACHED TO YOU, YOU'RE ALWAYS LIKE POISON, YOU HURT,
I STILL HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN THE WOUNDS YOU GAVE ME, THEY STILL HAVEN'T SCARRED,
I COULDN'T SEW THE CRACK IN MY HEART THAT WAS SLOWLY BREAKIN' MY HEART IN HALF
THIS IS HOW LOVE TURNS INTO FEAR AND HATE,
THE PAIN YOU GET FROM A LOVED ONE AND YOU LOSE TRUST,
AWFUL N' PAINFUL FEELING JUST LIKE I SAID,
LUCK IS A BITCH LIKE THE FATE WITH INJUSTICE.
IT'S NOT WORTH THE TIME AND NERVES,
I POUR OUT THE PAIN IN VERSES,
I WOULD REALLY DROWN THAT BITCH IN A FUCKIN' DITCH,
BUT THIS IS REAL LIFE AND HERE I'LL BE STABBED WITH STICKS,
THIS IS THE HAPPY LIFE THAT HAS BEEN TALKED ABOUT SINCE CHILDHOOD,
BUT NOW, FOR SOME REASON, REALITY LOOKS MANY TIMES DIMMÉR IN HIGH SCHOOL.
Looks like I've been stuffed with lies and false hopes since childhood, and it's a pity to realize it at such a late time...
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378
FREETHEME
Hello from November 2020,
I hope all of you ain't yet extinct from the virus,
This year has been sweaty, sweaty, sweaty,
Extinction of people by their own hands would be pitiful,
And what about me?
I'm kinda like nobody,
Making up my own problems out of fucking nothing.
Ah, I would rip my guts out AN' THEN EAT IT OUT,
Yeah, now you're thinking, "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?"
And I will answer you THAT THIS IS THE FLOW OF MY THOUGHTS,
I'm makin' rhymes 'bout my problems, WHERE THERE ARE FUCKING NONE,
Now you think I'm either crazy or I JUST WANT ATTENTION.
Hold up,
I don't fucking cut my veins, THEREFORE I HAVE NO CUTS AND NO BLOOD LÓSS,
Mental problems in my brain ARE CAUSIN' BLOOD TO FLOW RIGHT FROM MY NOSE.
I'm cold blooded cuz that is my trait,
I POUR OUT ALL FEELINGS AS SOON AS I RECEIVE THEM,
FOR EXAMPLE, HATE.
No resentment in my soul, I don't need this shit,
Almost all the words I hear, I do not listen,
And why should I?
I have my own heavy head on my SHOULDERS,
I analyze every step I take, HOLD UP,
My critical thinkin' exists and TURNED ON,
For some reason my heartbeat isn't makin' A SOUND.
In the morning I go to the bathroom,
Take out a blade and brush my teeth,
I can fill my whole body with tattoos,
N' if someone says I look like a prisoner, I'LL BEAT ALL THE SHIT OUT OF HIM.
Fuck, the pain doesn't go away I cut the skin,
A pool of blood has 'lready formed I'm drowning in,
The mind's drownin' in emptiness and the body's in blood
I close my eyes my mind goes out of my body and my mind's in the clouds,
I'm definitely in paradise, I don't feel any wounds,
I wonder if I will remain alone or someone will find my corpse?
I ain't remember if I closed the door before I died,
But it doesn't matter to me anymore, I'm already a corpse and not alive...
0
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490
I ĤVŦE ŶXU
Thanks for opening my eyes,
And for slammin' my heart in half,
You've achieved my spiritual demise
Now my soul is lookin' down,
I'm disgusted by your face,
How many more people have you ruined their paths?
I've almost no reason to live compared to death,
I have nothing left,
Only the existence of my breath.
I want you to know that I hate you,
At first glance, yo' eyes are so faithful,
But behind them is a fucking mask,
A fucking mask,
If I ripped it off earlier, it wouldn't hurt me so much.
If only I could turn back time...
THEN MY SOUL WOULD BE WITH ME AND SAFE...
I wish that I never met you
And didn't let you into my life...
YOU DUG IN ADVANCE MY O-OWN GRAVE...
I HATE YOU...
AT FIRST GLANCE, YOUR EYES ARE SO FAITHFUL,
BUT BEHIND THEM IS A FUCKING MASK,
A FUCKING MASK,
IF I RIPPED IT OFF EARLIER, IT WOULDN'T HURT ME SO MUCH,
IF ONLY I COULD TURN BACK TIME...
THEN I'D KEEP MY SOUL AND WOULD BE FINE...
0
0
380
BELIEVE ME, I'LL UNLEASH THEM
GET AWAY FROM ME,
THIS IS A TIP BUT NOT A WARNING YET,
DO YOU THINK MY GUT IS THIN?
IF I UNLEASH THE DEMONS THEY LEAVE YOU HEADLESS,
C'MON, BELIEVE ME, I'LL UNLEASH THEM,
BUT THE THING IS, I AIN'T WANT YOU DEAD,
GET AWAY MY INSIDES ARE BOILING, I WILL SPIT 'EM FUCKING OUT SOON,
MY HEAD IS SPINNIN', I AM FALLING, SCARS ARE SLITTIN' FORMING OLD WOUNDS,
THE VOICES OF MY VICTIMS CRITICIZE MY ACTIONS AROUND,
ALL THESE SOUNDS ARE CUTTING MY EARS AND THEY GET LOUDER N' LOUDER,
IT FEELS LIKE MY EAR MEMBRANES ARE CRACKED,
BLOOD FLOWS AND FEAR GROWS, MY BRAIN IS CRACKED,
I DON'T HAVE A SOUL, EVERYTHIN' INSIDE IS BLACK,
I'VE LOST IT FOREV', AND WILL NEVER GET IT BACK
I don't want you TO BE DEAD,
My demons I CAN'T CONTAIN,
THEY'RE INSENSITIVE MONSTERS,
They torture all sinners WITHOUT THE SLIGHTEST PIECE OF REMORSE,
Run as far as you can, AND DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU BEFORE
0
0
443
I'M HUNGRY!
Mental disorder,
Sometime death tricks will give me lethal outcome,
But I can't get enough of the sweet income,
The result justifies the risk,
I crave adrenaline, not peace,
Mental problems don't bother me,
The black mask is still on me.
With this I enter incognito mode,
An extraneous voice in my head and consciousness,
In my mind, I still have a foreign voice,
It towers over me as if dominates,
Lettin' someone into my soul was my mistake.
I NEED SOME PURPOSE,
I'll die of boredom,
'CUZ OF THIS I WRITE VERSES.
I'm prolly in the void BUT NOT AT THE BOTTOM,
C'mon, call me a lost boy, IT WILL NOT BE WRONG,
I've lost my way...
-Again?...
Emptiness is eating me again from the inside,
I'm pathetic, it pisses me off at the same time,
Every day I LOSE MY MIND,
It seems to me everything that MY ANGEL TELLS ME IS LIME,
Been wearing a mask for days I NEED THE WIND,
I do what I want, I AIN'T DISTINGUISH BETWEEN ACTIONS AND CRIMES.
Mental DISORDER,
Sometime death tricks will give me LETHAL OUTCOME,
But I can't get enough of the SWEET INCOME,
It's a thirst for dough, in a sense, A MANIA
I'm so fucking hungry it's devouring me from the inside and, you know, I'll absorb you even if you stand in my way, because you are just a hindrance for me compared to the goal. Nothing personal...
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CVMPVSURE
Gimme a second to shake,
And then I'll go to work,
I'm gonna win today,
Bring competitors down to the floor,
No, they cannot get a head taller,
I will hold the place,
A spark in the eyes with fire,
I definitely won't lose my face,
Put on a mask n' go to the slaughter,
Without losin' an ounce of pace,
I go exclusively 'head and get higher,
Composure with adrenaline runs through my veins,
I'mma prophet, the pic' of the future's in my brain,
Going to turn all enemies ínto red stain,
Nothing can stop me evén a headache
COVID-19/20/21 blew my brains out. Therefore, like a psycho, I'm talking nonsense and trying to find at least some sense in this although it doesn't even smell there. But every joke or fiction has a shred of truth... And this is no exception... (what I write)...
Back on the ground from the top of the sky,
Looking around LOOKING FOR MY LOST MIND,
It can't be found, NO TRACE OF IT REMAINS,
But my soul hurts, MY HEART BLEEDS N' BREAKS IN PAIN
I'm cold-blooded to anything my hand touches,
I burn enemies to ashes,
I'm not the one who gives mercy,
A knife in the back cuz of pity,
No, I already went through this,
I learn from mistakes my steps ain't thoughtless,
I'm really apologize for my rudeness,
But as for me, life is short and apologies are useless,
You are nobody to me and this is true shit...
I'm cold blooded because people made me this way... Who knows what I would be if there was harmony in the world?...
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MENTAL PRVBLEMS
There is still a war BETWEEN ME AND THE DEMONS,
I'm the same as 'fore, WITH COMPLETELY CLOSED FEELINGS,
I ain't open my soul, I TAKE EVERYONE FOR VILLAINS,
I see no allies, no, I CANNOT CHANGE MY BRIGHT VISION,
I HAVE MENTAL PROBLEMS,
My angel has been missing for a long time, I see no reason TO LOOK FOR HIM,
Live in a bubble, isolated but fine, although from the outside, I LOOK SO SICK,
I saw my demon stranglin' angel,
Cut into pieces just wie ein Vogel*,
There's an empty space BEHIND THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY RIB,
I feel I've no place OF LOVE IN MY SOUL I'M EMPTÝ
I am a lost child,
My fate is so vile,
Mental problems have been hauntin' me for a long time,
I've been thinking for a while,
That I'm a sick guy,
MY MIND'S FUCKING WITH ITSELF,
I START THINKING 'BOUT A QUICK DEATH,
I CAN'T HIDE A-ALL THE PAIN,
MY HAND REACHES OUT TO THE BLADE,
ALL OF MY HOPES TURNED OUT TO BE FAKE,
MAYBE MY EXISTENCE IS A MISTAKE...
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425
DVN'T TELL ME WHAT TV DV
Your mouth still says the same words,
But I won't let you change my life the way you want,
I've had enough, I HATE BEING USED,
Leave me alone, AIN'T TELL ME WHATTA DO
I'm tired of being a robot at the remote control. I needed to express everything to those who see people as a resource, or a tool. Those who use people as a resource, you are not smarter than everyone else. You are simply selfish making a path out of the heads of others.
I will eradicate others like you,
I'm not a puppet so I ain't belong to you,
My life belongs only to me and not to you,
You're deeply wrong if you think you've a doll called voodoo,
Fuck,
How many people have you already ruined their lives?
If they didn't resist then at that moment their brains died,
I'll catch you and the kinds of you, you're all rats but not gray mice,
This is what you truly deserve, fucking well-deserved pie
HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO FUCKING REPEAT,
DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO, YOU'RE NOBODY TO ME,
I ALMOST BROKE MY VOICE, I shouldn't waste my PRECIOUS NERVES ON YOU,
Your life, I would destroy, but I'll give you a LESSON WATCH YOUR MOVES
Your mouth still says the same words,
But I won't let you change my life the way you want,
I've had enough, I HATE BEING USED,
Leave me alone, AIN'T TELL ME WHATTA DO
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NV PLACE
I want to be somewhere, now I have no place,
I don't need no lovers, I wan' have a face,
I'm not living now but wandering, I
Just don't fit with any company
In the hood, I walk the streets,
The clothes on me hide all my skin,
I'm used to pain and don't know if I'm bleedin',
Or I may have lost my senses altogether,
In any case, it ain't visible under the skin,
Tryna get my mind in order but it's in vain,
It's all in vain,
Feels like my brain is dead,
I ain't feel its existence.
My body's worn out,
My heart is torn off,
I've lost my sense of love,
And won't get it anymore,
My head's tilted to the ground,
Possibly towards my future home,
I have no place in this world,
I have no face I am dirt...
My soul is separate from my body,
It's crying somewhere far away, separately cuz I'm nobody,
The angel disappeared,
Now I'm alone right here,
Without fucking meaning to be alive and live on,
All I've is the feeling of d-desire to be gone,
The devil won't save me the second time so I start to wonder,
End this shit without unnecessary pain,
And start living again...
I've no purpose to exist in this life...
So fuck it all, I reach out grabbin' the knife... :whump!:...
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NVNSENSE AT 3AM
3 a.m.
I look in the mirror and don't know who I am,
Deceitful and two-faced man, or just a lost soul,
I can't answer the questions that I ask myself,
Maybe because I lost my own self,
In any case, insomnia still exists,
I don't know the reason why I still breathe,
I still haven't changed and there is no chrest 'round my neck,
Angel whispers in my ear but I covered it with my hands,
I don't know who to trust, fear of everything made me paranoid,
Nowhere to go, I'm a lost boy,
Emptiness crowded out all joy,
People are the ones I avoid.
The door is locked,
The windows are boarded up,
My mind is fucked,
I still do not feel alone.
Someone's standing next to me,
Being safe is all I want to be,
I can't stand the new life and its new shit,
Although fate works and will be against me and I knew it.
Demons always stand by my side when I'm 'boutta go to bed,
They creak, make noise, as if in my head,
I can't escape them like I'm dead,
At times I see no perspective from the existence of my breath.
The sky is so dark but there is no one to help me,
My life's existence and I don't consider myself healthy,
I still have problems that I still haven't dealt with,
They will always haunt me till I personally meet death.
It is scary to look back,
Ghosts still hunt me from the past,
Life still hasn't given me a check, and
I'm not sure if will ever give away.
I take off my masks, their thickness is large,
I'm tired of them all, frequent change is hard,
I left it in the past, I don't want it to come back,
My head's full of a mess that just can't be gone from there...
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381
BLIND IN THE DARK
I'm pouring out my soul again,
I do it 'cuz it pours out pain,
I never asked myself if it was in vain,
I'm happy with the result my brain's sleepin' like me.
Closing my eyes I appear blind in the dark,
I want to hide all the fear, but heart wants what it wants, I
Think once I tried to cheat it, but at the same second I regretted,
This pain even pierced my brain and I'll never be able to forget it.
THERE IS NO PATH
THAT LED SOMEWHERE,
EVEN TO DEATH,
APPARENTLY I'M IN A CAGE,
NO KEY TO THE LOCK,
A CAGE OF MIND WITH CLOGGED HATE,
THAT CAN'T GET OUT,
BLIND HATE AND ENDLESS RAGE,
BURNING CHEST 'CAUSE OF THE HATRED,
THAT I DID NOT RELEASE,
'CAUSE OF THIS I SHRINK AND KNEEL.
THIS PAIN I'VE NEVER FELT BEFORE,
THE CHAINS PULL ME EVEN LOWER INTO THE VOID, IT'S DARK,
I WONDER IF I'M LYING UNCONSCIOUS OR HANGIN' ON
A ROPE WITH THE DOORS CLOSED FROM THE INSIDE,
IT'S ALL THE SAME ROPE OR MO'FUCKIN' TIE,
I WAN' BELIEVE THAT DEATH'S THE KEY TO MY PEACE,
OTHERWISE I WON'T GET ANYTHING EVEN IF I DIE,
AM I ASKING SO MUCH?
ALTHOUGH WHO AM I CONFESSING TO?
THERE'S NO GOD, NOR ARE THERE REACTIONS TO THE THINGS I DO,
CAN'T OPEN MY EYES AND SEE, BUT I SUSPECT MY NECK IS BLUE.
I'm pouring out my soul again...
I do it 'cuz it pours out pain...
I never asked myself if it was in vain,
I'm happy with the result, my brain's sleepin' like me...
ZzZ... ZzZ... ZzZ...
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437
I'M DVVMED
I AM DOOMED, I AM DOOMED,
THERE'S NOWHERE TO RUN, AN' THERE IS NO WAY OUT,
HE JUST MADE ME STUNNED, AND THEN GAVE ME A CHOICE,
LIFE WITHOUT GUNS, INSTEAD OF ROTTING
THE BACK IS GETTING CLOSER TO THE WALL,
MY HEART IS BLEEDING, WHO WILL SEW THAT HOLE?
I'M SHAKING LIKE A JUNKIE, MY SKIN WENT COLD,
THE BRAIN IS SHUT OFF BY SHOCK,
MY BREATH IS OFF,
I HAVE NO REASON TO RUN,
I START TO COUGH,
VISION IS BLURRED,
PROLLY DEATH'S THE CURE,
RIGHT OUTSIDE THE DOOR...
Hope for a pardon WAS A MISTAKE,
I'll always suffer and WILL HAVE HEADACHES,
I won't be forgiven for all the actions I HAVE TAKEN,
The path to death is narrowing WITH EVERY SINGLE SECOND
I AM DOOMED, I AM DOOMED,
THERE'S NOWHERE TO RUN, AN' THERE IS NO WAY OUT,
HE JUST MADE ME STUNNED, AND THEN GAVE ME A CHOICE,
LIFE WITHOUT GUNS, INSTEAD OF ROTTING
I was doomed from the start of my miserable life,
The first thing that started to turn black was the heart,
I had to pull my mind out of the sky,
And face reality, even though it made me cry,
I just couldn't escape punishment,
For all the sins that I've ever done,
Running away from death was foolish, yeah,
Who was I going to leave as a fool?
As a result, only myself
I AM DOOMED, I AM DOOMED,
THERE'S NOWHERE TO RUN, AN' THERE IS NO WAY OUT,
HE JUST MADE ME STUNNED, AND THEN GAVE ME A CHOICE,
LIFE WITHOUT GUNS, INSTEAD OF ROTTING
It seems that justice came for me...
Came to punish me for all my sins...
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426
NV LXVE
I can't be sober with them... They're poison to me...
Make me attached to you, I KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN AFTER THAT,
Punch a hole in my shattered HEART THEN WALK AWAY LAUGHING, UH,
KEEP YOUR MOUTH RUNNING,
ALTHOUGH, FROM THE FACT THAT WORDS FALL OUT OF THIS, THERE IS NO POINT,
THEY ARE SO DISGUSTING,
MAKE MY EARS WITHER,
YOU MAKE ME SICK,
MY HEART HAS NO MISTRESSES,
THROWIN' BUTTERFLIES OFF THE PYLON,
I DON'T NEED A LIE AS IF I'VE A KINDRED SOUL,
I know that I'm alone,
And I don't need a hoe,
I can feel the energy in my bones,
MY HEART HAS NO PLACE FOR ANY LOVE
I lost my heart long ago
Aye,
Since that time I'm still alone,
Yeah,
My neck has signs of choking,
WHEN I FELL OFF MY CHAIR MY NECK ALMOST BROKE THEN,
I'LL NEVER STEP ON THE SAME RAKE AGAIN,
I WILL KEEP PUSHING EVERYONE AWAY
I WALK LIKE THROUGH A MINE FIELD,
I HAVE LOST MY FEELINGS, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO FEEL,
HATE, JOY, OR EMPTINESS, SOME OF THESE FEELINGS I SHED,
MY HEART IS SQUEEZED OUT, NO BLOOD COMES OUT WHEN IT BLEEDS,
MY LIFE IS SHORTENED BY STRESS AND TORN NERVES
MY HEART HAS NO PLACE FOR ANY LOVE... IT'S DEVASTATED... COMPLETELY...
1
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458
TVKYV GHØUL
Why are you hunting for my soul?
Maybe 'cause I'm a fucking ghoul?
I did not choose this way,
To have everyone hunt me with hate,
I didn't choose to become a creature,
I didn't make myself such a future,
Y'all think I'm just doing cannibalism,
But to survive I need somethin' to eat,
There is nothing left for me,
Starve? No, I won't starve to death,
I'll do anything just not to lose my breath,
For me this situation is hopeless
Cannibalism is the best way to continue to exist,
It's difficult to hide from everyone, but I kill with ease,
No privacy, only survival at the expense of other's lives,
Living in other ways is impossible, people don't compromise
Dead inside but nobody seems to care,
It feels like I'm just rotting as a person,
I think this shit's unfair,
For years we try to eradicate each other's races, it seems this war will never end,
So many lives and nerves and time wasted, it is all in vain
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YXU'RE SENTIMENTAL
Put on a smile from ear to ear until it cracks,
Don't be afraid, nothing bad is said behind your back,
Because you just couldn't see it even if it was in front of your nose,
You see only good in everyone turning a blind eye to all the rot
IT'S LIKE I'M TALKING TO A FUCKIN' WALL,
YOUR MISTAKE IS THAT YOU'RE SENTIMENTÁL,
I RAN OUT OF PATIENCE YOU MISSED MY HELPING HAND,
YOU'VE LOST THE OPPORTUNITY TO CHANGE,
THERE'LL BE NO MORE CHANCE
Think for a second if your life has meaning,
If not, then you should either do something or continue to be a thing,
ALL THAT YOUR EYES SEE IS THE FRUIT OF IMAGINATION, BUT DEFINITELY NOT A REALITY
Apparently it'll take you years to figure it out,
Stockholm syndrome's entrenched in your mind and blood,
Because of this you don't wanna change your spot,
Your mind ain't here, it's somewhere in the clouds
YOU'RE SENTIMENTAL,
YOU'RE SENTIMENTAL,
YOU'RE SENTIMENTAL,
YOU'RE SENTIMENTAL...
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CHEEKY & SELFISH
My life is more important to me than yours,
I'm not bad or nichilist don't mix me with dirt,
It's just that my self-esteem ain't at the level of the baseboard,
I know my worth,
I'm cheeky, maybe, but I do it better for myself,
I warehouse victory on the life shelf,
Dozens of cups to collect by the end of my life,
When I need I'm secretive and from the outside a shy guy,
You cannot buy me I'm not corrupt, I've a high price,
I consider myself as such and I think my eyes are wise,
When I look into your face I see a mask with many lies
I put my life much higher than yours and you,
In my eyes, you're nobody like the rules,
The life of a stranger, or your life, WHICH DID YOU THINK I WOULD CHOOSE?
WORRYIN' ONLY 'BOUT MYSELF AND NO ONE ELSE IS WHAT I'M USED TO
I'm cheeky and selfish,
From all the reproaches, my brain starts to melt, with
So much heat and pain as if in hell,
No, it's not a shame, it's just overheating from useless trash,
I live my life,
I won't let you change it,
It's only mine,
I'M SURE YOU WILL BREAK IT
Umm,
Can you just live your life and not stop me from living mine? Huh? Please?...
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392
CHVKE-VN!
Every time you step into my doorway,
Your first phrase is a request for money,
You left me and went to a guy richer than me,
It's already pathetic and disgustingly hypocritical but not funny,
You don't need me as a person, my wallet is a magnet
YOU WANTED MONEY, SO CHOKE ON IT,
THAT'S ALL YOU CRAVE, YOU ONLY NEED 'EM,
THERE'S NO POINT IN DENYING, I SEE EVERYTHIN',
SAY NO AND THEN START LYING, YOU WON'T FOOL MY FEELINGS AGAIN,
YOU MAKE ME REMEMBER FORGOTTEN PAIN,
NO YOU WON'T MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY, YOU WILL NOT BLAME ME,
I'VE CHANGED FOR THE BETTER, I AM NOT THE SAME,
PLEASE JUST FORGET ME LIKE I DID WITH YOUR NAME
Am I just a bag of money to you? If so, then it's bitter, but still the truth...
Take the money, eat the wallet,
CHOKE ON IT ALL,
Anyway your heart is cold shit,
AND WILL ALWAYS BE
YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THIS...
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438
PEVPLE ARE PVISVN
WE ARE POISON,
WE DESTROY NATURE,
WE DO WHAT WE WANT,
BUT TURN IT INTO CHAOS
WE ARE A VIRUS,
IT'LL COME OUT SIDEWAYS TO US,
WE NEGLECT OUR TREASURE,
CALLED NATURE,
WE'LL REALIZE THIS WHEN WE START TO DIE OUT,
WE START TO DIE BUT DON'T WAKE UP JUST NOW,
KEEP ON SAYING SHIT THAT IT'S GOD'S WILL,
YOU MAKE EXCUSES AND SHIFT THE BLAME,
HOPE YOU GO TO HELL AND BURN IN FLAMES
DIG YOUR OWN GRAVE,
KEEP ON STANDIN' ON FAITH,
THINK THAT YOU'LL GO TO HEAVEN,
AND YOUR LIFE WILL BE SAVED,
OF COURSE HE'LL FORGIVE YOU,
YOU FOLLOWED ALL HIS RULES,
YOU WERE KIND AND HONEST,
BUT WERE INDIFFERENT TO PEOPLE N' FORESTS
SO HYPOCRITICAL,
LIE AND SAY IT'S TRUE BANGIN' YOUR FOREHEAD AGAINST THE WALL,
AS YOU SAY HE SEES EVERYTHING,
WHO ARE YOU KIDDING, TELL ME PLEASE?
PEOPLE ARE POISON, THEY DON'T EVEN SEE IT,
TRY TO SHUT ME UP, IT WON'T CHANGE ANYTHIN',
THE BEST WAY TO GET RID OF PROBLEMS IS TO HIDE FROM 'EM,
OPEN YOUR EYES,
NO ONE WILL HELP YOU,
THIS IS REAL LIFE, NOT SOME KIND OF GAME
WE ARE POISON,
WE DESTROY NATURE,
WE DO WHAT WE WANT,
BUT TURN IT INTO CHAOS
See you all in hell... o/
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403
THE PURSUIT III
Wherever I go, I see demons chasin' me,
I really don't know what they wanna take from me
But maybe some of my sin beckons 'em to me,
I'm hiding from them I ain't know what they'll do to me,
Can't close my eyes even for a second, let alone sleep,
I'm scared of every rustle, it seems like someone's creepín',
It always seems like time is running out,
I'm like a rat in a wheel, losing heart,
I've a tail of demons, I'm hiding now,
I won't be able to hide for a long time,
SOMEDAY I WILL HAVE TO FIGHT WITH 'EM ALL,
I START TO THINK THAT THEY ARE ONLY IN MY HEAD,
'CAUSE WHEREVER I GO, I CAN'T BE ALONE,
THEY'RE JUST MY HEADACHE, AND NOBODY ELSE'S
They always haunt me I cannot escape,
I'm hiding, but they do not go away,
My head is a mess, it seems I got lost on the way,
Or is it just a dream, I don't wake up, but most likely it's a nightmare,
IF SO WHY THEN AM I FREAKING SCARED?
I'M TIRED AND ABOUT TO DESPAIR,
IF I GET CAUGHT THEN NOW I'M WASTIN' AIR,
UH,
LIFE IS A RUSH, THERE'S NO POINT IN STAYIN' HERE,
NOW
I AM RUNNING TO NOWHERE
My soul is fucking dirty and many demons are going to kill it. Because of this I'm in the middle of nothing. I begin to give up and despair in trying to escape. But what is left for me to do? Just Run.
0
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464
WØRTHLESS
(Note: The day I wrote this text, I was in a lousy mood. I literally felt worthless, so everything that will be written next - poured out of my soul.)
BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL BECAUSE I'M WORTHLESS,
I TRY TO DO SOMETHING, IN THE END I'VE NOTHING,
I'M WORTHLESS, THAT'S WHY I HURT MYSELF TO PUNISH,
I CAN’T HOLD ANYTHING, MY WRIST IS BROKEN,
I'M DEVASTATED, BOILING BLOOD FLOWS INSTEAD OF TEARS,
VOICES FROM MY HEAD THAT I'M WORTHLESS ARE ALL I HEAR,
I FEEL REAL DEPRESSION WITH DESPAIR,
HOLDING MY HEAD PULLING OUT MY HAIR,
IT'S LIKE I'M TEARING OUT ROOTS, FEELING PAIN,
I REALLY GOT THE ROOF OFF I'M INSANE,
THINK I ALREADY HAD AMNESIA, AND I'M GOING THROUGH IT AGAIN
FUCK,
I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING, IT'S A MESS IN MY HEAD,
SADISM AND PAIN MERGED, I AIN'T THINK I'M WELL
I GOT BRUISES ON MY KNEES,
I PAY THE PRICE FOR ALL MY SINS,
I CAN'T FEEL MY HEART BEHIND MY RIBS,
IT FEELS LIKE IT DOESN'T EVEN EXIST,
WHAT?
MY HEART IS RIPPED OUT OF MY CHEST,
I THINK THIS LIFE'S SUCH A SHEER WASTE,
BEEN IN THE DARK FOR SO LONG THAT I FORGOT MY FACE,
WAIT,
I FEEL THE SCARS THERE WHEN I TOUCH,
THERE ARE SO MANY THAT I CAN'T COUNT,
THE KNIFE'S ALREADY RUSTY BUT NOT DULL,
GUESS I'M TALKING NONSENSE,
MY BRAIN'S ALMOST ROTTEN.
SCRATCHING THE WALLS BREAKING MY NAILS,
I'M NOTHING AT ALL, I'M CONVINCED OF IT WITH EVERY INHALE,
HAVEN'T EATEN IN DAYS, THIS FACT MAKES MY SKIN PALE,
I AM LOCKED IN A CAGE, IN THE MENTAL AND REAL...
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523
TVV LATE
WHAT'S THE POINT IN EXISTENCE?
I LEARNED IT FIRST HAND, IT MAKES NO SENSE,
I DON'T KNOW WHY MY LIFE'S LIKE A TRASH CAN,
I COULD NEVER BE LIKE ALL HUMANS
I JUST WANT MY SOUL BACK AND LIVE A SIMPLE LIFE,
I WANT TO BELIEVE THAT I HAVEN'T LOST EVERYTHIN',
PERHAPS I WANT A LOT, OR RATHER, RETURN BACK IN TIME,
AND NEVER MEET THE DEVIL AND JUST LIVE IN PEACE,
HOME AND WORK AND GOALS, NOT WEALTH WITH BLISS,
LIL THINGS FROM ORDINARY LIFE, BUT STILL IMPORTANT LIL THINGS,
LIFETIME INSURANCE WITH NO RISK,
EVERY NIGHT GET ENOUGH SLEEP,
CLOSE BOTH EYES W-WITHOUT FEAR,
TO BE NOBODY'S AND BE FREE
But it seems to me that everything is too late,
I should have thought fucking earlier and not wait,
All actions have consequences, and now I am paying the price,
If I say that I am poor and ain't deserve it, it'll be a lie,
I don't wonder why,
I know the answer, I
Just can't come to terms with such a miserable result
I blame myself and I know that this is my fault,
Uh
WHAT'S THE POINT IN EXISTENCE?
I LEARNED IT FIRST HAND, IT MAKES NO SENSE,
I DON'T KNOW WHY MY LIFE'S LIKE A TRASH CAN,
I COULD NEVER BE LIKE ALL HUMANS
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597
CAN'T PUT UP
I WOULD LIKE TO CUT YOU COMPLETELY OUT OF MY MIND,
BETRAYAL STILL EATS AWAY AT ME FROM THE INSIDE,
DON'T KNOW WHY I JUST CAN'T LEAVE THE TIME WITH YOU BEHIND,
AN OPEN WOUND IN MY BRAIN CAN'T BECOME A SCAR,
WHY CAN'T I ERASE YOU FROM MY LIFE? PLEASE, TELL ME WHY
I GO TO BED EVERY NIGHT WITH THE THOUGHT THAT SOMETHING'S WRONG,
SINCE THE MOMENT YOU REPLACED ME WITH 'NOTHER, I CANNOT PUT UP WITH THIS EVEN THOUGH IT WAS A LONG TIME AGO,
YOU MAY NOT CARE,
CUZ YOUR LIFE GOES ON JAM,
BUT MY KNIFE IS RUSTY,
AND I CAN'T LEAVE YOU IN THE PAST, BITCH,
I REMEMBER THE DAY OUR RELATIONSHIP ENDED,
I'M REGRET I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU, UNDERSTAND THIS,
I WAS SO YOUNG AND DUMB, WISH I COULD GO BACK,
AND NOT TO MEET YOU, AND NOT TO LOSE MY HEAD,
YOU LEFT MY SOUL TORN APART AND BLEEDING,
RESENTMENT AND HATE ARE ALL MY FEELINGS,
I see it as a moral murder,
I can't accept such a miserable outcome...
I drink sleeping pills every night,
But I cannot close my both eyes
Because they are not dry,
Time in a spiritual emptiness passes for so long,
I wan' live but I feel like nobody when I'm alone,
It's like I've already died and already lived my life,
I see no more sense in existence, I reach for the knife,
I'm sure after I find peace you will not care,
After all, you're happy with your life and for you it's fair
I hope I find some peace... At least after death... I will watch your boyfriend... And wait for his last breath...
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533
JACK THE RIPPER
I OPEN MY COAT AND TAKE OUT THE SHARP BLADE,
SWINGIN' IT AND SLIT RIGHT 'CROSS YO' THROAT WITH HATE,
GET YOUR BELLY RIPPED, MISERABLE MOTH,
YOU ARE NASTY AND WORTHLESS WORM
Nothing can stop me, not even the police,
I wonder how your companions will worry,
They won't come home with their dirty money,
I'LL KILL THEM IN THE ALLEY EARLIER
I'm in a raincoat WITH A TOP HAT,
I'm a stranger WITH A HIDDEN HAND IN MY POCKET,
You don't know what I WILL GET OUT OF THERE,
A KNIFE THAT'LL DRAG YOU INTO ENDLESS SLEEP,
I'LL MAKE YOUR BELLY FUCKING RIP,
IT WILL BE A REAL FAST TRIP,
WHEN THE POLICE ARRIVE, THE BLOOD WILL NO LONGER DRIP
It will dry up then...
Yeah...
(C) Jack The Ripper.
1
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425
ØPEN YØUR EYES, THERE IS NV GVD
I'M TIRED OF YOUR ADVICE,
FRANKLY, THEY ARE USELESS,
JUST TRY TO OPEN YOUR EYES,
THINK CRITICALLY, TRY TO USE THIS,
CRITICAL THINKING WILL INCINERATE ALL LIES,
SOMEDAY YOU WILL BREAK YOUR FOREHEAD WHILE YOU PRAY,
DON'T IMPOSE YOUR RELIGION ON ME, I DON'T RECOGNIZE IT,
EACH OF YOU MAKES ME NOT IGNORE IT, BUT HATE,
CAN YOU STOP IMPOSING YOUR BELIEF?
I'M STARTIN' TO GET ANNOYED BY THE EXISTENCE OF YOUR BREATH,
PRAY UNTIL THE BLOOD STICKS OFF YO' FOREHEAD,
YOU'RE LIKE A VIRUS THAT I CANNOT FORGET,
CALL ME DAMNED AND SOULLESS,
BUT WITH YOUR PRAYERS I won't stop BEING HEARTLESS
POKE YOUR CROSS AT ME, HUH,
THINK THERE'S SOMETHING UNDER MY SKIN,
SPILL MY BLOOD TO CHECK IT OUT,
SEND ME TO HELL FOR THE SUM OF ALL MY SINS,
I'M NOT SURE IF YOU'LL GET AN ANSWER,
BECAUSE YOU ASK A FICTITIOUS PERSON FOR A FAVOR,
IT IS ALL A CIRCUS,
I TRUST FACTS AND LOGIC,
AND NOT SOME PEOPLE FROM HEAVEN
I'm just tired of all these excuses and lies.
I have no god, he's only in your minds... And no more...
0
0
413
FRANKNESS
I'M FED UP WITH THIS CORONAVIRUS,
I'M TIRED OF CIRCLES IN THE FLOOR OF MY ROOM,
I'M A CAGED ANIMAL WITH NO GOALS AND IT'S TRUE,
MY WHOLE BODY'S ROTTEN, I CAN'T STAND UP OR EVEN MOVE,
I'M DISABLED AND PARALYZED HERE ON THE FLOOR,
Everything is quiet, ONLY THE BEATIN' OF MY HEART'S HEARD,
I have lost my fucked self, I have nothing to fear ANYMORE
WHAT DID I GET?
FEELS LIKE I'M DEAD
NOTHIN' AT THE END,
I WON'T PRETEND,
LIKE I'M HAPPY WITH THE RESULT,
I AIN'T FIND IT AS AN INSULT
I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH THIS BROKEN LIFE,
THERE'S NO POINT IN COMPLAINING,
THIS IS WHAT I DESERVE, THERE'S NO LIE,
GUESS THERE'S NO POINT IN STAYING
ALIVE
ANYMORE
Revelation keeps me alive, so I keep this diary. It's like I open my soul and feel at least something...
1
0
426
BEHIND THE MASK
Every time someone starts a conversation,
He speaks not to me but to my mask,
I don't open my soul, I just close your questions,
I don't trust you you are nobody for me
Behind a mask I hide all the rot mixed with pain,
I'm a cautious paranoid who's closed without a key,
Lots of masks in my pocket for different occasions n' people,
It may be weird and crazy for you, BUT IT'S BETTER AND CALMER FOR ME
Try to peel the skin off my damn face,
You'll get stabbed in the back in my embrace,
Goin' deeper into my life, you'll get a knife in the back,
I'LL TURN YOUR RAINBOW LIFE BLACK
HUH?
And don't say that I didn't warn you... Sclerotic fool...
It is hopeless when you die from the inside and you need help. You ask your friends, acquaintances, but all you get in return is laughter. You're withdrawn, and every day you move away from your friends and family. They ask, "What's the problem? What's wrong with you?". And only at this moment you realize how hypocritical your surroundings are... That's all, I'm done...
3
0
395
GET AWAY
I think you're infected and you're gonna kill me,
You're sick with no mask, coughin', keep your distance,
The brain dies at home for months,
Degraded surrounded by four walls,
Take a look inside my soul,
Demons have seeped there through a black hole,
They devour it to the last bit,
They stuck the knife in there, stuck deep,
I completely lost all emotions,
My heart rusted,
Is someone offering help?
I don't trust him,
I can't make a deal I've nothin' to sell
I'D BE BETTER OFF IF YOU DISAPPEAR,
YOU'RE LYNCHIN' MY SOUL INTO TINY PIECES,
I TOLD YOU TO GET AWAY FROM ME,
BUT YOU'RE GON' TORTURE ME,
DON'T LIE TO ME THAT YOU'RE GONNA CURE ME,
I DON'T NEED YOUR TRAPS,
I SUSPECT THAT I'LL BREAK MY ANKLE WITH A TRAP AFTER THIS STEP
Is this all I get from your help?
After that, you think I'll feel fucking well?
I'M FALLING WITH YOU EVEN DEEPER INTO NOTHINGNESS,
OVER THE PAST YEARS, I'VE NOT DOUBTED FOR A SECOND THAT LOVE DOES NOT EXIST,
THIS BAG WITH A HOLE CALLED A HOE, I CANNOT LOVE IT,
SHE WILL SUCK ALL THE JUICES WITH MONEY OUT OF ME
GET AWAY FROM ME,
YOU AN AWFUL BITCH...
1
0
408
THØUGHT FLØW
LOTS OF THOUGHTS RUNNIN' THROUGH MY BRAIN,
I CAN'T GET HUNG UP ON ANY OF THEM,
THIS STREAM IS LONG, I SEE ONLY BLURRY STAINS,
FROM THOUGHTS THAT HAVE LONG DISAPPEARED
I SHOULD GO OUTSIDE FOR A COUPLE OF SECONDS,
DIAGNOSE THE MIND AND THEN START TO CLEAR IT,
IF A VIRUS APPEARS THEN IT'LL BE NECESSARY TO CUT IT OUT,
THE DESTRUCTION'S COMPLETE, THE SYSTEM MUST BE TURNED OFF AND ON
I GO TO THE MIRROR BUT SEE NOT MYSELF,
NONE OF THE PSYCHOLOGISTS I WENT TO GAVE ME PSYCHIC HELP,
AFTER MANY THERAPIES I'VE NOT STARTED TO FEEL WELL,
WHY I ALWAYS FEEL SO SHITTY AND CAN'T FIND A WAY OUT OF THIS SITUATION, CAN SOMEONE FUCKIN' TELL?
I AM TRYING TO STAY AFLOAT,
HUH,
IT'S LIKE I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SEA WITHOUT A BOAT,
I DON’T HAVE ANYTHING, I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING, BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT,
ALL I CAN DO IS HOPE FOR SOMETHING AND CONTINUE TO ROT.
I'M TRYNA GET HUNG UP ON THE POSITIVE,
OR RATHER ON WHAT I HAVE LEFT,
IT'S SO FUNNY THAT ALL THAT DISTINGUISHES ME FROM A CORPSE IS NOT THAT I LIVE,
BUT ONLY THAT I BREATHE
UHHH...
2
0
556
SITBACK
SIT BACK, RELAX,
POUR A DRINK INTO A GLASS,
CLOSED EYES, IN MY
MIND I THINK ABOUT MY LIFE,
NO LIES, INSIDE
MY HEAD AND INSIDE MY MIND,
BELOW MY HEAD
YOU CAN SEE MY SOUL CRYIN'
I cannot tell you the truth,
The reason for this is I do not trust you,
I'm sure you'll get rid of me,
Bitch, just to get my wallet,
Your vision works not for a person,
BUT FOR MONEY,
YOU CAN KILL ME EVEN WITH POISON, ANYWAY I WILL BE LONELY
THESE DAYS I AM NUMB,
THE FACE IS WIPED OFF FROM ALL EMOTION,
MY MOOD GOES DOWN AND UP,
DROWNIN' IN FANTASIES N' IMAGINE MY TOMBSTONE,
I'LL DRAG ALL THE SCUM WITH ME INTO THE GROUND,
I've heard many reproaches that I'm livin' my life wrong,
But alcohol erased all memory DOWN TO THE LAST KILOBYTE,
All the voices and noise beyond MY HEAD ARE WHITE
I'm numb lying on the floor,
Something paralyzed my bones,
They are motionless, I can't get up,
I wish I'd accept someone's help, BUT NOT A KNIFE STAB,
I'M WAITIN' FOR THE GATE TO HELL, THIS LIFE IS A CRAP...
I only believe in myself and my feelings...
FEELINGS THAT FUCKING NO LONGER EXIST...
1
0
376
AWARENESS/PARANVIA
I LOST A LOT OF ENERGY AND NERVES,
I'VE BEEN STUFFED WITH LIES SINCE MY BIRTH,
TIRED OF BEING AT THE LEVEL OF DIRT,
TIRED OF THE PAIN OF THE STITCHES THAT COME APART AT THE HEART,
AT THE HEART,
I'M AFRAID TO GET A NEW WAVE THAT WILL FINALLY BREAK ME IN HALF,
BREAK ME IN HALF,
I'M HOLDING ON TO THE THREADS THAT ARE ABOUT TO BREAK,
ABOUTTA BREAK,
I AIN'T ALLOW ANY GIRL TO APPROACH ME, I PERCEIVE THEM AS A SNAKE,
AS A SNAKE,
THEY'RE UNPREDICTABLE, I DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY ARE GONNA TAKE THIS TIME
Life is beautiful there is no doubt,
I left the problems, I didn't have the strength to eliminate 'em,
BUT THERE'S SO MANY ASSHOLES THAT PULLING ME DOWN,
I DON'T GET ALONG WITH 'EM
YEAH, YEAH,
YOU'RE RIGHT THAT I'M PARANOID,
AIN'T POINT YO' FINGER AT MY DIFFERENCES,
WHY DO YOU CALL ME AN OUTCAST?
I'M ALONE CUZ OF PRECAUTION N' EXPERIENCE,
YOU DON'T KNOW ME, AND EVEN MORE SO MY PAST
WHY AM I SO DISGUSTIN' TO YOU?
YOU HATE ME NO MATTER WHAT I DO,
YOU JUST CANNOT TAKE MY POINT OF VIEW,
YOU DESTROY MY IDENTITY, I SHOULD STAY AWAY FROM YOU,
ALL YOUR ACCUSATIONS MELT MY BRAIN,
DO YOU THINK I'M CONTROLLABLE AND YOU CAN MANIPULATE?
IF YES, THEN THIS IS YOUR GLOBAL MISTAKE,
YOU WON'T TAKE ME SO EASY ON A PLATE
3
0
341
NV HVMANIŦY/ATRVCIŦY INSTEAĐ
I SHOOT AND DISTRIBUTE A HEADSHOT,
I DON'T SEE THIS WAY OF KILLING SO TOUGH,
I COULD JUST PULL THE AX OUT OF THE BELT AND MAKE EVEN CUTS IN THE THROAT,
THEN LEAVE YOU ALONE DROWNING IN YOUR OWN BLOOD
I get a message on my phone,
Put on a mask n' take out a glock,
I give mercy cuz the blade is dull,
Take the pistol in my right hand and pull the trigger,
In a second, there'll be a deafenin' sound as soon as I hold my index finger,
My card account's gettin' bigger and bigger,
Coming home from the mission, I'll pour a glass of liquor,
I feel like with each new victim my mental state becomes even sicker
Huh...
I can gnaw off your head with my mouth and nothing more,
Take the organs into the backpack and the body bag will contain the corpse,
All that remains of you is bones and blood stains on the floor,
I lost common sense, I DON'T NEED IT ANYMORE
I LOST MY HUMANITY, AND LET IN THE ATROCITY,
I DON'T DENY ANYTHIN', I'VE LOST THE REST OF MY MIND, FOR ME EVERYTHING'S ALREADY POSSIBLE,
I CHANGED MY PERSONALITY WITHOUT EVEN NOTICING IT,
FEELS LIKE I'M STRONGER AND RUTHLESS,
But maybe I'm weak and vulnerable...
4
0
502
HIDE YØUR INDIGNATIVN
EVERYONE WARNED YOU NOT TO GO BEYOND THE STANDARD,
BUT YOU DISOBEYED AND MADE A DIFFERENT DECISION,
FROM NOW ON YOU'RE AN OUTCAST AND A TRAITOR,
NO ONE IS INTERESTED IN YOUR POINT OF VIEW AND OPINION
HIDE YOUR INDIGNATION
Huh? How do you like such a society and rules? In the place where I grew up there were such rules and infringements. It's absurd for me, as for any sane person. But... Not for a programmed one...
A CROWD OF SLAVES,
ON THE SAME THOUGHT WAVE,
No different from each other,
Ready to go wherever someone orders,
NO BRAIN IN THE SKULL,
A PROGRAM IN THE MIND THAT NOTIFIES YOU THAT YOU'RE A TOOL,
ONLY THE CHOSEN WILL REALIZE THAT THEY CAN BE FREE,
AND NEVER BEND THEIR KNEES,
And never wear a leash...
Hmm...
Not everyone can go beyond,
Only a few can do what they want,
Despite the criticism around,
And then they become head and shoulders above THOSE AROUND 'EM
Huh...
No one has the right to control you and your actions...
4
0
520
SP1NEBLØW
I'll get you crippled by hitting your spine,
You'll try to escape, but I'll chase you with red lines,
There is no telephone network here, you will not call 911,
PUNCH ON THE BACK PARALYZES YOU RIGHT NOW, NOW,
I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN A BREAK FROM VIOLENCE, BUT NOW I CRAVE IT,
I FORGOT MERCY, I HAVE NO NEED TO SAVE IT
HUH
I PUNCH RIGHT THROUGH YOUR SPINE,
RIPPING THE RIDGE OUT,
I TOUCHED YOUR BONES AND GRAZE THE VEINS,
I GOT A SPLASH OF BLOOD RIGHT IN MY FACE,
I HAVEN'T DRANK OR EATEN FOR DAYS,
YEAH,
I'M GONNA EAT YOUR ORGANS AND LEAVE YOUR BODY TO INSECTS,
I CUT OPEN YOUR BACK,
AND SEND YOUR SOUL STRAIGHT TO HELL
I am a surgeon,
I'll cut off your kidney with a scalpel,
Cut open yo' stomach,
I see the right organ,
Operation successful,
But for you it is stressful,
White mittens on my hands,
I take them off, they no longer provide benefit,
I've to wash the blood off my hands, it doesn't fit here,
It's 3 a.m. IT IS TIME FOR DINNER,
BLOOD IN A GLASS AND ENTRAILS ON A PLATE
2
0
448
SVICIDAL IV
I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THE MEANING OF LIFE,
BUT HOW MANY TIMES I DON’T THINK,
IT ALWAYS TURNS OUT THAT IT DOESN'T EXIST,
I GIVE YOU A BLADE,
I FELL INTO DESPAIR,
I CANNOT REACH DEATH,
I CAN'T KILL MYSELF,
THIS IS A CIRCLE OF PAIN,
THERE IS NO WAY OUT LIKE IN A CAGE,
IT'S THE AGONY AND TORTURE THAT I FEEL OVER AND OVER AGAIN,
WHY CAN'T I JUST TURN THIS PAGE?
TAKE THAT BLADE AND PIERCE MY VEINS,
I SEE NO REASON TO GO NOWHERE, MY EXISTENCE IS IN VAIN,
I'M TIRED OF BEING TORTURED TILL I FAINT,
MY BLOOD RUNS ON MY SKIN LIKE RAIN
PLEASE MAKE SURE I DIE COMPLETELY,
THERE IS NO ONE ELSE WHO CAN SAVE ME,
LIFE HAS MADE ME CRAZY,
I'M REGRET THAT I WENT THROUGH THIS,
I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR PEACE FOR SO LONG, THE ONLY THING I HAVE BEEN CHASIN',
I've no hatred or aggression,
I'M JUST TIRED OF LIVING IN MATTER,
THIS IS MY FUCKING MOOD NOW, NOT PROPAGANDA,
I BREATHE LIKE A BEAST WITH NO PACE,
OR MORE LIKE DARTH VADER,
I AM MY OWN BIGGEST HATER,
I've already lost my patience,
I WANNA DIE NOW AND NOT LATER,
All my thoughts that I've gathered,
Made me understand one truth,
I've got nothin' left and nothin' left to lose,
YOUR HAND AND BLADE ARE THE KEY TO MY PEACE, NOT SOME KIND OF LOOP
2
0
339
BLEACH VN MY FACE
My skin is eaten away by some chemical,
I feel the mental damage I got is critical,
Thoughts merge into a mess, I cannot sort them, uh,
I don't feel pain anymore, but feel my psyche is broken, uh
Heat in the skin, a feeling I've not lost,
I cannot blink, my eyes are red they cannot close,
Adrenaline doesn't lemme calm down,
Will I survive after such a shock?
I'm losin' oxygen n' startin' to choke,
Losing consciousness holdin' on to my throat,
Eyes close by themselves hurting me,
Thanks to the shock, I feel no pain,
I'm alone, I don't have someone to help me
BLEACH ON MY FACE,
I WANT TO QUENCH MY THIRST FOR BLOOD, I REACH FOR THE BLADE,
I CRAWL ACROSS THE FLOOR LIKE A SNAKE,
WHEN YOU WALK DOWN THE STREET AT NIGHT WATCH OUT,
IF I SEE YOU, I WON'T LET YOU GO UNTIL I CATCH UP,
YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO DODGE MY KNIFE,
I'M SURE IT WILL TAKE YOUR LIFE,
MOMENT OF SURPRISE ADD THE PERCENTAGE OF THE PROBABILITY OF INSTANT DEATH,
THERE IS NO CRUELTY, THERE IS NO RAGE, JUST FUN AND LAUGH
I cut your lips and MAKE YOU SMILE,
The blood creeps down your cheek ALMOST LIKE MINE,
The difference between you and me is THAT MY BLOOD IS DRIED,
My skin looks pale but IN FACT IT IS WHITENED,
I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE WHAT HAS CHANGED INSIDE
@Jeff The Killer
2
0
346
SVICIDE NVTE
"Cough, cough... Uhhh... I'm so tired... I see no reason to go further when there is no path that I could follow. There is no point in a miserable and worthless existence... My life ended long ago, but... Not completely, and therefore I have been existin' for a long period of time. I see no reason to wait any longer..."
I think I'm ready and I have the strength to get up and go to the kitchen, open the drawer and pull out the knife, and then ask myself again whether to wait or die, my veins are filled with fear and my heart is racing, it's easier for me to end all the torture and stand on the doorstep of death and face it, the next step will be straight to hell, there I will feel at least something, maybe even well, uh. Back to the present, I am writing this note in which I express the state of my soul, even an angel despaired that I would ever get up and stop lying at the bottom. My heart is empty, the only thing that kept me alive, not sure if I can save it, I have no strength to fight. I was disappointed in people when some of them betrayed me, I don't like to feel like a victim, I hate it. I swear this is not self-flagellation, I feel hurt, but not aggression, this is torture for me, but definitely not passion...
"Clink"
Blood flows down my hand, and I lie on the floor looking up,
I hope my loved ones will see the note that I sent them and understand my decision to end it all,
All the darkness and problems that I couldn't cope with pushed me to this desperate step,
I imagine how they'll be hurt and will cry coverin' their mouth with a palm,
I wish I could handle it and not fall...
Into despair...
Maybe I'm an egoist who doesn't think 'bout others,
But I'm already completely dead and I want 'em to know that I'm sorry...
4
0
383
INFECTED IN THE SPVTLIGHT
DYING FROM WITHIN,
LIFE SEEMS TO END SOON,
ATTENTION IS NOT WHAT YOU WANT AT THIS MOMENT,
WHEN EVERY NIGHT SEEMS LIKE THE LAST AND YOU SEE THE MOON RISE
IS ILLNESS A SIGN OF EXTRAORDINARY?
ADMIRE THOSE WHO SUFFER AGAINST THE BACKGROUND OF HIS LOVED ONES WHO MOURN,
This is mockery if not mental violence,
They need rest for recovery and silence,
He will feel like a patient,
HE DOES NOT NEED THIS ATTENTION AND A BUNCH OF FACES 'ROUND,
His soul will soon either be lost or rot with a body in the ground,
I lean more towards the second,
This is what I think, IT'S NOT FOR ME TO JUDGE
WHAT PEOPLE WHO ARE NEAR DEATH WANT
I just want to make their last days calm,
But I'm sure you'll turn a deaf ear to my words, am I talking to the wall?
Stop botherin' them all,
They deserve to rest before they fall...
1
0
354
TAKE IT BACK II
Take your "helping" hand away,
Your actions do not match the words you say,
You're draggin' me even lower but not helping me to get up,
I don't need your useless hand, TAKE IT BACK
I already took a real helping hand and it really helped me,
I don't care whose it is, even if it's hellish,
I got the result, THAT'S ALL I NEEDED,
Your words are empty, I'VE NO REASON TO HEED 'EM,
Give me one reason to trust you,
I have blood loss on my back, so many open wounds,
I'm tired, my neck cramps, I'm a tired dog,
My thoughts are now filled with fog,
It's like I'm dying n' my brain turns off,
I’m like a psychopath who cannot discern joy, emptiness or sorrow,
I need real help but not from you,
It's not up to you to decide what I should do
You can't even see how you use me,
As soon as I gain hope and a particle of trust, I immediately lose it,
You give me false answers and useless help, no point in apologizing,
You take people as a resource or a source of profit, you cannot even realize it,
Every time I let a new person into my life,
It sucks my resources or money, thereby using me,
I'm tired of being stuff,
No more space for knives in my back,
FUCK, I'VE HAD ENOUGH,
My body is so weak, THERE IS A CRACK,
I FEEL LIKE A CORPSE
'BOUT TO FALL FOREVER AND LIE IN A BODY BAG
HUH,
I DO NOT NEED YOUR HELP, TAKE IT BACK
1
0
428
MAKE ME MVRE DEAD
STEP ONE FOOT INTO MY LIFE,
IT'S FUNNY THAT YOU ASK WHY I'M SO MURDERED OUTSIDE,
YOU HAVE NOT SEEN WHAT IS INSIDE,
IT'S EVEN MORE WORSE AND MORE TERRIBLE THAN OUTSIDE
I won't let you hurt me,
I won't give you my heart, not to mention let you in,
I have dealt with people like you, bitch,
I haven't quite off that shit yet, as there's new shit,
I'm fed up with these empty promises of a happy and eternal life,
Why would you come into my life?
Just tell me why,
Ain't say that you're interested in me, I'm a sociopath, and your words are lies,
I will not be with you, I KNOW MY WORTH,
Should I show you where the door's?
My self-esteem hasn't yet collapsed to the baseboard or even the floor,
I'M SORRY BUT YOU WILL NOT GET MY HEART
-Cornered dog...
As if tied to a chain...
Why am I rude?
Or is it me so pouring all the accumulated pain?...
I will not let new or old people spoil my life,
I've become a loner paranoid, but why?
Maybe 'cause being alone is better for me and so I'm alright,
I was looking for answers to this question but this one seems to me to be true,
I don't know why, but I feel comfortable living this way and I will continue,
It might be self-destructive but somehow I ain't give a fuck,
I exist in emptiness and can't get out of it, it's like a drug,
My blade is constantly dirty and sharp,
My heart is as if stitched together, BUT IT STILL HAS OPEN HOLES
I don't let anyone near me...
I'm like a fucking cactus...
1
1
388
THE ØNLY REAL HEŁPING HANĐ
So many sleepless nights have passed,
There is a crack on my head and inside there's a mess,
Glass shards are scattered chaotically on the floor,
There's an open wound in my heart filled with alcohol,
I can hear someone open the door behind my back...
Outside, my heart is red, but inside it's black,
The candles went out as soon as the devil entered,
I have nothing left...
I don't know how I can be even more devastated than now,
These days I lost my mind to the point,
That I was painting someone's blood on the wall,
Devil, I'm the worst,
You can find another better copy,
I had problems 'n' parasites and I couldn't solve 'em,
This life, I cannot love it,
Almost all people are rats and rotten,
That's why I isolated myself from all of them,
I wish I could rip my heart out of my chest,
And not to carry all the pain with me and take a rest
I don't know why I'm falling on my knees,
Maybe 'cause the devil is the only one who can give me peace,
Perhaps this will be my fatal mistake, I take a risk,
But I see no other way out of this situation other than this,
Maybe I'll regret it, maybe I'll be glad after that,
I'd rather take this step than continue to be further in the mud
1
1
402
TVV BRIGHT
Understand that I'm not positive, not because I am not fine,
I just see everything around right through, and your vision is under the filter of lies,
Of course, it's easier for you to say that I'm just depressed and because of this can't see the light,
But the truth is you are wrong and only you are blind,
I APOLOGIZE FOR BEING STRAIGHTFORWARD,
SENTIMENTALITY IS SOMETHING THAT I AIN'T GET ALONG WITH
You see everything in bright color,
Take off the glasses and everything around will turn into horror,
It is so hypocrite that you look like stupid,
I'm satisfied with life, you just don't see it, unlike you, I'm not abundant,
Firstly, do not expect me to cross over to the bright side of life, I'll never be like you,
My point of view is steady and motionless as a stone, you cannot change it or move it,
Say I'm a nihilist and just want attention, but you know the truth, YOU ALWAYS KNEW IT,
I'VE MET POISONOUS PEOPLE WHO POISONED MY LIFE, AS A RESULT, THEY RUINED IT
I see no point in deceiving my mind,
Black and dull truth but this is real life,
When I see problems I don't close my eyes,
I eliminate it and live on with confidence in the next day,
Of course, I may mistakenly take it right,
All pain and suffering ain't worth anyone's life,
You find peace forever when you die,
All these rose-colored glasses and puddles of tears are not worth all the wasted time,
Is the loop and the blade is the only way to find peace?
ALL THESE TEARS AND TORN NERVES ARE THE END OF THE WHOLE WAY, I think,
IT WOULD BE BETTER TO END THIS GAME AND WIN,
I WANNA LIVE WITH THIRST FOR THE START OF THE NEXT DAY
2
2
371
THE PURSUIT II
I can't run away from him,
He haunts me like a figment of the imagination an' drives me crazy,
I TRYNA LOCK MYSELF IN THE HOUSE, BUT THE SOUND OF TV INTERFERENCE ARE FILLING MY EARS
THIS CREATURE'S OVER SIX FEET TALL,
I JUST WANT TO END IT ALL,
MY BACK IS GETTING CLOSER TO THE WALL,
WILL HE PIERCE ME WITH HIS TENTACLES?
PROLLY, HE'LL STAB ME THROUGH THE TREE BRANCHES,
I HAVE TO RUN, THERE'S NO POINT IN PRAYING,
I'M THE ENEMY TO THE ANGELS
I'M RUNNING THROUGH THE WOODS,
ANKLE IS BROKEN, I LIMP AND CAN HARDLY MOVE,
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?
WHY ARE YOU STALKING ME?
YOU ARE NOT A MANIAC,
YOU ARE NOT A MURDERER,
THEN WHAT'S YOUR MOTIVE TO CHASE ME AS IF I'M A VICTIM?
YOU'RE A CREATURE,
BUT NOT A PERSON,
OR EVEN A FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION,
WHAT'S THE POINT IN PLAYING GAMES WITH ME?
DO YOU WANNA DRIVE ME INSANE OR FEED ON MY FEAR?
I'M HAUNTED BY SOME CREATURE WITH A BLANK WHITE FACE,
CHILDREN ON THE BRANCHES TERRIFY ME,
IT'S DONE BY A SADIST IF IT'S TRUE WHAT MY EYES SEE,
AM I GON' BE THE NEXT PIERCED?
TINNITUS IS ALL I HEAR,
I GOT ARRHYTHMIA AND VEINS FULL OF FEAR
3
3
402
EMVTIVNLESS/DEVASTATED
I'm devastated by all the gossip,
Call it depression, even though I tryna turn it away,
I SWEAR BY THE DEVIL THAT I'M NOT A FUCKING CLOWN, REAL CUTS PROVE IT,
Oh yeah, I FORGOT THAT YOU ALL ASK IF I'M OKAY JUST FOR FUN,
TO SEE THE SMILE ON MY FACE WHICH DISAPPEARS IN A COUPLE OF SECONDS,
YOU SEE LIGHT AND JOY, BUT I SEE DARKNESS 'N' BLOODY SUN,
IT'S SEEMS LIKE I'M NAILED TO BED WHEN I WAKE UP FROM THE NEXT NIGHTMARES IN THE NIGHT AND CAN NOT RUN,
WENT TO ALL PSYCHIATRISTS AND DOCTORS BUT NO ONE COULD GIMME A SOLUTION,
I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD LIVE TO SEE SALVATION,
MOST LIKELY I'LL WAIT FOR MY MENTAL EXECUTION,
WHICH WILL SPEND SOME PERSONALITY OF MY MIND,
DEVIL OR MY DEMON, IT DOESN'T MATTER 'CUZ I'LL END UP IN HELL ANYWAY
Are you talking about positive thinking?
I couldn't live with it at least a day,
Antidepressants were all that kept me afloat,
OPEN EYES TO THE TRUTH REALLY GOT ME BIG CLOUT,
The length of time when I WAS A KID AND ABSORBED INFORMATION LIKE A SPONGE MADE ME WHAT I AM NOW,
The lies that I was taught when I was a child, I REALIZED WHAT IT WAS JUST NOW,
I COULD NOT BELIEVE THAT LIFE'S SO EASY AND BRIGHT AND THAT WAS THE RIGHT THOUGHT,
I TRIED TO OPEN THE EYES OF OTHERS, BUT THEY CALLED ME A PSYCHO
I realized that if others don't ask for help, then they don't need it,
My life's on the first priority,
And other lives shouldn't worry me,
I shouldn't be a bag of answers,
I should be a person and solve my own problems
3
0
355
CREEPYPASTA
ALL THAT I HAD I LOST,
FAMILY AND RELATIVES DISAPPEARED FOREVER,
I DID NOT CHOOSE THIS OUTCOME,
I'M LOST AND CAN'T FIND MY PLACE IN THIS WORLD,
BEN DROWNED,
MY IDENTITY WAS KILLED,
I DIDN'T CHOOSE THE PATH OF WANDERING IN THE NET,
THE DARKLINK MADE ME A MONSTER THAT CAN KILL,
I DIDN'T WANT TO KILL, HE MADE ME LIKE THIS
NURSE ANN,
WAS FRIENDLY AND HELPED OTHER HUMANS,
THE ENVY OF OTHERS CHANGED AND KILLED HER,
SEVERED LIMBS AND A SEVERED EYE,
IS THIS A REWARD FOR ALL SAVED LIVES?
Help and do good AT THE SAME TIME,
WHEN SOMEONE IS FILLING YOUR BACK WITH KNIVES,
IT'S SUCH A BITTERSWEET TRUTH AND A PITIFUL SHOW,
DON'T BE SURPRISED BY THE NUMBER OF MURDERS DUE TO SOMEONE ELSE'S HURT
EYELESS JACK,
Dragged forcibly into the darkness with his eyes torn off,
THE LIQUID IN THE EYE SOCKETS IS BLACK,
It is impossible to know if you'll die as a person tomorrow,
WILL YOU BECOME A KILLER OR SOMEONE WILL BREAK YOUR NECK,
Life's a roulette wheel,
AN' THE RESULT CAN'T BE PREDICTED,
SO MANY RESENTMENT AND SO MANY OPEN WOUNDS FROM KNIVES IN THE BACK THAT CAN'T BE HEALED,
It's not their fault that they became monsters,
DON'T TRY TO SAY OTHERWISE,
IT WILL BE A LIE,
EVERYONE HAS SKELETONS IN THEIR CLOSET
Maybe I'mma sick psycho or a madman who justifies maniacs for the murders they've done, but I see their motive and it's insult mixed with pain. I see it this way, but you can find 'em thoughtless and sick...
3
0
414
NV PRVSPECTS FRVM LXVE
There are no prospects for love,
It has a detrimental effect on work,
Why don't I get a helping hand when I fall?
Where did you go when I so desperately need support?
You left me at the bottom and replaced me with a rich one,
DID YOU CALL IT LIMITLESS LOVE?
I REGRET THAT I GOT CAUGHT BY YOU,
I REALIZED THAT ALL THE MONEY I MADE WAS WHAT YOU ABUSED,
FUCK, YOU BROUGHT ME TO THE LOOP,
You are not a girl, you are a prostitute,
All you need is the rich man and his wallet,
It's like you shot me in the heart, but there is still a bullet,
It's so painful to pull it out,
What is the probability that you will not leave the guy with whom you are now, for the richer one?
I THINK ONE HUNDRED PERCENT
I don't see any prospect of love,
This isn't mutual cooperation, this is mental torture,
Constant paranoia and feelings of betrayal,
Why should I feel these feelings again, with a cobbled hope of sticks and mud?
I've heard many stereotypes,
One of which was the obligation to have a child,
Why should I have a maggot? I'm selfish,
I don't consider the presence of my own child an object of pride,
I'm too greedy so I will never be lavish,
I'm sure that most people will gnaw the throats for the fact that I'm not right,
BUT I WILL DISAPPOINT 'EM,
I ABSOLUTELY AIN'T CARE
2
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397
SVCIVPATH
These days I used to be alone,
I look in the face in the mirror,
So many thoughts about a boring and useless life, she is so monochrome,
My mind is full of demons that cannot calm down,
At night they don't let me find peace,
All I want is a dark night and peace with silence,
So that I wasn't a sociopath, and lived like everyone else,
I guess there's no other option,
Why am I drowning in thoughts and as if dusting in the ocean?
I'm devastated, my face doesn't show my emotions,
After my eyes were gouged out, I forgot about the feeling of caution
Don't call me a nihilist for my company avoidance,
I cover my ears with my palms not to don't hear your conversations,
My head is cracking 'cause my demons are making noises,
And that's the reason why I'm slowly but surely going crazy,
I'm not a shaking junkie, but possibly a schizophrenic,
My mind is weak and my heart is in a panic,
I'm in a mind cage and I guess I'll never break it,
So dark inside my mind, my cage looks like a basement,
I see darkness and the souls that I killed in it, I can't face them,
This is a game of mind in which I am a patient
I really became a sociopath,
Isolation made me like that,
I would like to live differently, but I cannot go back and change the moment in my life when I became a sociopath and I cannot be different,
I'm a loner in life without real friends
2
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333
My art of the legions
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Full pic is in my insta: https://www.instagram.com/p/CH67F_nFcf4/?igshid=19hwen5kqzwgr
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3
0
391
CVRNERED
Something's pressing on my brain,
Orders to do murders,
I can't stand the pain it uses as leverage,
The knife in my hands cuts the skin like it's butter,
I suffocate as if I hung on the chain,
Panic and anxiety rises in my mind,
I don't know who does it, but it looks like I'm going to die,
I'm powerless an' don't even see an opponent to fight,
I can't fight what is inside,
So what should I do?
Do I need to hear screams in my ears till blood flows?
Everything around me seems not true,
I don't believe my mind, or eyes, or ears anymore,
The degree of the brain increases, it hurts and boils, I think it'll die soon
I'm alone inside the mind,
Second personalities seem to have died,
I'm pinned to the wall an' there are no paths and no light,
I don't see any ray of light, it's pitch black, like the deepest night,
Maybe I have lost my mind and everything 'round is a lie?
I'm not sure of anythin', so this is an option that I can't deny,
Why do I hear someone's girly voice crying near me?
Is it an angel or a man or just 'nother hallucination?
Someone, please,
Pull the trigger to my temple and end this hellish agony,
I'm tired of the torment that my mind gives me, my soul and everything inside is already broken,
What have I done to deserve all this sufferin'?
I don't understand,
I was normal 'n' lived in peace, but now I'm definitely not human
2
1
419
LXST TIME
I finished my work day,
I asked the girl where she was by SMS,
There was no answer for a long time,
The apartment was locked, an hour has passed,
I went to my best friend, maybe even to spend the night,
There was a downpour outside and I ran breathless,
I took off my hood when I went inside
The sounds that came from the top of the apartments shocked me,
I opened the apartment door and saw a friend fucking with my already ex,
She was lying on him with fun and received kisses on the neck,
All the wasted time I will never get back,
I ran to the roof and then my heart turned black
So much time wasted,
All the joyful moments from the past are already fading against the background of the present,
The whole soul and everything inside is devastated,
Like water in the desert,
I guess I need a reset,
Inside, a silent scream rips my ribs,
No, I won't cry 'bout this
She is not worth my tears,
I should have understood earlier,
It was my mistake that I won't make again,
I'm tired of the load, I'm tired of the pain,
This will someday show a stain
1
1
441
BACHELVR
I heard the case of one guy and I feel sorry for him,
His girlfriend put him in jail for a pittance,
In court, everyone sold out themselves and justice didn't exist,
This is the reason why I'm a bachelor,
All the aspirations that've accumulated in the past have gone nowhere as the labor,
It's good that I didn't have this experience,
My life wouldn't make sense,
In this life I'm intense,
I built my life up front,
I'm more like Jason Bourne than James Bond,
Girls aren't in the foreground,
Biz and money are above them all,
I want to live life for myself and not cut my soul,
If I have a girl she will empty my wallet and leave with a split heart and a hole
I want to live,
But not rot behind bars,
I won't believe
If you tell me that the next girl won't leave me bleeding scars,
And that I won't suffer and my life will not collapse,
It seems to me that after this step,
I will be killed spiritually with a devastated heart in a trap,
And will be stabbed with the knife in the back,
I ain't consider myself a paranoid,
I just want to live and not die in emptiness and its void
4
1
413
SVICIDAL III
Tired of life,
Lived through all the darkness and lies,
I only have the strength to grab the knife,
All the demons in my head are asleep, but I can't close my eyes,
Memories of a painful past never leave my mind,
'FORE YOU ASK ME IF I'M FINE,
LOOK INTO MY FUCKING FACE,
I'll never be sentimental, don't even wait,
I'm so exhausted and disgusted as I said,
I mutilate myself, I have reached a completely insensible state,
I THINK IT'S TIME TO GRAB THE BLADE,
And cut deep into the skin,
This fight between emptiness and me
I cannot win,
I WAN' FEEL AT LEAST SOMETHING,
I'M INSENSITIVE TO PAIN EVEN WITHOUT MORPHINE
I already dealt with this case and then I somehow got out,
But I can feel something heavier here pulling me down,
Feelings of affection and love are long gone,
Since my heart was torn off.
I started a game called "life" and I'm waiting for the end,
I was in hell and saw paradise with islands,
Someone was there and shed blood and tore off the angel's wings,
That angel was bleeding and drownin' in it,
Someone almost destroyed heaven,
Maybe it was a henchman from hell
I look in the mirror and watch how life fucked me, shit,
There is an error in my brain, I see a void 'n' how I got stuck in it,
It seems like I've a virus in my brain, DEVOURING ALL THE POSITIVE,
Someone or something wants me to feel pain,
It feels like my shoulders are bein' pulled down by chains,
Know that every event affects the future and leaves a stain,
Back to painful memories again,
I REMEMBER ALL THE DARK DAYS,
DURING WHICH I WAS BEATEN AND LEFT WITH A BLANK FACE
HA-HA...
I'm really worn out...
My heart is ripped out of my chest,
And I feel it perfectly
2
0
608
WVRDS VF SUPPVRT
Listen, don't make the mistake that will put an end to your life now,
There are still people in the world who care about you, take the knife down,
Love is not a support but a parasite,
It tears apart till a torn soul remains and the face is white,
My whole heart is black, my choice wasn't right,
I SAW ONLY DARKNESS, BUT I ALSO SAW SPARKS OF LIGHT
Learn from mistakes, and don't dig your own grave,
You still have something to take from life, and you shouldn't reject it,
After death there'll be emptiness, life is the only one and you must protect it
SUICIDE HELP.
WVRDS VF SUPPVRT.
DVNT
SUICIDE
1
0
404
SCARFACE
I left the house
With a mask in my pocket and I'm gonna put it on,
Scars on my face I'm gonna roll the neck of the one who made my face the way it is now,
I'm sleepy 'cause I had nightmares tonight but I don't give a fuck,
Plenty of motivation, it's enough,
I've been sitting alone for months,
Strange, I stopped coughing up blood,
I used to feel like I was coughing up my organs,
Then my mind was in a fog and it made me laugh, uh
There have been periods of darkness in my life,
I was nowhere or more precisely in the void, I had no goal with which to fight,
My usual combat tactic was to use malice,
I spent this night awake,
I'm productive at work and don't need a smoke break,
I wanted to drink Blackjack and did it,
It worked like coffee,
Keep telling me death is coming,
But you didn’t consider the fact that I signed a contract with it, did you know that?
I am not so easy to kill I'm a toughie,
The mask on my face is my cover
0
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348
BE DIFFERENT
Listen, leave those suicidal bitches alone,
Let 'em cut through their wrist to the bone,
They do not value life and that's their mistake,
Pathetic lil' piece of attention is all they want to take,
But you better not waste time on 'em they're not worth it,
They are not going to die, they're bluffin',
They cost nothin',
My brains can't digest their love rhetoric,
Huh, her boyfriend dumped her?
This is not surprising, I would send to the fuck her too,
All her mascara is so black and runs down her cheek,
Her boyfriend just now found out who she really is,
Poser girl, empty and pathetic,
Be different, don't be a herd,
Be whoever you want, but don't be a nerd*,
Find yourself in your soul an' then you'll be with a face in this world,
Some turn to dust and some turn to gold,
Unless of course you ain't going to spin on a bolt,
Get up out of the mud when you fall,
Through sweat and mistakes you will reach your goal
Nothing and no one should pull you down,
For you they should be like ghosts,
They say you bullshit so you stayed on with them at the bottom,
Do what you want without looking around,
When you become happy and successful, everyone will only envy,
They will try to put sticks in the wheels of your life,
And you'll have to fight back,
Consider that those people who are interested in your product are your children, and the work is your wife,
You yourself create your future, and the more you put in effort, the greater the chance for a bright path,
If you strive you will get everything you want,
You must keep your goals and dreams within the framework of sobriety and do not distort,
The main thing is to find your niche and don't tear yourself apart
*nerd - (here) annoying person.
0
0
361
KITCHEN KNIFE
HEAVY BREATHING,
I TAKE THE KITCHEN KNIFE FROM THE TABLE,
MY FACE IS EMOTIONLESS,
I'M A SHADOW, YOU CAN'T SEE ME 'CUZ I'M SECRETIVE,
I'M A REAL CORPSE AND I'M NOT STRESSED,
SEVERED HEADS ARE MY PATH,
I'VE ALREADY PASSED THE END CALLED DEATH,
I'VE ALREADY SPILLED MY ANGER, I NO LONGER NEED TO COLLECT IT IN MYSELF,
KNIFE AND BLOODLUST IS ALL I NEED TO HAVE
HAPPY HALLOWEEN,
I OPEN THE DOOR WITH THE WORDS "INSTANT DEATH OR TORTURE?",
I STAB YOUR BODY WITH MY KNIFE AND HANG YOU ON THE WALL LIKE A PICTURE,
Siren outside the window, time to disappear,
I won't get hurt even if I get shot in the shoulder,
I'll find my victim under the bed, underground and everywhere,
After playing with it, I'll kill it when it'll be scared
I grabbed my claws into your soft skin,
Sharp teeth will cut it and I'll get yo' meat,
I'm ready to eat raw flesh this time I'm really hungry,
I prefer to mix it with blood,
I'll leave your heart, it is really disgustin',
The blood is so tasty that I'm numb,
Fuck all thoughts, they'll be swallowed up by brutality,
INSOMNIA IS DETRIMENTAL TO MY MENTAL STATE,
I KILL ALONE LIKE JEFF THE KILLER I DON'T NEED ANY MATES,
IF YOU FOLLOW ME LIKE A TAIL, I'LL CLOSE YOU IN HELL BEHIND THE GATES,
I DON'T NEED YOU AND I'LL TELL YOU IT WITHOUT HESITATION,
DID YOU THINK YOU WOULD KILL WITH ME?
I'M COLD BLOODED WITH A KITCHEN KNIFE AND I KILL EVERYONE INDISCRIMINATELY
0
0
607
HAPPY DEATH DAY
I'm trying to understand the status of my internal state,
But all I see is anger and hate,
I fall into the abyss every day,
And leave it like after a week of torture,
Will I ever be able to come out the same?
My optimism rolls further and further down,
Don't even ask why my face is emotionless,
It's so funny to get hurt when you're broke,
I just want to not give a fuck 'bout those around,
But they ask me why I am not happy,
I live inside my head, everything outside is monochrome,
I deal with all the pain but I realize I am mortal,
Better to be outside than within four walls
I'm a carrier, carry bodies in the trunk,
I take the bodies to their destination, and whether they're alive or not - I don't give a fuck,
I brought the goods and got the bucks,
That's all I need,
If the body screams then I beat it until it dies down,
I have to watch the breath of this,
Otherwise, I won't get the dough,
AND I WILL REGRET IT,
Fuck reality, fantasy is better, uh
My past is so fucked up that I've been to the netherworld,
I remember what Scarlxrd said in the song "Hell's on Earth" and subscribe to his every word,
IN THE REAL WORLD, THERE'S NOW A BLACK HOLE
1
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536
HEAD ACHING
I'LL SEE BLOOD FLOWING WITH BRAINS WHEN I HIT YOUR HEAD WITH A SLEDGEHAMMER,
I WAS SO BORED IN THE SUMMER,
I WOULD ARRANGE A PUBLIC EXECUTION RIGHT NOW,
SEVERAL DOZEN PEOPLE WOULD HAVE GATHERED FOR YOUR SUFFERING TO WATCH,
I put on a hood and become black-faced,
I'd rather be faceless, don't wanna be haunted,
I have many bottles of blood and they are abundant in them,
If I drink more than a liter of blood I get sick,
I was as paranoid as Tommy Jarvis of darkness and murder, but now these are my daily processes,
I "DANCED" WITH ZALGO'S DAUGHTER,
AT THE END OF THE DANCE I BROKE HER NECK,
I NEVER STOPPED LAUGHING FROM THIS EVENT,
I KNOCKED HER OUT WITH THE KEEPER'S HAMMER,
EVERYONE GATHERED TO WATCH MY EXECUTION, BUT IT STILL HASN'T COME
MY EVERY DAY IS THE SAME,
I REMEMBER THE DAYS WHEN I LIVED WITH A REAL BITCH,
I WAS A BAG OF MONEY FOR HER AND NOTHING MORE,
I TOLD HER THAT I WOULDN'T GIVE MY MONEY AND SHE IMMEDIATELY SLAMMED THE FRONT DOOR,
A WEEK LATER I GOT A CALL FROM SOMEONE,
HE SAID THAT MY EX HANGED HERSELF ON A ROPE
I'm not soulless. She made a choice and it was really dumb. I remember the bright moments that happened to me and her. And they were the last in her life. Short life... I feel sorry for her, honestly...
I BLEW THE HEAD OFF OF THE LAST VICTIM WITH MY FIST SO THAT THE SPINE RIPPED OUT TOO,
THE SIGHT WAS AMAZING, THEN WAS SPILLED SO MUCH BLOOD,
MY FACE IS STAINED LIKE A BLADE,
BLOOD WAS EVERYWHERE LIKE AFTER RAIN,
I'M NOT THE ONE WHO LIKES TO WAIT,
I KILL WHEN I AM INSANE,
AND THEN WHEN I WANT TO POUR OUT ALL THE HATE
0
0
443
CVRPSE
I AM A CORPSE,
I'M NOT A FRIEND I AM A REAL CURSE,
I'LL TURN YOUR LIFE INTO HELL BEFORE YOU EVEN HAVE TIME TO BLINK,
I HAVE NO PERSONAL MOTIVE, I JUST WANT YOU TO BLEED,
I'M ROLLING THE DICE IN MY HEAD,
THE SKULL FALLS OUT, SOON YOURS WILL BE BROKEN AND THEN YOU'LL BE DEAD,
YOU CAN'T KILL ME, I'M ALREADY DEAD,
MY SOUL IS LOST I'M EMPTY INSIDE I CANNOT BE SAD
PUT THE BARREL AGAINST MY TEMPLE AS IF YOU SUBDUE ME,
YOU ARE SO NAIVE AND INTERESTING, YOUR HANDS ARE NOT BLOODY,
I WON'T BE SURPRISED IF YOU HOLD THE GUN FOR THE FIRST TIME,
I'LL WATCH YOU SHOOT, YOU GET A HEART ATTACK FROM MY BRAIN
WHEN IT'LL FLY OUT OF MY SKULL RIGHT INTO YOUR FACE,
I'LL SEE YOUR FACE WHEN YOU'LL BE TERRIFIED,
MAKE NO MISTAKE, CHOOSE THE RIGHT WAY,
DON'T CALL ME CRAZY, YOU'RE A HYPOCRITE, I'M ALRIGHT,
YOU CAN'T GET ENOUGH BLOOD, CAN YOU?
YOU DIDN'T PUT ANY IMPRESSION ON ME,
YOU BETTER DROWN YOURSELF IN THE SEA,
I HEAR VOICES IN MY HEAD FOR A WEEK,
THE DEVIL DID NOT HELP ME,
I BECAME UNCONTROLLABLE, OR RATHER THE ONE YOU SEE,
MY DEATH WILL NOT BE FROM OLD AGE, BUT FROM BOREDOM
THE FUNNIEST THING IS THAT I FOUND MY ROOMMATE HANGED IN HIS ROOM,
HE WAS TIRED OF THE SCREAMS IN MY ROOM OF THE VICTIMS I TORTURED AND OF ALL THE GLOOM,
Okay, I went into cruel,
THIS TOPIC DRIVES ME SO CRAZY I CAN'T STOP DESCRIBING IT,
I FEEL LIKE I'M ON TOP OF A MOUNTAIN,
I CAN'T COUNT HOW MANY DEMONS ARE IN MY BODY AND HOW MANY VIOLENT MEMORIES ARE IN MY BRAIN,
BLOOD FLOWS FROM MY NOSE, SOON IT'LL FLOW FROM MY EARS,
I KNOW WHAT'S IN YOUR HEAD AND KNOW ALL YOUR FEARS,
YOU ARE AFRAID OF CORPSES, AND MORE PRECISELY ME,
DON'T BE AFRAID, YOU'RE FORGIVEN FOR ALL SINS
I'M LIKE AN SCP OBJECT,
MY FACE WITH SCARS AND CUTS TERRIFIES YOU, DOESN'T IT?
RUN AWAY FROM ME,
THERE IS A PATH AHEAD, GLASS ON THE FLOOR THAT WILL CUT YOUR FEET,
THIS IS A GAME, I'M THE SAW, I WILL WATCH YOUR ATTEMPTS TO ESCAPE FROM DEATH,
THE TRAP ON YOUR HEAD WILL CRUSH YOUR HEAD ANYWAY,
THIS IS A STREAM OF SADISM AND PAIN THAT WILL FLOW FOREVER,
I'LL NEVER BE SATURATED WITH MISERY, NEVER,
MY FANTASY AND COMMON SENSE COULD NEVER EXIST TOGETHER
0
0
329
CVMPETITIVN
I did a lot of shit, but I ain't gonna go to church,
I just put up with it and ain't want to get stuck,
I try to ignore schizophrenia, but it fucking hurts,
When you kill me and spill my blood, don't forget to pour it on your cake at the feast,
But I'm sure it'll be the other way 'round, and you will be on my kill list,
I've committed several hundred murders,
I ripped out the Adam's apple of the previous victim,
Are you talking about bitches?
They useless,
I ain't have fun with them,
I'm alone because I don't want to have mole-snitches,
I am ruthless,
I KILL VIOLENTLY,
I've a root and I climb the stem,
I will soon reach fruit,
I WILL TAKE THE TREASURE AND LEAVE QUIETLY
I'M USED TO GETTING PAID EITHER IN BLOOD,
OR IN CUTS,
I HATE RATS THAT ARE EITHER HIDING SOMEWHERE OR LURKING,
I KNOW THAT THEIR HIDING PLACE IS ALWAYS DARKNESS,
I gripped the prey, I'll bite right through its throat,
IT'S ONLY MINE, I WON'T GIVE IT TO ANYONE
HAHA,
GO FOR A SMOKE BREAK,
THIS MEAT IS MINE!
0
0
523
RATCATCHER
DO THE PAIN AND RUN AWAY AT THE SAME MOMENT,
GET CAUGHT RIGHT IN MY CAGE AS YOU SAID - "YOU'RE THE CHOSEN",
A RAT LIKE YOU MUST BE CAUGHT AND CLOSED,
YOU KILL PEOPLE FROM THE INSIDE AND POISON THOSE AROUND YOU,
WE'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR DECEPTION AND LIES, I CAUGHT YOU,
YOU USED TO FIND A HOLE
AND RUN AWAY WITH A PURE SOUL,
BUT THIS COULD NOT LAST LONG
AND NOW YOU'RE WITHIN FOUR WALLS,
YOU USED AND KILLED ALL OUR SOULS,
TRUST'S ALREADY BROKEN,
TIME OF ATONEMENT
RAT IN A RAT TRAP,
WAS IT WORTH ALL THE PAIN YOU CAUSED?
EXPERIENCE ALL THE SENSES OF A TEST RAT IN THE LAB,
YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO CONTROL IT,
YOU'LL NOT BE ABLE TO PAUSE IT,
HOW DO YOU FEEL OF BEING SPECIAL AND CHOSEN?
THE WORLD IS DYING FROM THE LIKES OF YOU,
BETRAYAL AND DECEIT, THIS IS YOUR LIFESTYLE,
I LOST MY PATIENCE WHEN PEOPLE LIKE YOU RUINED MY LIFE,
A RAT IN A CAGE, CLOSED AND BROKEN,
FEEL ALL THE RAGE, YOU'VE INFLICTED ON OTHERS...
ALL THE ACTION THAT YOU'VE DONE WILL NOT REMAIN UNNOTICED,
YOU'RE HYPOCRITICAL TO THE BONE, YOU BELONG IN A COFFIN
A RAT IN A CAGE, CLOSED AND BROKEN,
FEEL ALL THE RAGE, YOU'VE INFLICTED ON OTHERS,
A RAT IN A CAGE, CLOSED AND BROKEN,
FEEL ALL THE RAGE, YOU'VE INFLICTED ON OTHERS,
DO THE PAIN AND RUN AWAY AT THE SAME MOMENT,
YOU'RE POISON TO OTHERS, EVERYONE WANTS YOU DEAD
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525
I HATE ANYONE'S PITY FOR ME
This feeling of pity and support,
Seems to me like humiliation and pushing my face into the dirt,
I am who I am,
My pain doesn't come from my surroundings, but from myself,
You better not pity me please,
I'm so different and strange,
This is my source of pain,
I'm in my head,
Watch it rain outside the window,
Do you think I'm pathetic and in need of care?
Over the past year I have changed,
I changed my face several times with a wave,
I used to write only poetry, but now I also draw maniacs,
I drink liquor when I want to relax,
Now I am fine, sharpening an ax
People are like wood for me,
Chop them up with an ax, squeeze out all the blood for paint,
I never claimed to be a saint,
I never called myself sane,
I've always been and will always be sick and stand out,
No one was a mystery to me and unpredictable except myself,
Nobody knows, not even me, what I'll do in a second,
The ax that I used to kill hundreds is now on my belt,
You're looking for me in my mind, but I'm beyond
It's better to be in pain and alone,
Than to feel empathy and humiliation,
Walked down the lane a second ago
And disappeared into darkness and gone,
YOUR EYES CAN ONLY FOLLOW MY SHADOW,
I have not finished one thing in my soul yet,
The question's whether I'm alive inside myself or am I already dead,
I'm not pathetic I'm just thinkin' in my head,
I'm in my world of meditation all the questions I solve there,
In the real world, I'm serious an' don't give emotions from feelings of pain and fear,
I'm on the cloud of thought, do not try to shout to me, there's nothing I can hear,
Yeah...
1
0
371
HEADLVNG
I take a knife from my pocket, It
Is faster than a gun with a bullet, yeah
I make an incision straight across the throat,
I fulfilled the contract and I'm 'bout to get paid,
The rules are mine, so I play,
The mask is on my face 'cuz of the disfigured face,
There will be cops with pistols in two minutes, so I'm in a hurry to get out,
War in my mind should not affect my state in the real world,
Mind is the top priority for stabilization, fuck my cold heart,
Knock out the window and fly out of the building,
I land on the ground, I broke my leg but don't feel it,
Too many fractures in my body, my bones are immovable,
My brain is so fucked up it's already boiling,
I'm still alive, a passerby called me unholy,
I have to run and not faint while running,
Run away and hide in the dark so no one can track me down,
Ripped out the guts from the last target, I'll eat them someday,
The heart is so rotten and nasty, I won't even eat it,
A moment is stuck in my brain in which the pyramid head chases me till I confess my sin
I run headlong, knocking down all the passers-by,
How long will this chase last? I touched and accidentally ripped out someone's spine,
I cannot throw off the tail,
This mission must not fail,
A bullet in my back doesn't kill me, I'mma tough nut to crack,
I continue run until my lungs are out of whack,
I think I will swallow them soon,
The cops keep chasing, it seems my tail is blood
I have to run despite my lungs already coming out...
3
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447
INDIVIDUAL CVMFVRT
I ask my dead body to not be buried in the ground,
My living wounds will not heal, they will continue to rot,
Even underground I will want to kill everyone,
Let everyone think that I'm crazy, but I live all the time in darkness,
And I couldn't feel anything because I was heartless,
Let my body burn in fire and let the ashes be carried somewhere by the wind,
Don't think that I am so cruel and bad, you should be burned alive
I'm sure that death will be the beginning of a new,
I will be a demon in hell and will continue to kill sinners,
For every person, life has different meanings,
For me it means developing and breaking ceilings,
Sometimes my face is double like kagekao's,
I just dream of breaking a cage and breaking chains,
And then break your resinous heart
Hah,
I GOT USED TO PAIN,
A BUNCH OF INJURIES GAVE ME AN IMMUNITY TO PAIN,
I GOT TO WORK, I AM DAMN SANE,
I CAUGHT A BULLET, AND PULLED IT OUT OF MY BODY WITHOUT ANY PAIN,
I have a secret basement under my house,
I harvest a thousand greens every minute, why should I pause?
Living as a bachelor is better than with bitches and a headache
I don't remember ever getting enough sleep with them
I shouldn't be drunk it'll end badly,
I don't get attached to anyone, it goes sideways and ends sadly,
I don't want to ruin anyone's life this way,
I break them with murder and hate,
I have to free my thoughts from those ones in order to live other days,
I have no emotions, only a white and empty mask on my face,
I was so cruel and was killing with sadism, I had to return mercy back,
I remember breaking someone's neck,
I remember the brain flowing out of someone's head,
I didn't even tell half of the facts,
THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING OF MY CRUEL LIFE...
5
0
419
SENSITIVE SUBJECT
Don't ask me to tell you 'bout my past,
It hurts me so much to death,
All feelings of hatred and pain,
So much influenced my brain,
But now I'm happy and fine
I remember how I was a lil' boy,
I was cheerful and kind,
But fights and blood pulled me into darkness and its void,
The first bruises and blood ignited the violence in my body and mind
Stop following me,
I'll go around the corner and my knife will pierce your body,
I carry a heavy load behind my back and coping with it,
I bring doom and anarchy and you won't stop it,
I'll gather a tree and ignite a war,
I have gasoline, I'll buy a lighter in the store
1
1
447
SUNDAE WITH BLVVD
A new day and with it a new breakfast,
All insults are addressed not to me, but to my mask,
I'm going to pour blood on the sundae,
Tomorrow will be a tough day, but now it's Sunday,
I'll spill blood on pale ice cream like last Monday
Haha, I'm experimenting with dishes,
Yesterday I cut and ate a heart in pieces,
My mind and all madness that there's not your business,
I just eat ice cream with blood, take my riches,
I don't really care,
Hot waffles with boiling blood are for dinner,
I am a vampire and cannibal and not a lifestealer,
Darkness is the place of all crimes, uh
I do not always hide my full face, I can hide half sometimes, uh
Don't think that when I eat I'm kind, uh
Every month turns my mind upside down,
Blood waffles are the cutest form of me,
Don't think that I'll always be like that,
The past comes to the surface at any look at my scars
I follow your every step,
Plans are painted in my head,
The void in the dark is so deep,
Hallucinations and interference sounds are the reason I don't fall asleep,
I'd rather be deaf than hear someone's tears under my ear
Rain outside the window as if from a bucket,
I eat an ice cream with a blood, knife is in my pocket
For the case when someone will bother me,
Black clothes still coverin' me,
I need pomegranate juice for blood from the heart,
I can’t kill during the day when everyone sees me, it’s better to do it in the dark,
My methods of killing are secret and only I am comfortable working with...
Don't even think to reveal my secrets, better watch your own! They are as if in the palm of your hand. So open! Haha!
3
1
522
MVŇVČĤŘVMÁŦIČ
Life is so monochromatic,
As predicted by Scarlxrd in 2018
In the songs "Hell is on Earth" and "PRISON, PLANET, EARTH",
It was so predictable, Earth pollution was the beginning of self-destruction,
Now all people really like in cells,
I removed the shackles from the legs, but I'm still in prison,
I'm sitting at home and losing my mind, I'm losing my ranks, I wan' continue the killing season,
I'm tired of sitting at home,
My closets are crammed with skeletons,
I'LL DROWN FASTER IN A LIQUOR THAN IN LOVE,
Last night I went blind,
Someone gouged out my eyes,
And poured tar in their place,
I'VE NO EYES ON MY FACE
I never told about my childhood, just talking 'bout the present,
The whole secret is that what I say about cruelty has been and has haunted me ALL MY CHILDHOOD TILL THE PRESENT,
JEFF THE KILLER AND SLENDERMAN WERE MY FRIENDS,
BUT ONLY IN MY HEAD,
Come into my head, find out all the secrets THAT I KEPT FOR MANY YEARS,
Go inside quickly, there'll be no turning back, YOU'LL SEE ALL YOUR FEARS,
There is another pyramid head for you, IT WILL MAKE YOU REPENT,
Hell will seem like heaven, mental pain is more painful THAN PHYSICAL PAIN
I painted a picture of the victim with the blood I killed,
I came up behind, pierced through with a knife and took blood to the palette,
I think I will sell it,
Killed, drew, and didn't touch the wallet;
I don't need it,
I ain't care how much money's in it,
LIFE LIKE A STOP IS FINITE
2
0
450
ÝXŬ'ŖÈ ÁŊŇXÝIŅĜ MÈ
I remember THIS FIRST ALARM BELL,
When I started hearing voices,
I didn't think that these sounds are of THE DEVIL FROM HELL,
HE CHANGED ME AND GAVE ME CURSES,
Void and cruelty is ALL THAT I FELT,
I do business in my head,
Get out of my territory,
My problem isn't loneliness, but in your presence,
YOUR CONCERN DOES NOT BOTHER ME
YOU'RE ANNOYING,
WHY CANNOT YOU JUST DAMN LEAVE?
I ALREADY LOST TOUCH WITH REALITY WHEN I WAS IMMERSED IN MY HEAD,
BUT I WAS RETURNED BACK BY A TRAP THAT GOT INTO MY ANKLES,
AND THEN I WAS THE ONLY TIME I FELL ON MY KNEES,
I REMEMBER HOW BLOOD WAS EVERYWHERE EVEN ON MY TEETH,
I SEE A KNIFE IN THE KITCHEN AND GO TO THIS LIKE MICHAELY,
AFTER ALL THE WORK, I REALIZED THAT I BETTER BE ALONE,
BE SURE, I KNOW ALL YOUR ACTIONS, EVEN THOSE THAT YOU DID IN THE DARK,
I LOST EVERYTHING WHEN I WAS INEXPERIENCED IN LIFE AND WALKED ON A LEASH OF LOVE,
SO BITCH, GET UP AND GO,
I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AND ANYONE ELSE
I do as I feel comfortable and not you,
I will move to a new level soon,
It's been like one day since the beginning of June,
Every morning I see the sun, every evening I see the moon,
I see obstacles in the way, but I move,
I DIDN’T TAKE A SPLINTER FROM MY SKIN FOR SO LONG THAT WHEN I PULLED IT A LOT OF BLOOD WAS SHED...
1
0
581
MUTILATIVN WITH THE CHAINSAW
TURN ON THE CHAINSAW AND ENTER THE BODY,
KIDNEYS AND INTESTINES FLOW FROM INSIDE THE BODY,
NIGGA, I JUST LOVE IT,
THE SOUNDS OF A CHAINSAW COME AS IF FROM MY HEAD,
AIN'T LOOK INTO MY HEAD THERE IS CRUELTY AND VIOLENCE,
I WAS ISOLATED AND STARTED GOING CRAZY IN SILENCE
Psycho from the mental hospital,
That's what I can be called,
The borders of insanity are invisible,
More precisely, they're completely absent, they are unlimited,
I'm holding glass fragments in my skin like bullets in a clip,
They are useful and can be useful in critical situations,
I use all the skills and available tools in the mix,
I still have a lot of shit to fix,
The load on my shoulders is too heavy,
Say dying words before I pull the trigger,
I know death is your main fear...
OH, DEVIL, I KNEW,
THIS EVIL WILL SWALLOW ME UP AND LEAVE NOTHING MERCIFUL,
I LOST A PART OF MYSELF AND MY CONSCIOUSNESS,
I LOST MY SOUL AND LOST MY LOVE,
IT FEELS LIKE AFTER DEATH I LEFT ROTTING BRAINS IN THE GROUND,
MY BONES ARE BLACK AS A VOID,
THEY BURNED OUT IN HELL AND RETURNED TO THE REAL WORLD,
PAIN IS INEVITABLE, BUT TORTURE IS A CHOICE,
ALL AROUND ARE LIARS, LISTEN TO YOUR INNER VOICE
2
0
704
DEMVN VR ANGEL?
I went crazy to the unpredictable extent that my shoulders hold a demon with an angel,
The demon asks to kill, and the angel says that the demon’s path leads to hell,
They tear me apart,
It is really hard,
My heart's already been torn apart,
Do you think I can handle it easily?
You think I'm at the peak of bliss, seriously?
CVLDIE, CVLDIE, CVLDIE,
WHY ARE YOU TEARING YO'SELF IN HALF?
WHY ARE YOU HURTING YOURSELF?
YOU GOT EVERYTHING YOU WANTED, GO FORWARD AND ONLY FORWARD,
DO NOT LISTEN TO THE ANGEL DO WHAT YOU WANT,
A DEMON DOES NO HARM, DOES IT?
HUH,
STOP DIGGING YOUR GRAVE,
WHY DO I SEE A WEAKLING BUT NOT A BRAVE ONE?
CVLD,
KEEP ON CONTROLLING THE WAVE OF VIOLENCE,
STOP HIDING IN THE DARK AND STOP BE QUIET,
DO NOT LOWER THE BAR, RAISE IT,
YOU'RE ABLE TO RAISE A BET, YOU'RE CRAZY,
ALL THE ALCOHOL MADE YOU MESSY
Demvn: Coldie, don't listen to the angel. She will not give you that power and strength that is in hell. There is no place for power and superiority in paradise. FUCK, THEY WILL TAKE EVERYTHING FROM YOU AND YOU WILL LOSE ALL POWER...
I think the angel's right,
I should finish killing in the night,
I have to turn my life upside down,
And it’s better to do it right now,
Ordinary life is new feelings,
I'm so used and tired of killing,
THE ANGEL IS RIGHT AND I SHOULD BECOME BRIGHTER
Dead cold-blooded decided to take a rest,
Coldie is going to spend cash,
Going to buy a new sniper rifle,
Going to kill from a distance
So as not to leave any traces,
Bought a new mask like the legion has,
I am going to shoot all faces,
ALL OF MY GOALS HAVE NO CHANCE
AHH....
3
0
799
DVNT LVSE YXUR PITY
CALM DOWN
AND GATHER YOUR THOUGHTS,
YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF WHEN YOU ACT TOUGH,
YOU SHOULD REMEMBER THE FEELING OF LOVE,
LIGHT A FIRE INSIDE YOUR HEART AND STOP BEING HOLLOW,
SQUEEZE OUT ALL THE PAIN OF SORROW
MOST IMPORTANTLY, DO NOT LOSE PITY,
DO NOT THINK THAT IT'S USELESS, YOU NEED IT,
I KNOW A FEELING OF HOPELESSNESS
AND HELPLESSNESS
I WAS ON THE VERGE OF BREAKING MY MIND,
I WAS IN HELL AND LEFT THERE WITH A TRACE ON THE PSYCHE,
I TRYNA KEEP MYSELF IN CONTROL AND NOT KILL,
BELIEVE ME I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL,
I GIVE ADVICE THAT'LL HELP YOU LIVE...
PITY IS NOT A USELESS FEELING,
BETTER SAVE IT,
BETTER CONTROL YOUR MENTAL STATE...
I HOPE YOU REALIZE THE PRICE OF THE SOUL,
VIOLENCE IS A BURDEN THAT DRAWS YOU INTO DARKNESS MORE AND MORE,
MATCH THE FACTS AND MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE,
START TO RESTORE YOUR MENTAL STATE AND CLIMB OUT OF THE VOID...
4
2
425
FEAR IS THE KEY TO WEAPONS
TAKE YOUR HANDS OFF THE WEAPON, IT'S MINE,
I CONTROL ALL THE ARTILLERY, IT'S MINE,
BUT ALL THIS WILL NOT HELP IN THE WAR IN MY MIND
I'M NOT CRAZY, I HAVE SMALL PLANS,
IF I TELL THEM, IT'LL NOT MAKE ANY SENSE,
TAKE A LOOK AT THE SKY, THERE ARE ONLY CLOUDS ON IT,
THERE ARE ONLY CLOUDS, AND THERE IS NO ONE IN WHOM YOU BELIEVE,
I’M LIKE A PARANOID, STANDING WITH A GUN IN MY ARMS, I CAN’T LIVE LIKE THIS,
THESE SCARS ON THE ARM ARE MARKS AS WELL AS TATTOOS THAT SHOW PICTURES OF MY PAST,
FOR EXAMPLE, THE HAMMER ON MY HAND UNDER THE WRIST SHOWS THAT I CONSTANTLY WORK WITHOUT ANY REST,
WHERE A KNIFE PIERCED ME THROUGH THERE IS A SCAR, FOR EXAMPLE, ON MY LEFT CHEST
POINT YOUR FINGER ON THE TARGET,
I'LL KILL IT IN THE EXACT SECOND,
Do you doubt my determation?
I TEAR OFF ANY HEADS IN A SECOND,
WAIT, LET ME FINISH DRINKING ALL THE BLOOD TO THE END,
I'M ALL BLACK NOT CUZ I'M AN AGENT,
I'M NOT A DEMON AND NOT A MAN, I'M A MIXTURE,
SOMEONE TOLD ME, "NOTHING CAN FIX YOU",
I THINK EVERYTHING HE SAID IS TRUE,
LOOK DEEP INSIDE YOUR SOUL AND FIND OUT THAT YOUR MAIN ENEMY IS YOU,
THIS IS NOT A LIE, BUT THE TRUTH THAT I'M USED TO BEING CRUEL,
I LOVE TO PIERCE BODIES WITH STICKS AND DRINK BLOOD
TAKE YOUR HANDS OFF THE WEAPON, IT'S MINE,
I CONTROL ALL THE ARTILLERY, IT'S MINE,
BUT ALL THIS WILL NOT HELP IN THE WAR IN MY MIND
4
0
387
GV FVR A SMVKE BREAK
I grabbed my teeth in the prey and won't let it go,
During this time period my bottles are filled with liquor,
My target now isn't just meat, but a real steak,
I advise you to get out of the way and go on a smoke break
Now in my head there's only a goal,
You won't lead me, little hoe,
You will not sit on my head,
All spilled blood is so deep light red,
I ain't regret the bloody nights that I spent,
I spend money as soon as I get,
I was just calm, but in an instant I dyed black,
I have a high enough chance for a bright end,
HAVE A CUP OF LIQUOR, I WILL HAVE SOME COFFEE,
MY MONSTER HAS ALREADY KNOCKED THE DOOR, IF YOU DON'T GET OUT OF MY WAY HE'LL DRAG YOU INTO THE COFFIN,
DON'T MAKE A MISTAKE, IT REALLY WILL KILL YOU AND YOU KNOW IT,
I KNOW YOU STILL HAVE SOMETHING VALUABLE,
DO NOT DO WHAT YOU WILL REGRET,
I'LL ALWAYS GO FORWARD IN ANY OUTCOME OF EVENTS...
SHOW ME YOUR RAGE AND ONLY THEN STAND BY MY SHOULDER,
I TURNED THE PAGE OF WAR BETWEEN PITY AND CRUELTY, MY BLOOD GOT COLDER,
IF I LOSE A BOTTLE OF GIN, I WILL FIND ANOTHER,
A DRUNK BRAIN EGO IS MY ZONE OF COMFORT,
ALL THE MEMORIES OF TORTURE AND PAIN GET ME LAUGHER,
IT SHOCKED YOU, BUT I DO NOT!
I MADE A PROFIT THANKS TO THE BLOOD WORK,
MY SOUL HAS LONG BEEN SWALLOWED BY DARKNESS
I crossed the line of madness, and was in hell and there went crazy,
I destroy rivals like you and crush into chips like acid,
You put me sticks in the wheels and it infuriates me,
You don't even move forward, you're an infection,
I can't stop my excitement,
I'm a killing machine, if you want to live, then get out of my way,
I work and move forward every night an' day,
Non-stop forward without brakes,
I ADVISE YOU TO GO ON A SMOKE BREAK
I am single-minded and that’s the point...
1
0
515
PYRAMID HEAD
I'm the embodiment of guilt,
I'm not chasing you, you yo'self created me,
I don't intend to kill,
I set your spirit free
Realize your sin and don't hide it,
Say the truth with your mouth and tongue, don't bite it,
Recognition is all I need,
Why are you taking time?
The soul under the lock dies of pressure,
You're killing yourself now, why endure?
The soul isn't weakness, it's a treasure,
Darkness must not take hold of your soul,
Don't give up when you fall
I'M YOUR INNER VOICE,
WHICH YOU HEAR FROM THE SOUL AND ITS VOID,
ERASE ALL THE ILLUSIONS THEY ARE FAKE,
LYING IS A THING YOU SHOULD FORSAKE
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0
481
INTERNAL BLEEDING
Do not tell me how to live our lives are not the same,
My soul lost a flame,
But I haven’t lost my mind. I'm still in the game,
Someone shot me in the liver, it was the target,
I got internal bleeding and it's a tough step,
Burning lungs is all that I feel,
Did you want to kill me?
A lot of blood was spilled,
I believe that I will breathe,
Did you think that I would die because of this?
You are not so far-sighted,
If you are, then why haven't I died?
All facts form only one answer,
YOU UNDERESTIMATE ME,
I have not lost my nerve,
You chose the wrong opponent,
Internal bleeding won't kill me
I woke up and see blackness around,
Apparently I'm in my head, and now I'm dying from a bunch of wounds,
It feels like I'm spitting acid out now,
I'm alone in the void and it seems I am psycho,
There is no ray of light, there is no light, no,
Why don't I break through the void now, why not,
Void is my element,
I don’t know how much time I spent in this,
In any case, there I miss,
It’s worse here even than at the peak of bliss,
Interestingly, while I was in the astral body, my physical body picked up some kind of disease?
Or am I dying of internal bleeding?
My instinct tells me that I'm just going crazy in my ego,
I ain't feel a shot through the liver,
Now I feel like I'm floating in the darkness like in a river,
Interestingly, the trigger is still near my head?
Or am I already dead?
I see an angel and he's gone crazy,
Is this reality, or is it my fantasy?
Most likely I'm already dead, but why am I in paradise?
My path was supposed to lead to the core of hell...
1
0
318
CUNNING
I punched a hole in the heart of a bitch that betrayed me,
I call it revenge and don't regret having done it,
I made a move and do not hate it,
I didn't lose my soul I sold it,
I got the goods with the victory I felt it,
I'm not gonna stop, there are still many victories ahead of me,
I make a profit I love it,
I GET A FEELING OF EXCITEMENT AND I'M NOT GONNA STOP AS I SAID EARLIER
I GOT WHAT I WANTED WITH THE HELP OF CUNNING,
I BECAME A KILLING MACHINE AND NOW ALL THE PLAYERS ARE RUNNING,
I WARNED YOU,
BUT YOU DIDN'T LISTEN,
I WANTED TO HELP YOU,
You didn't believe me,
'CAUSE OF THIS, YOU'RE FLOATING IN THE BLOOD,
YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW EVERYTHING IN ADVANCE,
BUT RIGHT NOW IT DOESN'T MATTER,
YOU'RE ARROGANT,
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW FAR YOU WENT,
YOU WENT STRAIGHT INTO THE HEART OF HELL
I'm still alive with the help of cunning skills,
I'm tryin' to save, all that's precious is left,
I need not pills right now,
I need a cell that contains a monster inside me,
It will kill me soon,
And then it will catch you,
Don’t think you can kill it,
BETTER JUST RUN AWAY,
It kills me from the inside out,
From me there'll soon be no living place,
IT KILLS ME RIGHT NOW,
IT KILLS ME RIGHT NOW
4
1
432
ÝØU MAKĚ MÈ AŃGRÝ
It hurts to feel a fire igniting the skin itself,
It feels like I'm swallowing by death,
I feel the monster inside of me, and it scrapes like in a cage,
I feel all his rage,
He takes possession of my body every night,
Every night I tryna close my eyes,
But the degree level rises,
I try to hold him back but he hits me inside,
My soul turns black and at that moment I seem to die,
I don't know where my mind goes,
It feels like at that moment my eyes close,
And all the following is a simple dream,
But when I burn, I feel pain and scream,
Pain does not exist in dreams,
It hurts so much when limbs burn
I tried to hold back a monster, but it's uncontrollable. Its hunger is unlimited, and it always craves the souls of sinful people. Because of this, I became an insensitive creature, or, gradually becoming... THIS CREATURE MAKES ME ANGRY
I WANNA KILL AND SHED BLOOD,
I WANNA BREAK BONES AND CUT,
I BECAME A MONSTER AND LOST MY SOUL,
I BECAME A MONSTER LIKE A BEAST SITTING IN FOUR WALLS,
I DIDN’T GIVE MY SOUL VOLUNTARILY, IT WAS STOLEN,
I THINK I'M DAMNED BUT NOT CHOSEN,
MY MONSTER LAUGHS MY PSYCHE IS BROKEN,
I'M DEAD INSIDE AND MY BODY IS SWALLOWED BY A MONSTER...
With every night I get dead,
This thing inside me's like a serpent,
This kills all sinners,
They are like dinner to this,
I wonder if I can hold this?
BUT PROBABLY, THIS CAN DESTROY ME,
I FEEL A BURNING EMPTINESS INSIDE...
3
1
415
BLVVD SPLASH
I just touched the vessels with the knife that opened the corpse,
It soiled my clothes and it has to be washed,
I hope that body was not cursed,
I hit the artery and got a bloody splash in my face...
I feel the devil every night,
He wants to take my life,
Many cops huntin' for my head,
But let them try to kill the dead,
For them I will make another splash,
In any case, I won't end up in the grid,
They'll ask for mercy, but I, in turn, will watch 'em bleed,
You know that I lost pity,
Now my mind controls insanity,
FOR MY MONSTER YOU'RE JUST A SINNER
I hunt on my own in the night,
Those who walked at that moment on the street are destined to die,
I'm sober and I don't need to dry,
Huh,
Do you still consider me a killer?
Huh,
I am a judge who came from the sky,
Huh,
Only sinners are on my list of victims,
AND YES I'M BLACKENED TO THE LIMBS
2
0
519
YXU DVN'T KNXW ME
Do me a favor shut up when you start talking about me,
I got the way to money and I walk on it,
I do what I think is necessary and you can’t change it,
I'm gonna reach the sky like a savage,
Get out of my way, you're a hindrance,
That's all,
I've so many scars and I can't stop scratching them,
I ain't give mercy, I instantly kill the victim,
THIS IS THE LIFE THAT I LIVE AND WILL LIVE
Hold your jaw,
It's already hanging down,
I don't need no money, I need madness with chaos,
I hold the image I'mma boost it without pauses,
I seize the throne with no help of curses,
I executed all the inhabitants, I'm heartless,
I was born a psycho and not a man,
My soul in the mud is black as a betman,
Life is as fragile as sand is pouring in front of the eyes,
After the fall, I'll drown you in the ground so that you probably won't rise,
You've two options for the outcome of the events, to be a slave or just die,
The riot will be executed and then that is it...
My goal is fun...
My goal is fun...
My goal is fun...
My goal is employment,
Chaos makes me fun,
Chaos is caused by destruction,
I love to watch the burning of corpses on fire,
My mood has never been brighter,
I'm not saying a sweet lie, I'm telling a nasty truth, I'm not a liar,
I grew in status, now I am higher,
I FEEL THE MONSTER INSIDE ME LIKE A GHOST RIDER
YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING 'BOUT ME,
YOU DON'T KNOW AN-..
YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MY LIFE,
DO ME A FAVOR AND SHUT UP,
MY LIFE IS HARDER THAN YOURS SIGNIFICANTLY...
2
0
515
ANVTHER MVNDAY
Life during quarantine is a continuous cycle,
The same walls surround me and make me feel like I'm psycho in a cell,
I have no goals and I have no rivals,
Quarantine is worse than burning in hell,
'Nother Monday passed again,
All days and hours, they are the same,
Loneliness makes me insane,
It’s so sad to realize that there will be no games in the coming month,
I just started to heat up, I didn’t kill enough,
I feel like a prisoner in handcuffs,
I stopped feeling tough,
I feel my roof roll down,
The real world has finally slipped, it’s more profitable for me to be in my own
It seems that I have degraded so much that all I want now is to keep killing,
There's no more limit, the beast is on the hunt, there is no ceiling,
The atrocities make me feel more dead than living,
I'm a real beast already and not a villain,
As I thought, my beast wants sinful souls,
I'm losing my mind from his laughter, the skin burns and smoke oozes from it,
My goal now is to get a contract and have fun without limits,
I have no reason to kill as well as pity, I buried it,
The soul will be next,
I’ll kill a dozen people and then there'll be flex,
And after them dozens more stacks of bucks will arrive in an instant
2
0
362
FANTASY WVRLD
I hear a shot,
The reaction is lightning fast I catch a bullet,
I'm so stuck in my head, my real life hurts,
I hold my knife in my tool belt,
Blood pours from all slots thereby filling the heart,
I go forward trampling the heads of my predecessors into the ground,
I realized that it's better to listen only to yourself and not to anyone around,
Better listen to your heart,
On the opinion of others you will not go far,
Do not divide the ways, it'll tear you apart,
Do not lose the pace, always be persistent,
If someone puts sticks in the wheels, then spill resistance
IT'S BETTER FOR ME TO LIVE IN FANTASY,
ANOTHER WORLD DOESN'T MAKE ME LESS CRAZY,
MY MIND IN THE REAL WORLD'S GETTIN' MESSY,
I HAVE CHOSEN A GOAL AND ENJOY THE VICTORY AND TASTE,
BITCH,
I live in my head,
ALL I SEE IS RED,
The devil chases me in dreams,
This is the reason for my screams,
I'm like a miserable fugitive who's not able to do what he wants,
It's like I'm head down,
I'M SO TIRED OF RUNNIN' IN AN UNKNOWN DIRECTION...
I AM LOSING PATIENCE,
I'M TIRED OF THE ROLE OF THE PATIENT...
GET OUT OF MY MIND...
STOP MELTING MY BRAINS,
THIS PROCESS DRIVES ME CRAZY
I SAID THAT I LIVE IN MY HEAD,
AND THERE YOU ARE AN UNWANTED GUEST...
1
0
361
CVLD ICE CVBE
No detective will catch me,
But even if he does, he'll recognize all the rage energy,
I'll turn his neck and leave him to die in shock,
He will bleed and suffocate in his own blood,
For every bullet I've a block,
My level of murder and stealth like a league of killers,
Minus the head of the cop who kills niggas,
I tried to be no villain,
I got so fixated on the war between me and the second self,
This shit is killing me from the inside out,
All that matters to me is what is happening right now,
I don’t know what I should fight for,
I'M NOT SURE IF I WILL EVER FIND OUT,
NOW I'M JUST SITTING WITH A GLASS OF DRINK AND A COLD ICE CUBE
3
0
316
SPIRITUAL CLEANSING
I need a spiritual cleansing of the soul,
You think I'm crazy, but I'm not yet,
You're not on my wave so get out of my cloud,
I didn’t finish the season, I just paused,
When it comes to simple life and living with murders, I choose both,
I don't fall to the ground I am a cut above,
I'm stuck at the peak of bliss without love,
During the period of the serial killings season,
I got 5 critical heart beats,
MY MIND WENT DOWN AT THAT TIME WHEN I WAS ALONE,
Booze has sewn up all the wounds without scars,
I already have experience with cuts,
I reached the point of bliss and dissolved in it the same as in dust...
I do not live I just fucking exist,
I want a better life, better than this,
My soul is on the verge of breakin',
I'm not in the corner, I keep making a plan,
I BEGAN TO WEAKEN SINCE THE BEGINNING OF JAN,
I'M NOT A MERCENARY OR AGENT AT THE MOMENT,
I still feel black in my soul,
I LEAVE THE SHIT THAT REVOLVES AROUND THE PILLARS TO OTHERS,
Think I'm insensitive but THIS IS A SENSE OF WILL...
My mind's no longer a mind but a bin,
My status has fallen, I am no longer king,
The mind is closed, I cannot find the key,
I WISH I HAD A MEANING IN LIFE...
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BŁÁČĶ BŁVVĐ
I FEEL LIKE A CANNIBAL,
I WANNA EAT SOMEONE’S LUNG AND KIDNEYS,
I FEEL MY SOUL BEGIN TO REPAINT IN THE DARK,
I CAN'T FEEL THE EYES ON MY FACE,
FOR THE KILLINGS I GET A REWARD IN THE FORM OF GUTS,
I'M USED TO ABSORBING AND REDIRECTING THE ENERGY OF HATE,
I KNOW HOW TO LOSE TRUST AND ITS VALUE,
MY KIDNEYS ARE COVERED IN BLOOD,
SOMETIME I WILL EAT MY KIDNEY TOO,
I remember the moment when my psyche cracked,
I remember the moment when my soul turned black,
I REMEMBER MY PAST IN MY OWN REFLECTION
I am indifferent to people around me,
I wanted an adventure and I got it,
I feel black fluid flowing from my eyes and I love it,
I FEEL LIKE CRUELTY RUNS THROUGH MY VEINS AND PUT UP IT...
I feel empty in my soul,
It feels like I will ever break,
It feels like I will ever fall,
It seems my feelings are fake,
I only feel craving for the kidneys
I can feel the tar flowing from my nonexistent eyes,
I cut out the kidneys,
Ate the same kidneys,
THEN BURNED THE CORPSE AND SACRIFICE,
Their soul will be lost,
Their soul will be lost, and will haunt me until I'm dead,
I always see ghosts,
I always see ghosts,
I'll be on the run until I'm dead...
1
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444
Night with Darkness & Peace with Silence
At night I reach a peak of peace,
I used to kill in the dark, but I'm tired,
I still see a void in a dark patch,
All I need at night is silence,
The stars in the sky make me freeze,
Reflection in water still causes disgust,
I stop feeling lost at that moment for a lil' bit,
There's still frost in my soul,
I'm just storing liters, liters, liters a lot of liters of blood now
What does it feel like when blood flows out of the body?
I'm sure that you're familiar with this feeling when all the bones in the body are broken,
But you don't know how to have a soul stolen,
I heard a crunch of bones in my body,
I blew the thread that kept the balance between my second personality and me,
My life's already been turned upside down,
I did not immediately realize this,
But when I came to the point it was too late,
I took control over the hate,
Now I'm not worried 'bout the mental state,
I'm mentally stable, but how?...
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HVRRIBLE MIRRVR
Open your eyes and look in the mirror,
You'll see a monster that carries horror,
Let it in your soul and let it swallow your heart,
Don’t be afraid if it leaves you a scar,
There are ghosts on the second side of the mirror,
Let the darkness go into your body and your life will not be as before
YOU'LL SEE THE RESULT AT THE SAME MOMENT,
YOU'LL BE THANKFUL AFTERWARDS,
You've a potential...
THAT I'M GON' UNLEASH,
You are chosen but not special...
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BURN IN HELL
All treasure's in my hands
And not in yours,
Huh?
I don't owe you anything, how do you like this outcome of events?
I don’t know how it feels to you,
BUT EVERYTHING SUITS ME
I'm not worried 'bout your mental state,
I'll tell you one simple secret,
I'M INDIFFERENT TO YOUR WELL-BEING,
I'll give one piece of advice,
SPILL BLOOD WITH PAIN,
THIS IS THE BEST ALTERNATIVE TO CUTTING VEINS,
YOU'LL THROW OFF THE CHAINS
You die if you suicide again,
Huh?
I spend all nights the same,
I kill people and burn corpses in a flame,
Life is not a game,
I call it mission,
Only the elect worthy of fame,
Don’t say that there is an angel inside me, now only a demon inside me,
I REALIZED THIS WHEN TOOK ALL THE PAIN,
IF YOU CALL ME AN ANGEL AGAIN,
I'LL THROW YOU IN THE CORE OF HELL
I'm choking on blood,
I constantly go outside wearing a mask and a black hood,
You won’t see my mouth just because of the mask, but sometimes I smile and there's blood on my teeth,
When I gasp in blood I just cannot breathe,
If I die, the devil will forgive me,
I ain't even hope that I will be free...
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374
GVD XF DEATH
Firstly, I cannot die simply because I'm the god of death,
I'm a walking death taking lives,
ALL THE TORMENT AND SUFFERING WILL STOP WHEN I KILL SOME PEOPLE, JUST BELIEVE,
EVERYTHING'LL BE BETTER IF I ARRANGE GENOCIDE,
OR DO YOU PREFER SUICIDE?
THERE WILL BE TIMES LESS SUFFERING
I'm the god of death, and I understand this situation,
Look into the future and understand that I'm salvation
You all see not reality, but an illusion,
YOUR FUTURE AT THE MOMENT IS HUMAN EXTINCTION...
DON’T WORRY DEATH WILL BE QUICK AND PAINLESS,
ALL OF YOU CAN LIGHT CANDLES,
DON’T WORRY DEATH WILL BE PAINLESS,
ALL OF YOU CAN LIGHT CANDLES,
I AM THE GOD OF DEATH,
I'M A LIVING WALKIN' DEATH,
NO ONE CAN HIDE FROM FATE,
IT'LL OVERTAKE EVERYONE,
THERE IS NO POINT IN RUNNING,
ALL OF YOU'LL HAVE CHRONIC PAIN,
I KNOW THIS BECAUSE I'M THE GOD OF DEATH
You can all hide underground,
I'll find you even if you make no sound,
Death cannot be deceived,
What are you trying to achieve?
DEATH CANNOT BE DECEIVED,
YOU CANNOT GET RID OF ME...
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Drawing of Eyesless Jack
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410
I WANT TV STRANGLE YXU
I want to shed some blood,
I tried to kill my second identity and I'm still makin' an effort,
My monster is hungry, he needs some food,
My steps every time lead me to the start,
NOW THE MONSTER WANTS TO STRANGLE YOU
This is the real withdrawal,
That makes my insides bleed from the inside,
There's a black hole in my soul,
It swallows all my insides,
I am cold blooded and ruthless, uh,
I still have a soul, but I'm on the path in which I lose it, uh,
Monsters ain't destined to have a soul, I knew that,
I'm sure my monster will blow you up,
All my cuts on my skin suit the scars,
Believe me, my face exists like my humanity,
I hide my face 'cuz of a monster who has no feeling of pity,
Although even if there was not a monster, I would still hide my face,
ALL THAT CAN CHANGE IT IS SHOCK THERAPY,
But unfortunately it's too late,
The monster is already a part of me,
Here it is fate,
Here it is fate...
I WANT TO STRANGLE YOU,
I WANT TO SHED YOUR BLOOD,
I'LL LEAVE YOUR BODY BLUE,
I'M SURE YOUR BODY WILL SPILL ALL THE JUICES,
ALL THAT I LEAVE AS A SIGN THAT I WAS THERE'S BRUISES,
I don't give lives, I take them,
The reason for this I'm the god of death
And the life hunter...
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ALWAYS THINK TWICE
I'M THE ONE WHO KILLED THAT BITCH AT NIGHT,
I'M THE ONE WHO ROLLED HER NECK,
I LEFT BRUISES AS A SIGN
THAT I WAS THERE,
YOU SAY THAT I SHOULD THINK TWICE,
BUT I DON’T TAKE ADVICE,
I'M THE VILLAIN WHO BRINGS DEATH,
I TRYNA HAVE AND NOT LOSE WHAT IS DEAR TO ME, FOR EXAMPLE, MY SOUL,
BUT THE BRUTALITY INSIDE IS STRONGER,
A SIGN OF THIS IS NOSEBLEED,
THE BEAST NEEDS TO FIGHT OFF HUNGER,
RESISTANCES BRING ME THE SOUL BLEEDIN',
MY SOUL IS BLACKER THAN IT WAS 'FORE,
I'M LOSING MY FEELINGS,
My soul is torn...
MY SOUL IS TORN...
I broke so many lives,
And these lives are ready to break mine,
Peace and harmony is what I tryna achieve and strive for,
But the result of kindness is darkness and the ice core,
Soon I'll break down and become a monster due to injustice,
ALWAYS CHECK EVERY STEP YOU TAKE,
AND ALWAYS THINK TWICE,
ONLY THEN YOU WILL RISE
I'LL CATCH YOU NUMB AND KILL YOU,
I TOLD YOU TO RUN AWAY FROM ME, BUT NOW THERE IS NO WAY OUT,
I DON'T CARE FOR YOUR MISERABLE LIFE,
IT'LL BLEED LIKE YOUR BODY WITH A STABBED KNIFE,
YOU WANTED TO SAVE ME, BUT YOUR INSTINCT FOR HELP WILL KILL YOU...
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444
HEART FAILURE
Every time I try to be in my mind,
DARKNESS SWALLOWS MY MIND,
LAST NIGHT I BROKE THROUGH SOMEONE'S SPINE
With my blood obsorbing knife,
Listen, the heart is a fragile thing,
Just squeeze it, and it will immediately become broken,
MY HEART JUST COULDN'T STAND IT,
IT IS SO WEAK,
IT WILL NOT BE ABLE TO WITHSTAND THE FLOW OF DARKNESS,
IT WILL NOT BE ABLE TO WITHSTAND THE FLOW OF VIOLENCE,
I JUST HAD TO FORGET PITY AND LOVE AND TEAR MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST,
Better go far away from me...
OR YOU WILL BECOME ME...
I can't be sure that I won't burn in hell after death,
Games with death are not safe,
Only one who isn't afraid to play with death is Jeff,
The only thing he can in front of the essence of death is to laugh,
There is pity in my soul but it has remained very deep inside,
Humanity and love haven't finally died,
Every night I wake up and the monster knocks out a cage and I turn to the black side,
IT FEELS LIKE A SPLINTER CUTS ALL MY ORGANS INSIDE,
I AM SO NUMB THAT I DON’T FEEL ANY FEAR,
THE ONLY THING THAT IS ALWAYS BRIGHT IS MY HEART,
ALTHOUGH I'M DEAD OUTSIDE,
BUT INSIDE I'M STILL ALIVE...
Cardiac arrest will swallow my whole soul,
I FIGHT WITH THE BEAST THAT'S INSIDE ME TO THE POINT THAT BLOOD IS FLOWING FROM MY NOSE,
I can't be saved, but you can still save your identity,
There's only atrocity in my body, I've lost my humanity,
I sold the most valuable in exchange for adrenaline and bloodthirstiness,
I am not sure I took the right step,
It can cost me the heart,
It could cost me a heart attack...
I am not sure I took the right step,
It can cost me the heart,
IT COULD COST ME A HEART ATTACK...
I should think twice,
Otherwise, some action will cost me my life...
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365
Drawing of the Plague Doctor
Full pic's in my insta: https://www.instagram.com/p/CE1cKuClwbo/?igshid=o37vf1gbxmwi
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0
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399
HIDDEN FEELINGS
The shit that I hide in myself is hidden feelings,
I hide them under a bunch of murders,
Devil prey on me in dreams,
This is the reason why I ain't get enough sleep,
Also monsters crawling for my peace,
THEY WANT TO TAKE IT AWAY,
HA, HA,
THEY WON'T SEE THIS DAY
Received a blow to the psyche,
And immediately became mentally unstable,
I have feelings but they are hidden,
I don't wanna lose my mental nature,
Death isn't an enemy at all, death is the start of peace,
For each person it has a different meaning,
In any case, they will consider me crazy, madness has always been in my veins and feelings,
Stop
Saying death is no comfort,
Hope
Your body doesn't rot after heart failure in the dirt,
I'm not an insensitive beast, I have my heart,
The devil robbed me of a normal life and called me cursed,
DEVIL, KEEP RUINING MY LIFE,
TAKE ALL THAT IS CLOSEST TO MY HEART,
I'M NOT AFRAID TO DIE,
I'M TIRED OF BREAKING MY HEART APART
I'm not afraid of negative energy,
Cruelty and savagery are in my veins,
And I use the energy of wildness,
I won't listen to the opinions of others,
All those people are faceless,
BETTER TO BE ALONE IN BUSINESS
The shit that I hide in myself is hidden feelings,
I hide them under a bunch of murders,
Devil prey on me in dreams,
This is the reason why I ain't get enough sleep,
Also monsters crawling for my peace,
THEY WANT TO TAKE IT AWAY,
HA, HA,
THEY WILL NOT SEE THIS DAY,
HA, HA,
I HIDE FEELINGS UNDER HATE,
HATE IS JUST A DISGUISE...
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Drawing of the Slenderman
Full pic's in my insta: https://www.instagram.com/p/CEtx7h0llD6/?igshid=11ldqs3825jgd
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1
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369
BRVKEN & LVNELY
Watch me broken and lonely,
Is this the future that I deserve?
If yes, then this is funny,
This future is so miserable that I'm letting out a tear,
Huhhhh...
IT'S SO PATHETIC AND INSULTIN',
LIFE REPAYS ME THE SAME FOR MY DESTRUCTION,
I KILLED A LOT OF PEOPLE AND NOW THEIR BODIES AIN'T FUNCTIONIN',
I DON'T HIDE FROM DEATH AND SUFFERIN',
DEATH IS ALREADY CHASING ME,
YOU'RE NEXT AFTER ME,
IT HASN'T FORGOTTEN 'BOUT YOU,
IT WILL TAKE YOU TOO,
Miserable believer...
I had a dream where I killed my own death,
It didn’t take my life, I managed to ruin my own health before death,
And all I'm doing now is laugh
HA, HA,
I OUTWITTED THE LAWS OF DEATH...
Watch me broken and lonely,
Is this the future that I deserve?
If yes, then this is funny,
This future is so miserable that I'm letting out a tear,
Sad...
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Drawing of Jeff The Killer and Smile Dog
Full pic's in my insta: https://www.instagram.com/p/CEijVDppNlN/?igshid=1lf0lepjhb0ap
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425
YOU WILL NOT LEAVE HERE ALIVE
I got a mask and got a kill,
I can throw axes right on target,
I myself got this skill,
Every kill makes my soul darker,
All the survivor's blood I wanted to shed it,
But thirst only increased with every corpse,
Sorry, but my feelings of pity died long ago
I put live meat on a chainsaw,
I'm not fine, I've been morally slain now,
The moral burden on my soul has drained me,
I live every day and pay for my actions,
I have my own channel along which I swim
I don't need a direction,
I can’t pour out all the pain from the soul, it rots there with my heart for a couple,
IN THE REFLECTION OF THE MIRROR I SEE A MONSTER,
THE KNIFE IS SHARPENED AND READY TO BE DIRTY,
I hear the victim's breath and her heartbeat,
MY SOUL IS LIKE DIRT, IT'S AS DARK AS DARKNESS,
Today, my hunger has covered all sides, now I want to quench my thirst for blood,
Believe me, with my beast in my head, YOU WON’T COME OUT WITH A SLIGHT FRIGHT,
BETTER HOPE THERE'S A LOOP NEXT TO YOU,
OTHERWISE, BILLY'S CHAINSAW WILL PIERCE YOU THROUGH,
My body's closed cuz there are bleedin' scars on my skin,
I MADE HOOKS ON WHICH YOU'LL HANG AND BLEED SLOWLY,
AH,
DEATH IS INEVITABLE AND WE ALL KNOW IT...
YOU WILL NOT LEAVE HERE ALIVE,
THIS PLACE IS THE PLACE WHERE YOU DIE,
Run away and immediately get into the trap,
THEN YOU WILL FINALLY LOSE YOUR LIMBS,
It hurts to walk limping and bleeding along the way,
You won't leave this hellish place,
This is the place where you'll rest in fear
TRUST ME YOU WILL DIE RIGHT HERE,
YOU WILL DIE WITH A PIERCED HEART SPEAR,
MY HEART IS BLACKER THAN MY SOUL,
MY PITY LEVEL IS TOO LOW,
THEREFORE I DON'T FEEL ANY REGRET FOR YOU,
IN ANY CASE, NOW I'M NOT IN ME, BUT A HUNGRY BEAST, SORRY...
HAHA
HAHA
HAHA
YOU WILL NOT LEAVE HERE ALIVE...
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Drawn Michael Myers
Full pic's in my insta: https://www.instagram.com/p/CEbj5xAJ-ta/?igshid=1ad9ylongvcab
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368
HVRRVR
A drop of blood flows in a stream,
There's a mess in my head,
Demons increase its scale,
I forget to drink anti schizophrenic pills every day and then pay all night,
I hear and control everything I say,
Did you feel the pressure of the head when it breaks apart and kills the brain?
I felt it and I understand how it hurts,
Optimism is not my style, IN ANY CASE LIFE IS PAIN,
LET THIS PAIN BURN WITH ME,
I'LL SHARE ALL THE PAIN WITH THE DEMONS,
HELL IS ALREADY ON THE WAY, AND I GUESS MY FEELINGS WILL BE IN IT,
YOU WON'T SEE THE EDGES OF MY MADNESS
How does it feel to have voices in the head?
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE WITH A CUT SMILE,
I HAVE A FEW HAMMERED NAILS IN MY SKIN,
THE MASK ON MY FACE, I'M THE LEGION,
I WENT WITH THE BLADE, I'M GONNA KILL ALL THE SURVIVORS AND WIN,
I CAN'T FEEL PITY I'M INSENSITIVE,
ANNA THE HUNTRESS WILL PIERCE YOUR BODY THROUGH WITH AN AX,
YEAH,
I FEEL YOUR FEAR, FEAR MORE, SINNER,
YEAH,
I LOVE WHEN YOU ARE TERRIFIED,
YOU COULD SURVIVE
IF MY EYE DIDN'T CATCH YOU,
LOOK AT YOURSELF AND FEEL THE APPROACH OF DEATH,
THE GAME IS OVER,
I'LL TEAR DOWN YOUR TOWER,
YOU'LL BLEED AND LOSE YOUR MIND UNTIL YOUR LAST BREATH...
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NV LIGHT
WATCH ME CHOKING DEEP DOWN RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES,
The demon on my shoulders tells me to die,
I'M CRUSHED WITH BRUISES ON MY SOUL AND CAN'T RISE,
The darkness has consumed me and I CAN'T SEE THE LIGHT...
When my body will be tied to a chair, lightning will strike and it'll touch me,
I'll feel lightning in my veins and my hand will start to VIBRATE,
I'LL BECOME PARANOID,
I'LL PIERCE THOSE PEOPLE WHO LET CURRENT THROUGH ME,
They will feel a sharp PAIN,
Well, I'll start a new life without a blade,
I HOPE THE NEW LIFE DOESN'T FOLLOW IN THE ZOOM'S FOOTSTEPS,
HAHH,
I BROKE THROUGH THE BARRIER OF PAIN AND WALKED THROUGH IT,
MY HEART IS BLACK AND MY SOUL IS LOST,
I'LL NEVER CROSS THE LINE OF BLACK LIFE AND I KNEW IT,
INSIDE ME A CELL THAT HIDES ALL THE FEELINGS,
THE DEMON PIERCED RIGHT THROUGH MY ANGEL,
THE ICE ON MY HEART SLOWLY MELTS,
HUH,
IT’S HARD TO KEEP THE DARKNESS, SO I’M TALKING TO MYSELF,
IT'S HARD TO IMAGINE WHAT I'LL FEEL IN HELL...
I NEVER REALIZED THAT HATRED WOULD BE A CUT ABOVE ME,
I first realized that harmony does not exist,
I SAW GHOSTS THEY WANTED MY NECK TO BE TWISTED,
Hey,
THERAPY AND THE PATH TO HELL AND BACK WON'T FIX ME
I DON'T NEED REST I'M A KILLING MACHINE
I won't find light in my soul,
Being ordinary ain't my goal,
Even if I'm alone, I'll stand on my tactics LIKE A STONE,
I AIN'T NEED ORDINARY LIFE,
MY LIFE METHOD IS EFFECTIVE,
ALTHOUGH MY LIFE IS NEGATIVE,
IN ANY CASE IT SUITS ME...
2
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Drawn GhostFace
Full pic's in my Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CEI_HtZpT17/?igshid=1s4601zrlt0fm
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388
SLENDERMAN/MISSING FACE
STOP HOPING FOR THE MOMENT I SHOW MY FACE,
MY FACE WILL MAKE YOU VOMIT SO YOU WON'T SEE THESE DAYS,
DON'T EVEN TRY TO TOUCH MY MASK, IT'LL RIP YOUR HANDS OFF AND LEAVE YOU TO BLEED,
I GAVE UP WITH BITCHES AND CLIMBED ABOVE THE MOUNTAINS,
THE REASON FOR THAT WAS PAIN
Now i feel alive,
Ay,
Life goes downhill and I catch this drive,
I SPEND MY LIFE AS I WANT,
YEAH
PUT THIS FACT IN YOUR HEAD,
Bruh,
I THINK I KILLED THE SOURCE OF HEADACHES,
I DESTROY ALL THE PROBLEMS IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES,
I DON'T THROW ANY DICE,
I WALK FORWARD LIKE ON ICE,
I'M SELF-CONFIDENT, THAT IS IT,
I WON'T ACCEPT ANY ADVICE,
I got my money and I increase it,
My money is a thing that is not your business,
THEY BELONG TO ME...
I keep my demons locked in cages on keys,
I let them out when I miss,
I TURN ON THE CHAINSAW AND GO KILL,
THE INCISION IS WIDE AND A LOT OF BLOOD IS POURED BY THE STREAM,
I'M SO TIRED OF LIVING NORMALLY,
I WANNA HAVE SOME THUGS BEHIND MY BACK WHO WILL BE KEEN ON MY DEATH,
FOR A LONG TIME NO ONE THREW A DUEL TO ME,
THE ONLY ONES WHO PURSUE ME ARE THE BETRAYED DEMONS
STOP HOPING FOR THE MOMENT I SHOW MY FACE,
MY FACE WILL MAKE YOU VOMIT SO YOU WON'T SEE THESE DAYS,
DON'T EVEN TRY TO TOUCH MY MASK, IT'LL RIP YOUR HANDS OFF AND LEAVE YOU TO BLEED,
I GAVE UP WITH BITCHES AND CLIMBED ABOVE THE MOUNTAINS,
THE REASON FOR THAT WAS PAIN
I'MMA FACELESS SLENDERMAN,
I'MMA FACELESS SLENDERMAN,
I'MMA FACELESS SLENDERMAN,
YOU THINK THAT I CAN’T KILL, BUT I CAN CONVINCE YOU, BRUH, I CAN,
YOU MIGHT THINK THAT I'M NOT EVEN HUMAN,
I'MMA FACELESS SLENDERMAN,
I'MMA FACELESS SLENDERMAN,
I'MMA FACELESS SLENDERMAN,
YOU THINK THAT I CAN’T KILL, BUT I CAN CONVINCE YOU, BRUH, I CAN,
YOU MIGHT THINK THAT I'M NOT EVEN HUMAN,
UNDER THE MASK I HAVE NO FACE,
I'LL SPILL SOME BLOOD AND SAY WHAT IT TASTES LIKE...
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361
TRAPPER
Full pic is in my instagram. Link: https://www.instagram.com/p/CD_CYx_p5sa/?igshid=66xzdx8734ia
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387
KILL WITHOUT MERCY
Think about who your main enemy is,
Then kill him without any pity...
KILL HIM!
I killed my sweet essence
And started living WITHOUT INCONVENIENCE,
JUST COLLECT ALL THE POWER AND DIRECT IT TO THE TARGET,
AND TAKE CONTROL ONE HUNDRED PERCENT...
DESTROY YOUR PITY,
SUCCUMB TO CRUELTY,
THEN IT'LL BECOME EASIER TO LIVE,
I TOOK CONTROL OF THE NEGATIVE AND RULE IT,
EITHER ACCEPT OR DIE FROM THE BLOWS OF BULLIES,
JUST KILL YOUR PITY,
THEN IT'LL BECOME EASIER TO LIVE,
BELIEVE ME...
I will spit acid on you and your body w-will fan out
The energy of hate ain't infinite; it needs a recharge,
Lose victory a few times and come back with improved strength,
Rage is a thing that breaks the cells and boundaries of the possible,
GO TO THE NEW BEAST SKIN AND BECOME INVULNERABLE!
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
TAKE ALL THE ENERGY AND THEN TEST IT,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
TAKE ALL THE ENERGY AND THEN TEST IT,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
TAKE ALL THE ENERGY AND THEN TEST IT,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
KILL WITHOUT MERCY,
TAKE ALL THE ENERGY AND THEN TEST IT...
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PYRAMID HEAD DRAWN
(full pic is in my instagram, link: https://www.instagram.com/p/CD3Cc76JHrD/?igshid=ymvsw5ufs42k)
ATVNE FVR YOUR SINS
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A SHARD OF GLASS
STEP INTO MY MIND AND DIE FROM ENERGY OVERLOAD,
YOU CAN’T STAND IT AND JUST DIE AND THERE WILL BE A KNOT,
MY STRENGTH OF MIND IS GREATER, YOUR SOUL IS WEAK, AND THERE'S THE POINT
THROW A BOTTLE OF GIN AT ME,
SHARDS OF GLASS PIERCE ME RIGHT IN THE SKIN,
TOUCH ONE OF MY THINGS AND GET HIT,
LONELINESS, I WILL NEVER GET RID OF IT,
COME TO MY WEAPON AND GET AN INSTANT HIT,
YOU'RE JUST MEAT FOR MY DOGS AND THEY'LL TEAR YOU APART AND EAT YOU,
THEY ARE HUNGRY AND I'LL FEED THEM WITH YOUR FLESH,
I NEVER HAD THE INSTINCT OF SELF-PRESERVATION, I COULD DIE IN AN ACCIDENT AT ANY TIME,
FUCK YOU,
I WILL CHOKE YOU
AND IF THE FLESH IS NOT TASTY I WILL BURN YOU,
MY HATCHETS ARE SHATTERED, IT WILL NOT BE DIFFICULT FOR ME TO KILL YOU RIGHT NOW,
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR FAMILY I'VE AN ICE CORE,
IN THE LAST SECONDS OF YOUR LIFE, YOUR EYES WILL BE FILLED WITH BLOOD,
YOU ARE NOT A PERSON FOR ME, YOU ARE JUST FOOD,
BLOOD ON MY HANDS WILL FIT MY CLEAVER,
DEATH IS STILL NOT THE THING THAT I FEAR,
I AM NOW A DEATH WITH A SCYTHE THAT KILLS PEOPLE WITHOUT PROBLEMS,
I'VE CONTROL OVER MYSELF, I AIN'T A PROGRAM,
I'VE NO PITY,
I’M A KILLER TAKING OTHER LIVES AND I’M IN MY RIGHT MIND, THIS STYLE OF LIFE SETTLES ME
BANDAGES, BANDAGES, BANDAGES IS THE THING THAT I NEED RIGHT NOW,
A PIECE OF GLASS IN MY SKIN SHEDS BLOOD,
THEREBY FILLING THE THIRST FOR BLOOD,
BANDAGES, BANDAGES, BANDAGES IS THE THING THAT I NEED RIGHT NOW,
A PIECE OF GLASS IN MY SKIN SHEDS BLOOD,
THEREBY FILLING THE THIRST FOR BLOOD...
3
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420
Eyesless Jack
Full pic in my instagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CDskyxBJQcr/?igshid=1gpq06vuzj0ui
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435
I NEED AN ANTIDVTE
I took a few bottles of lean,
I want to roll,
I add speed to the car I'm sure that I'll win,
I remember how my past one creature stole,
I'LL ALWAYS KILL AND NEVER LOSE SKILL
I THINK I'M NOT MYSELF,
I PUT UP MY CORPSES FOR SALE,
THERE IS NO ROPE, THEN LET THE BODIES HANG ON THEIR BELTS,
I HAVE A BUNCH OF PLANS "B" I WILL NEVER FAIL,
PLAN B IS SPARE,
EVERYBODY PLAYS BY THE RULES BUT I DON'T CARE
Look at my scale,
I'll hold all the weight,
I made a six-digit number,
BUT I'M GON' PUSH FURTHER,
I HAVE A SAFE IN THE BASEMENT,
I press the gas pedal,
I'M NOT DETERMINED TO STOP,
I'M RISKY AND DEADLY AND LETHAL,
THE CAUSE OF MY DEATH IN ANY OUTCOME WILL NOT BE ROPE,
EVEN THROUGH DEATH I'LL GET FIRST PLACE,
I WILL WIN THIS GAME OR RACE,
I SEE MY FUTURE AND IT'S GRACEFUL,
IN THE NEXT LIFE I HOPE I WIN THE GAME,
IF NOT THEN I'LL BE LOST
I NEED AN ANTIDOTE,
NOW,
I NEED AN ANTIDOTE,
NOW,
I NEED AN ANTIDOTE,
NOW,
I CAN'T LEAVE THE KILLER MODE,
I CAN'T LEAVE THE KILLER MODE,
I CAN'T LEAVE THE KILLER MODE,
I NEED AN ANTIDOTE,
NOW...
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QUARANTINE
I AM YOUR MAIN FEAR THEREFORE RUN AWAY FROM ME,
I'M JUST A SADIST AND I CAN’T DO ANYTHIN',
YOU WILL BE LOCKED AND ATTACHED TO CHAINS,
I'LL BREAK YOUR HEAD AND SEE HOW YOUR BRAIN WILL FLOW OUT,
MY HUMANITY IS KILLED, FOR NOW I AM HOLLOW...
My sadism I can't control it,
PRAY TO YOUR GOD MAYBE HE'LL HELP YOU,
BEHIND THE DOORS, MY LOONIES, THEY'LL NOT HELP YOU EITHER,
DEATH IS A LEADER,
You're coughing up blood,
Huh,
You're losing your health,
Huh,
I'm losing my mood,
Huh,
All your lungs are food,
All my body bags are full,
Unfortunately THERE'S NO PLACE FOR YOU...
MAKE PEACE WITH FATE STOP FUCKING RUNNIN',
YOU WON’T SWIM AFLOAT WHEN YOU BLEED OUT,
YOU WON’T STAND ON LEGS WITH SHATTERED LEGS,
I DON’T NEED AN EXPLANATION OF WHAT I'M DOING, I DO IT BECAUSE I WANT,
I ASKED JUST TO SHUT UP, BUT YOU FUCKED UP,
THE PSYCHE IS BROKEN AND THE SOUL IS LOST
I know the price of life,
YOUR BODY'S NOTHING BUT SACRIFICIAL MATERIAL,
I was reckless every night,
I AM A SADIST AND FANTASIZE WORSE THAN A CANNIBAL,
Don't try to escape from fate, DON'T FUCKING TRY...
Fate is an unpredictable bitch, she acts like an animal...
THE CELLAR WITH CORPSES IS ALREADY FULL!
There is no point in running, I'LL DRAG YOU THERE BY YOUR FRAGMENTED LEGS!
HAHAHAHA...
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Drawing of eyesless jack
Full picture: https://www.instagram.com/p/CDa5fQzptLJ/?igshid=1ativksisq71o
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HVVK HANGING
I'm trying to break down the barriers,
I've a place in the basement on a hook for liars,
DEATH SPARES NO ONE, IT WILL CATCH US ALL
I can't believe I'm not dead yet,
I have no time for regrets,
I'm overloaded I need a reset,
None of my contacts have been canceled,
I hold a deal until cash in my hands,
My energy is simply insignificant compared to the sum of the energy of mine and my gang,
Ain't get into my affairs, they're a secret,
Don't look out the window at a later time,
I stand on the roof as an assassin,
Check your door, you didn’t lock it with a key,
Enjoy the moment while you're free,
You don’t know what will happen in 5 mins,
For every kill I get plus one sin,
But I ain't care 'bout all the things
THAT I AIN'T BELIEVE IN...
I'M TRYNA RUN AWAY FROM PEOPLE,
I ACCEPTED ALL THE PAIN YOU SENT ME, I'M GONNA LEAVE YOU A CRIPPLE,
Try to make excuses,
My bitch can leave me bleeding and dyin',
This is the reason why I left her bleeding WITH BRUISES,
All this shit makes me wake up at 3 am and make me cry,
I won't get rid of the load on my shoulders UNTIL I DIE,
No one can arouse my feelings or ignite,
I burned my soul on fire,
I did the same with liars...
I HUNG LIARS ON THE HOOK,
There's my dead look behind the mask,
I'LL GET A NEW RANK FOR KILLING YOU,
I never take a rest,
I never thought about actions, I'VE NOTHING TO LOSE
I'm trying to break down the barriers,
I've a place in the basement on a hook for liars,
DEATH SPARES NO ONE, IT WILL CATCH US ALL
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I CAN'T BE MENTALLY STABLE
I KILL WITH THE SCALE OF THE PLAGUE,
I'M UNPREDICTABLE AND CAN'T GIVE MY PLANS A TAG,
FEELING LONELY CORRODES FROM THE INSIDE,
I keep the pace of profit and I increase it,
I set the bar and had to keep it under control and not let go,
I went crazy with that,
I gave myself the word that I'll continue until my head falls,
In extreme cases, recharge is acceptable,
The only stop lever was my soul,
The only thing that kept patience was the result,
I'm crazy and it is my fault,
I don't need any regrets,
I told you just leave me alone,
AIN'T COME TO ME, THE REASON AIN'T EVEN IN TONE,
The reason is my MIND IS GONE...
For me it is a chagrin to realize that I can’t be restrained,
But for me it's the norm when I'm crazy,
I wanted cruelty not to reach my heart through veins,
I know that everyone hates what I do, so I do not ask you to rate it,
Anyway you'll keep hatin',
My time is finite and I don't want to waste it,
I don't have an endless life, SO I DON'T KEEP WAITIN',
Money comes from labor,
I have no friends, the second personality is my neighbor,
I said I won’t stop killing, even under the threat of war,
I got my whole back in scars,
And a few more in my heart...
You can’t help me with anything, you don’t have access to my soul,
Believe me, you won’t help me between you and my inner world big wall,
I'm just drinkin' wine and tryna patch a hole,
Now, finding myself is my main goal,
Ain't get close to me, bitch, I have coal instead of my heart,
Come to me an' get a split heart in parts,
I keep my image and don't lose,
I am strong in spirit I don't need a truce,
I ACCEPTED THE CHALLENGE OF LIFE AND DID NOT REFUSE...
I can't be mentally stable,
So just leave me alone...
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HACKSAW
HEY,
I HAVE A HACKSAW IN MY BAG,
TRYNA STAB ME FROM THE BACK,
HURTIN' ME,
THE FACT THAT I CARRY A HACKSAW WITH ME DOESN'T GIMME THE LABEL OF A WACK,
I TRY NOT TO LOOK BACK INTO THE PAST, I LEAVE IT BURNIN',
BITCH,
I CAN'T SAY MY LIFE IS NOT A WRECK,
I HAVE BRICKS AN' I PUT THEM ON THE STACK,
Tried to be happy but now everything is black...
I'M A PSYCHOPATH WHO DOESN'T FEEL ANYTHIN'
WHEN SOMEONE DIES, IT MAKES ME LAUGH, I'M WEIRD,
I'm just tryin' not to look sadistic,
Ain't get me wrong, I'm fine, I ain't pathetic,
So funny look at how surroundin' call me satanic,
What prevents me from living normally?
STEREOTYPE PREVENTS ME FROM LIVING...
BITE YOUR TONGUE,
THIS IS THE MOMENT WHEN YOU BETTER SHUT UP,
I'M NOT WRONG,
I DON’T PUT ROPES 'ROUND MY NECK LIKE PSYCHOPATHS,
PEOPLE WITH OPEN MOUTHS, THEY'RE FUCKING RATS,
AN' DON'T ASK WHY I'M DAMN SO TOXIC,
NEGATIVITY POURS FROM ALL THE CRACKS WITH HATRED, HOW COULD I ABSORB IT?
HEY,
I HAVE A HACKSAW IN MY BAG,
TRYNA STAB ME FROM THE BACK,
HURTIN' ME,
THE FACT THAT I CARRY A HACKSAW WITH ME DOESN'T GIMME THE LABEL OF A WACK,
I TRY NOT TO LOOK BACK INTO THE PAST, I LEAVE IT BURNIN',
UNFORTUNATELY,
I CAN'T SAY MY LIFE IS NOT A WRECK,
SAD...
I suspect that I'll be isolated from all forever...
So sad...
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My drawing of TICCI-TOBY
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FRIDAY EVENING
I hate that you think I'm just a sick nut,
But one thing I agree with you is that I drink a lot,
I can't ignore you when you're on my way,
I will tell you that today I can drink until I lose consciousness,
Because it's Friday,
You better not see me spendin' Friday, your shock will make you speechless,
I got cash in an instant and became a bad boy,
I've so much hatred and energy that I wanna destroy everything on my way,
I get messy every friday,
Lean will bury my corpse an' bury it in the grave,
I ain't gonna rot after death but burn in the flame,
It’s such a relief that I am alone now,
I'm so glad I don't see any nasty faces
SUCH AS YOURS...
Just realize that it’s easier for me to be alone,
I make a profit that doesn't need to be shared,
An' I don’t even make any sound,
Those people who see my lifestyle get scared,
An' in extreme cases they get a mental wound,
I kill behind everyone’s back, but everyone doesn’t care,
Yesterday lay in the blood but was afloat,
ANYWAY...
THERE ARE NO VEINS, BECAUSE AT NIGHT
I'M A GHOST RIDER,
I think I'm not quite insane yet,
But even if I'm sane, I can kill any liar,
After the summer I'll dry for a long time,
I just drank gin, it is not a crime,
I ain't have enough time to dry,
Look back and see my demons,
I break a new record every day,
Problems are solved but the quantity doesn't change...
I HATE IT WHEN YOU TELL EVERYONE THAT I'M SICK,
'NOTHER MISSED WORD AND I'LL STICK YOU THROUGH THE STICK,
THE FACT THAT I KILLED LAST NIGHT IS THE CAUSE OF MY INFERNAL FATIGUE,
IN MY BEDSIDE TABLE THERE ARE JUST A FEW BRICKS FOR THIS CASE,
I HAVE NO SPACE IN MY HEART SO I HAVE NO BITCHES...
I HATE IT WHEN YOU TELL EVERYONE THAT I'M SICK...
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NVBVDY CHANGES
DO YOU STILL BELIEVE IN CHANGING HYPOCRITES?
NOTHING WILL COVER THEIR BELIEVABLE LIE,
I AM JUST WONDERIN' HOW NAIVE YOU ARE,
YOU BELIEVE 'EM WHILE THEY DEVOUR YOUR HEART,
THE CRUELTY OF THE BASTARDS WILL MAKE YOUR HEART BREAK APART...
I don't trust anyone,
And advise you too,
I hold my throne by being rude to everyone,
I ditched my life so I've nothing to lose,
Me and my ego are always alone,
I got a call from life and I can’t refuse,
I got out of my skin and won,
I have many targets, but they require a truce,
I reply that I just started,
Bitches tore me up an' left my broken heart bleedin',
And after that you say that people change?
BRUH,
UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'RE TOO NAIVE,
I JUST POINT YOU TO YOUR MISTAKE THAT YOU MAKE ALL YOUR LIFE,
Don't think that everyone 'round is so HONEST AND FRIENDLY,
THEY BURNED HALF OF MY LIFE,
OPEN YOUR EYES TO THE TRUTH,
AND THEN ALL YOUR NAMED FRIENDS WILL STOP USING YOU,
IT'S SO EASY, BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT'S SO HARD TO CHANGE FRIENDS AND GET OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE...
Do you wanna know how I live?
I kill and spiritually it’s not hard for me,
You ask me for help, but I can’t give,
I'm so vile that I am indifferent to everythin',
All I need is self control,
Then I can achieve sober goals,
The path of my self-mastery looks longer than the road,
Hit me, try to throw me down,
But even this step will leave me afloat,
ALL YOU LEAVE ME WITH A STAB IN THE BACK WILL BE A WOUND
DO YOU STILL BELIEVE IN CHANGING HYPOCRITES?
NOTHING WILL COVER THEIR BELIEVABLE LIE...
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CVMBINE
I hold all the demons in my brain,
Even if I bleed with a knife in my skin in a fight I still stay,
Can't keep all the hate energy in my heart and veins,
I'LL SPILL IT ON YOU AND BLOW YOU AWAY...
I warned you to get out of my way,
Now there's no turnin' back, you're stuck in clay,
I made up 'bout 2 thousand friends from my fantasy,
STILL MAKING OTHERS ECSTASY,
I'm set for profit,
I will make a profit even after the coffin,
Bitch ain't in my plans, I leave that shit to the rest,
If I made money with a band, I would have to share my cash,
I KEEP KILLING NON-STOP UNTIL I PASS OUT...
I KILL WITH THE POWER OF THE COMBINE,
I THINK EVERYTHING IS FINE,
I SHED ALL THE PAIN,
EVERY TIME I ADD AMPLIFICATION TO THE POWER OF PAIN THAT I CAUSE,
HURT ME AN' GET A TRIPLE PUNCH IN THE PSYCHE,
I profit from sadism and like it,
Tears do not take me to pity so keep on crying,
If you're a sadist I'll beat you up to blood, keep lyin',
I GOT FREEDOM FOR EVERYTHIN',
I took off the chains from my body an' took many lives, but the most important thing is control AND I GOT IT,
Always cut off the bitches from my life cause I'M DETERMINED TO KILL...
Say that such a lifestyle is wrong, say I'm crazy and think in your mind everything you want 'bout me. But I will disappoint you. I don't care about public opinion... I'm presumptuous and no one will change me... THAT'S ALL...
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I AM LVST GHVST
I LOVE TO SIT ALONE AS IF I LOST GHOST,
DON'T GET ME WRONG, MY MIND HASN'T GONE YET,
Try to enter my mind,
You'll die instantly,
There is no point in runnin' away from death,
In any case it will drag us all to hell,
When you burn in a cauldron, don’t say that I didn’t tell
About it,
I'm still with the money, and I count their amount,
I always walk the streets with my hood on,
Aye,
A watch on my wrist would be stylish, but blood fits more,
I tried to melt my ice core,
But bitches constantly made me change my mind,
TOUCH MY WALLET AND FEEL YOUR HANDS COME OFF,
IT’S BETTER TO STICK A KNIFE IN MY FACE THAN IN THE BACK IT WILL NOT BE SOFT,
BUT LESS PAINFUL,
WHY CAN'T I FEEL A PULSE IN MY VEINS?
BRUH,
I THINK THE BRAIN HAS CROSSED THE LINE OF SOBRIETY,
MY SOUL HAS LONG FELT A SENSE OF PITY,
MY BRAIN HAS COME UP WITH A NEW SICK IDEA, AND I'M GOING TO BEAT IT...
Look into my eyes and see hell in them,
Look into my eyes and see your house with your fame,
I'm lost in my head, the mind cannot be stable,
I have mental problems and am PUZZLED BY THIS,
I hope that I'll die not from coronavirus, BUT FROM EMPTINESS...
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MIDNIGHT
Why do I wake up every night in a cold sweat?
A piece of glass in my skin, I still hold it,
I would choose the outcome of events where I would live in peace,
I'm still crawlin' 'cause of a shard in my knee,
Life makes you cry, even if it's beautiful,
Life will be bored with wealth to a bare skull,
All my actions are cruel,
I ain't care about others, what I want, THEN I DO,
What's the matter to everyone in what DIRECTION AM I MOVIN'?
This is my life, BITCH, BUT NOT YOURS...
You see, I’m my own master, and it destroys me. I am out of control and do what kills me and harms others. Midnight is just a signal by which I go hunting. Hunting is my peculiar concept. Simply put, I'm becoming a maniac. I'mma simple beast...
HAHA
Open my closet an' see a bunch of weapons,
It seems to me that my feelings are dead now,
If my feelings die they won't be reborn,
I don't need a hypocritical sad love,
Every midnight I break kill records,
I got money and get growth,
From life I received a kinda reward,
They think I'mma poser, and life doesn't hurt,
They don’t know the cause of my bleedin' scars,
Everybody call me cursed,
In my pocket I always have a wallet,
NOBODY WILL QUENCH MY HUNGER AT NIGHT...
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GVLDEN CVFFIN
I collected all the money and now the coffin is my second and last home,
Threw many kings from their own thrones,
Time is runnin' out,
I'm used to workin' alone,
I'm used to keeping my phone in silent mode,
I got the money, but they dragged me to the ground,
Look into my mind, sparks will blind you,
In dreams I fall into 'nother world,
Lie further, but I see the truth right through,
I kill people for gold,
I got my reward and saw the result,
I got money and fame as I predicted,
But in the coffin I ain't have access to the wallet...
There was so much money, just like in dreams... Years passed, and time passed by itself minute by minute, hour by hour, and also it went on for years... And where is this money after death?... NOWHERE... MONEY JUST GOES NOWHERE...
I'm a lost ghost,
The coffin is my second home,
But my last house will be in hell,
Behind me are several dozen demons,
Your life is weak, I will burn it like acid,
A few years ago you could see me alone cutting vein,
A couple of years ago you could see me losin' consciousness from a loss of blood,
Now I'm still cringin' from all the memories in my brain,
I made open wounds because they suited,
I ain't have access to damn money in the grave,
Yeah, huh,
When I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown that bitch ran away and I'd to save myself,
I wanted to ask that whore, "Why are you so mean?",
I destroy all my health with stress,
I am hollow and at the moment I don't have the correct face,
I'm still sick who's interested in blood and its taste,
Cut the bitch from life and the wallet got a lil' less space,
I thought that I wouldn't live a day in such a lifestyle,
After a glass of wine, I won't be dry soon...
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FACE DXWN
I'LL SHED ALL THE PAIN ON EVERYBODY, I'M SO WORN OUT THAT I'M READY TO DIE OUT OF THE BLUE,
You think this shit is funny,
I'll get everything new,
IN THIS LIFE - I'VE ALL THE MONEY,
Brakes for the wimps of life,
I don't worry 'bout shit,
Wallet is my liver, and all bitches is a knife,
How many ain't get up off your knees,
Anyway I'll throw you below my level,
Yeah,
Look in the mirror and then you'll see your main rival,
I wiped the thoughts of suicide off the face of the earth,
I was in my thoughts with me and myself,
Aye,
HEALTH AIN'T INFINITE, IT ALSO HAS AN EXPIRATION DATE...
Use any weapon against me, anyway I've a knife in my pocket,
I know that the psyche is already broken,
Continuin' the path to fillin' my wallet,
Yeah, I GET MONEY PRODUCTIVELY,
Death is the following goal after sadism,
I'll shed some blood from my veins, then I will enjoy vampirism,
The tool for cutting veins will be my blade,
I know how these actions will end and know fate,
In childhood I thought that I would live happily,
But I was disappointed in life from the beginnin' of school an' adulthood,
Fear of death turned into thirst,
ALL THIS LIFE IS SICK AND CURSED...
I know everyone would love to see me dead,
You wanted to kill me, but I will kill myself first,
Empathy is what I lost, aye,
I don’t trust anyone, I have lost faith,
I make killings and I know their price, aye,
The first ones who left my life are liars,
I still see bruises from my scars,
Why do you think I'mma maniac?
I hurt those who deserve it, MY LUNGS IN BLOOD FROM INSIDE,
Fuck...
Want to learn good luck tactics?
I'll enlighten you, luck is a bitch and this is the end,
In front of her you will be face down,
I have been killed many times and
I WON'T SURVIVE AFTER ANOTHER DECEPTION FOR THE SAKE OF PROFIT...
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NV PAIN MEDICATIVN
STEALTH CONTINUES MY LIFE,
I'LL DRAG YOU INTO THE DARKNESS AROUND THE CORNER,
KILL CONTRACTS ARE STILL CURRY OUT AT NIGHT,
Don't say freedom has a price tag,
I can say that I know the feelin' of violence,
I go to hell only to give all the dead to Satan an' back
ONLY I CAN CUT MY HANDS...
Bitches have never been in my plans,
In my soul there has always been a barrier between mercy an' sadism,
Do you think I think 'bout this lil' thing?
That cares me fuckin' the least,
Aye,
I'll throw your damn head off the cliff,
I'll break your chest, you will not breathe,
I'll take your life from you like a thief,
YOU WON’T ACHIEVE ANYTHING ANYWAY...
Take my knife from my HEART,
All the walls in blood are my sign,
Why can't I stop losin' my head and suffer from a soul HOLE?
I know that demon spies are
Haunting me behind the WALLS,
My soul is in a cage,
WITHOUT GOIN' FREE,
I'll shed all the hatred on you, overwhelmed with rage,
I made a cut on my arm and got what I wanted to ACHIEVE,
I’ve been in a vicious circle of hatred for several WEEKS,
And I can't be healthy, I'm no longer obsessed with wealth,
The first thing that started to put sticks in the wheels of life was wealth,
I began to feel pain to myself,
I JUST SUFFER EVERYDAY,
If I died I would become a lost ghost,
I can drive you through the same circle of events in which I was,
I doubt that you'll live at least one day,
So sick of hidin' the truth WITH PAIN EVERY WEEK SINCE MONDAY,
I'M TRYING TO BE HONEST, AT LEAST FOR NOW,
THE DEVIL SAID THAT I WON’T LIVE UNTIL TOMORROW,
Let's see if he's right...
Haha...
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NV BLVVD, NV MVVD
Keep part of the bricks in my safe,
All my life tricks lead me straight to the grave,
I'm passing death because I'm brave,
I'm isolated as a man livin' in a cave,
I got the blood I craved,
FIRST GIVE, AN' THEN RECEIVE...
IN THIS WORLD YOU WON'T GET ANYTHIN' IF YOU KEEP EVERYTHIN',
I've some brick in a drawer under the lock,
Brick is a drug,
That's a slang word,
Friends are busy girls,
And I alone quench my thirst for blood,
If there's no blood, then there is no mood,
HAH,
I have problems and I know their roots,
If my mind ain't fine, I do a reboot,
Huh,
Stunned several guards who guarded the bricks, it was my main loot,
Uh,
I know all my mistakes, in those moments I SCREWED UP...
This time the gin is poured in my cup,
Last time there was blood in its place, uh
I was drenched in red liquid, an' believe me, it wasn't ketchup,
MADE DEMONS MY PETS THAT CHASED ME,
My mind hasn't woken up yet,
ANGELS ARE STILL FALLEN, THIS IS CRAZY,
Ask me why life is oppressive,
I am not nervous, actually not aggressive yet,
Ain't tryna find my medicines against stress,
I threw all the bitches they ate my heart in pieces,
From hell to the present, I have walked this distance,
I went through the fire, and came out without ashes,
I was drivin' a car from the bar last night, but for some reason the police were chasin' me,
I only remember how I crashed into somethin', dyin' in fire and pain,
I thought I was gonna die,
But now I'm home and keep the bricks in my drawers,
I've not lost control of fame and power,
After the bar, I always feel only one thing, and it is a hangover
Bitch, I know the price tag of all those mistakes that I made,
I ain't pay attention to nervous people who hate,
I catch the buzz, maybe in life this is the only thing I can remember,
A nervous breakdown is just my lever that drives me crazy,
Do you think I often use it?
I'll say, I USE IT CONSTANTLY...
NV MVVD,
NV BLVVD,
HA, HA...
Blood, it's just a drug to commit new murders...
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RESULT XF ANARCHY
Everyone wanted and strove for chaos and anarchy,
Hands are all in blood and you know the backstory,
All this power in the hands of the brainless is too dangerous,
I was the only one who realized this,
Are you glad you got up from your knees?
Now every step is a risk,
The devil told me that all actions lead precisely to the death of humanity,
I saw these days in my dreams,
But thought it was my sick fantasy...
NO CONTROL OVER ANYONE,
I'LL CRUSH EVERYONE WITH HATE TO DEATH AND BLOOD,
I AM THE DEMON WHOM YOU FEAR EVERY NIGHT,
I AM THE EVIL THAT YOU'RE TRYNA DESTROY IN THE LIGHT,
SPILL ALL EVIL ON WEAKER PEOPLE THAN YOU, AND MAKE 'EM CRY,
WE ALL KNOW THAT YOUR FACE IS A DISGUISE,
YOU HIDE BEHIND A MASK TOO MANY LIES,
ALL THESE LYIN' MOUTHS MAKE ME ONLY DISLIKE,
I AIN'T DISAPPOINTED IN LIFE,
I KNEW THAT SHE WAS MEAN,
ALL YOUR EXCUSES ARE SO PATHETIC,
It's hard for schizophrenics to live in this cruel world,
I was on this verge of death, but I wasn't gon' approach the edge,
I DID EVERYTHING I COULD
TO BE DIRECTED IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION WITH FURY...
The result of anarchy is distrust and greed,
I know that deep down in your soul you would love to watch me bleed,
You will never change my creed,
All you maniacs want only meat,
I lost my mind, under my sunglasses there are only white pupils, ay
Behavior shows who's really a child,
Headaches and hallucinations still ruin life,
My ex-friend's bored of stickin' knives in my back with sadism...
THE RESULT OF ANARCHY IS DISTRUST AND GREED...
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LVNELINESS
No one near me can hurt me like people from the past,
Huh, yeah,
Loneliness is the result of distrust,
YEAH, YEAH,
My mind and I are lonely souls,
Trust is the first thing that people stole from me,
The result of this is my feelin' of loneliness
You ain't know anythin' about my life,
Therefore shut your fucking mouth,
My mind with feelings is still sober and alive,
Want to know the reason for my strange lifestyle?
Then I'll shed the truth to you,
Then listen to the words and realize the truth,
Night killings made me cruel,
But through pain I tryna be sober and I do it,
Come up with tactics and then move,
I always see myself on the news,
It’s so hard to realize that you’re a maniac AND STILL NOT LOSE A MIND...
HAH,
I'M NOT DONE TALKIN' 'BOUT ALL THIS SHIT YET...
I do not stop doin' everythin' for a normal future,
Tryna stab me and I will show you my true nature,
Sobriety is one of my main goals,
And in this state I can think sensibly and throw a bitch with love,
It will be difficult for you to understand, but the second personality is my best bro,
I continue to develop on my own in the guise of a black crow,
Y'all want to know my tactics, but I'll not show it,
ALSO I WON'T SHARE METHODS,
I CONTINUE TO DIE OF LONELINESS, BUT I LOVE THIS LIFESTYLE...
Know that the demon ain't the most threatenin' form of my mood,
Ain't think that I strangled on the hook of your lies, I know the truth,
This is still a war between the "Second Self" and me,
The bitch needs damn money and 'cause of this she cannot send me,
Bastards instantly leave my friends list,
There is only one life, an' because of this fact I cannot end it,
This is still a war between the "Second Self" and me,
The bitch needs damn money and 'cause of this she can't send me,
Bastards instantly leave my friends list,
THERE IS ONLY ONE LIFE, AN' BECAUSE OF THIS FACT I CANNOT END IT...
No one near me can hurt me like people from the past,
Huh, yeah,
Loneliness is the result of distrust,
YEAH, YEAH,
My mind and I are lonely souls,
Trust is the first thing that people stole from me,
The result of this is my feelin' of LONELINESS,
If I'm isolated, I didn't know that it would be worse than with a mess in my head...
3
0
464
SLAUGHTERHXUSE
NOWHERE TO GO, THERE'S NO WAY OUT,
DEATH IS INEVITABLE AN' YOU KNOW THE REASON,
I DISMEMBER YOU FASTER WHEN YOU ANNOY AND SCREAM OUT LOUD,
STOP MAKING ANY SOUND,
YOU'RE AT THE SLAUGHTERHOUSE...
I turn on the ripsaw,
Soon your blood will creep over yo' head,
I thought there was something in your soul, but then I saw that you are raw,
I wanna be angry and cruel,
But I realize that the soul ain't indestructible,
Add more scars to my skin and blood, 'cuz this is my main fuel,
The top is my habitat and I'm inaccessible,
Make a mistake that will cost you yo' life, come on, THROW ME A DUEL,
I think I'm out of hard drinkin',
I'M STILL TRYNA DROWN MYSELF IN LOVE...
HAH,
FEELINGS ARE NOT SLAVES, THEY ARE SELF-CONTROLLED...
MY ACTIONS AND THOUGHTS AND INTENTIONS SCARE OTHERS...
I do what I want anyway,
Ahh,
I SHOW WHO'S THE FATHER...
I spend time alone for many days,
I CLIMB THE LADDER...
Ain't even think to get in my way,
Uh,
You'll be killed like fucking cattle...
HAH,
NOWHERE TO GO, THERE'S NO WAY OUT,
DEATH IS INEVITABLE AN' YOU KNOW THE REASON,
I DISMEMBER YOU FASTER WHEN YOU ANNOY AND SCREAM OUT LOUD,
STOP MAKING ANY SOUND,
YOU'RE AT THE SLAUGHTERHOUSE...
When I'm drivin' I am god,
And believin' pedestrians will pray for my sobriety,
But they do not know my main intentions,
Uh,
My plan is to make an accident and get adrenaline,
I don't need pathetic attention,
I need new sensations,
My plan is to make an accident and get adrenaline,
I don't need pathetic attention,
I need new sensations,
IF I MAKE AN ACCIDENT, THEY'LL DEFINITELY SEND ME TO A PSYCHIATRIC HOSPITAL...
3
0
483
DVMINATIVN
I'LL STRANGLE YOU MORALLY TO DEATH...
I, LIKE YOU, LOST MY OWN BREATH,
I'LL MAKE A CUT, ON THE ARM, BLOOD FLOWS ON MY FINGERS,
BETTER COME AWAY FROM ME, OTHERWISE I'LL BREAK YOUR PSYCHE,
I'VE SO MANY SCARS THAT THEY OCCUPY 80% OF MY SKIN,
YOU DIE IF YOU SEE THE SHIT THAT I FELT,
BRUH...
BAGS UNDER THE EYES WEREN'T LONG IN COMING,
I AIN'T GIVE ANYONE INFORMATION 'BOUT MY PLANS,
LIFE IS SO TRANSPARENT THAT IT SEEMS MEANINGLESS,
LIFE IS A SADIST WHO JUST MOCKING,
I AIN'T STUCK IN THE DIRT EVERYONE IS ROWIN' IN,
I LIVE MY LIFE, BUT I ALSO HAVE ENOUGH OF MY PROBLEMS,
BUT I GOT A FEW PRESTIGIOUS TITLES IN MY LIFE...
THE DRUGS IN THE DRAWERS,
THE DRUGS IN THE DRAWERS,
The war is still goin' on with my mind and schizophrenia,
I WENT BEYOND THE NORM,
I AIN'T SLEEPIN' FOR THE THIRD DAY,
I BEGAN TO SUSPECT THAT I WAS SICK FROM THE VERY FIRST DAY
WITH INSOMNIA,
I suspect somethin' is wrong,
The first step to everyday life was the destruction of the psyche,
Ain't touch my scars, they are too deep, they will swallow your flesh,
Drink without ceasing lin,
Ain't even tryna find my cash,
YOU'LL REGRET IT...
Bitch
I'M JUST SO LOST,
I'VE LOST FAITH IN EVERYONE,
BUT YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW THE REASON FOR THIS,
AIN'T DRAW CONCLUSIONS IN ADVANCE,
YOU'RE STILL GREEN,
ALL THIS ENERGY OF HATRED, I CAN'T KEEP IT IN MYSELF,
Demons in the head, I CANNOT FIGHT BACK,
This is not sadism,
IT IS JUST POWER AN' DOMINANCE,
NOTHING PERSONAL, JUST EXCITEMENT,
NOTHING PERSONAL, JUST THE RESULT OF ENVIRONMENTAL INFLUENCES,
LOOK AT MY BLOODY BRUISES, SON...
BETTER GO PRAY, BETTER RUN FROM ME...
3
0
437
NV TRUTH
See how all the people 'round begin to turn with alcohol into pigs,
I'm the only one who hasn't lost my mind, I ain't yet completely sick,
I'm the only one who hasn't lost touch with reality, I ain't so sick,
I wage war
In my mind
While others in their own world,
I ain't drunk,
My heart is stony and damn cold, ay
I sometimes wonder if I'm doing something wrong,
An' at that very moment I think in the ego 'bout the past and what I could damn change,
I know a bunch of future events,
I left the environment of comfort to be at the level at which now, and I ain't regret,
I kill all those who came from the past for me, without leavin' a living trace from 'em,
Headache is my main problem,
If I fall asleep, I'll be exhausted from dreams in the morning,
I'm still dealing with the devil, he's my homie,
Night killings make me profit,
There's no more space in the body bag,
I have to make coffins,
But it doesn’t bring me any inconvenience,
Over the years I have gained experience,
But reality is like a matrix,
IT CONSTANTLY SEEMS TO ME THAT IT IS NOT REAL,
CONSCIOUSNESS TELLS ME THAT I AM AGGRESSIVE,
BUT IT SEEMS TO ME THAT THIS IS A LIE,
IT'S SO STRANGE TO REALIZE THAT I'M STILL ALIVE OUTSIDE,
I LOOK AT THE EMPTINESS AND I FEEL HOW IT TEARS OUT MY EYES,
THE CUTS ON MY SKIN ARE TOO DEEP TO SEE ANYTHIN',
BRUISING DOES NOT BRING ME DISCOMFORT...
Blood flows through the skin, that is the norm,
Uh,
The environment finished off my choice about suicide,
Life could be beautiful if it had less lies,
My main goal in life was to achieve the eradication of injustice,
I just wanted no one to turn a blind eye to the deceivers and exterminate 'em,
WHY EVERYWHERE IS ONLY A LIE,
LIES ARE THE SECOND ENEMY AFTER DEATH,
I CAN ONLY TRUST MYSELF...
BITCHES ARE JUST THE WEIGHT THAT KEEPS MONEY TO A MINIMUM...
FUCK A LYIN' LIFE, I AIN'T NEED MY HEALTH
I'M FLOATING IN THE BLOOD,
I'LL TEAR THE FLESH ON MY STOMACH LIKE A WOLF,
FUCK A LYIN' LIFE, I AIN'T NEED MY HEALTH...
I already realized that life in a lie is unpromising...
And don't try to convince me of this...
I saw everything from my own experience...
3
0
561
SVURCE VF PAIN
You annoy bringing discomfort to MY LIFE,
The only gift of life WILL BE THE ABSENCE OF YOU,
I went huntin' to kill you, YOU'VE NO CHANCE TO SURVIVE,
I HATE BASTARDS LIKE YOU,
'CUZ OF YOU, MY NERVOUS SYSTEM IS DESTINED TO DIE...
ARE YOU HAPPY?
I'VE ALREADY FIGURED OUT YOUR IDENTITY,
THE DECISIVENESS OF MY ACTIONS MAKES ME INSANE,
THE ESSENCE OF CRUELTY SWALLOWED MY WHOLE HUMANITY,
I'M DONE WITH GRACE, WITH CRUELTY I CAN'T BE ALRIGHT,
I'LL KILL YOU IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CITY,
YOU KNOW THAT IT WAS YOUR RIGHT,
AND YOU CHOSE THE PATH STRAIGHT TO DEATH,
BUT FOR WHAT?...
You are the person who brings me discomfort,
I'll cut your damn hands, they hurt me,
Bruh,
Say thank you for not tearin' your body apart,
Although I can burn you,
Yeah,
My fantasy develops like yeast, it is limitless,
Fuck all the tears, I'm a feisty person,
I wish you hadn’t bothered me this season,
I’ll kill you for a reason,
I'VE A REASON FOR IT,
YOU FUCKING ANNOY ME,
YOU HAVE AN ANNOYING NATURE,
YOU'VE AN ANNOYING CHARACTER
AN' I WANNA DESTROY IT,
YOU ARE MY SOURCE OF PAIN...
YOU ARE MY SOURCE OF PAIN...
YOU ARE MY SOURCE OF PAIN...
'CUZ OF YOU MY NEURONS IN THE BRAIN DIE,
I CAN’T FALL ASLEEP AT DAY OR NIGHT,
I ALWAYS SUSPECT YOU'RE FOLLOWIN' MY LIFE...
You annoy bringing discomfort to MY LIFE,
The only gift of life WILL BE THE ABSENCE OF YOU,
I went huntin' to kill you, YOU'VE NO CHANCE TO SURVIVE,
I HATE BASTARDS LIKE YOU,
'CUZ OF YOU, MY NERVOUS SYSTEM IS DESTINED TO DIE...
ARE YOU HAPPY?
6
0
478
I WILL NEVER BE CALM
I missed so many calendar numbers without knowin' how much time has passed since the last kill,
Uh, yeah,
I worked for years, I knew that I would not quickly learn the skill of professional maniacs,
Bruh, yeah,
The ability of the assassin I have studied to the maximum,
I only killed those who were scum,
Fuck scums,
The blood doesn't have time to cool, as I am already covered in blood again,
I'm not crazy, I'm just playin' with a knife,
Justice is all I wanted to achieve with murders, but not fame,
No one will cut my line of thought,
I am out of control,
Why should I be someone's puppet?
The back is full of scars from knives that false friends inserted into me,
Why should someone break my path to a brighter future?
THE FLOOR IS FILLED WITH BROKEN GLASS,
I GOT REALLY FAST A LOT OF CUTS,
SHARDS PIERCED MY LEG TO THE BONE,
I'M SO NUMB, I GET FALSE FUN,
I'M CHOKIN' ON MY OWN BLOOD, AN' I CAN'T EVEN CALL THE PHONE,
I CAN'T MOVE, I'M STUNNED,
I WONDER IF I REALLY DIE FROM BLEEDING ALONE...
Death doesn't scare me...
I still laugh in her face...
Nobody has time to save me...
I will die anyway...
I'm empty, I've no trump card in my sleeve...
I will never change, uh
Stop makin' a path to change me, it's useless,
You know that for myself I'MMA HATER,
I know that YOU'RE MY HATE MAKER,
I KNOW THAT I'M THE OWNER OF MY FATE,
I WON'T TAKE IT INTO MY HANDS TOO LATE,
IF MY LIFE BEGINS TO CRUMBLE, I RECREATE IT,
I'LL BUILD IT FROM THE VERY FOUNDATION,
YEAHH...
I WILL NEVER CALM...
6
1
522
EVERYTHING IS WRVNG
I will pull and swallow your heart from your chest with my cut hand,
You're afraid of the devil, but death is my best friend,
So,
I made an incision in my arm to shed some blood,
I ain't absorb grief,
I distribute it,
You tell me about a classmate who cut her arm and goes crazy, but I already knew that,
She's so suicidal, she'll cut her throat soon, yeah,
I HAVE A TATTOO FROM DISHONORED, TO GET AN INFUSION I NEED 7 MORE RUNES,
I'M UNPREDICTABLE, NOW I WANT THE TRAPPER'S MASK,
I WEAR SUNGLASSES 'CUZ MY EYES ARE BLOODSHOT,
I HAVE LIKE HAWK-VISION,
I'M NEVER ON AN UNPROFITABLE MISSION,
ALL MY VICTIMS DO NOT EVEN HOPE FOR SALVATION,
ALL MY ACTIONS LEAD TO MENTAL DESTRUCTION,
I ALWAYS LACKED THE SELF-PRESERVATION INSTINCT,
I cut my hand for patterns, an' I ain't wan' become weak in a spiritual state,
NO REMORSE WILL CHANGE MY FATE...
ALL THAT CAN CHANGE MY FATE IS A BLADE...
I DO WHATEVER I WANT, AN' YOU ARE A SLAVE OF THE SYSTEM...
FUCK ALL YOUR WORDS, I WON'T LISTEN...
This grid on my face means nothin',
I'm not criminal, ain't handcuff me,
Yeah,
All my scars are hidden on my hands thanks to my mitts,
This whole gloomy style, I can't get rid of it,
I am on the floor dying and crawling,
HOPE THE DEVIL WILL SAVE ME TILL MORNING...
Nothing has changed, all the angels are still fallen,
My main goal is money,
I'm cheeky as fuck,
Madness entered my mind without even knockin',
THE BLADE IS MY DRUG...
WHY'S BEHIND MY EAR CRUNCHIN' SOMEONE'S BONE??...
WHY CAN'T I RUN AWAY AND BE ALONE?...
EVERYONE 'ROUND ME CALLS ME A CYBORG...
I THINK EVERYTHING IS WRONG...
8
0
580
HEAD WITHOUT BRAKES
The mask on my face doesn't mean that you can lie even if not in the face,
I continue to strive to kill myself morally, an' I will increase haste,
Keep fuckin' goin' on 'bout me behind my back,
If you gouge out my eye, it will turn black,
I'll take you prisoner, cut a kidney an' drop your corpse in a body bag,
You're dumb as a board, I'll slaughter you with an ax, like a lumberjack,
I stack bricks for the future when there'll be stress,
I insist on peace, not bloodshed and violence,
I've demons in my head, not a mess,
I'll hit you with such force that you spit out yo' lungs,
While you choke on blood, your mouth will be closed an' will not be able to say a word,
I KNOW THAT THE KNIFE IN YO' LIVER HURTS YOU,
EVERY TIME I FEEL DÉJÀ VU, IT MAKES ME THINK THAT THE LIFE I LIVE IN AIN'T THE FIRST,
Consciousness constantly says I AM CRUEL,
ONLY KILLINGS QUENCH MY THIRST FOR BLOOD...
I look around, I'm not fuckin' alive,
Ain't look into my eyes, I am lyin' anyway,
BECAUSE OF HELPLESSNESS I'M DESTINED TO DIE,
I'M ALONE, AND NO CONDOLENCES WILL CLOSE MY EYES TO INJUSTICE...
Pity is the only lever of pressure on me,
I break the rules by shuttin' my eyes to the warnin',
My brain is meltin', it has a boiling point,
I get one hundred pounds a minute while you rot, AND CALL IT SOLID,
I work at night with liters of coffee,
I'M BLACK TO THE BONE, I'M NO LOVER,
ONLY A HARPOON PIERCIN' MY LEG MAKES ME SLOWER,
I'M NOT A FREAK, YOU'RE A BASTARD,
I AM A MONSTER,
I ONLY THUMP WHEN SUMMER!...
BITCH...
4
0
450
OH MY DEVIL
You're drivin' me crazy,
OH MY DEVIL,
Just the thought of drinkin' makes me messy,
I WILL NOT LOWER MY LEVEL,
I'll take all the money and I'll raise the bid,
Never heard the words of critics,
Uh,
I've never been afraid of risk,
Uh,
Gullyseid is for me a sage,
With his help I send rage into the right track,
I can't get out of my own truck
My bitch is less unpredictable than luck,
I'm locked in myself, ain't even tryna knock,
Ain't tryna touch my psyche it's already broken,
Fuck all teammates, I'mma one man army,
I know I am cocky,
I keep runnin' from death, she is hauntin' me,
I run without brakes, no warnings will stop me, yeah
I will explain everythin' to you and clear,
Money acts like a drug on me,
I'm not afraid of anythin' with it;
Live like a rat in a wheel, woah,
I'm insane, even death does not make me kneel down,
And no one can throw off my crown
In a depressed state, I always drink alone,
I look in the mirror, but I see not myself, but a demon,
I see myself rugged, but it only makes me fun...
OH MY DEVIL,
I'm alive,
OH MY DEVIL,
I've a life,
Every night it seems to me that the devil is beside me,
I'MMA WEIRDO,
NO NEED TO REMIND ME THIS,
MY HEART IS STILL WORKING,
All my feelings are hidden in the back of my mind,
I try to hide 'em in all sorts of ways,
I woke up yesterday in a cold sweat at night,
I suspect my mind is going crazy,
CAN’T BELIEVE THAT THERE ARE STILL NOT LYING PEOPLE,
I WILL NEVER LIVE IN REAL HARMONY,
YOU DESTROYED MY FAITH, NOW ENJOY THE MISTRUST,
NOW ENJOY THE FLOW OF MY SADISM, I'LL TAKE OFF YOUR SKIN, IT IS JUST A CRUST,
I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT YOU SURPASSED ALL THE LIARS AND SCUM FROM MY PAST...
OH MY DEVIL,
I BELIEVED YOU,
OH MY DEVIL,
I BELIEVED YOU,
OH MY DEVIL,
AM I ALIVE?...
3
0
541
HOPELESSNESS
Continue to test the tricks with death, wonderin' how she still didn't kill me,
She wanted to see me scared, but on the contrary I laugh an' ain't even hide it,
I spent my wealth to the fullest, an' I hated the eyes THAT LOOKED AT ME,
One night I was tied with chains,
I was abducted and doomed to torment and pain,
I COULDN'T THINK, I'D A MAD BRAIN,
I WAS HELPLESS, I WASN'T FINE,
I LOOK STRONG BUT INSIDE I'M DEAD,
I WASN'T ALONE, BUT NOW I'M ALONE EVEN IN MY HEAD,
I am helpless, I realize it,
I'm chained like I'mma sinner John Kramer,
I am not brainless, I'm sick,
Every day makes me wonder,
HOW I HAVE NOT DIED YET...
I don't have anyone who could help me, OH,
I appreciate those who sincerely fell in LOVE,
I saw myself from the past, I tryna be taller than him,
Bro, I'm tryna be, not seem,
Do you feel the difference between these opposites?
The words of others never worried,
In reality there's only me and my ego,
The reward for all sleepless nights is glory 'n' money,
Yeah,
With popularity, I stopped feeling lonely...
I just appreciate the humanity in people. Do you understand? I don't need dozens of bitches. I don’t need them at all. I need one but faithful and not sick... I'm not a biomass like all the people around. Confirmation of this is the presence of my point of view. If you don’t have it, then YOU'RE JUST A SCREW OF THE SYSTEM...
I think through all the steps in advance,
I listened to the words that the environment told me, but they ain't make sense,
The whole environment forgot their goals, and tied their hands,
I'm sure that I have a chance to fulfill my childhood dream,
I swallowed every liter of coffee,
I continued to drink coffee till I reached my goal, IT WAS WORTH IT,
NOW MY SOUL IS CALM,
NOW IT IS WARM IN MY SOUL,
NOW MY SOUL IS CALM,
NOW IT IS WARM IN MY SOUL...
I strive to be a person.
But because of the environment - it can be too difficult...
OH MY DEVIL...
2
0
572
NV BLACKMAIL
Look at me like I am a creature from another planet,
I'mma walking dead crawlin' along the road an' I ain't know when I'll be dead,
I'm so cut that spilled blood from my mouth,
People around just laughed,
No, that’s real, I cough up blood, it ain't just a cough,
There's a gun in my pocket,
If I give up, I will shoot myself...
Huhhh...
Injustice is what I hate more for everything,
Lie to my eyes that already ain't care 'bout the bastard's words,
The fact that I've a consciousness and a piece of the soul doesn't bother you,
My soul does not hurt,
But you're abusin' sadism,
I ain't care, I hit you in the face and see blood, I'VE VAMPIRISM,
All the bastards from the past made me a BEAST,
WHY CANNOT I SEE THE POINT IN LIFE?
I WAS HOPIN' TO SUFFOCATE IN MY OWN BLOOD,
BUT WHY CAN'T I JUST SUFFOCATE AND DIE?
WHY AM I SO EMPTY WITH A DEPRESSED MOOD?
I'M DESPERATE AND NOT GOING TO GET UP,
THE VOICES IN MY HEAD FUCKED ME UP A LONG TIME AGO,
THE KNIFE IN MY SKIN STAYED FOR A VERY LONG TIME, BUT DIDN'T ALLOW MY BLOOD TO SPILL OUT,
I DIDN’T FAINT EVEN FROM FIVE CUTS,
I TOOK A SCALPEL AND CUT OUT MY OWN GUT,
IT WAS DELICIOUS, BUT I DIDN'T REALIZE ALL THE MADNESS THAT WAS HAPPENIN',
FUCK Y'ALL HYPOCRITICAL BITCHES,
YOU ALL CHANGE YOUR MIND DEPENDIN' ON THE OPINION OF THE CROWD,
I'M SICK, I'M NOT PROUD OF IT,
THE DEVIL IS TELLIN' ME THE TRUTH AND THEREFORE I TRUST HIM,
MY LIFE COULD END AT ANY MOMENT, I LOVE EXTREME,
MY LIFE COULD END AT ANY MOMENT, I LOVE EXTREME...
Can you tell me only one thin'?
WHY AM I NOT DYIN'?...
2
0
590
/BLVVD_LVSS/
RIGHT NOW MY WHOLE LIFE HAS FLOWN IN FRONT OF MY EYES,
PIERCED MY OWN VESSELS AN' THEY BEGAN TO CRY,
SOME SILHOUETTE CONSTANTLY STARING AT ME FROM THE SKY,
I think he wants me to stop bein' ALIVE,
EVERY NIGHT AND EVERY DAY
I SEE HIS FUCKING FACE,
THE KNIFE THAT'S IN THE SKIN, SUCKS ALL MY STRENGTH,
IT'S JUST FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH,
TIME TO MAKE NEW FUCKING SINS,
YOU ALL ASK: “WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?” AND I'LL ANSWER: “I JUST WAN' SCREAM,
THE PAIN INSIDE ME IS UNBEARABLE,
THIS IS A RAT BITCH, SHE SELLS HER BODY,
BUT SHE’LL QUICKLY GRAB MONEY,
All mine, including the wallet are damned,
She quickly stuck to me, also I'll send her quickly,
She doesn't need my soul, she needs FUCKIN' FAME,
I'm not an idiot an' see it,
SHE'S STUCK WITH MY MONEY LIKE CLAY,
She's just a girl someone with a full wallet can catch,
In real life, she's just a board,
My heart is filled with pus,
My heart is cryin', thus makin' blood loss,
IT'S ALREADY ROTTIN'...
HUH...
All my emotions are currently painted on my face,
My money is growing at the speed of sound,
I will not slow down,
My icy heart,
Still can't light up,
In my hands a full cup of tea,
How does my heart endure such a change?
I blame everything on Satan, 'cuz of him I'mma cruel savage,
I cannot describe my mental state,
Sometimes it is calm, and sometimes UNSTABLE,
No bastard next to me can change my fate for the better,
I listen to heavy metal of music,
It makes me hot-tempered and TOO SICK,
My everyday look is a black hoodie,
Afraid to take a step while I move forward,
You are not broodin', YOU ARE JUST A COWARD...
HUH?...
You don't scare me...
You don't bring me any blackmail...
4
1
437
THE PURSUIT
Hear the sounds behind me,
I WILL KILL ALL THOSE WHO RUN AFTER ME, I'LL NOT REWIND IT,
NO COP WILL FIND ME,
ALL THE DEMONS WERE CHASIN' ME,
NO ONE WILL HUMILIATE ME MORE LIKE VOICES OF SCHIZOPHRENIA,
Every day my heart is gettin' colder,
Are you tellin' me to be softer?
No bitch will make my heart hotter,
I am indifferent to everythin', no one bothers me except voices from the head,
This is only the beginnin' of my life story, BUT YOU'RE ALREADY SCARED...
I'm tryin' to get away from all the silhouettes that my head invented,
THEY'RE ALWAYS AT THE SAME DISTANCE,
THE DEVIL HAS ALREADY PRESCRIBED ME A DEATH SENTENCE,
The fact that I'll survive - 40 percent chance,
I'M RUNNIN' WHILE I'M SHORT OF BREATH,
FATIGUE ABSORBS MY WHOLE BODY,
THERE IS NO EVIDENCE THAT I WAS ROBBIN',
I KNOW THAT FOR YOU I'M JUST CRAZY AND MEAN NOTHIN' TO YOU, OH,
DO YOU WANT TO HIT ME? I WORK ON THE PRINCIPLE OF VOODOO DOLLS,
I STILL KEEP RUNNING FROM THE DEMONS,
THEY WILL RIP MY HEART OUT,
I RUN FOR ONE OR TWO HOURS,
MY HEARTBEAT SPEEDS UP EVERY SECOND,
I'LL NOT GET RID OF DEMONS, THEY ARE TAKEN FROM MY HEAD...
CUT OFF ONE HEAD - IN ITS PLACE TWO HEADS WILL GROW,
'CUZ OF THE SHACKLES ON MY LEGS I'M SLOW,
I LEFT MY WIFE 'CAUSE SHE WAS USED TO THE CONSTANT SCANDAL,
FOR MY HEART, SUCH A LIFESTYLE WAS FATAL,
ALL HER TEARS WERE POURED INTO A BOTTLE,
FOR HER, MY LIFE STYLE WAS JUST AWFUL,
I BECAME AN INFORMAL,
IF I WEREN'T CRUEL, THEY WOULD HAVE KILLED ME BY THROWING WITH COBBLESTONES,
MY KNEES REMAIN FRAGILE TO THIS DAY, LIKE A PATIENCE OF PAIN...
What the fuck are the demons still huntin' for me?...
They are ready to pierce my hearts through...
I will walk in black as if I have mournin'...
Demons wanna pierce my heart and pour all the blood out of it...
They want me to die from bleedin'...
4
1
661
BRAINFUCK
FREEDOM,
I NEEDED IT MORE THAN ANYTHIN',
SICK SCUMS,
CHASED ME ALL MY FUCKING LIFE,
THE WHINERS GOT THEIR PORTION OF PAIN,
STAND AND TREMBLE WITH FEAR IN THE CORNER WHILE I'M TEEMING WITH CUTS FROM A KNIFE,..
I'LL STICK A KNIFE INTO YOUR WEAK SPOT WHILE YOU'RE NUMB,
TO MISS SUCH A MOMENT WOULD BE FOOLISH,
STRIKING YOUR JAW WILL MAKE YOU TOOTHLESS,
I'LL KNOCK OUT ALL THE JUICES FROM YOUR BODY, YOU'LL BE BLOODLESS,
I CONSTANTLY DO NOT HAVE TIME TO REST,
I REPEAT, BITCH, I WILL SOON KNOCK OUT ALL THE JUICES FROM YOU...
EVERY DAY I FEEL SADISTIC NOTES,
i'll stick my hands in yo' direction an' tear out the only gut,
THERE ARE VOICES IN MY HEAD, I'M NEVER ALONE,
MY HEAD FOUND A CROWN,
I WON'T GIVE YOU A HELPIN' HAND, YOU'LL DROWN ALONE,
I'M ALWAYS ON TOP, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE BELOW ME,
NEVER TELL YO' CHILDREN 'BOUT ME,
KNOW THAT I ABOUND IN MONEY,
THE PEOPLE AROUND ME ARE NOT ALWAYS HONEST...
Nobody touched my past wallets...
I TOSS YOUR LIGHT BODY, BREAKING ALL THE RIBS,
I DON'T NEED A WHIP TO KILL YOU,
I WON’T LEAVE YOU ALONE 'TIL I SEE HOW YO' BLOOD SPILLS,
You'd not underestimate me,
You'll remember me for a long time,
No one really knows who I'm,
When blood spurts, I will be pleased,
Your face dent is made by my fist,
AN' EVEN BECAUSE OF MY FIST ALL YOUR TEETH ARE BROKEN,
I GAVE MY SOUL TO SATAN IN EXCHANGE FOR GLORY VOLUNTARILY, IT WASN'T STOLEN,
Changing the chains on the neck one by one, now it's golden,
Now 90 percent of the angels are fallen,
My past was almost completely forgotten,
WHY ARE YOU LOOKING FOR YOURSELF? YOU HANGED ON THE DOOR,
BRO...
I can't kill myself just because of the mind,
A monster who is carefully hidin' from everyone INSIDE ME,
Like me, he has no peace in his mind,
HE'S READY FOR ANY PRICE TO FIND IT,
THE HAND DECIDES WHETHER I DIE NOW,
NO ONE LIT MY LOVE,
THE SOUL DOES NOT LIGHT UP,
I NEVER THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD EVER ROT,
I WAS ALWAYS ALONE,
I DIDN'T TRUST ANYONE,
I WAS ALONE WITH MY GOAL,
I SOLVED ALL THE PROBLEMS WITH MY OWN HEAD,
To this day, the past I cannot forget,
I'D STOP ALL THE TORMENT BY FIRIN' A BULLET IN MY HEAD...
I will die and pour blood all around...
I will always be not alone...
I WILL ALWAYS HEAR VOICES...
HAHA...
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SERIAL KILL SEASVN
You entered my mind, but why?
Wan' find information 'bout me?
THERE'S ONLY A LIE,
Are you askin' me for help to get out of the rot you're in?
Uh, yeah...
Can't you move?
MATE,
I'm two-faced,
You can only be saved by yourself,
WHAT ARE THE FEELINGS OF HOPELESSNESS?
Sorry bro,
I need to go,
I need to run after the victims,
You were sentenced to death by Satan,
I look like an asshole villain,
But I'll not die from Satan,
Still no peace in my mind and brain,
Angels still not dead from my demons,
I've killed hundreds of people, there will be no remorse from me,
Always undercover,
I always disappear when I needda go on a mission,
I get a knife in the liver, but I’m not slowing down,
In order not to get a heart attack, I've to calm my fast poundin' heart,
I always go with a knife in my pocket,
In my wallet, only my fingerprints,
I will drink gin all weekend, uh,
My killings in a row will never end,
I get time and spend it on sniper work,
I'm killin' yo' friends behind yo' back while you think I'm hidin' somewhere,
A few minutes ago I was a sniper and killed people from the tower,
I change my location too often, and therefore, for you, I am always nowhere,
I'm gonna triple my power,
I CAN'T MOVE SLOWER...
I'm suturing knife cuts,
Chopped someone's head like a nut,
This ain't a sausage, this is my gut,
When I spill 3 liters of blood, I turn on the psycho mode,
I HATE WHEN BASTARDS LIE A LOT,
TIE A KNOT IN THE THROAT,
Engaged in business and immediately gained growth,
I AIN'T LOOK BACK BECAUSE DEATH IS RUNNIN' AFTER ME,
I'M GOING TO MAKE A SEASON OF SERIAL KILLINGS,
AND NO ONE CAN KILL ME DURIN' THIS,
THE LOOP IS CONSTANTLY INTERTWINED NEAR THE NECK,
THE BODY CAN NEVER TURN BLUE,
IF YOU KILL ME, YOU WILL NEVER KNOW THE TRUTH...
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INSVMNIA
Blood dries slowly on my skin, I don't care,
If there's no weapon, to hell with it, I will not break, I'LL KILL SOMEONE BY HITTIN' HIS HEAD ON A CHAIR,
I'LL STRANGLE YOU WITH A ROPE, AND YOU WILL DIE FROM LACK OF AIR,
I HAVE ENOUGH PROBLEMS WITHOUT YOU, PARALYSIS BORED TO SCARE ME EVERY NIGHT,
IMMEDIATELY I DRINK "NATROL" WHICH I BUY DAILY,
EVERYBODY SAYS I'M MOVIN' LIKE A ZOMBIE AN' I'M SICK,
I TRYNA SLEEP FOR AT LEAST FIVE HOURS,
I UNDERSTAND ALL THE PAIN OF DEAD SOULS,
I WANT MY HEART TO BE TORN APART FROM THE INSIDE BY A BLACK HOLE,
I SEE MY DEMONS RISE TO THE TOP AND THE ANGELS FALL,
I CAN'T SLEEP, WHY CAN'T I FINISH IT ALL?
WILL YOU SELL ME YOUR OPINION?
WILL YOU BE LIKE A PROSTITUTE?
I WON’T ASK FOR HELP, I DEAL WITH EASY SHIT,
YOU BEHAVE AS 'FORE, YOU WON'T CHANGE AND I UNDERSTAND IT,
YOU BETTER NOT BE A FAKE FRIEND TO ME,
TRAITOR,
I'LL STICK A KNIFE IN YO' HEART, BLOOD WILL FLOW THROUGH MY AMULET, AND IT WILL LOOK LIKE A RUBY,
BREAK THE DOORS!
ALL YO' KIDNEYS ARE A SNACK DURIN' YO' TORTURE, FOR ME IT'S A MOVIE,
I CAN'T TAKE 'NOTHER HEART ATTACK ANYMORE,
I WON'T MAKE TORTURE PLANS, I'LL JUST DO IT,
LIFE HAS ALWAYS DISAPPOINTED ME,
I SAW ALL THE RUINED FRUITS OF LIFE, I WANT 'EM TO BE GONE,
ALL THE WHINERS OF LIFE CONSTANTLY ANNOY ME,
ALL GLOOMY BITCHES DON'T DESTROY ME,
I FLY WITH DEMONS IN A HELICOPTER TO WHERE THE MASSACRE WILL BE,
I BEAT UNTIL THE BLOOD SPILLS OUT,
I'M SO GREEDY I CAN'T GIVE A POUND,
I SEE YOU'RE OVERLY BOASTFUL, I'LL RID YOU OF THIS HABIT BY KILLIN' EVERYONE YOU LOVE...
HAHAHA...
You want me to leave you alone...
I will leave you alive, but know that I won...
You will not run away from me,
I won't leave you alive, I AM A PARASITE...
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PARANVID
I locked the doors and locked the windows,
I feel that there's some creature next to me who wants to kill me right now,
I'm so numb that I cannot budge,
ADRENALINE ROSE TO THE SKY...
YOU WILL NOT FIND ME,
HEART BEATS AND GOES OUT OF FEAR,
GOOSEBUMPS STILL PASS OVER MY SKIN,
Uh,
THE WALL BEHIND ME,
I'M STANDIN' WITH A KNIFE READY TO TEAR SOMEONE,
Wanna play catch-up? BUT I WAN' PLAY HIDE AND SEEK,
COME ON, MAKE ME 'NOTHER CUT,
IF YOU CAN, THEN CATCH,
JUST SO YOU WON'T GET MY GUT,
UH,
I LIKE HIDIN' LIKE AN ASSASSIN VERY MUCH,
WHEN I'M SOBER, I DON'T LET ANYONE TOUCH MYSELF,
I took a step and walked away from the WALL,
Do you hear my steps?...
I was so numb that lost touch with REALITY...
Self-preservation dulls an' doesn't HELP...
I can only trust myself...
I can only trust myself...
I had no way out,
If I didn’t move away from the wall, I would become face down,
You pressed me against the wall,
YOU'RE MY MAIN FEAR,
FUCK YOU, I'M NOT SCARED,
I KNOW YOU WAN' TEAR ME APART,
BUT MY SHADOW WILL FADE SOONER,
ARE YOU MY FIGMENT OF THE IMAGINATION?
GIMME MORE PSYCHOLOGICAL PRESSURE,
THERE ARE MANY GHOSTS NEXT TO ME AS IN MANSIONS,
LOOKIN' BACK, IT'S ONLY USEFUL IF THERE IS A NEED TO CHANGE THE MISTAKES,
I LIVE A LUXURIOUS LIFE, IT'S NOT FAKE,
MY NIGGA WANNA CHANGE HIS LIFE BUT IT'S TOO LATE,
YOU ALL ASK "WHO ARE YOU TALKIN' TO", AND I WILL SAY "TO A FICTITIOUS MATE"...
I already chewed the shit a hundred times that you told me,
It is meaningless, why did you tell me this?
I crawl out of my skin to make money and I do it one hundred percent,
I had whiners, and I sent 'em,
I'll have no more lives, I WON'T BE ABLE TO SPEND 'EM,
I'd whiners, I couldn't stand 'em,
I know you wan' end me,
NO ONE WILL CHANGE ME...
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ПОЧКО-ЕД
[Перевод]
Я встаю как зомби каждое утро,
Я иду к зеркалу и делаю укладку,
Каждый день хочу сделать что-то новое,
Я не хочу лгать, как другие делают дерьмо,
Я двигаюсь вверх, с*ка,
Я никогда не остановлюсь,
У меня есть деньги,
У меня есть чертовски много бабок,
И крутая тачка,
Я всегда на высоте,
Не бойся, мой рот не испорчен, он свежий,
Не говори, что я живу неправильно,
Иначе я с удовольствием убью тебя,
С УДОВОЛЬСТВИЕМ!
Ты много говоришь,
Прикуси свой грёбаный язык,
Я сделаю свою работу, пока не сойду с ума,
После попадания в лицо, мы увидим, кто выкопает себе могилу,
Я всегда буду тонуть в богатстве,
Я приспосабливаюсь ко всем ситуациям,
Я не привык упоминать факты о себе,
Я был убийственной машиной, но в какой-то момент мне было просто наскучивает,
Я должен был решить все проблемы,
Иначе я бы умер от них,
Нет, это не значит, что я вышел из игры,
Я все еще в поисках славы,
Каждый день одинаков,
И я хочу добавить разнообразие,
Какая-то сущность все еще живёт во мне,
Убиваю всех в городе, как убийца,
Я не нигга, моя кожа бледная,
Я пью джин, но не газировку, на*уй правила, я не ребёнок,
Я сбросил свои цепи, я свободен, меня никто не держит,
Я со своим золотом, оно сияет,
Я даже забыл все прогнозы моего будущего, которые мне говорили люди,
Я сделал всё, что хотел, я был хладнокровен, как сейчас,
Я меняю свой распорядок дня каждый день,
Адаптация к окружающей среде - это не привычка, я приспособился к ней, чтобы не умереть,
Спросите меня, где я купил свой смартфон, я купил его на «HOTLINE»,
Это не реклама, просто бесплатный пиар,
Жизнь как матрица или даже виар,
Почему все, покупая новый iPhone, ведут себя как ПОПУЛЯРНЫЕ ЗВЕЗДЫ?
Я уже сказал, что не боюсь,
Даже смерть не заставляет меня бояться,
Я так занят, что живу на работе,
Все говорят, что я двуличный,
Когда я держу в руках пачку баксов, у всех шок,
Я попробовал жизнь,
И она не впечатлительнай,
Я все ещё в Супримах модный,
Время от времени моя жизнь становится приятной,
Я был с пьяницами, и мне хватило сил послать их,
Я под твоей кроватью, я не существо, придуманное из твоей головы,
С*ка,
Я тварь-монстр, которая просто хочет, чтобы ты умер,
Ты не должен чувствовать угрозу,
Я хочу поделить свою ненависть с тобой,
Я хочу сделать тебя такой, как я сделал себя жестоким,
У моей суки много синяков,
ВСЁ ЕЁ ЛИЦО В СИНЯКАХ,
Моя третья сука умирает от потери крови, Я ДОЕМ ЕЁ ПОЧКИ ДО КОНЦА...
Чего ты хочешь от меня?
ЧТО ЗА ХРЕНЬ?...
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KIDNEY_EATER
I get up like a zombie every mornin',
I go to the mirror and do my hair stylin',
Every day want to do somethin' new,
I don't wanna goof off like others do shit,
I'm moving up, BITCH,
I'll never STOP,
I have cash,
I have fucking guap,
And digital dash,
I'm always on top,
Ain't be afraid, my mouth isn't spoiled, it's fresh,
Don't say that I live wrong,
Otherwise, I will kill you with pleasure,
PLEASURE!
You talk a lot,
Bite yo' fuckin' tongue,
I'll do my job until I get sick,
After hittin' the face, we'll see who'll dig a grave for himself,
I will always drown in wealth,
I will adapt to all situations,
I'm not used to mention facts about myself,
I was a killin' machine, but at one point I was just bored,
I'd to solve all the problems,
Otherwise I would have died from 'em,
No, this doesn't mean that I quit the game,
I'm still on the hunt for fame,
Every day is just the same,
An' I wanna add variety,
Some kind of entity still lives in me,
Kill everyone in the city like a killer,
I'm not a nigga my skin is pale,
I drink gin, but not soda, fuck the rules, I'm not a child,
I threw off my chains, I'm free, no one holds me,
I'm with my gold, it shines,
I even forgot all the predictions of my future that people told me,
I did everything I wanted, I was cold-blooded as now,
I change my daily routine every day,
Adaptin' to the environment isn't a habit, I adapted to it so as not to die,
Ask me where I bought my smartphone, I bought it on the "HOTLINE",
This is not advertising, just free PR,
Life as a matrix or even VR,
Why does everyone when they buy a new iPhone behave like POPULAR STARS?
I already said that I have no fear,
Even death doesn't make me feel scared,
I'm so busy that I live at work,
Everyone says I'm two-faced,
When I hold a pack of bucks in my hands, everyone has a shock,
I tasted life,
And he's not impressionable,
I'm still in the Supreme trendy,
From time to time my life becomes candy,
I was with drunks and I'd the strength of mind to send 'em,
I'm under your bed I ain't a creature invented from your head,
Bitch,
I'mma monster-creature that just wants you to be dead,
You shouldn't feel a sense of threat,
I want to share my hatred with you,
I want to make you like I made myself cruel,
My bitch has a lot of bruises,
HER WHOLE FACE IS BLUE,
My third bitch dies of blood loss, I eat her kidneys 'til the END...
What do you want from me?
WHAT THE FUCK?...
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WHY ARE YOU CONSTANLTY LYING?
I'll throw ice in a cup of gin,
I live a night life and like it,
I think twice and then strike,
I ain't need a change in life,
My life is on the right track,
I'm not gon' return to the PAST,
Old men call me crazy,
But somehow I ain't care, BITCH,
I'll fight to the death and I won't look at honesty,
I'll bury your body in the forest, BITCH,
I'm not interested in your discontent,
The money in my wallet is unlimited,
Stop resist, you already defeated,
You pose no threat to me,
I ain't need a reason to kill someone,
I call millions "lemons",
I've seen over a million demons,
I hate this feeling when you stand behind me and put spikes right in my back,
Don't beckon me, I'm not a jerk,
For life I have the most important perk: immortality,
But in return I've a high level of fatality,
I cannot get rid of INSANITY,
I've a lot of fuss over money,
Uh,
I live by my own rules, I WILL NOT PAY,
I did not live a day without cruelty,
Guess what is mixed with my blood,
I hate it when I act like a fool,
I hate it when I CAN’T CONTROL WHAT I DO,
I WANT EVERYONE TO SEE ME WORK AND EVEN OVERDOIN',
I DON'T WANNA BE CALLED LAZY,
I DON'T WANNA BE CALLED MESSY,
I've time, and I'm goin' to spend it,
BUT SPEND ON SOMETHIN' USEFUL,
EVERYONE ALREADY KNOWS WHY I WEAR BLOODY CLOTHES...
I don't fall under the influence of the environment,
The path through life's only torment,
I make cash payment,
If you ain't pay me, you'll have a dent on yo' face,
I have no mercy I am just an animal,
I sprayed every wall with a spray can,
That bitch that kept me from livin', I sent her,
There's nothin' to talk 'bout with my bitch, SHE’S JUST A BOARD,
I don't need a support group,
While the heart is bleedin', can make soup,
Your mouth is so nasty,
You fuck my ex bitch, tell her that I don't wanna see her,
My heart is the core from which all my hatred spills out,
I cut the bitches that made me a wound,
Till I did revenge, I didn't go into peaceful mode,
I will not leave you alive, I will slit your THROAT,
I'LL LEAVE A STAIN OF YOUR BLOOD FOR MYSELF AFTER I KILL YOU,
I TOOK A KNIFE, KNOW HOW TO USE IT,
I'LL KILL YOU 'CUZ YOU'RE ABUSIN',
I'M NOT THINKIN' FOR A SECOND THAT EVERYTHIN' I DO IS TOO CRUEL, I'M MERCILESS,
I BEHAVE AS SOULLESS IN BEHAVIOUR,
I WILL HANG YOU NEAR THE DOOR,
AND ALL THE PEOPLE WILL LOOK AT YOU, CORPSE...
I'm fine, dog, I'll not look at my empty wrist,
My knife is clean as a mirror and it gets dirty again,
Ready to tear and throw everythin' 'round like a beast,
Ready to give an answer to what a feeling of pain,
I always have fun, never miss,
I have never felt shame,
Wanna know why the blood on my teeth?
I worked hard to get fame,
I had no brands on my body,
I didn't spend money on 'em,
I ATE LITTLE AND WAS BONY,
WORK IS A HOBBY FOR ME,
GOT MONEY WITH DIFFICULTY AS A MINER,
WAS ALONE, WITHOUT SUPPORT,
LIKE A STONE, MY HEART BROKE,
NOT FROM LOVE,
NOT FROM RESENTMENT,
BUT FROM OVERLOAD,
I thought it was just gonna die,
My ears heard a lot of lies,
WHY ARE YOU CONSTANLTY LYIN'?...
I'm lying on my bed,
This picture reminds me of the past with the same moment,
I've a void inside my soul, not sadness, not anger, but just void,
I stopped my development and growth,
It looks like I resigned,
Apparently, I ain't know how to build a life,
ALL MY LIFE I'D A GRAY TINT,
MY BUSINESS AIN'T FINISHED, I WON'T GIVE UP,
I'LL CONTINUE UNTIL HE KILLS ME,
I hope someone understands me,
ALTHOUGH MORE LIKELY THAT MOST WANT ME DEAD...
I can no longer TOLERATE YOUR ROTTEN LIES WITH YOUR FUCKING MOUTH...
IT ROTS LIKE YOU...
LIVE WITH IT ALL YOUR FUCKING LIFE...
YOU'RE DISGUSTING...
FUCK YOU...
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BLVVD_LVSS
RIGHT NOW MY WHOLE LIFE HAS FLOWN IN FRONT OF MY EYES,
PIERCED MY OWN VESSELS AN' THEY BEGAN TO CRY,
SOME SILHOUETTE CONSTANTLY STARING AT ME FROM THE SKY,
I think he wants me to stop bein' ALIVE,
EVERY NIGHT AND EVERY DAY
I SEE HIS FUCKING FACE,
THE KNIFE THAT'S IN THE SKIN, SUCKS ALL MY STRENGTH,
IT'S JUST FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH,
TIME TO MAKE NEW FUCKING SINS,
YOU ALL ASK: "WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?" AND I'LL ANSWER: “I JUST WAN' SCREAM,
THE PAIN INSIDE ME IS UNBEARABLE,
THIS IS A RAT BITCH, SHE SELLS HER BODY,
BUT SHE’LL QUICKLY GRAB MONEY,
All mine, including the wallet are damned,
She quickly stuck to me, also I'll send her quickly,
She doesn't need my soul, she needs FUCKIN' FAME,
I'm not an idiot an' see it,
SHE'S STUCK WITH MY MONEY LIKE CLAY,
She's just a girl someone with a full wallet can catch,
In real life, she's just a board,
My heart is filled with pus,
My heart is cryin', thus makin' blood loss,
IT'S ALREADY ROTTIN'...
HUH...
All my emotions are currently painted on my face,
My money is growing at the speed of sound,
I will not slow down,
My icy heart,
Still can't light up,
In my hands a full cup of tea,
How does my heart endure such a change?
I blame everything on Satan, 'cuz of him I'mma cruel savage,
I cannot describe my mental state,
Sometimes it is calm, and sometimes UNSTABLE,
No bastard next to me can change my fate for the better,
I listen to heavy metal of music,
It makes me hot-tempered and TOO SICK,
My everyday look is a black hoodie,
Afraid to take a step while I move forward,
You are not broodin', YOU ARE JUST A COWARD...
HUH?...
You don't scare me...
You don't bring me any blackmail...
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I'M A PARASITE
Hide and heal your goddamn kidneys from my EYES...
But it is useless, I wan' eat 'em, I'M A PARASITE...
I count the number of kills every day,
An' there's always a four-digit number,
I am adapted for huntin' at night,
I want myself more trophies, I'm sober,
I wear black lenses, with 'em I have beautiful eyes,
I will not improve my already perfect life,
When I'm drunk I cannot drive,
How does it feel to feel a knife in yo' back?
Do you not like what I do with you?
YOU'LL GET USED TO THE WAY I DRAIN ALL THE JUICES FROM YOU,
YOU WILL REGRET THAT YOU WILL DEPRECIATE ME,
I UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HATE ME,
THE FEELIN' WHEN SOMEONE DEVOURS INSIDES IS DISGUSTIN',
I BIT YOUR ARTERIES, NOW YOUR HEART ISN'T WORKIN'...
This is seen in my bloody teeth...
CHOKIN' ON BLOOD, AND I'LL SEE HOW YOU'LL BREATHE BADLY,
I TOOK A CONTRACT IN SATAN, I HAVE TO KILL SO MANY PEOPLE THAT I'LL NEVER BE FREE,
I'VE A WHOLE LIFE TO ACHIEVE LOFTY GOALS,
ALMOST ALL MY PROBLEMS ARE SOLVED INSTANTLY,
MY HEART HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE COAL,
I'M WITHOUT BITCHES 'CUZ I LEAD INDECENTLY WITH 'EM,
PAIN HAUNTED ME ALL MY LIFE,
PAIN IS MY ONLY UNRESOLVED PROBLEM...
WHY IS YOUR SELF-CONFIDENCE INDESTRUCTIBLE?
WHY ARE YOU SO SELF-CONFIDENT?
WANNA KNOW WHY YOU WAKE UP EVERY NIGHT IN A COLD SWEAT FROM SCARY SOUNDS?
THIS IS ME TAKIN' STEPS OUTSIDE THE DOOR,
OPEN THE DOOR, I WAN' TELL YOU ONE THING,
I BROUGHT YOU A SUICIDE KNIFE,
WAN' KNOW WHERE I GOT SUCH A LIFE EXPERIENCE?
I HAD A LIFE,
BUT I DIDN’T SEE ANY SENSE IN IT...
5
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SHVCK
Everythin' in my head,
Makes me feel dead,
I was destined to be dead
BY MY OWN DAMN HANDS,
Every day my chances of dying increased...
You wanted to rip out my veins with roots, right?
Every day I wanted to die,
Every virus tried to enter my brain,
I twisted my life on a bolt,
I still couldn't solve the problem of suicide,
I tried to change each step several times,
I used rage like a real sensei,
I'm lying and can't get up due to hallucinations,
All reality is a hoax,
I see how the shadows 'round me are constantly lurkin',
I SEE A BURNING WAX,
HE'LL BURN ME TO THE GROUND,
UNABLE TO GET UP...
Let me get on my feet,
My knives go through my skin,
Everywhere I get fame, wherever you spit,
I always doubted if I could defeat life,
EVERYBODY SAID YOU CANNOT CHEAT,
THEY SAID THAT LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND YOU CAN PAINT IT IN ANY BRIGHT COLORS,
BUT IN REALITY LIFE IS EMPTY,
I BEGAN TO SPIT ON SAFETY A LONG TIME AGO,
I always did what I wanted, they called me "WEIRDO",
The second personality was my main RIVAL,
I KILL AND CRUEL 'CUZ I COLLABORATE WITH THE DEVIL,
EVERY NIGHT I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP 'CUZ OF EVIL...
The knife is still in my skin...
If I pull it out, I will die from bleedin'...
Huhh...
7
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SELF-DESTRUCTION
I will never change my past,
I hide my face when I feel disgust,
Want to know who I trust?
I trust only myself,
Alcohol greatly affects my health,
You want to know somethin' 'bout me, but why should I tell you?
You send me to hell anyway,
Wan' test me for a reaction?
Then close your eyes and I'LL PUT A KNIFE IN YO' STOMACH,
Do you seriously think that I'm interested in yo' life?
I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK,
I can't even leave the house, I'm too drunk,
If you run away, I will throw knives at you,
I'll cut your leg right through and you cannot move,
Guess where I got a bruise,
The knife holds on your skin for so long that you spit blood out of your mouth,
Yeah, I'm sadistic an' too cruel,
Uh,
Shut my mouth while I spill the truth,
Yeah,
YOU'RE CONSTANTLY OFFENDED BY WHAT I DO,
I'm disoriented,
I GAVE YOU LIFE, NOT KILLED,
I wanna punch you in the face,
You're lonely, and this your guilt should tear you inside,
Your logic is dumb, it goes on a slope,
I tormented hundreds of people, but this ain't enough,
I evolve while they laugh in the swamp,
Hatred was my main weapon,
Killing people like jason voorhees in a camp,
I still have scars and burns from the past,
All my daily killings will never end,
This life is just a cycle for me, and it's sad,
THIS IS SELF DESTRUCTION,
BITCH,
YOU ARE READY FOR ANYTHIN' FOR WEALTH,
DO YOU WANT TO SEE DEATH?
If not, then you DON'T DESERVE MONEY AND WEALTH...
I'M SELF-DESTRUCTIN', AY
I NEED A CHANGE IN FUCKIN' LIFE,
ALL MY NIGGAS WILL KEEP ON DEVELOPING WHILE I'M DYIN' NOW,
I'M NOT TRYNA FIND AT LEAST SOMETHIN' PLEASANT, I'M LOOKIN' INTO THE EYES OF THE TRUTH,
I'M SELF-DESTRUCTIN', AY
I NEED A CHANGE IN FUCKIN' LIFE,
ALL MY NIGGAS WILL KEEP ON DEVELOPING WHILE I'M DYIN' NOW,
I'M NOT TRYNA FIND AT LEAST SOMETHIN' PLEASANT, I'M LOOKIN' INTO THE EYES OF THE TRUTH...
Consciousness is kept alive...
WHILE THE BRAIN IS DYING...
No need to remind me of my past
I know him better than everyone else,
I save the amount of papers in my wallet,
I got my chance and spent it completely,
I'm not obsessed with security,
I ain't see her even point blank,
I won't go back, I go forward,
No one hangs noodles on my ears,
My main fuel is fear,
I DO EVERYTHIN' I WANT AND I AIN'T HEAR ANYONE,
I'M CHANGIN' I AIN'T FEEL LOVE...
I joined the topic with all my head to maintain online status,
But really I don't give a fuck 'bout it,
I can’t be focused until there's no motivation,
I can’t always keep up the conversation,
When there is motivation, I'm on the wave like in the ocean,
Tearing me inside, like a MACHINE,
I have my own style and fashion,
I used to get money from whole areas,
You're constantly jokin', I cannot take you seriously,
I thrive at breakneck speed,
My life is changin' literally every second,
Whiners say I am cheatin',
I think 'bout the future ALONE,
I work and get money that drips right into my wallet,
I work and know that everyone thinks that I live only with violence,
I work productively in silence,
I rest in the morning and work all night,
I get my remuneration for work, and become satisfied,
I feel tired and hurt,
BUT I GRIT MY TEETH 'TIL A SPLASH OF BLOOD,
AND WORK FURTHER...
HAHAHA...
-Cvld Blvvded... Do you really like this way of life?... This is complete self-destruction...
-Yeah... I know... I like this way of life... EVEN IF IT KILLS ME...
Every day more and more higher level of degradation...
I'm my own dyer of life, and you're nobody to me...
I stained her WITH ALL COLORS,
I've nothing to do, only sadness in my soul,
I GO CONSTANTLY IN A HOODIE, THERE'S A BLACK HOLE IN ME,
It swallows my body, KILLS ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT,
I'll take the money from you, the devil behind me,
YOU WILL FALL TO YOUR KNEES,
The body will kill while the mind is dreamin',
I talked 'bout my business, I still climb up on it,
But still, all my actions lead me to one outcome,
THEY LEAD ME TO SELF DESTRUCTION,
THEY LEAD ME TO SELF DESTRUCTION,
THEY LEAD ME TO SELF DESTRUCTION,
THEY LEAD ME TO SELF DESTRUCTION...
Yes, I'MMA NARCISSISTIC EGOIST,
Cuts on the wrist are still VISIBLE,
They think 'bout fucking, but I think 'bout somethin' else,
YES, I'M INDIFFERENT AND STAND OUT FROM THE CROWD, AND WHAT WILL YOU DO TO ME BECAUSE OF THIS SHIT?
I WAS RAW AND CRUEL FROM CHILDHOOD, DO NOT SPARE ME,
My life is built as if with bricks,
I dealt with schizophrenia, it's the worst disease for me,
I was breakin' my health, was a masochist,
THE WORLD IS CRUEL, WINS THE ONE WHO GETS UP FROM HIS KNEES,
THE WORLD WILL NEVER BE IN HARMONY,
HE, LIKE ME, SELF-DESTRUCTS...
Who cares? EVERYONE AIN'T GIVE A FUCK....
He, like me, self-destructs...
And rots...
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BLVVD INFECTIVN
I throw money in batches and they fall like rain,
Seize the moment and catch at least one pack,
Know this is absurd and a brain explosion,
But believe me, JUST LOOK UP
Well, hooked?
I THREW MONEY WITH KNIVES,
Your life is ordinary, like all other lives of other people,
Ha, your hands no longer have a pulse,
Want to feel these knives deeper in your skin?
You will curse yourself for this action,
Want to know the roles?
Hah,
YOU ARE HERE VICTIM,
Now everyone will call you that,
An' they will call me "Tough" and I will be glad,
I didn't spend all my money on a drink,
When I hunt for you, your hand grips the knife,
You're always ready to stick a knife in any part of my body,
YOU'RE AFRAID OF DEATH AND WANNA STAY ALIVE,
I LIVE IN HATRED AND FEAR FOR OVER THIRTY YEARS,
AND DEATH STILL HAS NOT MET ME,
I live in glory and no one has the right to set boundaries for me,
Take the rope off my neck, it strangles me,
When I kill in the back, I don't go in sun glasses after the murder,
Nothing stops me, I kill further an' further,
The only thing that bothers me is the amount of MONEY...
Why did you cut my hand?
Do you have a lot of time to waste it?
You need to look up to see where I stand,
Can immediately say that I'm higher in money,
I hide the fact that I AM LONELY,
All the lives that were stolen by me I GAVE TO THE DEVIL,
Yeah, I'M JUST A PAWN, AND HE IS MY KING,
I TAKE ALL THE DEAD SOULS TO HIM,
IN ADDITION TO HATRED, A BLACK HOLE SWALLOWS ME INSIDE,
YOU CAN HIDE SOMEWHERE, EVEN IN THE CLOSET,
YOU CAN HIDE, BUT YOU WON'T HIDE FROM DEATH,
I KNOW THAT DEEP IN YOUR SOUL YOU WAN' SURRENDER AND BE DEAD,
WAKE UP, AIN'T SLEEP, YOU'RE ALREADY DEAD...
I again stained my clothes while doing the killings...
Wait a lil' longer, I'll soon become a serial killer,
I no longer feel fear...
And my soul is completely indifferent to tears...
I'm isolated an' hear nothing that happens around,
Your gears ain't work in yo' brain? THEY'RE ALREADY DEAD,
Do you wanna help me and make me get rid of the pain? THEN HEAL ME ALL THE WOUNDS,
OTHERWISE YOUR WORDS WILL BE MEANINGLESS,
IF I DIE, MY RECORDS WILL BE LOST,
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH THEY COST,
My second personality behaves LIKE A DEAD GHOST...
I will always find a reason to kill people,
All my steps are unpredictable just like me,
No therapy can heal me,
I've no soul, I beat 'til there's bleedin',
Too much madness needed a psychiatrist,
I'm not sad, I am in my own comfort ZONE...
Guess what I'm killing for. I kill everyone only for cash,
All your actions show, that you're trash,
I kill all the pressure with alcohol,
All your e-chair torture doesn't work on ME...
I DON'T NEED YOUR HYPOCRITICAL REGRETS,
I'LL FEED YOUR WORTHLESS BODY FOR MY DOGS,
YOU THINK I'M THROWIN' MY MEMORIES BACK TO FACTORY SETTINGS,
I hate your kidneys like my dogs,
They ain't eat 'em just for one reason,
THEY'RE POISONOUS,
My demons haven't left me yet,
YOU ARE NAUSEOUS,
I still wan' kill you and crush yo' head,
DO NOT BOTHER US,
You won't help me with my hate,
I went to hell, the soul pain is so felt there,
It hurts them, BUT WHO CARES?
I'M STILL RICH, BUT THAT DOESN'T KILL MY FEAR,
I saw your bitch in hell, I heard her screams,
MY EARS WERE BLEEDIN' FROM ALL HER SOUNDS...
Everything that I saw in life
Will remain in my mind for a long TIME...
Nothing can save me...
They will hate me anyway...
Maybe somethin' is wrong with me?...
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YOU'RE A TRAITOR
What will you say if I say that you're a HYPOCRITE?
You framed and tricked us more THAN TWICE,
WE ALREADY KNOW EVERYTHING, STOP LYING,
This rot you say is disgusting to the ears,
Do not cry during punishment, you deserve it,
I won't prevent it, you deserve it,
Uh,
I do not need to prove anything,
Yeah,
Everybody saw you doin' shit,
You have nowhere to go, nobody's with you,
I really killed you on evidence, I overdid it,
Ask me, how I guessed it,
You ain't a chain for me that pulls me down,
Aye,
You're just a worm that decomposes in the ground,
Aye,
Listen to my voice and rot alone,
Yeah,
You don't hear my voice, should I speak louder?
Huh?
YOU ALREADY BOTHER ME,
CHANGE YOUR MASKS FURTHER WITHOUT STOPPIN',
Will you change at least SOMETHIN'?...
CHANGE SOMETHING NOW THAT YOU ROT...
HUH,
YOU GO FURTHER INTO THE ABYSS, BUT DO NOT DEVELOP,
What price will you buy fame for?
WE KNOW THAT YOU'RE A BASTARD TRAITOR,
I THREW AWAY THE GUCCI THAT I WORE,
I wear the SUPREME MORE AND MORE,
I eat hearts like a predator,
I work at night and not snore,
I play for money but not score,
I'll always be on top, even when the floor is from lava,
I insist on a conflict, I'll take all the money, you'll not leave the game,
Learn slang, you're a caveman,
My soul won't go to heaven,
I'm a sinner, I've achieved almost all my achievements,
You're a lying idiot, we all know this, YOU'RE A TRAITOR, FUCK YOURSELF,
You kill in the back just for wealth,
Lava floor, ice in a glass of tea melts,
To be more fashionable, I wear a belt,
Fuck the bastards who used to only HATE,
Never had a feeling as if out of place,
You always see me chasin' money,
This is my permanent lifestyle, baby,
I added a lighter dye to my life,
I think you see it yourself,
My belly with a press but not like jelly,
Sometimes the truth is sour and bitter like a cherry,
I have never married a girl,
And 'cuz of this, I'VE A LOT OF MONEY...
I love when something corrodes my kidney,
I lived at work one more day,
I wanna tell you "fuck yourself", and I will say so,
I know that toxicity is flowing from me,
You go to the garbage category,
You ain't my homie,
You're overwhelmed with anger, YOU'RE ALREADY BOILIN',
My character is SOLID,
But even he doesn't tolerate your behavior and vomits,
All your stories are borin',
But I see you ain't give A FUCK,
Your meaningless laugh is borin',
But I see you ain't give A FUCK...
My hands are cut,
Your kidneys will be cut too,
I will cut you like my hands, my promises like a statue,
You won't recognize my motive,
My actions are crazy, they have no logic,
I ain't lazy, I dug for each grave,
I saw fate,
And you'll die there,
Huh,
I will kill you, you're a traitor, I'll bury you and drink beer,
Surrender, you've only fear in your SOUL...
I didn't trust you from the very beginnin',
But you turned out to be a real piece of shit,
And you can’t get rid of this status...
Yeah...
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You'll feel better without me
[Started writing at 30/11/2019]
[Ended writing at 01/12/2019]
You can't be happy with me,
Uh,
Work is the reason why I'm so sweaty,
Uh,
You push me to pity,
Yeah,
You can't absorb all the hate,
Uh,
So why are you puttin' up with her?
Why are you pourin' all resentment into yo' heart?
I don't judge the book on the cover,
There are no lovers in my heart,
I change too much, literally yesterday I was SUICIDAL,
I threw all my rivals below me,
I already took got my fee,
I looked like an SCP object,
My life wasn't perfect,
You did not affect me,
HAH,
I somehow remained intact,
I don't want to break anythin',
Is it me at all?...
I feel like you wanna be with me,
But I'm too keen on money and bitches,
Sorry...
They blind me...
I apologize...
I didn't fall in love, but stuck to all the girls solely because of their appearance,
Sincere crying eyes break me,
I hope you'll excuse me for my mistake,
I know, I completely contradicted myself in the past, but this isn't a lie,
My heart is already open with your key,
I hope you accept my apologies,
I work with a hobby every day,
I didn’t have a soul, but I took it from the devil,
I don't wallow in rot, I've my own business,
I ain't fall in the rankin', I hold my place,
After all my presents, will you forget my face?
I raise the bar with the amount of money and THE GROWTH RATE,
EVERY MOVE I MAKE NOW CHANGES MY FATE...
I change my phone number very often,
Every sound of ex bitches kills my brain,
I'm not the walking corpse yet, I'm human,
I am crazy 'bout screamin' bitches that I break their SPINES,
Do you also have schizophrenia, like mine?
IF YES, THEN WE ARE BOTH SICK...
HUH,
DO YOU REALLY WANNA BE WITH ME?
HUH,
THINK CAREFULLY AND THEN SAY...
Ain't lie arrogantly in my face,
Do you wan' feel the taste of life with me?
I'm not greedy, I give space,
Tell me how you live with me in a few days,
Ain't be afraid, I can restrain my anger if I have to,
My look with tattoos can scare you,
In my life you won't abuse,
I'll see whether you're disgustin' or not,
What topics can you talk 'bout?
I will talk 'bout money an' what I got,
There are a lot of cuts on my throat,
Guess where they come from,
They were made when I was suicidal,
Don't even say I'mma liar,
I wanna hear from you "You're really FIRE",
But not humiliation...
If you didn't want to call me that,
Then you do not suit me, VERY SAD...
YEAH...
Are you like all the others depressive fifteen years old girls?
Uh,
You have no depression, all YO' WORDS ARE FALSE,
Uh,
You think I'm throwin' bitches FOR NO REASON?
No, I threw em 'cause they ruined my summer season,
Everyone is asking me "Where do you live" I live in an infected zone,
I drink alcohol in my house,
Everybody walks on tiptoe like mice,
Only the devil keeps me awake,
When I've paralysis, I can't do anythin',
For some niggas it's funny,
"Philips" headphone on my ears,
Music gives energy and drives gears in the head,
I wear the Supreme as a dicoration on my feet,
The Heptor saves me from depression and so I ain't die,
NOW I'M SERIOUS 'N' I AIN'T LYIN'...
You can't be happy with me,
Uh,
Work is the reason why I'm so sweaty,
Uh,
You push me to pity,
Yeah,
You can't absorb all the hate,
Uh,
So why are you puttin' up with her?
Why are you pourin' all resentment into yo' heart?
I don't judge the book on the cover,
There are no lovers in my heart...
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NV SENSE
Call me an anomaly,
In other words, you can't describe me in any way,
I kill and drink blood daily,
Monsters exist not only in fairy tales,
No one perceives me without fear,
Everyone's looking at me pale,
I always scare 'em,
I go crazy every time midnight comes,
To get rid of all the demons, I hit my head right against the wall,
I already said where I come from,
I'm a creature that came from hell,
To all of you, I may seem strange,
I can tell y'all as a sage,
Life is the wheel in which you all spin, and the devil will watch you all, YOU ARE ALL IN A CAGE,
I ain't a man to him, I'MMA SICK SAVAGE TO HIM,
I'M UNCONTROLLABLE EVEN FOR HIM,
You're ALL SIMPLE HOSTAGES FOR HIM...
I am too close to the truth,
I wanna know why I go crazy so often,
What's the reason for my sick fantasy?
I am not lazy,
I spend nights ponderin'
WHAT AN EXACT TRUTH,
Do not disturb me,
The truth is too close to me,
Plus another drunk energy drink,
So I ain't fall asleep, I drink it,
The phone is in silent mode so no one calls me,
Seekin' the truth for a long time, all I found is FALSE SHIT,
I have an infection point in my brain,
The same thing is in my veins,
Do you call me a dog because of the chains on my neck?
My tattoos are depressin' because they are black,
Count the number of scars on my back,
If you know something 'bout me, then say at least one fact,
Yo' advice didn't give me any impulse to enrichment or effect,
I FIND IT HARD TO TRUST Y'ALL,
I ALREADY KNOW THAT YOU'RE ALL LYING,
MY TRUST IS SLOWLY BUT SURELY DYING,
MY SOUL IS CRYIN' WITH BLOOD,
YOUR LIES KILL MY TRUST...
Are you telling me to wait for them to all change?
If you think that they'll change, then I congratulate you...
YOU'RE A COMPLETE IDIOT, LIKE OTHERS...
THERE'S NO POINT IN WAITIN' MORE,
THEY WON'T CHANGE AND WILL LIE FURTHER,
My advice to you for the future, to be indifferent to them,
They will lie and take your glory,
I am killing and trying to feel somethin',
I ain't feel anythin', this is my main curse,
Can a scream arouse any feelin' in me?
Does your heart hurt? Then the bitch will be for you as a nurse,
The fact that I'm sick ain't the reason that I KILLED 13 PEOPLE JUST LIKE THAT?
I can not stop when I dismember,
I WAS IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL, DO YOU REMEMBER THAT?
I SAW YOUR SHADOW DISAPPEAR THEN...
I know that it makes no sense to tell you...
In any case, you will lie and dissemble, like everyone else...
YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR...
BURN IN HELL...
Say one more excuse why you are such a SUCKER,
Tell the reason why we are all MOTHERFUCKERS,
Don't be a hypocrite, you yourself were a DRUG DEALER,
I wear "FILA" SNEAKERS,
All bitches gave me the nickname "SERIAL KILLER",
I SAID THAT I'LL NOT KILL JOHN,
I'D RATHER DESTROY YOUR WORTHLESS SOUL....
HAHAHA...
You ask me: "Why live?",
And I'LL ANSWER YOU: “THERE'S NO SENSE IN LIVING”...
YEAH...
I just won’t say anything. You spoke a few days ago: “Life is beautiful, I ain't wan' die.”
And now you say that you ain't SATISFIED with anythin' from LIFE,
OH,
Where did yo' delight for a beautiful LIFE GO?
SO, YOU DON'T WANNA DIE RIGHT NOW?
Then keep your mouth shut,
AND NO LONGER SAY YOU WANNA CUT YOURSELF,
Is your level of posturin' still not declining?...
You still do not save time,
I still feel the pain that doesn't go away,
You will be hollow in the grave,
Did you expect a different outcome?
WHAT OUTCOME DID YOU WANT?
HUH?
HAHA...
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LAUGHTER... HAHA...
Listen to me, bitch, if you wan' know somethin' 'bout me,
I ain't tell everyone my secrets, but I don't mind tellin' you,
Demons attack and the soul beats,
Stop looking for the truth
Where it's not,
You play your life wrong,
I didn't lose, just took a break,
Turned on beast mode, and killed everyone on the spot,
I took a break 'cuz THE DEVIL LEFT,
I earned a rank and gained wealth,
Whiners like you ain't even tryna get status,
I have a savepoint, I cannot lose,
I'll make a calculation, and only then a step,
Nobody kills me 'cuz they ain't even notice me when I tiptoe,
I love to do a throat dissection, I don't need help,
In a few hours of the game I earned the title of "psycho"
YEAH...
Raised the level an' achieved prestige,
I am brutal for this bitch,
Relax with friends and have a binge,
We're all gang saturated with rage,
Don't shy away from the image,
Still a savage, YEAH,
Still wearin' a mask so everyone takes me for their own,
All bitches mock my heart tryna light it,
Everyone shouts: “Stop destroying everythin'”, but I reply to them: “THIS IS NOT ENOUGH”...
When I talk to a bitch, a nigga can't shut his OWN MOUTH,
The bitch pesters me, and cries, but I've not FORGOTTEN HOW TO LOVE,
Nigga wants to give me competition, BRO,
SLOW DOWN,
I see you've a BROKEN SOUL,
TURN OFF YOUR ENVIABLE MODE,
YOU SET THE BAR HIGH, BRO,
I saw your level FIVE YEARS AGO,
And I see where you are now,
I'll throw you below,
If I have to, I WILL EVEN KILL YOU...
DO YOU WAN' KNOW THE TRUTH?
YOU'RE A SIMPLE MOSQUITO...
HAHA...
I'M FUCKING LAUGHING AT YOU,
YOU BETTER AIN'T KNOW WHAT CRAZY PEOPLE DO,
IF YOU'RE IN THE GAME THEN REMEMBER ONE RULE:
BLOODSHED IS NORMAL AND ANYONE CAN BREAK YOUR SKULL OR HURT YOU,
IT'S ALL NEW AN' TOUGH FOR YOU,
ALL THIS BLOODSHED JUST TO PREVENT A CURSE,
Give him to the NUTHOUSE HE DOESN'T SUIT US,
YOU'RE NOT A HINDRANCE TO US,
Play by my rules and you can get out of HERE,
Calm down, kill all fear,
I can rip everythin' apart,
We just play with you, but you don’t even notice,
IT'LL BE DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO LEAVE US!
We just play with you, but you don’t even notice...
I'M FUCKING LAUGHING AT YOU!
YEAH!...
Boy, YOU WILL NOT reach my level,
Because you're not saturated with evil,
I’mma cut above, at least 'cause the DEVIL IS behind me,
No need to REMIND ME,
That all I've is the merit of the Devil,
Ain't say that I'm only showin' off, you're just jealous,
I do not fall from my status, an' do not slip, I'll be famous,
Because of you, boy, I am stressful,
Ayy,
Do you want a peaceful life?
I ain't let anyone get into the money, I am careful,
Ayy,
I'm not lyin', my wallet is really full,
I hide from God the fact that I am sinful,
I'm hidin' the fact that I HATE EVERYTHIN'...
Cover your smile so I DON'T KNOCK OUT ALL YOUR TEETH TO THE LAST,
You can't hit me back, I wear a MASK,
This nasty truth, and YOU'LL SUFFER FROM IT...
It is life, boy, just get used to the PAIN...
This is the real world, and you won't BE SOBER IN IT...
The fact that you wan' get away from everyone is a COVER FROM THE FACT THAT YOU'RE JUST WEAK...
You won't survive among us, we are all sick...
BLEGHH...
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My soul ain't calm...
All my changes in life have badly affected my soul...
I didn’t stop killing everyday, I didn't take control, even though I could...
Now I'm lying on my bed alone near the four walls...
My breath, the only thing I hear, I don’t even hear someone’s voice...
All parties, booze, ruined my health and hit my soul...
I just need to rest, I didn't lose heart...
I just need to rest, I did not lose heart...
All the pain and sadness already hurts my soul...
There is still evil in me...
The fact that I was fearless did nothin' for me...
Death means nothing an' doesn’t scare me...
Everyone is still afraid of me...
It makes me even more withdrawn an' sad...
I'm broken an' lost the habit of lovin'...
Do you still hate me?
This time please ain't lie to me...
Please understand me right, I'm broken in myself,
The devil took all my health,
I know you are lyin' well,
Don't tell me lyin' spells...
I'm still spending money on expensive things,
I feel better when there is no aggressive bitch,
I still go to work, and get the money that she brings,
I'm focused on work, no more drinkin' bouts 'n' parties,
I've no more drugs an' no problems,
I left my gang...
Hah...
-Cvld Blvvded,...
Do you really have nothing to do?...
Did you forget how fun it was?...
Your beast inside you is just tired... WIMP...
HAHA...
Locked in a room in four walls without exit,
Everyone around me calls me an addict,
Here I live, I am real,
I myself chose this path and I pay for it,
I lose all the energy I should have consumed, but now the devil absorbs it,
I myself chose this path, now I'm already "retired"...
I ain't ask for help and regrets, I just say this so that y'all ain't tell me that I am out of date...
I knew what I was goin' for, an' knew my fate...
I knew that I could not live long luxuriously and without emptiness in my soul,
I knew that time would take everythin' from me...
I knew that I could not live long luxuriously and without emptiness in my soul,
Knew that time would take everythin' from me...
I see a silhouette walkin' 'round the room next to me...
I know that this is schizophrenia an' don't pay attention to it...
Someone makes incisions on my wrist, blood flows downstream, but I ain't feel anythin'...
MY BLOOD FLOWS IN LITERS...
Feeling like someone would kill me and throw my corpse into the river...
My soul ain't calm...
I already fell into the soul...
What did these bitches give me? I wanted to grow,
I'm just at ease,
I ain't miss...
I'm even tired of bliss...
I've found peace...
I got dozens of kisses...
I'm over it...
My soul ain't calm...
I already fell into the soul...
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I'M AN ALPHA MALE
Did you come to my house to ask me for money?
BITCH,
I'm disgusted by your face, and 'cuz of this I turned away,
I saw my joint photo with an ex-girl, I burned it, and almost forgot the girl, now I am happy EVERY DAY,
I let 'em laugh at me, now they're in a coffin,
And don’t say that you didn’t laugh at me when I started from below, now you rot, an' I KNOW IT,
YEAH,
DOES IT HURT SO MUCH TO CRY?
I SAW YOU CRYIN' ON THE WINDOWSILL,
I WANTED TO HELP YOU AND YOU PUSHED ME AWAY,
I SAW HOW YOU WANTED SUICIDE FROM PILLS,
I wouldn't sell anything for the sake of love, this makes no sense, like in every day of my LIFE,
My scar is too deep, it never heals,
I made an incision on my skin, now I'm bleedin',
I've not forgotten the sensations of the lips of my girls, they are pleasant, I like it,
ISOLATION MADE ME CLOSED, AND 'CUZ OF THIS I AM LESS SOCIABLE...
You are my bitch, I cannot fail...
I would not give you up for sale...
You leave lip traces on my cheek,
And I am your ALPHA MALE...
You're my bitch, I can't fail...
I wouldn't give you up for sale...
You leave lip traces on my cheek....
And I AM YOUR ALPHA MALE...
I'll break your head and your brain will fall an' blood will pour into a bucket,
I've a knife and it is sharpened,
I'm not afraid to say that you're a simple creature,
I'll look at your torture,
YOU'LL DIE FOR SURE...
Do you ever have critical thinking turned on?
Guess what my bitch was sitting on,
(NOT A MEMBER),
YEAH,
Guess what I'm getting money FOR,
I know that you've fear in YO' HEART,
These are yo' problems that you're bored,
Nobody has yet been able to break my records,
I've already conquered dozens of hearts,
And no one has yet been able to pierce my heart with a sword,
I threw these bitches, they hurt,
The only place I felt good was the bar,
Those bitches did not love me, but they loved my cars,
I'd have realized that this is the ordinary life of a star,
They tore my heart apart,
A sign of this shit is true - all my deep scars...
Fuck with your bitch, BUT DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DID SOMETHING COOL,
MY DEMON COUGHS UP BLOOD...
BECAUSE OF YOU...
I MADE ONE RULE...
Especially for you...
DO NOT FUCK FOR SHOW...
No one give a fuck that you show your LOVE...
YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN IT...
I love the pain when they beat me...
Uh,
SOMEWHERE MY ANGEL'S CRYIN'...
He didn't know 'bout my ILLNESS...
Tell horror stories to your BITCHES,
I AM FEARLESS...
No bottle of gin STOPS MY STRESS...
I'd to remove all the trash in my head,
But alcohol dulls the mind, to the loss of memory, that I forget everything except one thing...
I'M AN ALPHA MALE...
I'M AN ALPHA MALE...
YOU'RE MY BITCH, I CANNOT FAIL...
I WOULDN'T GIVE YOU UP FOR SALE...
YOU LEAVE LIP TRACES ON MY CHEEK,
AND I'M YOUR ALPHA MALE
YOU ARE MY BITCH, I CAN'T FAIL...
I WOULDN'T GIVE YOU UP FOR SALE...
YOU LEAVE LIP TRACES ON MY CHEEK....
AND I AM YOUR ALPHA MALE...
If I kill everyone - this is my second personality,
I am just mockin' you, because I'm a sadist,
Ain't call that nigga a BEAST,
Dozens of killings are trifles, an' I ain't regret,
I killed when was pissed,
I know how you feel, don’t have to say, I will strengthen these feelings breakin' your HEAD,
You get hit by my fist,
YEAH,
MAKIN' YOU DEAD,
Мой кулак пока чист,
I'LL MAKE HIM BLOODY,
I see your neck and it pulls me to TWIST IT,
I LIVE BY MY OWN RULES AN' AIN'T LISTEN TO ANYONE...
///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////
HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN WHO I AM?...
THEN I'LL REMIND YOU...
LITTLE KID...
BLEGHH...
HAHA...
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NINE_VNE_VNE
I love when I bleed,
Every day torture myself with wounds 'сuz I'mma masochist,
I CUT MY HAND TO MEAT...
Do you think that I'll ever change?
I do what I ain't like with rage,
You better not know what I imagine,
If ideas run out - I'll make somethin' an' at the same moment I'LL DRINK GIN,
In some moments, I die for no reason, and now I AM SUFFOCATIN',
I'm born and die, but see THE SAME SHIT,
I WATCH WITH THE DEVIL WHEN THE WORLD DIES, EUGH,
HIS FACE SMIRKS LIKE MINE,
I SEE GIRLS RIDIN' THE DICKS FOR NIKES,
ALL THIS SHIT IS CRAZY...
I LEFT MY OWN BITCH...
DO YOU SEE WHAT DISEASES I DEAL WITH?
HUH,
I ain't think that everythin' WILL BE FINE, OH,
DO YOU THINK I'LL CALL NINE ONE ONE?...
Gimme a bandage so that I stop BLEEDIN',
I don't stop bein' savage even in a fatal SITUATION,
No bitch reacts to my bloody sea,
The adrenaline rush I can't see,
I stained my new hoodie with blood,
Everyone 'round is surprised that I'm so RESTRAINED,
Call me just a bastard...
Hahh...
I'M SO UNPREDICTABLE...
If you want to make to me better, then kill YOURSELF,
You cut your veins but CAN'T CONVEY THE FEELINGS?
Killed a hundred people who met on the way and prevented me from moving forward and this is not the CEILING,
Put the knife in my back if you want, but I won’t turn to face you anyway,
I don’t feel pain, so I ain't care,
Uh,
They are crazy, they want to isolate me,
You bore me, and you can hate me BECAUSE OF THIS,
You'd not do somethin' for me, wipe your bloody and broken KNEES,
For me, dismemberment is not cruel, I'll raise this level to a harsher one, but I will not leave this level easy,
He doesn't know what I am killin' with...
I KILL BY SUFFOCATION...
EUGHH....
HERE I STAND AND SUFFER FROM AUTOCANNIBALISM,
WANTED TO FIND ONE NIGGA IN THE DATABASE BUT GOT AN ERROR AND UNNECESSARY INFORMATION,
I got a new kill contract,
I'LL KILL ALL THE TARGETS...
IN HALF AN HOUR RECEIVED MORE THAN FIVE HEART ATTACKS,
YEAH,
YOU AIN'T KNOW ANYTHIN' ABOUT ME, NO FACT,
YEAH,
FUCK THOSE WHO THINK BY MY ACTIONS THAT I'M DRUNK,
YEAH,
Do you want my help? Hah, you won’t wait, you stuck there YOURSELF,
Welcome to hell, congratulations, you just opened your EYES,
UH,
Yeah it's all the injustice on your FACE,
YEAH,
YES, THE WORLD IS SO CRUEL AND YOU ALONE WILL SUFFER...
Call 911 if you think I'M MENTALLY ILL,
You ain't SICK ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I FEEL,
It ain't rumors that I'm mysterious, It's real,
Wait, don’t leave in any situation, we've not finished my deal YET,
YEAH,
I walked away from my friends, I wanted to rest, I wanted to find PEACE,
YEH,
YEAH,
Don't come near me, if I hit you, YOU'LL FIND YOUR OWN TEETH,
EGHH,
It's disgustin' to communicate with you, YOU'RE VERY TOXIC,
Everybody says I'm so sick...
Eughh...
Do you wanna get my money?...
Hah....
DON'T LOOK AT THE FACE OF DEATH,
THERE'S NO POINT IN TALKIN' WITH YOU, YOU'VE NO BRAIN, I LEFT,
WANNA KNOW HOW TO CALL MY FRIEND A KILLER?
HAH,
HIS NAME IS JEFF,
ТЫ ДУМАЕШЬ Я НЕ ВИЖУ ТВОЙ ЯРКИЙ БЛЕФ?
HERE YOU LIE ONLY TO YOURSELF...
I REPEAT, IF YOU THINK I'M SICK - CALL 911,
IF YOU SUSPECT THAT I DRANK, CALL 911,
IF YOU SUSPECT ME OF A MURDER, THEN CALL 911,
CALL 911 IN ANY SITUATION...
EUGHH...
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NEW_SCRATCH
[Started writing at 08/11/2019]
[Ended writing at 11/11/2019]
I didn't insist on a fight,
Just wanted to hit you in the face,
But you made me a scar like a beast, grabbin' a blade from me and puttin' it in my shoulder,
BITCH,
I felt this pain from the inside,
Felt my vein cut and bleed,
I cannot tidy my mind,
From money, my kidney only started to decompose faster,
Shoot with a pistol like a GANGSTER,
While I hit in a row, more than one liter of blood was SHED,
My mind is too sick not to kill,
Look at what I'm spending my money on,
When I stand near your room, I hear the screams of a bitch,
Take off your mask you're just a BASTARD...
Do not call me devil,
YOU, BITCH, UNDERSTOOD ME?
Hahh...
I see death...
I will run away from her again,
FUCK HER...
HAHA...
YOU ARE A HYPOCRITE WHO WASH BONES BEHIND THE BACK,
From this I wan' see your face broken,
I want you to die and understand all my pain, EGHH,
Blame me for drunkenness, but when I pass the drunkenness test, you'll realize that I am SANE,
Voices from schizophrenia constantly torment me and my BRAIN,
Already earned money and I ain't gonna reduce it,
You like to play on emotions and you abuse it too MUCH...
Scars are the only livin' place on my body,
Aye,
When I just wake up, I LOOK LIKE A ZOMBIE,
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAVE MONEY, YOU'RE CARELESS 'BOUT EVERYTHIN',
Oh,
YOU ARE NOT DEAR, YOU ARE A SIMPLE TROPHY,
Oh,
You're afraid that I'll throw you, and you will be useless to anyone,
AYEEEE...
You're nothing more than a girl for one night...
I see right through you're empty,
I wear what I want, I didn't tryna be trendy,
I had bitches but sent 'em,
I was stupid that admired when she was fucked for my FAME,
She was sweet, but couldn't find the KEY to my heart...
Write my name on the wall with blood at midnight and I will kill you in the morning while you will sleep,
I won't forgive all your lies, I'll beat you 'til you bathe in your own BLOOD,
All people will be shocked by this news,
You're in my afterlife and will live by my rules,
Your future is under my control,
YOU'LL BE HOLLOW WITH YOUR LIFE,
YEAH,
I'LL PUSH YOU TO DEATH,
YEAH,
I BECAME MORE FASHIONABLE I HAVE A NEW SCAR AND SCRATCH...
I pour all the hatred into the text,
Bitch,
I got myself the most mysterious rank,
Aye,
I already know who'll DIE NEXT,
uh,
Set fire to horror 'n' ROB BANKS...
UH...
LOOK AT YOU WITH FUCKING HATE,
EUGHHH,
I know that you're afraid of fate,
Eghh,
Do you seriously wan' open the gates of PARADISE?
I make pain and know that she's FAIR,
UH,
I will not wait for you I have no time,
Want to know what is inside of me?
WHY ARE ALL THE QUESTIONS THE SAME?...
I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU,
MAYBE IT'S ALL DUE TO A SPLIT PERSONALITY
EGHHH...
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THERE IS NV PVINT IN SNIPER SCVPE
[Started writing at 05/11/2019]
[Ended writing at 08/11/2019]
I scratched my whole face so that no one would bother me,
I'm movin' more an' more away from my parents, and they know less and less of me,
I see classmates, they know lil' about me, and 'cuz of this they're afraid of me,
I feel better when I'm with my friends
THAN MY PARENTS,
See a terrible dream every night,
I like to livin' in hatred and soaking it, I'm not going to wean,
My mask that hides my face is dressed tight,
I don't have to bring you anythin',
I'm not a hypocrite who constantly LIES,
HAH,
You talk so much, do you wanna bite your tongue?
Don't call me anymore, I'll put the phone to SILENT MODE,
I blocked the bitch who called me many times,
So that she doesn't know my address, I burned my house with fire,
After these adventures I AM TIRED,
PIERCE ME THROUGH THE SPIRE,
Kill me at night while I'm sleepin',
Everythin' will be alright, you give me rest and peace,
I won't REGRET,
Oh, yeah,
This life is like a cycle,
I live life and die from psychosis,
There's no bullet to shoot MYSELF...
THERE'S NO POINT IN SNIPER SCOPE,
I don't care what you hope for,
I don't care what you put your money in,
You're not attractive to me, bitch, what were you hoping for?
I ain't know what fairy tales do you still believe,
I'm tired of repeating what I take outside at midnight,
You'd die seein' me, but escaped with a slight fright,
You'd the right to die,
But you chose the path of sufferin',
I don't say my thoughts out loud,
They don’t even know what I'm puttin' my money into,
I do not see anythin', in my body there is no soul,
See money and want 'em all,
Do you wan' rip out my heart?
Then subdue him,
Do you know where the cleaver is,
TEAR IT OUT OF ME...
I will not regret it, uh,
Wan' know at what boilin' point my brain is?
Uh,
Conquer my heart and you can know some things 'bout ME...
Haha, KILL ME NOW...
I'LL BREAK YOUR HEAD ENDLESSLY 'TIL I KNOCK ALL THE NONSENSE OUT OF HER,
ТЫ ПРИТВОРЯЕШЬСЯ ЧТО СИЛЬНЫЙ ДУХОМ, НО В РЕАЛЬНОСТИ ТЫ ПРОСТАЯ НИКОМУ НЕ НУЖНАЯ ПУСТЫШКА,
BLEGH,
ПРЯЧЕШЬСЯ ОТ МОИХ ГЛАЗ ДУМАЯ ЧТО ВЫЖИВЕШЬ КАК МЫШКА,
У ТЕБЯ СКОРО БУДЕТ КОНЕЦ ЖИЗНИ, ТЫ ПОЧУВСТВУЕШЬ ВСЮ БОЛЬ И ПУСТОТУ В ДУШЕ, И ДАЛЬШЕ ВСПЫШКА,
И ТЫ В АДУ,
НЕНАВИСТЬ И ЖАЛОСТЬ С САДИСТСКИМИ, НОТКАМИ,
ТЕ КТО БУДУТ ТЕБЯ ОКРУЖАТЬ В АДУ, БУДУТ МОИ ДЕМОНЫ С ТВОИМИ СУКАМИ,
Я БУДУ ЛАКОМИТСЯ ТВОИМИ ЖЕ СТРАДАНИЯМИ, И ЗАКУСЫВАТЬ ИХ ТВОИМИ ЧЁРТОВЫМИ ПОЧКАМИ...
I have long wanted to tell the devil that I wanna sell my soul for strength,
I fell in love with loneliness, and still this is my element,
You've too much ruthlessness, you've to pay me money,
I focus on hatred of all living things,
If you're a naughty bitch, then you fall to your knees,
Call me savage or beast,
I DON'T CARE ANYWAY,
I did not regret the shit that I DID,
OH YEAH,
I find it difficult to communicate with people due to a split PERSONALITY,
I no longer distinguish hallucinations from reality,
Don't come near me, I've to be isolated, I'm A LITTLE SICK...
MAKE ME ENEMY NUMBER ONE,
With such a system, the whole world will BECOME YOUR ENEMY,
I know that I'm nobody for you and all my words are for you like an empty bell...
Make me enemy number one,
With such a system, the whole world will become your enemy...
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FALLING
You've not been going up for five years now,
I climbed the career ladder 'cuz didn't listen to anyone's mouth,
If you're without your own opinion, then you're simple stuff,
Y'all say that you are achieving your goals,
BUT WHY AIN'T Y'ALL HAVE PROOF?
I THINK Y'ALL BLUFFIN',
Y'ALL DO NOT EVEN HAVE ARGUMENTS TO CONFIRM YOUR OWN WORDS,
I'm the destroyer of life, ouu,
I'm indifferent and cold-blooded, I will not save you,
Your show off will soon lead you to the grave, OHHH,
The only thing I value is my money and time,
I DO NOT FEEL GUILTY
I AIN'T CARE, I'M AN ASSHOLE,
LET 'EM BATHE IN THE MUD,
LET 'EM FALL AN' NOT GET UP...
HAHA...
LET 'EM SCREAM AND CALL FOR HELP...
WE'LL NOT HELP 'EM ANYWAY...
Do you wan' take my place?
You cannot,
I already spent a lot of nerves I don't wanna hate,
You ought die first,
Do what you want,
I got out of the MUD,
In my soul only atrocities,
I was determined to war, not peace,
I ain't interested in your problems, this ain't my business,
I hear your words, they are meaningless,
Cooperation with you's unpromisin' for me,
I wake up at night for a week,
I know this is wrong, everything is too BAD,
Bite your tongue, you ain't alone here, you ain't among the DEAD...
If we live like this - we will fall on the social ladder,
I see that you like to suffer,
Will you be happy if I cut you with a CLEAVER,
If we don't change, WE'LL BE GARBAGE FOREVER,
I'm a sick addict for those mothers...
I'm saturated with hatred so I will not DIE OF FEAR...
I wan' make pain and enjoy the process,
Those bitches are bad like these,
DO YOU WANNA TASTE MY FIST?
If you die it'll be a holiday for me,
Everybody makes me nervous 'til I wan' be dead,
While the devil created me, he gave me insanity and ruthlessness,
I see the world and its pus,
No, of course it ain't his rot, it’s just his dust,
All the people inhabiting her are nuts,
Pour blood into a glass, make soup with human guts,
This view of the world appeared in my CHILDHOOD,
If sneakers tear, I'll buy myself new shoes,
I'm saturated with hatred, I'm tired of believin' in a false truth...
SEE YOU FALLIN' INTO A DITCH...
I brought a binge to watch you die,
Are you seriously going to die?
YOU HAVE NOT TASTED THIS LIFE YET...
YOU AIN'T SATURATED WITH HER CRUELTY 'N' INJUSTICE,
You are still small to do SUICIDE,
YEAHHH...
You are still young to do suicide...
Think twice...
Lil' bitch...
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DIZZINESS
Started writing at 29/10/2019
Ended writing at 01/11/2019
I'd to establish relations with my mum, but the result: DEFEAT,
To survive I had to adapt to the environment,
I am used to gettin' paid for labor,
No need to do me a favor,
I cut off customer support links,
An' don't regret the choice
I threw out the wedding rings,
An' don't regret the choice,
I stopped talkin' 'bout my personal things,
I ain't listen to anyone except the devilish voice,
I bought new black jeans,
AND THE LAST ONE THREW AWAY,
When i was washin' clothes, erased all sins in atoms,
I'm only calm when my beast mode is off, aye,
I always wash the NORTH FACE,
When I get money and joy, I'm Low-Key,
I keep all the money in my pocket,
I do not like to see empty and raw faces,
I'm not shit-eater I've exquisite tastes,
I beat those bitches that SPOIL MY NERVES...
I'm still so small no one wants to get me a real TATTOO,
I found all these girls an' interested 'EM IN BADU,
I don't follow 'em, I always know what they DO,
I cooked food for the evening, take jam, tasty, see meat, but don’t take, because the expiration date has EXPIRED,
After all the crap I am tired,
The neighbors ain't understand why I rap and scream all the time,
I leave bloody stains,
They think I'm crazy,
Partly it’s yes, BUT I’M DOING IT ALL FOR THE CLIP...
They can't fall asleep because of me,
I do somersaults but they threaten to call the police,
I absolutely don't pay attention to it, and do what I want,
They are completely tired of me, but I don’t care, I'm such a BASTARD,
BRAIN FUCKED...
HAHA!
You thought I'd die like an ordinary person?
I pulled out Satan's tongue, he talked too much,
He really chatted for a long TIME,
I blackmail you bitch just to make you cry,
I'll throw you off the ditch and say goodbye,
So bored of the bitches who want to die
At such an early age,
At five hundred pounds I have a large assortment.
A bunch of bitches and pounds makes me DIZZY,
A bunch of bitches and pounds makes me DIZZY,
A bunch of bitches and pounds makes me DIZZY,
My head is sick, I cannot see anythin',
I did a kill streak and will do them further until someone kills me for these ACTIONS, YEAAHH...
Yes, I circle everyone 'round my finger and take all the booty,
I think 'bout the next move and eat tootie fruities,
I think about every step, but they think I'm crazy anyway,
They think I'm making traps for 'em, I love bad ways,
I overtook everyone from the beginnin',
And became king...
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PRVTECT IT AT ALL CVSTS
Let's attack first to get all the loot in the end,
I'm going to receive money from the territory which I'll expand,
You shouldn't know where I went,
No one should know 'bout us, as I didn't spread the name of our gang,
There are options for hanging torture,
I will not be deceived and I know it for sure,
Squeeze my heart 'til it spills out all my energy and hate,
I'm not goin' to waste hate,
I'll spill it with blood on you,
BITCH,
I'll tear you apart because you are too rude,
Hah,
Your main talent is gettin' me crazy,
Huh,
When whiners see shit, they chase to taste it,
Very vomit,
Those niggas that cannibals are killin' for meat,
Come to me, let's fight in a force field,
Blegh,
I ain't care that I've the worst shield,
COME TO ME, LET'S FIGHT IN A FORCE FIELD...
I tried to be normal, but you all cannot sit still,
I AM MODERN, BITCH, I WON'T USE PAPER WITH INK,
Fuck laziness, I AM GOIN' TO SCREAM...
Huh... Fuck...
See a virus in a wound,
I've much money for a HOUSE,
Yeah, I'm Low-Key than you,
EGHH...
You're so aggressive for us,
For me, nerves ain't a reason,
I'll never make myself a poor MODE,
You want to help me, but at the same time you give me fake codes,
I've always been rich in gold,
I hide my SWORD in a special pocket,
That bitch cannot even say a WORD when scared, yeah,
I ain't happy when she HURTS me with a smile on her face,
I wan' cut her GUTS OUT an' eat 'em for BREAKFAST, YEAH,
I don't believe in GODS, I MYSELF AM A GOD FOR LIFE, UHH,
I wasn't drunk on Friday,
YEAH! ASK ME WHY I'M SO FADED,
I will not LIE that I am very HIDDEN,
TRY to guess if I FELT PAIN,
After binge, I FELT FINE,
Start your game, lose and then start AGAIN,
Live on monochronously,
Uh, yeah,
You're the same type as the other gray biomass,
I'm much treatable with my class,
I reduced all bitches to atoms,
I gave money to these bitches not because of LOVE,
I just needed some space in my wallet,
I just want 'em to be silent,
I quickly get the product and disappear...
I love to be in Instant KILLMODE,
Those pills I got,
I'm actin' LIKE A PSYCHO,
I don't dream long in my head because I can DIE in the EGO,
I GAVE them the documents, but they cannot understand the thought...
Today I'm FINE, and tomorrow I'll be tough,
Today I'm simple, and tomorrow I'll become AN UNPREDICTABLE KILLER...
Take your APOLOGIES to YOURSELF,
You blinded your MIND with glory and tryna take all my wealth to YOURSELF,
I don't care for your requests, I'll leave everything to MYSELF,
YEAH, HAH,
Stop hypocritical and squeeze out sorrow from yourself,
Stop that shit and stop showing your feelings
Take your APOLOGIES to YOURSELF,
You blinded your MIND with glory and tryna take all my wealth to YOURSELF,
I don't care for your requests, I'll leave everything to MYSELF...
Let's attack first to get all the loot in the end,
I'm going to receive money from the territory which I'll expand...
I'm damn UNPREDICTABLE...
BITCH...
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FACELESS
Bitch, you're in the friendzone,
If you wan' live then run,
If you get out of control I'll shoot you with a gun,
I need to relax, I have too much stress,
I've so many bucks, yeah, I made a mess in your head,
All those bitches are ducks, I wanted my heart to be untouched,
But those bitches want to get fucked,
These bitches don't fuck with me just 'cuz I'm rude and hard,
They don’t know that my heart's bleeding and pierced right through,
I'm childfree but they're dumb an' don't understand what I'm doin',
They'll not understand why I chose this,
Due to the fact that I do not want a child, I lose less MONEY,
They'll consider me a donkey anyway...
Uhh...
I'm sitting in bed with a phone and thinking about the future,
My legs cannot function, but I crawl for money,
I don't listen to their bullshit, I'm too isolated and lonely,
They first became attached to me, and I punished 'em,
Bony bitches are so disgusting to me, they look like anorexics,
If they'd come to me with a request to fix their skin,
I would send 'em away, they themselves chose this PATH...
HMM... HAHA...
These bitches come to me themselves...
They themselves chose this PATH...
I put up with the fact that everyone 'round me are crazy,
Do you all really still hate me?
Who'll die today? I am bettin',
You cannot change this bid,
I'm gathering a party,
Join faster, you can not come,
Do not act like a bastard, buy yourself popcorn,
My character is very hard, my child has the same character, he was recently born,
I bought myself juice, instead of a straw I've a devil's horn,
Only stupid bitches will mourn him,
To get the booty I hit hard,
It's not so cruel, it's just the beginnin' of rage,
Now this devil in his own cage,
Bro, look at the mind and not at age,
You can call me just a savage,
You'll look stupid when fall to your knees,
Relax, bro, I ain't so strict,
I'll be surprised if this is your instinct,
I shouldn't bring anything to the devil,
My bitch still THINKS I AM MENTALLY ILL,
I don't even look who I'M KILLIN',
Do you regret that felt all of my feelings?
Nigga didn’t die because of me, he asked me to give him a belt, and he hanged himself, I DIDN'T KILL HIM,
YEAH, HAH?
HE HANGED HIMSELF, AND I DIDN'T KILL HIM...
I’ve been sittin' at home for three days thinkin' 'bout the future,
Watchin' those around is torture
I almost broke my own fortress,
Nigga constantly sits and does nothing like with a nest,
He thinks that if he does nothing, someone will bless him,
He still walks in fake "Supreme",
Вы все такие пофигисты, If y'all don’t hear me, I will be the same,
These bitches are sale, I can buy 'em,
Because I'mma rich boy, I've a company, I have my own house, and I have a car and fame,
Repeat, CAR AND WEALTH,
CAR AND WEALTH...
I have my own son...
BUT HE'S FACELESS...
I ALREADY WON...
YOU ARE TASTELESS,
MY SON'S PERFECT...
Because of all the changes, MY HEAD HURTS...
Am I dyin', or is it just dizziness?...
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YOUNGER_BEAST
I walk on glass like a minefield,
It's impossible to describe all the feelings that I felt,
Bro, you're not welcome,
HAH,
Bro, fuck off, lemme drink my gin alone,
HAHA,
Bro, no offense, but you act like a WORM,
I live by my own laws, AND I'LL NOT FULFILL YOURS...
I HAVE A YOUNGER BEAST,
I HAVE A YOUNGER BEAST,
I HAVE A YOUNGER BEAST, UHH,
We all have life experiences, but you've THE LEAST...
New lil' nigga is just a holiday,
I want chaos like Zalgo every day,
Roll my eyes like an eyeless Jack an' kill every day,
Y'all surrendered but I have not lost my faith,
I will squeeze your heart in my hands until it sprinkles with blood,
Yeah, I'm cruel and I know that you understood it,
I'll drink alcohol, and my lil' beast will drink juice,
You won’t drink with us, your bitch is too rude,
Your bitch is a dumb board like you,
She loves to walk through the tombs, YOU'RE A COWARD,
YOU'RE A SIMPLE WORM, GO FURTHER DOWN THE ROAD OF MIND BACKWARDS,
Oh, hell, I found my nike sneakers,
Now i'm eating snickers,
I do not listen to all lickers,
Fuck 'em,
I killed that drug dealer,
I feel like I'm a KILLER...
I tried to be softer,
But tears quickly drip on this bitch,
I'm tired of this nigga who constantly asks for a cigarette,
Leave me SEPARATE from y'all,
I'll hate further you all,
HAH,
I'll not trade with all of you,
It's too late to change the rules,
I'm soulless and have too lil' blood,
That girl says I'm beautiful and sweet,
My face ain't so lit,
I wear a mask,
And 'cuz of this, she doesn't know my real level of beauty,
I've no fruit juice in a glass...
She hasn’t tasted it YET...
Now a nigga two-faced,
I do not regret the losses,
I throw a smoke grenade and disappear,
I hate posers that like you...
I MADE A NEW TATTOO...
I walk on glass like a minefield,
It's impossible to describe all the feelings that I felt,
Bro, you're not welcome,
HAH,
Bro, fuck off, lemme drink my gin alone,
HAHA,
Bro, no offense, but you act like a WORM,
I live by my own laws, AND I'LL NOT FULFILL YOURS...
I drank pills to SLEEP for at least 5 hours,
I'm tryna KEEP myself sober,
My wounds are so DEEP, I can't understand I am drunk or sober,
Bitches want to see my LIPS through the mask, I show 'em and kiss her in a hickey and then take her heart away like a robber,
No bitch, I am not your lover,
I have a week to die...
Big heart because of a lot of fatigue,
I owe you nothin',
Will you die to rot the next life?
It is gettin' dark in my eyes,
Conscience ruthlessly breaks the heart,
I'm inclined to the option that you'll all be in the mud in the next life,
I made my own LIFE and now it looks LIKE ART,
But it will be perfected by my young BEAST...
BY MY YOUNG BEAST,
BY MY YOUNG BEAST,
BY MY YOUNG BEAST,
BY MY YOUNG BEAST,
BY MY YOUNG BEAST...
I hope he will look better than me...
I hope he'll not be faceless...
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I'MMA MERCENARY
Hold your breath, I know you're standin' 'round the corner,
You're afraid, I feel it, your sweat flows faster than water,
I’ll stick a knife in you to confirm the contract, and you will throw a bitter tear,
I will shut your mouth so you ain't even creak, I make you say all the information I need, and will kill in cold blood,
I'll make an incision in your neck and leave you to die and suffocate from BLOOD,
I constantly kill everyone in solo,
Wear black clothes so that blood isn't visible; The second reason is that I LOVE GLOOM,
AND THE THIRD REASON I LOVE THIS COLOR,
Yo' character is already past due,
I don't need love, MY LIFE IS HOLLOW,
I SET TRAPS SO THAT YOU LIMP AND CAN'T MOVE,
I make you slower for my own benefit,
Wanna make your death sweet,
I stab your head with a knife while laughing,
You have lil' time,
Every kill is the same,
I wanna get all the fame,
I enjoy every scream,
Pierce with a knife UNTIL ALL THE BLOOD FLOWS OUT,
I kill with pleasure EVERYONE ALONE...
I AM A MERCENARY,
I never goof off,
For me it’s necessary TO KILL IN MY LIFE,
If you fight back I'LL PUT YOU FACE DOWN,
I see no boundaries,
You want a quiet life for yourself, but I'LL RUIN IT,
I'll put a knife in your heart and you'll take your last breath,
Money is my motivation, an' grief is a weapon,
I watch the blood drip,
I'm sorry. Did I hit too hard?
I cut your fucking heart apart,
I'm already at the peak of bliss, I'll never return to the very beginnin',
I know my intentions, this isn't THE LIMIT,
I can no longer break the habit of hating,
You cry, but I ain't feel regret, I feel the feelin' of a sadist,
I ONLY FEEL YOUR PAIN,
I hold this power an' use it right,
The souls of the dead from my hands keep me awake,
I forget all their feelings of pain, and live the same every day,
They offer me help, but my second personality pushes everyone AWAY from me,
All that helps me deal with this is PILLS...
One PERSONALITY says to me: “Are you completely sick? What are you doing? Someone will kill you for your actions!"
But the second says with contentment, "You must kill everyone you see",
I have a heavy craving for the soul,
Wanna blame myself every day, and beat my head against the wall,
I can't fall in front of everyone,
I like how everyone calls me,
I feel pain in my soul, as the devil predicted,
The devil closed the gates to heaven,
I was a corpse, but I came to LIFE,
I wanna beat him to the blood, I'm a sadist, that is MY RIGHT,
Know, that at any moment I may want to die,
To kill all the pain in my soul, I drink WINE,
Suicidal thoughts come to my mind,
I beat until you BLEED...
BITCH...
What action will change my fucking life?...
NO ACT WILL CHANGE...
I put up with it...
The only way to live is to kill for money and be a mercenary...
I put up with it...
Or is there no point in life at all?...
Definitely no sense...
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Achievement "First Drvp of Blvvd" RECEIVED
Nigga completely gone crazy and worships the gods and totem,
Uh,
It is his right to worship the gods, but I ain't believe in 'em,
They look at my Lin AS A GEM,
uhhhh...
My current level ISN'T THE END,
THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING...
Uh,
While my classmates will be tormented at school - I will become better than them,
BLEGH,
I went hunting and ready to make FIRE,
You bored me compare me to a DRYER,
If I'll want, I'll make dreadlocks instead of my current HAIR...
Because I'm the owner of my life...
Aye, EUGHHHH...
While I was goin' to the store for a drink, I heard the girl cry in solitude,
I asked her, "Why are you crying, did someone offend you?",
Crying, she said: "Mom does not love meeting, and she's very rude to me,
She wants me dead,
She wants to forget 'bout me,
She wants TO THROW ME OUT"...
Life when mom hates you is difficult,
Instead of talking, I want to close myself with music, and constantly hear translucent SOUNDS...
I can carry any load,
This bitch is in my contract 'cuz she's a whore,
I've to buy pills in the store,
I'mma sick schizophrenic,
I hear sounds three times more than before,
Hallucinations get worse every week,
They will not leave me...
I CAN'T BE FREE...
Yeah bitch it is a drift,
Each Lin's bottle as a gift for me,
When I was dying, I lost my thrift,
All your problems DO NOT CONCERN ME...
Wait, what?
When I bleed I can't see because of adrenaline,
I do not give a damn, plus one or two sins,
You love bitches, but I do not need this MEAT,
I was ready to take a knife,
I threw that bitch into the abyss, she was too naive,
Uh,
Consciousness is all that I managed to keep,
Uh,
So easy to impress everyone with a double somersault,
Nigga so stupid that makes a divorce from a bitch and then also a vault,
Uh,
When you do shit - no one to find FAULT WITH YOU...
I ain't need to be like everyone else,
When I hear a story, I need to hear the deepenin' of it,
Do you wan' see where I threw off all the corpses?
Now I'm goin' to get first place,
They'll definitely accept me,
'Cuz I have many divorces,
I will win 'cuz power DOES NOT KILL ME,
YEAH,
I already know who I will be
In the end...
Woahhh...
I'LL BE A WINNER...
FUCKING WINNER...
I don't give a damn that maybe I'mma sinner...
Uh...
What the fuck are you talkin' 'bout?
You tell me you have billions of pounds, but I have a doubt,
After the meat grinder, I do the killing count,
I don't get weaker even when demons chase me,
Over the years, I understood exactly only one thing...
There's no point for bitches, they just make wounds,
AND NO MORE,
NO MORE, NO MORE, NO MORE,
NO MORE, NO MORE, NO MORE, NO MORE...
THEY'RE THE FIRST TO DECLARE WAR...
Hah,
Yeah...
Cut myself without feeling pain like TICCI TOBY,
I have a weird hobby,
РЕЗАТЬ СЕБЯ ДО КРОВИ,
See a wound but // Я НЕ ЧУВСТВУЮ БОЛИ,
Родители в панике,
For me it’s usual, but for 'em it’s all TOUGH...
Nigga completely gone crazy and worships the gods and totem,
Uh,
It is his right to worship the gods, but I ain't believe in 'em,
They look at my Lin AS A GEM,
uhhhh...
My current level ISN'T THE END,
THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING...
Yeah...
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I_NEED_TO_TAKE_A_BREAK
If I cut my heart out,
Will I then feel discomfort?
You talk 'bout cruelty as if you know what it is,
Admit you don't know what that is,
Cowardly nigga scared to freeze,
I draw all the kills with blood on the list,
Relationship problem fixed long ago,
I took all the gold in a foreign territory
And set a flag there,
All the killings I forget like a nightmare,
They want all the gold, but I do not care, hah,
I will not make them better,
The mood changes depending on the fucking weather, aye,
I like to wear a mask, but not like a leather face,
Do you still want us to die all together? AYE,
Show me your leader and i will spit right in his face
I like to wear a mask, but not like a leather face,
Do you still want us to die all together? AYE,
Show me your leader and I WILL SPIT RIGHT IN HIS FACE...
Why should I be with y'all if I am happy with everything now?
This bitch wants to be with me, but I live like an empty ghost in my soul,
If they talk their shit, I will not swallow it,
I won't listen to them, they are boring...
Do you take this nigga seriously?...
I became a Satanist too soon unfortunately...
But if fate did so, then I MUST BE A SATANIST...
I WAS BORN A DAMNED BEAST...
I was written damned IN SATAN'S LIST...
From that bitch COMES A HISS... WOAH...
It annoys ME AND I HATE THIS SOUND... HUH...
Everyone here doesn't give a damn about your wound,
You are actin' too loud,
Let those niggas rot inside the ground,
LET 'EM HATE YOU WHILE THEY ROT...
You can come to me in the morning,
Your bullshit that you say burns well, uh,
You don’t need your soul, why don’t you sell it?
Tell me,
I KILLED HIM 'CUZ HE HIT ME,
NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND ME...
All people call me the DEVIL...
YEAH, THERE'S EVIL IN ME...
EVERYONE WANTS TO TELL ME "REST IN PEACE," BUT I STILL CANNOT DIE, HAHH...
KILL ME, LET'S TRY...
Why is your look dry?
KILL ME, LET'S TRY...
WHY'S YOUR LOOK DRY?
Why can't YOU TAKE A KNIFE?
I am, huh, already Tired...
I need to take a fuckin' break,
Huh...
AYEE...
KILL ME, LET'S TRY...
WHY'S YOUR LOOK DRY?
Why can't YOU TAKE A KNIFE?
I am, huh, already Tired...
I need to take a fuckin' break,
Huh...
AYEE...
I DON'T WANT TO DROWN IN CRYSTAL LAKE,
I DO NOT THINK I AM GOD'S MISTAKE,
Only thoughts of SUICIDE MAKE ME SICK...
I do not care what they think of me,
Nigga loves collectin' shells,
I move stealthily,
I am trying to be healthy,
But in the end, always SICK...
I do not need your attention...
Did you seriously wait for the "IZVLATIVN" album?
Hah...
To write this album I was inspired by gloom...
Haha... BLEGH...
SEE YOU SVVN...
Hah....
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Rebootin' the brain... LITEMXDE
Started writing at 18/07/2019
Ended writing at 19/07/2019
Give me fucking time,
Hahy,
Do you want a fight?
Bitch,
Stop tryin',
Oh, fuck, i'm almost dyin',
Hey, hahh..
Hahaha..
Will you leave me in hell?
Hah, of course, better to burn!
Do you want war?
I'll not go to the square,
I'll not disgrace,
All aggression pours out of you,
In the brain there's little charge to kill,
Therefore, instead of the beast mode - there'll BE LITEMODE...
HAHAHA...
Provocation,
The best way to provocation - insults,
You're just a pathetic piece of shit,
Stop playin', and then I'll start to take you seriously,
Get out of my eyes, you are just nauseous,
Take off your mask, you are not mysterious,
Fuck,
I hate all bitches, they are too disgustin',
If I shoot clips on abandoned buildin' -
It doesn't mean that I am a bum...
Hah,
You turned out to be a real scum..
It's none of your business,
In your imagination you are mighty and pitiless,
Before the battle I'll advise,
Before losing - press "F",
After the battle - you'll be half dead,
After losin', do not be sad...
Hah,
Then everyone will know who you're in the square...
Namely...
Hmm, why not spend a week without a gin?
But alcohol addiction suggests otherwise,
Everyone already knows, that I hate my face,
Brain reboot,
'Cuz he almost died!
I'm in utter shit, but I ain't gon' pray,
Shut the fuck up, you should shut the fuck up,
I don't spill a gin from a cup,
Feel like a corpse when I WAKE UP,
When feel pain in the head,
Seems to die soon,
But not so early, and then when the moon
Rises,
Every year there are changes
In my character...
Never felt such pain in my head,
Last time she was sick when the demons tried to kill me,
No, no, no, no, i will not die,
Why do I need to pray?
All colors will be gray anyway,
Anyway,
I will not even try,
Would better drink the Bombay,
Huh,
I'm in Lite-Mode...
IF YOU HATE ME - HATE FURTHER,
But I think, you're a motherfucker,
If you are a hater, go to hell,
You do not know what I felt,
Fuck,
Better hang on a belt,
Bitch,
You'll not kill me, I'll kill myself,
You will not strangle me,
I'll not hold my breath...
Fuck..
LEAVE ME IN CALM, THE BRAINS Die..
Give me fucking time,
Hah,
Do you want a fight?
Bitch,
Stop tryin',
Oh, fuck, i'm almost dyin',
Hey, hahh..
Hahaha..
Give me fucking time,
Hah,
Do you want a fight?
Bitch,
Stop tryin',
Oh, fuck, i'm almost dyin',
Hey, hahh..
Hahaha..
HAHAHA...
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Cold-blooded for the whole life
(Started writing at 17/07/2019)
(Ended writing at 17/07/2019)
I don't give a fuck about those who hate me,
Some people think, I'mma weak dork,
Writin' texts, for me it became like work,
Dreams 'bout people who say to me "You're talentless. Why do you write these texts?" - it's like a feeling of suffocation,
All the haters are makin' me depressed,
My name's Cold Blooded,
Because of this shit, MY STRESS STARTS,
Some fucking bitches hurt my heart,
I'm goin' sleep in bed...
Wake up in a red room,
Apparently red in blood,
A bitch stands in the middle, but not beautiful,
It remains a bit to become crazy,
This shit's unhealthy,
From this - blood flows from the eyes,
I feel that this is a hallucination and a lie,
You do not know what pain
In MY BRAIN,
I want to believe, that I will not die...
Guest in hell, hmm, what the fuck?
No turnin' back,
I don't wanna be with the last trash,
With hypocrites and scum,
Ha,
Why am I in hell?
Am I damned?
I am stressful,
Ain't funny,
Oh god, I die not in real life,
But in my soul,
Ahhh... GOLD DISAPPEARS ON THE WRIST,
Ahh, shit, I WANNA FIND PEACE...
I'm tired of smokin' in beast mode...
Write all the text in a notebook,
I'm hidin' from people in the hood,
I hate myself day by day,
Day by day,
I cannot stand the pain...
Write all the text in a notebook,
I'm hidin' from people in the hood,
I hate myself day by day,
Day by day,
I CANNOT STAND THE PAIN...
Hah, Hahaha...
Hahaha...
Fuck...
THIS IS MY FUCKING LIFE...
I hate people, standin' with a knife,
I'd rather sit in a Cafe,
And drink coffee than fucking beer,
But even a cup of coffee doesn't drown my fear,
ALL THESE BITCHES CAUSE A TEAR IN ME,
An' causes a "face-palm"...
(-Cold Blooded, make better videos,
Your lyrics are crap,
And then you make the video as mentally retarded...)
These fucking posts are fed up already,
'Cuz of these messages, I wanna bury my body,
My eyes bleed when I see
These comments,
It feels like I'm participatin' in a play,
I'd rather block the hater,
And continue to drink my Bombay...
Hah...
I won't roll into rot...
Blegh...
C₴ld Bl₴₴ded...
Fuck these bitches...
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BEASTMXDE
[Started writin' at 08/07/2019]
[Ended writing at 08/07/2019]
Think off,
I never loved, uh,
I never felt depressed, nah..
I'm lyin' with a glass of gin, yea,
Ain't know how many days drunk, ah,
I myself have achieved this title, yeah,
My heart's very fragile,
Ain't answer the questions of the former girl in the mail,
Don't tryna make it worse for me, it's like pouring salt on the tail, uh
I've never been pale,
If I see problems, I smash 'em to smithereens...
Ain't come near me,
I smoke in BEASTMODE,
Drunk, drunk, drunk,
Drunk everyday in shit,
I threw all the bitches,
I won't give them my wealth,
The reason for this is a distrust of the girls,
When I die - they'll not be able to develop in money, they will walk in circles, doin' nothin', huh...
I know for sure, that they will rot in...
The ground
NO PILL WILL HEAL MY WOUND,
I have a nerve boundary,
Open the boxes, and gettin' legendary,
I see all the sites through,
And no one will take my loot,
The feeling of excitement can be the root
Of all problems...
But I don't worry 'bout it,
I like to bury all the problems in the pit,
Ain't like bitches, they are just meat,
These bitch love to fight, but I ain't beat 'em,
They think they are a gem for me,
But I look at 'em like rotten flesh,
I've periods when I need a surge of energy,
These bitches say I'm fucking crazy,
But definitely not lazy,
I DRINK ALREADY THE THIRD BOTTLE OF GIN...
Just know, I'd prefer to be a bit alone with myself,
Loneliness heals wounds a little,
Nerves soothes, just loneliness,
There's always sadness inside me,
There's a lot of madness
And a lot of violence...
Think off,
I never loved, uh,
I never felt depressed, nah...
I'm lyin' with a glass of gin, yea,
Ain't know how many days drunk, ah,
I myself have achieved this title, yeah,
My heart's very fragile,
Ain't answer the questions of the former girl in the mail,
Don't tryna make it worse for me, it's like pourin' salt on the tail, uh
I've never been pale,
If I see problems, I smash 'em to smithereens...
Haha, haha...
BEASTMXDE, BEASTMXDE...
I know all the cheat codes
From grand theft auto...
Yeah...
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ADRENALINE RUSH
You thrust a knife into my heart,
I answered you with a sword in the back,
But for what?
Huh?
You thrust a knife into my heart,
I answered you with a sword in the back,
But for what?
HUH?
YOU THRUST A KNIFE INTO MY HEART,
I ANSWERED YOU WITH A SWORD IN THE BACK,
BUT FOR WHAT?
You thrust a knife into my heart,
I answered you with a sword in the back, But for what?
YOU THRUST A KNIFE INTO MY HEART,
I ANSWERED YOU WITH A SWORD IN THE BACK, BUT FOR WHAT?
Do you think I am happy when I bleed? huh,
Do you like to look at live meat that is in THE BLOOD?
I do not feel comfortable when I limp with broken KNESS,
This is already roulette but not a quiz,
I'm dead or alive, time will tell everyone,
I will not smile with bloodied teeth,
Look at this bitch, she's completely gone crazy,
She's already hissing,
Only I bleed and wheeze, uh, ALONE...
To say somethin' - THE LANGUAGE IS ATROFIED...
IF YOU LEAVE HERE, I WILL BE SATISFIED,
If you think I am a thief,
Then you are stupidly mistaken,
All my transactions have long been, uh, paid...
Yeah...
Your horizons are narrow as a fucking stove...
Yeah...
So you remember how I fought?
Then I fought to, huh, survive...
I fought to stay alive...
At that moment I'd not be reborn,
Fuck, my pants are worn out..
Huh...
YOUR BROTHER'S DEAD IT AIN'T MY FAULT...
HAH... Yeah/...
I'm with my friends FUCK YOU WITH YOUR CULT..
Your rules and perspectives DO NOT SUIT ME,
Now all your words are fuckin' EMPTY FOR ME...
Yeah...
I know that I'm too isolated,
I realized that I didn't need,
And got rid OF IT...
Haha,
This bitch cannot sit up,
The last time I saw you, you made me a fucking trap,
I LISTEN HEAVYMETAL INSTEAD OF RAP,
When I fly in the clouds and come up with a text - it's like I fly on an airplane, Eugh...
They think they are developin', but in reality they rot like their brains,
Let's kill this nigga bastard and, OH, LEAVE A BLOODY STAIN...
I can bleed all day,
I don't wanna cooperate with you, losers, we've a different path,
What are you sayin'?
Hahaha, do I have to PAY YOU something?
My meaning of life is not fucking bullying,
CUT OFF,
I cut off all the problems from the past,
Nigga, do your task,
Are you copying me that you wear a mask
Like me?
Huh,
Stop being scared of my BASS...
I will never trust you,
Why do you look dull?
I don't need to charge the phone, it is fully charged,
Don't stare at my pearl chain...
Hah,
We got out of the mud...
You've chosen the path to rot,
No air, everybody choking, oh, air hot,
If God lives - THEN WHERE THE FUCK IS GOD?
BRUH,
To kill someone I don't need a group,
I love the way this girl makes soup,
My one and only love.... Hmmmm....
I love to develop and grow, AYE,
If someone betray me I'LL LAY HIM FACE DOWN...
Don't bother me when I'm in thought in my own EGO,
Think when I was lil' and played LEGO,
My fear is FOMO,
Fuck this, ahhh...
I let this feeling go,
But I still HAVE THIS SHIT...
I let this feeling go...
BUT I STILL HAVE THIS SHIT...
You thrust a knife into my heart,
I answered you with a sword in the back,
But for what?
Huh?
You thrust a knife into my heart,
I answered you with a sword in the back,
But for what?
HUH?
YOU THRUST A KNIFE INTO MY HEART,
I ANSWERED YOU WITH A SWORD IN THE BACK,
BUT FOR WHAT?
You thrust a knife into my heart,
I answered you with a sword in the back,
But for what?
YOU THRUST A KNIFE INTO MY HEART,
I ANSWERED YOU WITH A SWORD IN THE BACK,
BUT FOR WHAT?
Thanks to my adrenaline I survived,
This feeling of bleeding in front the cold wind...
The heart's bleedin' from WITHIN,
Feelin' of fear in the soul FILLS,
I feel unwell, I need to drink pills,
Now I don't give a damn about, huh, deals,
I feel pain from all my past killings,
I still feel the pain and bleeding,
I have a feeling that I'm fucking dying,
This time I'm not lying,
Fuck the words of the girls, I feel bad,
Fuck...
I feel pain from all my past killings,
I still feel the pain and bleeding,
I have a feeling that I'm fucking dying,
This time I'm not lying,
Fuck the words of the girls, I feel bad, Fuck...
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Don't let me kill someone...
[Started writing at 15/07/2019]
[Ended writing at 16/07/2019]
My whole mind is like sinkin', uh,
In a dream I see gin,
I ONLY NEED CORPSES,
I've seen many sinners,
They consciously enjoyed the blood, yeah
They walked and killed suddenly in the hoods, uh
I beat my bitch under the bits, yeah
Then I was on a relaxed beast mode,
I ain't sayin', that I'mma God,
I ain't roll into rot,
I've never been with whores,
I've never been poor,
Ahhh... Shit, I'll be a patient in a mental hospital,
The Devil's already callin' me...
Callin' me... Callin' me...
I don't wanna be...
Fuckin' in a psycho hospital...
Yeah, I wake up at night with standin' over the table,
Fuckin' demons do not settle in my mind,
Fuck, their goal is to find my soul and brin' it to the devil,
Maybe they wanna fry me in a cauldron like grilled kebabs,
I wanna destroy everythin' and everywhere,
I killed all the fear in me,
I AND WE ARE ALL JUST MEAT!
PURPOSE: TO FIND , DESTROY , AND KILL!
May even beat 'til bleedin'..
Hah...
"Somewhere deep in the soul and mind..."
Is all this shit real?..
Am I really so sick?...
I'm with very weak willpower,
I'm not a lover,
Fuck that shit...
Everyone just bleeds from me,
I'll be a patient in a mental hospital,
I'll be a patient in a mental hospital...
Fuck...
Better leave me alone,
Otherwise, I break all the bones,
My nerves are on the verge,
Ahhh...
The first who'd sentence me to kill - would the judge,
I need a clear mind,
I am tired of headaches,
Durin' the period when I was sick - more than five heart attacks happened,
But I was silent, and endured all the pain...
I was abnormal...
I was abnormal..
But not drunk in shit....
"Not drunk in shit..."
"Not drunk in shit..."
DON'T LET ME KILL SOMEONE...
I'm goin' crazy...
I'm too sick...
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Find and finish off
(Started writing at 09/07/2019)
(Ended writing at 10/07/2019)
Burst into the hospital, not paying attention to screams,
Police teams are ready to finish me off, but I intend to finish them first, yea,
Everyone's so sad, that they choke on their own tears,
But I ain't regret, 'cuz I sold my soul to the devil,
I'll do my mission, find and finish off everyone,
They irritate with their cries, let 'em fuckin' shut their mouths to the lock,
I'm so tired, like I'm just awake,
I don't make mistakes,
When I see a diamond, I distinguish the original from a fake,
If I see problems on the way,
I kill everyone and is ready to break Anything...
The goal is visible,
there are no obstacles,
Ready to kill everyone,
For the sake of one goal,
See the wall and break it,
Each of my hostage is breathin' heavily,
Hah, no, I ain't a sadist,
I'm just a beast,
I'm just a pest,
No, I ain't need rest,
I HATE TO SPEND...
FUCKING TIME...
I've never missed the victims,
An' didn't feel shame...
Hah...
My goal is clear and precise,
Haha,
Without losin' a second kill everyone,
Yeah,
Destroy everythin' without leavin' a bones,
I kill, and will kill, this is my fuckin' mission,
No one will deceive me,
Some will say I'mma fuckin' freak,
Someone thinks I'm fucking sick...
My advice to you: "Shut the fuck up"...
Yeah...
My goal as usual,
Find someone and finish off, aye
Also, my goal is to get money,
Yeah... Aye...
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Earth as hell
[Started writing at 05/07/2019]
[Ended writing at 07/07/2019]
All these lies are visible on the surface,
This is no longer Earth, this is a place in hell,
They throw us into the cells
Without sayin' a word,
Rottin' this world,
Kidney pain, fuck,
In anyway, they ain't give a fuck,
Now only luck saves,
Units of brave
Tryna solve this shit,
But the rest are slaves,
They ain't live their lives,
Fuck...
Hahaha...
All behave like cattle..
All settle down in shit.. Hah,
We're fed fucking shit,
WATER POLLUTION...
AHHH..
This is a fucking PRESSURE....
AHHH...
Suicides on exams...
Ahhh...
What is this shit for???
All losers ain't POOR...
All nerves are spent on fucking exam,
But for what price?
"For health..."
And where's the promised wealth?
Ahh...
Stop lying to yourself...
You do not need it...
Ahhh...
Shit...
All cops ain't give a fuck on robbery,
All who pursue wealth for murder are fuckin' bastards,
All hooligans beat any passersby in groups,
Fuck, they beatin' anyone up to the corpse,
On the words "Life is rainbow"... -
- I have doubts...
If you see a rainbow life, then I wish you to take off your rose-colored glasses,
The world lives in war...
But... Certainly not in joy and peace...
THE WORLD'S LIKE HELL..
THE WORLD'S LIKE HELL...
THE WORLD'S LIKE HELL...
Everything's so sad, but what to do?
Fall out of the ditch?
Ahh,
But not 'cause of the bitch,
Hah,
May for another life with better wealth...
And better health...
Better health... Better health...
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501
I_HAD_TO_DO_IT
I'm still trying to find peace,
I'm lookin' for a passage in the darkness to the light,
But in the end I fall into the abyss,
Do not touch that dude's mask, she is him,
My new tattoo gives plus 20 to courage,
I ain't hide the fact, that I'mma savage,
Are you seriously so naive,
That you think, that fucking fate itself will build your life?
Huh,
I kill demons like mosquitoes, huh,
I do not trust to fuck-boys, aye,
I do not tell everyone my goals,
When I killed, I made an unconscious choice,
The faces around me are only disgusting,
I already lost the habit of trusting, and Tattooed all my skin,
At 11 years old..
Nigga wanted to make a pie,
Haha,
WANTED TO STAY ALIVE, HUH
After today he is tired...
This nigga beats everyone because of overweight,
Do you like to hate?
I always pay attention to the character trait,
AYE,
The devil told me: "You were a mistake",
I'm wearing "Nike" sneakers, right now,
I still have Eddidas, but WHAT IS HIGHER IN QUALITY? HUH?
Nigga played with gas,
I told him to ignite him
And then there will be progress,
Hah... Tim..
True motherfucking satanist...
He thinks depression and paralysis
Are dumb little things,
I'm drownin' now an' dyin' in ALCOHOL, HUH,
JOE IS TRYIN' TO FIND A BITCH, HAH, YEAH...
-----------------------------------
What do you mean?
HAHA... you want to trick me haha ??it will come out to you SIDEWAYS... hah...
These bitches crawl neatly towards us like SNAKES, YEAH,
I love this moment when that bitch breaks EVERYTHING,
That nigga ain't got a brain, instead he has a shell,
That bitch twitches so funny when the bell knocks,
HAHA,
I made the way to paradise FOR DOGS, YEAH
Nigga knows how to use jokes,
And 'cuz of this happy,
I kill all the traitors in my life,
Fuck you, I will not pray anyway,
I ain't give anything for free, this blade is mine,
I am tired of pretending that everything is fine,
Nigga thinks only of himself and hurts everyone,
He never felt pain,
Tears of a bitch flow faster than rain
I am not surprised to see a bloody stain NEAR MY ROOM,
My goal now is to go to my goal and kill her, so that before she dies, she shed a tear, AYE...
And get fucking pleasure from her fear, haha...
Ask me why am I so closed and fucking tough...
Ask me why I like to watch THE BLOOD FLOW...
Ask where i put my soul, I BURIED HER IN THE GRAVE...
I dont give a fuck all opinions, I am not a system SLAVE,
Soon the day will come when I'll get tired of everythin',
I have already received fucking BLISS,
I'm tired of paralysis,
I was ready to do everything not to feel IT... Yeah,
I killed the one who prevented me from livin'..
BLEGH...
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT...
Nigga tells me "calm down, damn, you are stressful",
I like to look at the ruins,
THEY INSPIRE ME TO WRITE NEW TEXTS...
I'm tired of a nigga tellin' the same facts,
I love to tell stories 'bout sectarians by the fire,
Nigga choking on hot air...
Nigga tells me "calm down, damn, you are stressful",
I like to look at the ruins,
THEY INSPIRE ME TO WRITE NEW TEXTS...
I'm tired of a nigga tellin' the same facts,
I love to tell stories 'bout sectarians by the fire,
Nigga choking on hot air...
I don't give a damn, I'll beat with a blade and other weapon, I will fight unfairly,
Yeah, hah,
If I die - then die together, fuck safety,
I know that I am responsible for all your LIVES, UHHHH...
I'm a loner an' don't accept advice, uh
I'm not so dumb to declare war on your guys,
No need to explain to me, I see growth in wealth,
I don't follow the popularity I listen to what I like,
Yes,
I ain't go after the herd, I broke the damn system,
Schoolchildren walk with JBL speakers,
Bleedin' from the ears...
Go fuck yourself, I WILL SWEAR ANYWAY,
I smash the cranium like a watermelon,
I am damn not equal in strength,
I can eliminate you, plan B is "Help me with my gang", aye,
I'm used to keep my distance from the bitches, uh,
Why are you acting like a ferret? huh?
I will never stop my parents panic, huh,
I read a lot of fan FICTION,
I got a mental blow from those motherfucking, oh, bitches...
I can read my wish list if you want,
This shit is worse than that, ah,
I destroyed all the flowers and bushes and planted grass instead, yeah...
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I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT,
I HAD TO DO IT [X3]
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I HAD TO DO... IT....
yeah...
I destroyed all the flowers and bushes and planted grass instead...
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406
Shitty nits for life
Tell me you're holy
But anyway,
All your words are lies,
When I see you, I wanna spit in your face,
Fuck you,
Fuck your words,
I want to pierce your skull with a knife,
Reason why i ain't believe you;
The day before yesterday you killed the kitten,
But hiding an lie then,
All pure truth has been forgotten,
Shut the fuck up, I don't even wan' listen to you,
You always hide the truth,
But she always comes to the surface soon,
I'd like to break you all your bones,
All hate can enslave me,
And then I can easily become crazy,
All the deeds you made 'em, huh
You killed someone, but you understand that this is in the past,
No one will never,
Ever wanna trust you,
Everyone at the meetin' with you
Will remember what you did.
SHUT THE FUCK UP,
I can't just keep my cup
With a gin, geagh...
I can't watch you cheat at every step,
Stop talkin' you're not clean,
Stop lyin', everything ain't good,
Are you as stupid as a tree?
How much can you be?
Be fucking shit,
An' throw all the corpses into the pits in secret,
With red spread hands,
Sometimes not even himself, but in a group,
You are a piece of shit,
Shut the fuck up...
Shut the fuck up...
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512
Not sincere love
What's it like to be ridiculous?
What's it like to be humiliated?
The last drops of blood flow from me with my smile,
She doesn't want a child,
She thinks I'm fucking wild,
Yeah, stop fuckin' beatin' me,
Have you seen enough of how I bleed?
Are you tired of beatin' me?
I always regret what I did,
I constantly regret meeting you...
You beat me half to death,
But this ain't enough for you...
Your teeth are all covered in blood,
You don't understand the value,
As you didn't understand before...
For five years, I never fucked you,
You can't do anything without me,
As you wish, but I can never be..
For you a fucking henpecked,
You had a fucking choice;
Don't contact me, or don't be a whore,
But you started communicatin' with me, but for what?
Your fucking smile is bleeding,
I ain't sell love as a commodity,
But you, I see the exception,
Let me go, I've to breathe...
Fuck... Blegh... Whore, hahaha....
Stop pretendin', you don't love me,
You drowned your love long ago,
Just come from me, I beg you, go,
You don't know what it feels like to be depressed,
You ain't worthy,
You are just a rotten woman,
You're a simple whore, you ain't deserve anything,
Instead of bein' with you, I'd rather drink gin,
When i was a teenager,
I was so stupid,
I accepted the offer,
I began like an canine,
I turned like into a dog,
In my mind - you'll find only fog,
I've suffered this shit for so long,
I know this shit is wrong,
Although I am strong,
But I do not beat you...
I'm above this shit,
If you want - go away,
Some day i'm sure, i will die,
I will tell you bye,
After one night, Just believe,
I feel better without you.
This life is with you like hell,
This life is with you like hell,
This fucking life's with you like hell,
I feel myself like in a cage,
I admit, I love to rage
This life is with you like hell!
This life is with you like hell!
This life is with you like hell!
Don't blame me, I am really bad...
This shit makes me more and more dead...
Hahaha...
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525
TR1PLEKILL!
How can you call yourself in your soul?
A creepy doll sits on my right, oh
Nobody cares about your opinion,
Do what you were told,
Can you sell your soul?
All coins with gold, uh
Nigga can't fold the paper neatly,
Cold, FUCKING WRIST... huh,
I'm not the one who wants to be bored,
I'm the one who just wants more and more loneliness,
I remember how I died of gas, hah,
Died for money, gold and forget the past, YEAH,
I got a second life 'n' a second CHANCE. HUH?
The blade heals my WOUNDS,
For my eyes the borders are invisible, BLEGH,
God made strange noises before he DIED,
Nigga can't pick a side,
Italian girl love to hide,
Brother-Nigga can be proud of anything,
My soul's tearin' me apart,
Behind my back is full of sins,
I ain't a jeans seller, I did as I feel, uh, better,
I had to write a letter...
To a former bitch that I HATE HER,
I saw her last night when she looked at me through the window with a strange LOOK, HAH,
At that moment I lifted a sharp BLADE, yeah,
I love to stand alone with a knife in a nook, yeah,
I don't know how to love, I am used to only HATE, YEAH,
I spat in the face of death, as fate spat on me...
I will not let you go,
You won't understand me,
YOU DO NOT NEED TO KNOW,
Where are you going to go?
YOU'RE LOCKED HERE FOR THE WHOLE FUCKING LIFE...
Let 'em talk their SHIT,
In any case, I won't take it seriously,
UH...
Hold the gun barrel aimed at my head,
YEAH,
In any case, I won't give what you need, blegh,
I've already choked with my own blood...
I think it is very GOOD...
I ain't give a damn 'bout your troops...
I ain't used to workin' with a group,
huh I do not like to smoke dope, uh, huh,
To stay afloat - TIGHTEN THE ROPE, uh
My fear is to look like I can't handle it, uh,
My soul always says: “Blood and fucking battle are needed now", huh, hahaha...
My older brother, fuck, Cannibal,
All your brothers lead like fucking animals,
I ain't need moral help, it ain't difficult for me, huh,
But in the game you die first,
And I'll get a triple kill...
If you think I'm mentally ill,
Then get away from my territory and kill yourself from the pills...
Huh?
SOMETHIN' DOES NOT SUIT YOU?
NOBODY CARES ABOUT YOU,
This bitch is old, not new,
My friend left her, they were a couple,
HER SMILE SHINES LIKE DEW, OH, FUCK, SHIT,
DYNAMITE, I BLEW IT
SCHIZOPHRENIA, KNEW IT...
I KNEW, THAT I HAD IT, I DID IT, THIS IS MY RECORD,
Do you want to hurt me?
THEN TAKE THE BLADE AND PIERCE MY LIVER,
I'LL BREAK YOUR TOWER,
I will take all the gold and become more bloodthirsty,
I'm always a cut above,
And I've a plan in advance,
And who is here first?
I did all this and went to rest,
But after the game the bloodlust remained,
And who's glorified here?
Uh...
Keep choking me in the corner,
Let passersby think, hah, we've passion...
Squeeze my neck so I lose consciousness,
Can drag us into "ISOLATION" MODE,
Uh,
You can hold me by the throat as much as you want,
Anyway my demons are in hunting mode,
I just get FUN IN MY SICK IMAGINATION, Aye,
I JUST GET FUN IN MY SICK IMAGINATION,
I JUST GET FUN IN MY SICK IMAGINATION,
I JUST GET FUN IN MY SICK IMAGINATION!
I JUST GET FUN IN MY SICK IMAGINATION!
I JUST GET FUN IN MY SICK IMAGINATION!
YOU CAN DRUG US INTO "ISOLATION" MODE...
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473
I Am Sick Psycho
Still drink gin and cannot tear myself away,
I drink from the beginning of May,
I ain't understand what day today's,
I live in my own stoned world,
I'm afraid to go forward,
What will happen next?
I'm not a cock, I ain't chasin' assholes,
Throw cubes, and vodka falls out,
I love this shit, fuck out,
I do not think about...
My fucking health,
Anyway, I will die soon,
My mind is shaky,
I need a psychiatrist!
Hahaha...
I don't know if my brain is alive,
I already drink 5 days,
I distinguish a lie, though drunk,
Don't look in my head.
There you will find only trash,
In my dreams, I see corpses,
And it scares me to a nervous breakdown,
Maybe I was a bastard, but I wasn't with whores,
I never fell in money below the poor,
Now i'm bangin' my head on the door,
Ahh... I'll die of boredom soon,
Do not be booze, i do not like it,
Where is my second gin bottle?
...
I can drink gin, only double,
(Only double),
Then I get really unbalanced,
And then I crush everything into pieces,
Ain't look fuckin' in my head,
There's a simple mess,
Feeling of fucking stress,
Then I feel killed in shit,
I have to do somethin' 'bout it,
I can't just sit.
Thoughts of dreams with damn spirits,
Skeleton tattoos constantly remind me of nightmares,
Maybe I'm just a sick bastard,
I’m sure this is just the beginnin',
Fuck everythin', my brain is dyin'...
Yeah,
Still drink gin and cannot tear myself away,
I'm still waitin' for the day,
When I lose my mind completely,
I don't give a fuck 'bout all,
'Cause I'm C&ld Bl₴₴ded...
Hah... C&ld Bl₴₴ded...
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531
I won't forcibly Love
Beginnin' of writin' the 25th of May
The end of the writin' of the 25th of May
Per 7 hours
Ha, I've seen a bunch of whores,
So many whores broke my heart,
Haah,
Now i look at 'em like dirt!
Hah,
I wasn't smart then
When communicating with real whores,
I didn't take into account the characteristics,
Why should I be with bitches?
Why?
They stupidly use me,
I tried to be,
Not henpecked,
But I met a bitch,
who only loved my wallet,
I was shocked then,
From the fact that there are
So many whores in the world,
Fuck,
Then I was dumb as a BOARD,
I never took a shit-reward,
Then I seemed to be lying in the Rot,
At that moment I was covered
With a Stupor,
I won't forcibly love,
I won't forcibly love,
I won't forcibly love,
I'll never live with a rotten girl,
I hate this bitch, fuck off,
How do they live in a world?
Everyone closes their eyes,
But I see the truth,
I don't wanna waste my time on this guff..
They do not love anyone,
They pretend they love,
But in real love the wallet an' car,
When you wanna relax from her in the bar,
She wants to eat in a restaurant,
I always regret 'bout meeting with her,
Now I look at her like a piece of shit,
When I'm without her,
I feel free!
I wan' see her bleed!
I don't need her!
Yeah,
I WON'T, FORCIBLY, LOVE,
I WON'T FORCIBLY LOVE,
I WON'T FORCIBLY LOVE,
I don't wanna feel depressed,
Let all whores roll down,
Let what passed, remains in the past,
I don't want to remember him,
I'm sick of those whores,
I regret, that i drove 'em to stores,
They didn't deserve the Flowers,
She always owned me,
Fuck that shit,
This shit's so sad,
What i had
I have spent, fuck
Because of these bitches,
For their needs,
i just realized now,
What I had to send,
These bitches on 8 letters,
(Fuck y'all),
But now I'll not even call them,
I've already deleted 'em from my life...
Blegh... Fuck, bitch... Slut...
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493
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE
Got attention and left the party...
A feeling of loneliness filled my whole soul,
It’s not my FAULT,
That I've no CONTROL,
Nigga joking like a TROLL,
Gold is in my fucking hands,
It takes me into a trance, huh, uh...
Give me a sharpened blade to make a corpse,
Energy flows from veins an' from other streams,
Nigga ain't dead because he ain't lost hope,
Lil' nigga loved to DREAM,
My spiritual wounds never heal,
You're a beast, can you feel SOMETHING?
Turn on the brain, then understand what I MEAN,
7xvn with PRXJEK broke my FACE,
Left a mark on the psyche,
I'M VERY HAPPY 'BOUT THIS VERY MUCH...
Nigga braggin' that he caught a fucking girl at a party,
But doesn't know, that looks like an idiot,
I would be glad to regret that bitch, but I sold my soul...
I did not fucked up,
I am tired, cannot even take a nap,
Don’t even think to fuck up my car,
I will beat your fucking face,
I will tell the demon to drag your soul into the dark,
I'll bring the truck to our point,
I am lyin' on the couch and goin' Crazy,
Fuck you, laziness,
Get away from ME,
IT IS NOT YOURS BUT MY, FUCK, BUSINESS...
HUH? YEAH,
You are very SLOW,
Touch my hand, my pulse is LOW,
For 3 years, I never had a feeling of love,
I'm an soulless creature and, BITCH,
I, UH, KNOW IT,
Nigga drunk from alcohol and Beer,
Die and reborn, and then rot in the Ground,
If you like to scream, then scream, but not so loudly,
I will not take off my clothes, bitch,
My body will make you more colder,
Do not go into my folder,
The way I tried to kill myself still bothers you?
It is none of your business what I am doing,
You constantly look at the process of drowning...
YOU THOUGHT I DIDN’T KNVW?
Your bloody hand broke my FUCKING JAW,
You think I ain't havin' a nervous breakdown right now?
Nigga love to detonate fucking bombs...
Don't ask a nigga he's mute, but ain't dumb,
He can't speak, if you'll laugh,
I WILL KILL YOU... Slut...
I'll make the murder of whom I want,
Girl wants tenderness, but nigga doesn't want...
Huh...
Among the company - she turns out to be the most tender,
I have to be her, protector at some points,
But I ain't motherfuckin' henpecked,
I'LL NOT CONSTANTLY PROTECT HER...
Asians think how to get girls and money...
But I’m thinkin' how to find peace, and not die from HEART PAIN...
You look stylish when you have a chain 'round your neck,
If someone offends me, I won’t return,
Why are you all looking at me like crazy?...
If the girl cries, I will hug her,
I ain't completely soulless,
Still my heart can feel somethin',
I ain't completely soulless,
Still my heart can feel somethin'...
What helps me live is friends, girlfriends, and pills,
Don’t make an surprised face, YEAH, YEAH,
I HAVE DEALS WITH THE DEVIL,
After death, he'll owes me a RESTIN' PLACE,
Bitch you beat me till I BLEED,
I had to get rid of all the bitches for a long time, they were killin' me,
My wounds won't heal,
At night, evil awakens in my soul... Huh?
Uh...
It’s not my FAULT,
That I've no CONTROL,
Nigga joking like a TROLL,
Gold is in my fucking hands,
It takes me into a TRANCE...
I don't like the way this bitch DANCE...
Fuck...
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456
People are the source of problems
Beginnin' of writin' the 26th of May
The end of the writin' of the 27th of May
These battles last 'til blood,
Everyone has a bad mood,
There's garbage in every river,
From all this shit hurts everyone's liver,
Most products
Ain't made naturally,
All these waters are dirty!
All these abandoned buildings
Are thirty years old,
All these facts doin' pain in soul,
Units of the brave are
Tryin' to solve these problems,
But most are simply silent,
And in no way tryna achieve more,
Nobody stores anything stored,
How many lungs are inflamed,
Due to fucking air out
Of the smoke?
Haah...
All this shit's nauseous,
No one's watching our health,
No one will save us,
Except us,
Everyone lives in deception,
That everythin' is fine,
But what we eat chemicals,
We live in lies,
Hah...
Everybody burns in fire,
And who's a liar here?
Only people!
How many more
pretend to everyone,
That everything in the world's normal?
Everywhere - the flow of hate,
How long will this shit last?
'Til everything disappears in the dust?
This shit will come quickly!
In the meantime,
Everything collapses, slowly but surely!
HATE,
I will never forget, uh
These bullyin' pets...
Fuck 'em...
This spoiled air...
There's only smoke!
Hope is broken in
The soul of everyone,
I also have a slight doubt
That all that was, won't return,
Every burn,
It hurts not so much,
As the realization,
that we live in shit,
Every beat...
I cannot just sit,
Ahhh...
Gasoline, smoke,
Hatred an' blood,
Murder an' Prey,
I wanna stay alive...
But in another LIFE...
I HATE, IT ALL SHIT...
Fuck off, fuck off, fuck off...
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665
Deep wounds
Beginnin' of writin' the 18th of May
The end of the writin' of the 21th of May
Wounds hurt the same,
What's moral,
What physically,
In any case, it hurts like a knife
In the heart,
And after that, everything was bleeding,
Depression, as one of the circles of hell,
I always feel! I always feel!
How someone wants to kill me,
Every night I fucking see one picture,
It's as if someone inflicts deep wounds with an empty smile,
And there and the nail inserts,
Hahh...
My wound...
Why does she hurt so much?
Death Blow,
I look at that shit,
And think "What that fuck?",
This is disgustin', yeah
I don't care about that shit, yeah
But it hurts like hell, ahhh...
Neck hurts, yeah,
I've seen more than "two fucks",
Bitch, fuck, painfully...
Fuck heart,
My heart is bleedin',
Fuck that shit,
My wounds don't heal,
I feel them still,
Are these pains real?
No, haha...
It is a lie,
It's impossible to endure this pain,
Everything will be bad...
How much can I beat
Your head on the board?
This shit really hurts...
I'll go drink to the bar,
I'm not far from a heart attack,
No turning back,
There's already a crack
In the heart,
I go ahead n' come back, yea hah...
Stick this knife right in the kidney,
I bleed 5 times a day,
Belief in everyone in me is gone,
Let 'em just shut their mouth,
They do not know the price...
Of my liver,
Let 'em just suffocate in the river,
I know for sure, none of them can dive,
They'll not be able to save their lives,
Even when they are in a cave...
Hahh...
Wounds tear me from the inside,
Wounds tear me from the inside,
Wounds tear me from the inside,
Wounds tear me from the inside
Wounds tear me from the inside,
WOUNDS TEAR ME FROM THE INSIDE...
Haha...
Moral pain is a bitch, huh
Headache like death, yeah
Bursting from hallucinations,
It seems the direction went the wrong way,
Now I don't even want to try...
To stay...
Stay alive, And stay not dead,
I always think
Of one thing,
How rude are still alive?
They are all trash,
I have no words,
They're just little pieces of shit,
They are simply soulless,
They deserve nothing,
They deserve nothing...
Well,
Hahahaha...
Wounds are all deep, huh
I will never cry,
I won't try
To find a common language
With the bastards,
I won't even go forward
To them,
I don't even wanna see them..
I don't even wanna see them...
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SVICIDAL
Nigga, let's have a drink in my house, uh
We're damned and sick, the Devil's with us, uh,
I'm about how to get money,
Take the weapon away, from my head, aye
Dozens of guns aimed at you, hah,
Choose a target and aimed at its barrel,
Spend the whole night listening to music,
You won’t surprise by tellin' me that I am sick,
I get tense when someone pinched me,
Why is your car moving backwards?
I live in a class with fking BASTARDS,
I'm more powerful than 6 TANKS,
Do you like to tickle your nerves?
I WILL TEAR YOU LIKE A SHARK, Huhh... Ahhh...
Do you remember how you tried to kill your liver with wine?
Haha,
The winner is the one who survives in fights, yeah,
DON'T DOUBT,
The rope will not kill you, only the rope will choke you, motherfucker,
I am lonely but strong in my soul,
Bought a square plot of land in 15 years because I was thinking about the future,
And now I live in a mansion,
Left all the demons and the damn in the last apartment,
Nigga, just what you didn't have, to a salary of 300 pounds, is an fucking excerpt,
At 3 a.m. I'll go to the forest with a knife,
Niggas have bouts of epilepsy,
No need to help me;
Your gifts only make me worse,
Do not forget the past, I will still remind you all the throws,
When I asked you on a mission to pull me up, you spat on my request, and pulled me down,
My house with my parents burned to the ground,
And from that day, the hand reaches for the blade...
Floating in the money that's in BLOOD, EH, AYE, EIGH, FUCK, Hah...
In the blood of a former bitch, hah, haha, aye
Shot, stabbed, hater and got rid of troubles,
Do you want to know why the contract was canceled?
I survived because I retreated the moment I could DIE, AYE
If you have a question for me: "You are fine, can I help you?" - then YOU SHOULD FUCK OFF,
You can all handcuff me,
You can all try to kill me, fuck
But then will I stop BEIN' SICK??
Wait nigga a little more,
I almost saw the devil's face,
I went this whole way,
Just for one,
To get the status "DAMNED", "DAMNED", "DAMNED", "DAMNED"...
Nigga, let's have a drink in my house,
We're damned and sick, the Devil's with us, uh,
I'm about how to get money,
Take the weapon away, from my head, hah,
Dozens of guns aimed at YOU...
HAHAHA...
I WENT THIS WHOLE WAY,
JUST FOR ONE, TO GET THE STATUS "DAMNED", "DAMNED", "DAMNED", "DAMNED"... "DAMNED", "DAMNED", "DAMNED" "DAMNED"...
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL",
He's higher than the rank of "SUICIDAL"...
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Hate is the enemy
Beginnin' of writin' the 13th of May
The end of the writin' of the 13th of May
Per 12 hours
How many bones were broken
because of this hatred?
Blegh,
How many lives killed,
Simple hatred?
Hah..
No one thinks before striking,
Because of this - we all die,
We must trying to change something,
We don't sleep at night,
Why do we always run?
Why sell souls for souls??
No one knows what would be,
Fuck, we're in shit,
We never think of the consequences,
This is the cause of such
A high mortality rate,
Never fate,
Just don't kill,
Most deaths happen stupidly
Because of pills,
Most of the deaths
From burns are due to gasoline,
From this shit so much pain, fuck
There's nothing good in this world,
All stupidly survive, huh,
Everybody hates this life,
Everybody dies of a knife,
Everyone wants to keep all their stuff,
Now everyone is bluffing,
Now all who lived -
Are already dead,
Fuck off, now everyone's tired...
How many accidents happened
In the last two months?
About 15 times? Huh,
How many dots
Exploded in the last month?
Of course, we can say,
That these are all demons,
It is all bitter like lemons,
Other people say sermons,
Now in a world full of chaos,
Everyone hates each other,
And no one trusts anyone,
Everyone breaks each other's bone,
Perhaps the guardian angel is gone,
He left us?
So suddenly!
But... So sad :(
Everyone wants to take each other's heads,
These pools are with
Blood so red,
Everyone stops breathing...
"The Devil Laughs"...
"The Devil is pleased"...
Hahaha...
These battles with bloodshed are so stupid,
No one is saturated with blood, they lack,
Do we have vampires? Or animals?
Hah...
We have BASTARDS,
All bastards,
Everybody kills each other with beads,
Yeah,
They're filled with hatred,
Yeah,
I'll soon say "Fuck it",
Haahh..
Soon I'll say "Let everything burn here",
Yeah,
Soon I will say
"Pour all over with gasoline,
And burn everything",
It's all crap, because of one thing,
Only 'cause of HATE,
Hatred, hatred, hatred,
Hatred is the main enemy,
Hatred, hatred, hatred,
Hatred is the main enemy...
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Mentally ill
Beginnin' of writin' the
11th of May
The end of the writin' of the 12th of May
Everyone says,
“What are you doing?
What, are you sick?"
And I tell them "yes".
All the walls
In my house are
Broken in the trash,
Everything here's killed in shit,
Is it 'cause I'm fuckin' sick?
Hahaha...
Hahaha...
I've been sick for a week...
Now...
I'mma speak...
Like fucking Russian.
In a dream, I see mentions,
I wanted to drink a potion,
With fucking vodka,
This alcohol kills my mind,
He kills my mind from the inside...
I do not know...
Is that right?
This is my view,
These hallucinations make me paranoid,
I'll soon fall into the void,
I will have vomiting soon,
I don't see what is around me,
Is it a bottle of wine?
I don't understand, why ghosts are here?
Or am I a schizophrenic?
I've been sick for a week...
Maybe,
I need to drink antibiotics,
I just feel nauseous,
Fucking pants are all torn,
I need to turn off
Animal mod,
I'm just standing...
In my room
Every night I wait when I feel better,
At my address there are many haters,
It’s as if the gears are spinning in my head,
I don't read prayers,
I don't wanna count how many tears
I have already shed,
My eyes are always red,
I don't wanna get...
I don't wanna be mad,
I don't want to create anything,
I don't want to receive other things,
I only take beer..
Hahaha...
What that fuck?
This luck spits right in my face,
Why? After all, we got along so well...
I thought it would last forever,
But now we never get along,
She always looks after my affairs,
And never helps,
Sometimes even makes me traps,
Now she's only a corpse for me,
I don't know what will happen next with me,
Maybe I will die?
Idk...
Only fate knows what will happen next with me...
"I'm mentally ill,"
"Nobody knows... What I feel,"
"These hallucinations drive me crazy,"
"My wrists are already frozen.."
"My brain isn't dying?"
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I Cut Everyone Completely
Started writing at 23/07/2019
Ended writing at 24/07/2019
Suffering and hate
This is what she felt,
Yeah,
I cut her completely,
And conscience doesn't torment me,
I loved her sincerely,
I didn't wanna be so hard on her,
But she pierced my heart,
But she hurt me,
And I made her bleed,
An' I had to get rid of her,
Instead of the soul - there was dirt,
I'll not let anyone pierce my heart,
I don't give a fuck 'bout her art,
She already hurt me,
And paid with life...
I'VE ALREADY SUFFERED 5 YEARS,
I beat this bitch,
'Cuz I loved hear her screams,
And was always ready to cut you completely,
All my life I was stuffed with lies,
For all whores life will not be free,
But for the price,
I slaughtered this bitch,
Strangled with my own hands,
And trampled her flowers,
In her pool of blood - I'm drowning,
I strangled her friends,
Hid the corpses in the basement,
Now my whole room is quiet,
I was waitin' for this moment,
When, uh...
I WOULD BE CALM...
I'll no longer stand with a "Face-Palm",
Huh,
Now I am alone and only the wall,
Fuck...
From the beginnin' I wanted to hang myself,
To not be with you, complete whore,
You started hitting me more and more,
You pierced my heart,
But herself paid with your life, but why?
I didn't wanna die,
Though I'mma man,
But to kill you, I'd to exactly...
Blood creeps on the skin,
An' in the veins fucking gin,
Fuckin' bloody chin, haha...
In the head only thoughts
"Fuck that",
It's sad...
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Sinner
Beginnin' of writin' the ninth of May
The end of the writin' of the ninth of May
Per one day
Stop pretending, that you're clean,
Everyone saw,
How many broken jaws did you make,
Everyone saw,
What did you do,
Just do not, say fake
the words,
Just admit all the committed affairs,
Fuck, don't tell FALSE,
Come out of your PEACE,
Just accept, that there is no way to PARADISE,
Don't show who's WISE,
Just shut your mouth,
And shut up...
So, how much can I talk? Yeah,
You'll piercing through the stick,
And will die from the pain,
I know you want to drink some wine,
And you'll try to get it at any cost,
What? Have you lost something?
Well,
You'll never get it...
SINNER,
Demons will eat you for DINNER,
WINNER,
In any situation, fate chooses the winner,
You can be a believer,
But it is unknown whether your liver
Will remain,
You will live with demons,
And your life will not be like diamonds,
You will live in silence,
And you'll live with violence,
You are a very small piece of shit,
You'll first see the pain,
And then you'll rot,
You never get rich quick,
You'll be sick, just like others,
You're just a little Sinner,
Sinner, Sinner, just a little Sinner,
Sinner, Sinner, Demons will eat you for DINNER,
Sinner, Sinner, Sinner, Sinner, Sinner, Sinner,
Fate always chooses who the winner is...
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Call 0f SATAN...
Started writing at 21/07/2019
Ended writing at 22/07/2019
Personality - Dark,
Already in hell,
no turnin' back,
Friends ain't here,
they're in the real world,
Drive the gas pedal, but death overtakes anyway,
Flashin' pictures of Satan, he's already callin' me to hell,
Lyin' in an accident and bleedin', and hear only the sound...
"Flour In Hell Is Cruel"
Fuck whores,
Fuck money,
Fuck victory, huh...
Health is more important to me than all the money,
Hey,
I won't fuck bitches in a row like them,
Take my soul, devil, I only need fame and money,
I'm fearless, 'cuz my beast mode's on,
Aye,
Cause of fearlessness - from death I ain't afraid to run,
Aye,
What the fuck? I'm chokin'...
Maybe I'm dyin'?
No... Far from it...
I will make notes in the papers,
The inner voice constantly whispers to me,
Take notes so that no one will forget me...
CONSCIENCE'S CLEAR,
Demons are will pierce my heart with a SPEAR,
Fear... Hah...
Do will you let me sleep?
Somewhere deep in my soul I'm dead,
Walkin' from the kitchen to sleep -
See the bloody inscription "Rest in Peace",
Lottery in hell,
Without receivin' a Prinze,
Heart freezes,
In vain I squeezed the pedal,
Fuck all,
I will not fall in the soul,
Take your face off - YOU'RE DISGUSTIN'...
THE BRAIN'S ALREADY DEAD - IT AIN'T FUNCTIONIN',
Satan's already takin' a glass of gin to flash it on my dead brain,
Pain is not SENSIBLE,
Headache is TERRIBLE,
Tolerate her IMPOSSIBLE,
That voice in my head's DRIVIN' ME CRAZY,
OHH, GOD, PLEASE, SAVE ME...
I AM COMPLETELY SICK,
Don't throw bricks at me,
I am too weak,
Maybe I'M A FREAK,
I DON'T WANNA BE KILLED,
PIERCED INTO A STICK, FUCK,
I'M COMPLETELY SICK,
Don't throw bricks at me,
I'M too weak,
Maybe I'MMA FREAK,
DON'T WANNA BE KILLED,
PIERCED INTO A STICK...
FUCK...
All the money, all the efforts,
Will be spent to empty,
All the money, all the efforts,
Will be spent to empty...
I'm so gloomy,
What i'm afraid of myself,
My appearance causes vomitin',
Feel like I'm in a slaughterhouse,
Too much load, need to pause,
Seein' in the mirror causes nausea,
No problem because FEAR KILLED 'EM...
For all the stressful time - I did not let a tear fall,
Hammer nails in my coffin,
Ain't afraid, cuz I loved nothin'
The Devil's already killin' my brain,
I'm not afraid,
EVERYTHING'S FINE...
I like so much the feelin' of dyin' heart from poison...
Hahaha...
Pain is not SENSIBLE,
Headache is TERRIBLE,
Tolerate her IMPOSSIBLE,
That voice in my head's DRIVIN' ME CRAZY,
OHH, GOD, PLEASE, SAVE ME...
I AM COMPLETELY SICK,
DON'T THROW BRICKS AT ME....
HAHH...
Throw ice in a gin to somehow calm down,
Throw ice in a gin to somehow calm down,
Throw ice in a gin to somehow calm down,
THROW ICE IN A GIN TO SOMEHOW CALM DOWN...
IF I'VE TO DIE, THEN KILL ME,
IF I'VE TO DIE, THEN KILL ME,
IF I'VE TO DIE, THEN KILL ME,
IF I'VE TO DIE, THEN KILL ME,
IF I'VE TO DIE, THEN KILL ME,
IF I'VE TO DIE, THEN KILL ME,
IF I'VE TO DIE, THEN KILL ME,
IF I'VE TO DIE, THEN KILL ME,
But ain't let me suffer forever...
Hah...
Well tortured me, Devil?
Uh?
Fuck...
Flour In Hell Is Fucking Cruel...
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What bothers you?...
Niggas are constantly askin' for my advice,
But I don't say anythin', I'm in my trance,
Ex-bitch calls me, But I do not give a fuck, yeah,
In dreams, the demons look at me, uh
My whole mind is full of madness,
And my heart bleeds with sadness,
The body doesn't stand so much stress,
There's a lot of pressure on the whole body,
Look at all the blood shed by me, and it is not funny,
I'd like to go out, but today's a BLOODY day,
Become every day more an' more dead, aye
All my texts will be written in books, Aye...
Hey...
Hahaha...
"Hey, C₴ld Bl₴₴ded, saw your fucking face in hell"
Hey, aye... DIE...
Die... Bye...
HEY, BYE...
SEE YOU IN HELL...
Goof...
Still hate my motherfuckin' face,
Bein' depressed is already a rest for me,
I do not know who I should be,
I'll not beat someone 'til the bleedin',
Just say a few words and say "fuck you",
I see no reason to hide the truth,
If one way or another, everyone will find a bunch of evidence on the other side of the truth,
When depression - I send everybody to the fuck,
I write the text, I am all immersed...
Immersed...
If I want - I get a lot of money,
Hey,
I'm honest,
Aye,
Ain't need rest,
Aye,
Ain't feel depressed,
Aye,
A couple of days ago I'd a mission to "FIND 'n' FINISH",
Yeah,
Never been punished,
The goal in Life's one - to succeed,
If someone makes a stupid -
I won't go to do shit for others,
Let 'em collect their tears from failure,
I don't think 'bout wounds,
I think about fractures,
All my photos are made with mask...
Sold my soul to the devil, and ain't regret..
All memories ain't funny, but sad...
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I'm not myself...
Started writing at 13/07/2019
Ended writing at 14/07/2019
Walking through the streets,
Drunk fight near the store,
Tryna die for...
For a bottle of gin, ha-ha-ha...
Fucking demons make noise in my head,
This fear scares me to death,
From this, I just laugh hysterically,
Hahahaha...
Help me, i'm losing my mind, i'm not myself...
As always I go to the fridge for Bombay,
I cannot reach the bed,
Turn off right next to the door,
These pains from demons make me sad,
What that fuck? I did not call whores,
Where did these girls come from?
What are they doing here?
Ah...
Demon, why are you doing this?...
Why do you give me too much unnecessary?
What secret are you hidin'???
Tell me now, otherwise it'll soon be too late...
Why do I hate everythin'?
I don't have time, I cannot wait...
FUCK THESE VOICES...
My head breaks into shards,
I'll soon fall into the grave...
And no one will save me,
I do not know who he's...
Yeah...
I'm not myself,
I wanna break, destroy,
IN SHIT...
A wave of energy will flood my soul,
LIKE FUCKING BOMBAY...
Which way should I go?...
I'll quickly send all the fuck
Hahh...
I will not rot in the mud,
What that fuck? Where is my kidney?
Stop this fucking shit, this ain't funny...
Drunkards in the area are constantly talkin',
What is wrong with you?
Can you drink gin?
Cold Blooded, are you okay ??
FUCK, ARE YOU OKAY??...
Okay... okay.. okay...
"i went into a dream"..
Ah.. Shit.. Am I conscious?
This shit ain't funny,
Yeah,
Why don't I have a heart?
Fuck these bitches,
Bring me back to the real world!...
I'm Goin' Crazy!!
"I get out of sleep"
What that fuck is goin' on?
All bones seem broken,
Alone, my brain is dyin',
Need to go to the doctor,
I'M SICK...
My health is crippled,
The body becomes weak,
I'm walkin' lame along the street,
I want to throw a brick out the window,
Instead of brains - rot,
I ain't lose what I get...
Feeling like I'm dyin', huh,
Instead of blood - in the veins gin, yeah,
I never sin,
On my heart - I've a code...
Yeah huh...
Hah.. Hahaha...
I'm definitely not myself..
I never cared 'bout health...
Basically, as always... Haha...
Haha...
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I_DV_NVT_NEED_LOVE
LET'S MAKE PAIN TO EACH OTHER...
DESTROY FURTHER...
YOU AIN'T MODERN...
Don't hide, you wan' burn everything here,
Keep on wearin' a mask,
Complete your motherfucking task,
You ain't know how to love,
You ain't used to asking,
Your heart is no longer from ice, but from stone,
Don't worry, brother,
Fuck, the bones ain't work, they are frostbitten,
Nigga, debt of 666 pounds long forgotten,
Don't go dumb like all the other cocks, huuhhh...
I don't give no fucks... AND DVNT NEED LOVE...
I ain't need love,
I ain't need love,
I ain't need love,
Let's hurt each other,
Don't go to the motherfucking corner,
An angel cryin' there from loneliness,
We're all overwhelmed with sadness...
Take my soul, I ain't know you,
Don't teach me, I can cut with a blade,
MY BODYGUARD SHOT HIMSELF,
When I see a girl, my heart does not melt,
Don't wan' remember what I felt before,
All the doors, furniture, I broke to dust,
I broke my psyche like NUTS,
Me and my niggas are gods,
See the target, destroy it, and move FORWARD,
Conscience keeps me AWAKE,
I ain't step on the same RAKE,
Various sounds lead me to a nervous BREAKDOWN,
I know that I am rude to everyone,
The skin is pale I'm in the back seat of the car because I am sick,
Jeans pockets full of fucking pounds,
I keep my codes SECRET,
Money is kept in drawers, aye
Don't fucking touch me, I'll break your finger,
Don't touch our logs,
They are intended for BONFIRES...
Money is kept in drawers, aye
Don't fucking touch me,
I'll break your finger,
Don't touch our logs,
They are intended for BONFIRES...
I DV NVT NEED LOVE,
I'm fine when I feel DEPRESSED, Hahhhh...
THERE'S ROT IN THE BLOOD,
I already spilled blood in the POOL,
If you tell the police that I'm a sick SCHIZOPHRENIC,
Then, what evidence do you PRODUCE?
I ain't used to abusin',
I don’t give a fuck that I've a lot of sins from the past,
Small nigga gave me a request,
DIE ON THIS DAMNED PLACE...
I ain't need to love,
LET'S MAKE PAIN TO EACH OTHER...
DESTROY FURTHER...
YOU AIN'T MODERN...
Don't hide, you wan' burn everything here,
Keep on wearin' a mask,
I don't need to love, I'm fine when I feel DEPRESSED,
Small nigga gave me a request,
DIE ON THIS FUCKING DAMNED PLACE...
When you bleed you leave bloody traces,
When you bleed you leave bloody traces,
WHEN YOU BLEED YOU LEAVE BLOODY TRACES,
WHEN YOU BLEED YOU LEAVE FUCKIN' BLOODY TRACES...
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FRVSTBITE
Ice all over my body,
I don't need help,
I'mma loner,
I'm chokin' like a drowning man,
I want 1 billion dollars, but I'm fucking honest, but I've to give half the treatment to a NIGGA,
Time is running out,
Do not hide the truth,
Leave me alone, your choice, you CHOOSE,
Ain't be surprised, my soul's always RAW,
When you CRY,
You look disgustin',
Your smile flicker in my eyes,
YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN,
I'M SICK,
I would love you, Little girl, BUT YOU AIN'T A PEARL TO ME,
I don't see the fire in your eyes,
My heart can't love, 'cuz it, like the whole body, is FROSTBITE,
IT IS FROSTBITTEN, FROSTBITTEN, FROSTBITTEN,
Already frostbite 10 years, FUCK,
FROSTBITTEN, FRORSTBITTEN,
FROSTBITTEN, ALREADY FROST 10 YEARS,
FUCK IT'S FROSTBITTEN,
FROSTBITTEN... FROSTBITTEN...
Live like a nut in a hospital,
Killed everyone who interfered,
And as if a stone fell from the soul I'M ALREADY FREED,
Nigga calm like a COCKEREL,
DO NOT STAND FACIN' THE WALL, HAHHH...
Bullies will kill you...
Slaughter you...
And EAT YOU...
"They are cannibals"...
Anyone can put a blade in your back,
And then death's inevitable,
Do not put anything on the table,
The end will be tragic, fuck,
Sick fantasy draws fucking magic,
I will drown in your shame, uh,
Be careful, DON'T DISGRACE...
I know you hate this PLACE,
For you, all our faces are UGLY,
Ain't look at us as enemies,
Everyone within a radius of 10 meters is sick here,
BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, KILL YOUR FUCKING FEAR...
Do not come to Mary...
SHE IS SICK TOTALLY, FUCK...
She knows how to break bones,
She can break phones and other GADGETS...
This motherfucking place is cursed,
I'll not talk to you if you're TWO-FACED,
Do not dump the blame on OTHERS,
Then you will have fucking problems,
I'm king here, keep fucking silence,
You won't go beyond the fence, aye
If you are impressed with violence,
THEN YOU ARE DESTINED TO DIE HERE...
Fuck the power...
Fuck everyone...
Give me just something hotter,
Fuck all the power
FUCK EVERYONE,
GIVE ME JUST SOMETHING HOTTER RIGHT NOW,
FUCK EVERYONE,
FUCK EVERYONE,
GIVE ME JUST SOMETHING HOTTER RIGHT NOW,
FUCK ALL THE POWER,
FUCK EVERYONE,
GIVE ME JUST SOMETHING HOTTER RIGHT NOW....
My heart can't love, 'cuz it, like the whole body, is FROSTBITE,
IT'S FROSTBITTEN, FROSTBITTEN,
Already frostbite 10 years, FUCK, FROSTBITTEN, FRORSTBITTEN, FROSTBITTEN,
ALREADY FROST 10 YEARS,
FUCK IT'S FROSTBITTEN, FROSTBITTEN... FROSTBITTEN...
FUCK EVERYONE...
Don't tell me what it feels like to be depressed,
I felt overwhelmed,
I'm like in a SLAUGHTERHOUSE,
Have you ever thought that the apocalypse is COMIN All our faces are ugly,
Go fuck yourself 'til 'ya bleed...
The head has his friend 'Schizophrenia',
There's no point in fightin',
WE'LL ALL DIE ANYWAY...
Fuck nigga,
Give me something hot,
The body's all in ice,
I have FROSTBITE, YEAH,
FROSTBITE, YEAH,
FROSTBITE, YEAH,
WE WILL ALL DIE ANYWAY, FUCK NIGGA, FROSTBITE, YEAH,
FROSTBITE, YEAH,
FROSTBITE, YEAH...
Give me one reason not to kill you,
Knees flow in blood pierced by sticks,
What broke my brain is brick,
I am weak without alcohol,
I hate everything,
Especially you,
I already look like a monster more than a fuckin' person,
The diamond on the chain on my neck obscures everyone’s eyes,
The faces of the hypocrites are disgusted,
Little nigga wanted to find balance,
Total, he looks at everyone with HATRED...
The limbs are frostbitten,
Moving problematically...
Moving problematically...
Ice all over my body,
I don't need help,
I'mma loner,
I'm chokin' like a drowning man,
I want 1 billion dollars, but I'm fucking honest, but I've to give half the treatment to a NIGGA...
Ice all over my body,
I don't need help,
I'mma loner,
I'm chokin' like a drowning man,
I want 1 billion dollars, but I'm fucking honest, but I've to give half the treatment to a NIGGA...
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I DVN'T GIVE A FVCK
Insert a blade in my wrist as if you love me,
Choke me with your own hands so that I start to breathe hard...
No one wants to mess with you except your motherfuckers,
I'll not cooperate with you, aye
I don't need stupid new sluts, huh,
They can pierce the heart with a dagger and shoot in the heart,
Kill all yours if you have to...
I dodged a bullet when she could pierce my brainpan, aye
Former bitch thinks my conscience's gnawin' me,
I walk again with bloody teeth,
The car doesn't drive, fuel is at fuckin' zero,
Former bitch thinks I'm still a beast,
Therefore afraid of me, fuck..
It upsets me... 'Cuz I'mma freak...
I throw bricks at the glass, haha...
All my niggas and I get rich fast,
I do not trust my pounds to anyone,
My best nigga is John, huh..
He knows that I make money from the dough, uh...
Hahaha... AYE...
He is surprised that I quit everythin',
The king myself, but do not have a queen,
This girl’s sense of humor is too subtle,
This girl's sense of humor is too subtle,
All my scars are not made from battles, oh
I am fucking focused, oh I do not think I am chosen, aye
My whole brain and heart is broken...
My soul is locked in Satan's cage,
Stage of Depression - The Last,
I made myself a gloomy image,
I'mma beast and do not need a rest...
Ask me questions further,
But, I will not, huh, answer 'em,
Huh,
This shit doesn't interest me,
I'm never sad because I give out grief,
I am used to reachin',
I've no disease because I was born sick,
I am a freak, and I know that...
Bitch could not choke my throat,
She called me a "goat" offendin' me,
I drowned her boat under the name "Life",
All her words, I don't give a fuck 'bout them,
No one knows that she, like me, was born in HELL...
HELL... HELL...
THE DEVIL MADE HER LIKE ME... ME... ME...
I'm deadly as she is...
I'm deadly as she is...
Insert a blade in my wrist as if you love me,
Choke me with your own hands so that I start to breathe hard...
No one wants to mess with you except your motherfuckers,
I'll not cooperate with you, aye
I don't need stupid new sluts, huh
They can pierce the heart with a dagger and shoot in the heart,
KILL ALL YOURS IF YOU HAVE TO...
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368
I_KILL_FVR_PLEASURE
Do not help me I am fine,
Just my mind's insane,
The Demon's waitin' when I open the entrance to my brain,
But he is not a welcome guest in my house,
I kill and will kill only in my favor,
When everyone's weakens,
I will take power away,
I wanna insert a blade in my scar so that I bleed,
Instead of a booze, I drank coffee, ayeFormer bitch wants to kill me, aye
On my knees all the scars are bleeding, egh,
All demons and angels are like fucking pets,
Traps kill, headshots - this is normal in this room,
I love to die, my style is "gloom",
A loop of rope around your neck,
Knives are inserted into your back,
This feeling overwhelms me with fear,
My friends and a bitch can't hear, aye
I feel vomit next to her,
Aye,
Go bent over, then steal money,
Blegh, fuck,
Demons inject poison into the blood,
Demons inject poison into the blood,
Demons inject poison into the blood,
All the hate fills half of my brain,
All the hate fills half of my brain,
All the hate fills half of my BRAIN,
Cut through half and feel my pain...
I have a chain on my neck,
Ask me why I behave abnormally..
You will not know...
Who I should be...
The main thing ain't to suffocate, and breathe calmly,
It is already night, I need to eat,
I will eat you like a pie...
And will drink your blood like WATER...
I will cut your wrists with a blade with pleasure,
I will cut your wrists with a blade with pleasure,
I WILL CUT YOUR WRISTS WITH A BLADE WITH PLEASURE,
GIVING YOU PRESSURE...
Bloodthirsty asks for more and more
And more and more blood, FUCK...
I AM ADDICTED TO BLOOD,
Friends say I am cruel,
Need to set fire to a corpse with gasoline...
First I will die, then I will revive,
First I will die, then I will revive,
First I will die, then I will revive,
First I will die, then I will revive,
First I will die, then I will revive,
First I will die, then I will revive,
First I will die, then I will revive,
FIRST I WILL DIE, THEN I WILL REVIVE,
Do not try, do not hope, you'll not SURVIVE,
Let this world burn to dust,
If I do myself a shock therapy,
Then I stop breaking the chest of everyone?
Give me my blade,
Do what i said,
No one knows what demons did to me...
Hold your breath,
Do not breathe poison,
Ain't show your teeth,
It looks disgustin'...
Hold your breath,
Do not breathe poison,
Ain't show your teeth,
It looks fucking disgustin'...
Don't drink so much alcohol...
He'll kill you from the inside..
Which side will you choose?
Live or die with fucking bitches?
VIRUS,
GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY MIND, OH,
SILENCE,
KEEP FUCKING SILENCE...
From the eyes, from the mouth, blood flows, uh
I won't listen to your fucking MOUTH,
Blow the sticks that holds on your life and it will crash right AWAY,
Do you think I didn't know?...
I will not tolerate torment,
I’ll just kill the one who prevents me from living PEACEFULLY,
Do you think I'mma bully?...
You think I'm so brave 'cause of ALCOHOL,
I won't be stupid, I told a nigga everything,
Ask him... Ask him... Ask him...
All 'bout me... All 'bout me, all 'bout me...
Friday the 13th,
Time to kill for pleasure, aye
Niggas are always, oh, on the adventure, aye,
Nigga, spin the wheel of fortune, aye,
You always get torture, hey
Don't worry it is fuckin' luck,
I always get money 'cuz I don't give a fuck,
I will die and then come to life,
Sufferin' is the meanin' of life,
Insert a knife in my fucking liver, HAHAHA...
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
YEAH, YEAH!
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
YEAH, HAH!
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
I KILL FOR PLEASURE,
FUCK OFF...
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345
New Sick Bitch
Kill me if you want...
If you want...
Do you keep everyone at bay just for fun?
Do you scare them, fuck, to run away?
Just for fun?
You're a real cunt
You're a real cunt...
You're a real cunt...
KILL ME IF YOU WANT...
IF YOU WANT...
Shut the fuck up,
'cause the bitch woke up,
She loves to make you traps...
All my money ain't in cash,
But in the card,
Don't stand out from everyone,
WE'RE ALL BASTARDS,
And you too, fuck...
HAH,
Made my business myself,
Making money from a hobby,
No one will bury my body,
I'll bury my body MYSELF,
See a bitch,
And I hear heather,
After 5 years of thinkin',
I realized that we fuckin' will rot forever,
Huh...
All depressive days - rainy weather,
We'll all die, ALL DIE TOGETHER,
In the night, my dark essence makes me a killer, uh,
All the stress and fucking hate make me older,
YEAH,
Everyone knows who THE OWNER IS,
NIGGAS NEVER MISS,
They look at frostbitten wrists,
THIRST FOR BLOOD, UH,
I'mma sinner 'n' the devil understood it, uh,
Girl, why do you have such a raw look?
At the end of my life I already wrote a book,
I will fuckin' die soon, yeah
Nigga, don't waste your time,
It is already noon, yeah,
Now I'm gliding on the ice as I read the rhyme,
Guilt tears the soul apart,
Hah, a lil' white man wants war, aye
A sense of excitement for money and excitement obscures the mind,
I already predict the future, a wave of hatred,
Let's move on, I see the money, let's go get 'em!
Without reducin' stiffness, aye
If there is a problem, send the sign,
This child will know all the energy of pain
And the whole feeling of depression, thunder, and rain,
He'll receive an increase in grief...
New bitch,
She thought that my work was crap,
I cannot sleep a single night,
I cannot even take a fucking nap, oh yeah, oh yeah,
I heard her, it hurt in my soul, aye
I seemed to be dead in my own,
If I see her sail, I will destroy it by knockin' it down, YEAH,
This is my life and I am the king in it,
I WILL BREAK HER LIFE...
Make her bleed FROM THE KNIFE,
I'LL MAKE HER STOP BREATHING...
Fuck friends, I got a new bitch, HER STYLE FUCKIN' BLINDS ME...
MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY,
All problems because of MONEY, MONEY,
MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, MONEY, HAHAHA...
Kill me if you want...
If you want...
Do you keep everyone at bay just for fun?
Do you scare them, fuck, to run away?
Just for fun?
You're a real cunt
You're a real cunt...
Ask me how it feels to feel pain...
I'll give an answer to your question,
One who's bloodthirsty and merciless IS THE KING,
I don't care what you think 'bout this shit,
My tactic at night is to steal and deceive,
I cannot hear you, I'm on my sound wave,
Live in abandoned buildings, like in caves,
Fuck,
Nigga waitin' for victims,
HE LONGS FOR BLOOD...
JUDGE...
WILL ORDER A DEATH SENTENCE,
FUCK...
HAHHHHHHH....
Nigga, hold on, don't give up...
I COMMAND BACK DOWN...
DEATH, WAITIN' FOR US SOON...
BLOODY ROOM, THERE IS A BITCH,
And waiting for a meeting with SATAN...
HAH, AYE, AHH, HAH, AYE, FUCK, BITCH
JUST WOKE UP...
SHUT THE FUCK UP...
Fuck, up, shut, the, fuck, up,
Bitch, just, woke, UP...
BLOODY ROOM,
THERE IS A BITCH,
AND AWAITING A MEETING WITH SATAN, SATAN,
BLOODY ROOM, THERE IS A BITCH,
AND AWAITING A MEETING WITH SATAN..
Kill me if you want...
Do you keep everyone at bay just for fun?
Do you scare them, fuck, to run away?
Just for fun?
You're a real cunt
KILL ME IF YOU WANT...
IF YOU WANT...
Shut the fuck up,
'cause the bitch woke up,
She loves to make you traps...
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323
GLVBAL_MIND_CVNTRVL
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
YOU SHOULD HAVE PAID ME BUT NOT PAID...
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID!
YOU SHOULD HAVE PAID ME BUT NOT PAID...
A mixture of pain and pity,
Prevent me from breathin' calmly,
This money's like a birthday cake,
Bitches make me NERVOUS BREAKDOWN,
The pulse starts to go low...
I'd be glad to throw them,
Fuck 'em,
But then I'd become completely isolated...
Hah...
Nigga keep at least $500 in our wallet,
But gimme a lil', I ain't have a clogged pocket,
I'm focused on workin',
I'll throw off the burden of sins
From myself so that it ain't be so difficult for me to BREATHE...
Everybody hate me fiercely, Fear is my middle...
Name,
Fear is my primary...
Weapon..
I Love givin' nicknames to niggas so MUCH,
I am so rich in bucks,
I have the title of "Beast",
Yeah,
Killer-nigga takes quests from me,
Aye,
He always creeps,
Hate kissin' bitches lips,
These days look like a journey to hell,
Uh,
In my niggas the hundredth level of stealth,
YEAH,
Ain't give a fuck 'bout health LIKE EVERYONE ELSE...
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
Yeah, huh,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
Yeah, huh,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
FUCK Y'all 'n' SHUT THE FUCK UP...
The Heart's Cryin' of blood 'cuz of the bad behavior of bitches,
THIS MOTHERFUCKING LIFE WAS LIKE A QUICHE,
I have a character with a main feature,
Every time period is STRESSFUL,
The kitchen knife is my main TOOL,
If you are richer than me, then give me PROOF...
FUCKING DEMONS IN THE HEAD,
An' they know all my weaknesses,
What?
Oh, god, my mind is lost,
Wanna see the value of my life?
Whore, I sleep like a dead corpse,
Kill by contract, but for me it is like torture,
I am the king...
Of life,
I'm the owner,
Of my fortress,
I will break the pressure,
All the problems - I'll change to an adventure mod,
Hey,
You cannot hack my mind,
There's a code on it,
You're still a child,
I'll leave this game, and will LEAVE IT...
Demons, you are all to me as friends,
Uh,
Can I contact bitches? Uh, MY FUCKIN' MURDER AIN'T DONE YET,
Haters want me to die,
I Let 'em try, Killin' is not done like cooked cake,
The think I don't care about... My health,
They think, that I'm only interested in wealth...
In fact... I give a fuck 'bout wealth...
These demons are killing my mind inside...
And then I have to fight with myself...
Do what I said...
What I said...
Your life ain't paid yet...
I make all the money from the dough,
Make a smart face further and rude...
A killing machine like you has already grown,
Kill to death or a nervous breakdown...
Wear a mask to hide face like the rest, and not to drown,
I WILL DIE IN MY OWN...
GO TO WAR,
TEAR EVERYONE APART...
MOVE FORWARD,
TAKE ALL THE MONEY...
Break all the bones, aye...
DO NOT TELL 'EM ANYTHING,
A killing machine like you is already grown,
Kill to death or a nervous BREAKDOWN...
Why are you lookin' at me with a fucking stone face?
I do not leave a bloody trail,
I do not leave a bloody trail,
I KNOW THAT THIS MEAT IS MOTHERFUCKING STALE...
I KNOW THAT THIS MEAT IS MOTHERFUCKING STALE...
UHHHHHH...
NIGGA JOKED LIKE A TROLL...
I need only patience...
Remove all violence completely...
From the mind...
Fuck,
My global control take demons in my head,
...
Real shit...
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
HUH, UH...
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
YUH, HUH...
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
DO WHAT I SAID,
Fuck, uh, I'm losin' global control...
Angels, please, save me...
Save me.. Please, save me...
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299
SAVAGE
I WILL MAKE YOU PAIN,
'CUZ YOU MADE ME PAIN,
Yeah... Hah...
I WILL MAKE YOU PAIN...
'CUZ YOU MADE ME PAIN...
THAT'S A REVENGE...
Yeah...
THE MIND GOES FUCKIN' CRAZY...
I WILL NOT TOLERATE,
I'LL SIMPLY TIDY IT UP,
If you're so bad,
I can strike you,
My nigga ain't like to kill, but I like to chop,
If you're afraid, do not cry,
KILL LIST IS ALREADY FULL,
You're a bad bitch,
Do you want me to start the SEARCH?
BITCH,
I'll find your weakness and kill you,
GO QUIET,
HURT YOURSELF,
KILL YOUR SOUL,
DIE IN THE SOUL,
Yeah, hah...
HURT YOURSELF...
KILL YOUR SOUL...
DIE IN THE SOUL...
GO QUIET, BITCH...
I'm doin' bad to whores,
I'm a destroyer in the night,
I do my job...
I work 'til the blood drops
Of sweat run down me,
I AM CRUEL...
DO NOT FORGIVE BITCHES,
All of 'em ain't worthy of Life,
MY TITLE IN THE NIGHT IS A SAVAGE,
I don't give a fuck 'bout age,
The main thing is that inside a person,
THE CAR BROKE DOWN,
EUGH...
All Love's Drowned In a Glass,
Hurting fast,
Only strong, but not less,
Yeah, uh...
Be lower in tone,
I wouldn’t want you to face the grave,
I DON'T WANNA SEE YOU TREMBLE,
Stop hypocritical,
Don't be funny,
You're at gunpoint for hundreds of my niggas, aye
Oh my god, the card's full of dough,
Don't wanna be rude ,
You ain't fit us on a contract... Fuck,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN,
MY MISSION - CAUSE PAIN...
I don't rest at night,
I make people cry,
For filled pockets of money, yeah,
Don't say anything 'bout me,
I will go down in history, aye
Hold your demon in your arms,
Hah,
You're so naive, that everyone can see your lies on the surface,
Give me a towel to wipe my wrist from blood,
I don't give a fuck 'bout contracts,
Tell me further facts,
Yeah,
No one will take my title "Savage",
Uh,
I love to rage,
Yeah,
Your style of destruction is strange,
Hah,
Your fuckin' demon in a CAGE,
Uh,
Stop bein' scared of him and hate him, Uh...
I will make you pain...
'CUZ you made me pain...
Be softer, don't make power-ups... Power-ups... I won't be soft, I'LL INCREASE, LUST,
YEAH HAH!
I'm so cruel that no one wants to trust me,
Hahaha...
I ponder every step,
Every step...
EVERY STEP! Bitch, I ponder...
EVERY STEP! Every step...
EVERY STEP! I ponder... Hah...
All the bastards await Fame!
Hah,
I prefer adrenaline over Drugs!
GO AS IF TO GLORY, "Nigga,"...
Don't wait for glory without doin' anythin', Anythin'...
Hahaha...
Don't Be LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!
Eugh...
Ain't ASK SATAN FOR ANYTHIN'...
ALL DREAMS COME TRUE,
NIGGA,
NOT IN DREAMS Only... Only...
I ponder every step,
Every step... EVERY STEP!
Bitch, I ponder...EVERY STEP!
Every step... EVERY STEP!
I ponder... Hah...
I PORDER EVERY STEP...
EVERY... Step...
Don't wait for glory without doin' anything...
I will make you pain...
'Cuz you made me pain...
Bitch,
Hurt yourself... Uh...
Hurt your soul... Huh...
Die in the soul...
Go quiet, bitch...
Yeah... Hah...
Under no circumstances be double-faced... Double-faced... Uhhh...
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297
SLEEP PARALYSIS
What do you think? When I've sleepy paralysis - I DON’T FEEL AS IF 1000 BICHES ARE LYING ON ME?
AYEEE,
I've been taking pills for a week NOW, AYEEE...
I still have a sick imagination,
Write feelings in a row on paper,
Hah,
Small bitch in the classroom playing with DEPRESSION,
She doesn't even know what it's,
She's just a posing bitch,
AYEEE,
Did business further without rest,
YEAH,
This bitch boasts that she has sadness and stress,
My bitch is very jealous, uh
She'd to go to fucking courses, yeah,
Instead, she smoked behind garages, uh,
She doesn't care 'bout my phone messages, hah,
In any case, I WILL FIND ANY PASSAGES TO HER...
Ask that Italian girl to rate you and your style,
But do not ask me, HUH? AH?
I made money at work, and tired,
Ask me, "Why did you wan' die at age eleven? That was a month ago."
And I'll answer with a blow to the face with a blade, yeah,
Do you like it when I hate you?
Do not eat from this plate, this plate is new,
Be careful with this picture, this Chinese woman painted it,
Nigga, kill your fucking wit,
It beats everyone’s soul, Yeah!
I cut veins, even though I'm 11 years old...
Do you wan' know the reason for this action?
I made a bet with the devil and won, Fuck...
You don't need to know who the devil’s son's,
Cut yourself despite the wounds,
This time I won’t give you pounds for medicine,
Die, and then rot, I DO NOT GIVE A DAMN,
I have a more important problem,
And it needs to be solved...
I don't give a fuck what they think of me,
Sell your sweets even though they are not sweet,
Devil makes breathing difficult,
My blade is my favorite tool,
Being with girls is not cool
For me,
In order to keep my soul and not sell it to the devil,
I did everything I could... Hah...
To get more money I am used to squeezin' everythin' out of a hobby,
I've already gotten rid of a lot of damn phobias,
And who is more powerful in the soul here?
I have a Spaniard, his name is, uh, Tobias,
He didn't overcome only one of his fear,
This fear is sleep paralysis...
I've sleepy paralysis...
I've sleepy paralysis...
Sleepy paralysis...
I, HUH, FUCKING HATE THIS,
Every night I fall into the abyss,
Do you see that boy?
I don't insist on the kiss
Of that girl who is near him,
'Cuz that bitch of him. I've sleepy paralysis...
I've sleepy paralysis...
Sleepy paralysis...
I, HUH, FUCKING HATE THIS,
Every night I fall into the abyss,
Do you see that boy?
I don't insist on the kiss
Of that girl who is near him,
'Cuz that bitch of him,
I ain't like that much attention to myself,
My heart is still fucking melting...
HATRED, BITCH, YEAH! I FELT HER!..
Nigga you won't leave me,
Keep talking about your affairs,
I scored a bolt on stains, yeah
I do not care what kind of clothes a nigga wears,
Climb up the stairs,
Rise to the attic,
I will stand around the corner...
WILL STAND WITH A BLOODY KNIFE, AYE...
Ask me why I'm not standin' with a blade...
It's always Friday for me,
I'm not interested in what date it's,
I love heavy beats,
I have no feats,
I make my own gifts,
MY BIRTHDAY'S OCTOBER 5TH...
An album named "IS₴LATI₴N" is coming S₴₴N... HAHA... Wait...
The album has already been released...
YEAH, HAH!
I love the gloom...
I drenched my whole room...
With Blood...
HAHAHA?
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416
SICK GAMES
All my knees are smeared with blood,
Will you stab everyone in the back with a knife?
You'll be an outcast forever in our company,
Your home ain't here at all, your home is in hell...
DO YOU WANNA PLAY SICK GAMES?
BITCH,
DO YOU WANNA PLAY SICK GAMES?
BITCH,
DO YOU WANNA PLAY SICK GAMES?
All my nerves are completely broken,
I CANNOT STAND APOLOGIES,
SCRATCH,
SCRATCH YOURSELF, BITCH...
Is your thing to kill yourself SLOWLY?
STOP THROWIN'...
You're so CHASING AFTER VICTORIES,
But why not take the REWARDS?...
Why are you afraid to go forward?
Do not look at the star,
She will blind you,
Ain't hurt me, then the demons will find you,
Then will kill, Further pierced 'til bleedin',
You are disgusting for 'em...
Fuck you with your apologies,
Stop bein' a hypocrite,
Do what was said...
Think first, then shed blood,
I want to get 6 million pounds,
All my energy's stored in a bottle,
I wish you much trouble,
Shed tears of blood, All pockets full of pounds,
THIS WHOLE POWER,
In this game...
YOU ARE DROWNING..
PLAY THIS GAME... OR BE DEAD,
PLAY THIS GAME... OR BE DEAD...
You'll not heal KNIFE WOUNDS,
No one will RECEIVE DATA,
Bruised KNEES, BLOODY FIST,
Yeah... Hah... PLAY OR DIE!
AIN'T LOOK FOR LIGHT IN THE DARK,
THESE RULES DO NOT BREAK...
BLEGH...
FUCK...
PLAY OR DIE!
THESE RULES DON'T BREAK...
AIN'T LOOK FOR LIGHT IN THE DARK!
BELIEVER...
AIN'T BELIEVE....
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295
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE
Don't go 'round, nigga, Satan doesn't like that,
This bitch is so bad,
Make me more an' more dead...
And constantly kills my brain in my head...
I am just tired...
I'll disappear in the dust soon,
And will see the bloody moon...
Hahaha...
Stop, please,
Fuck that shit,
Still wearin' a mask to hide an ugly face,
Live in an abandoned building for 7 days,
The soul of my niggas is pure - they do not lie,
Instead of love, I chose the sick side,
My whole life has long been paid,
Nobody else knows what I did in the past,
All bitches ain't in this world right now,
They are lost in fuckin' dust,
I HATED 'EM , JUST,
I do not trust any bitch right now,
With 'em my pulse is low,
NOW THEY ROT IN THE GROUND,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE... My wound is healing a little...
Hah,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE...
BITCH...
HATE EVERYTHING...
Gimme a reason to listen to you,
All fuckin' beauty is ugly...
All the scars on the arm and on the whole body
Already look like tattoos,
All my niggas LIKE TO ABUSE,
Drinking alcohol, LOSING CONTROL,
When a nigga SING KARAOKE,
He looks like a fucking troll,
All the blood spilled on the walls, aye,
All reality looks fucking false, hah,
All targets drowned in alcohol,
Hahh...
Already souls ain't enough to sell 'em for money TO SATAN,
No joy 'n' no fun...
The bloody moon disappears And the sun appears...
Bitch, let is play one creepy game,
He who does not die receives glory,
You can you tell everyone that I am crazy,
Only everyone will surely die,
Hah, YOU'LL DIE...
Step right, step left, and die instantly,
And I'm the owner of this game,
And you will play by my rules...
By my rules... By my rules... Hahaha...
My demon as a bodyguard,
Only I can go forward,
Not afraid to DIE,
I see angels in the sky,
LEAVE ME HERE TO DIE,
One white man, fuck, told me: “Are you a racist? Why are you only friends with niggas?”
I answered to him with a SMIRK,
No, you cannot send me from where I was born,
This sound is like from hell, turn it off,
Bitch,
Next time I will burn you whole fucking skin,
I will destroy your favorite thing,
An' then I will watch your misery...
Dumb nigga,
Will be sick,
Like fuckin' OTHERS,
My knife will slowly flow over his skin,
And then... Fuck... Shit... Death...
Is it hard for you to BREATHE?
Keep your fucking neck away from the belt,
My whole heart melts in the hands of bitches,
But don't like them, I cannot love,
I won't smoke dope,
Hang on a rope,..
Nigga,
No, motherfucker, don't strangle my bitch,
I will find your soul and give her to Satan,
This chatter makes me have a heart attack,
Shut the fuck up,
And go back to your HOME IN HELL,
Hah...
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE,
I HATE EVERYTHING WHAT YOU LOVE...
Hah...
Stop, bitch...
Stop that fucking sick game...
Stop that fucking sick game...
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6 meters to death
All my veins are cut with pleasure,
Every day, one an' the same depression,
My brain doesn't function,
Because he's dead,
Fucking head in blood,
Nigga eats, fuck, guts like food,
It's interestin' to talk with him,
But his soul's RAW,
Never loved an' don't love LOVE,
Ain't listen to haters, an' I tell 'em "Shut your mouth",
I'm cruel and always merciless,
And still fearless,
Hate my face,
Bitch,
Don't give a fuck 'bout the opinions of others,
I'm on my own,
Get the fuck out of here...
All the drunk, alcohol flows in my veins,
I want to believe that everythin' will be fine with me,
I will die or will live, I'm already 6 meters from hell,
I DON'T WANT TO SEE, THESE HANDS OF SATAN... FUCK...
Am I already dead?
Or fuckin' still alive?
I want to be on my wave,
I ain't wanna drive rear-wheel drive,
When I'll drunk in shit,
Then wash away all sins,
Fuck you with 'ya advice, aye
I'VE ALL THE NECESSARY MEANS, yeah,
I'll bury all the lies,
And she will rot like my life,
I will not cry, fuck,
I'm just better, die from a knife,
BITCH... Ahh.. Fuck, Devil, Let me breathe...
Hahaha... I Love to watch myself bleed like a fucking masochist...
Blood flows all over the wrist,
Killing mission became missed,
I'm not a man, I'm an empty beast...
Don't look down into the void,
When I get completely sick,
I WILL STEAL ALL THE COINS,
This territory's divided into parts,
Ain't go forward, you'll be completely cut up there,
Better sit with us and with us going CRAZY,
Do bad things further, as if the devil don't see them, haha... FUCK ALL THESE BITCHES,
I would rather sit and go crazy,
I won't cry, 'cuz then I am even more disgustin',
Everythin' bleeds completely,
Only the chin is BROKEN...
I HATE YOU,
WISH YOU TO DIE,
You hate me...
'N' WISH ME TO DIE...
LIES, YOU'RE A PIECE OF SHIT...
And who...
Is...
Sick...
Here.., BITCH??.....
I HATE EVERYTHIN', WHAT YOU LOVE...
Bitch... Bitch... Bitch... Bitch...
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Empty promises
Этот текст не войдёт в альбом "IZ₴LATI₴N". Поэтому я его дропну как простой сингл.
You are such a naive person,
For this behavior you will live in prison,
You cannot do what you want,
All my demons started huntin' for you,
And what will you do?
I ain't give a fuck 'bout your opinion,
Just gimme a fucking money,
Oh, ain't be afraid I ain't alone, aye
All my niggas have already occupied the throne, aye
Want me to break all your bones?
I WAS ALREADY SUFFOCATIN' FROM THE DEVIL,
YOU FUCKIN' DON'T KNOW WHAT I FELT,
I WAS STRANGLED WITH A BELT,
I DESTROY, AND TAKE IT OUT,
YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING 'BOUT ME...
I killed all my friends watchin' 'em bleed...
You won't understand me,
'Cuz YOU AIN'T SO SICK...
Are you a fraud?
Are you empty bottom?
You're like a worm in a can,
I'll HANG YOU ON A CHAIN,
Hah...
And you'll feel all the pain...
Instead of your blood - poison flows in the ARTERIES,
I've so many ENEMIES,
But soon they will be DEAD...
I'd rather suffocate in my blood,
Than in tears of bitches,
I quickly become rich,
I killed this bitch,
Killing your brain from her screams...
Screams, screams...
YOU'RE DISGUSTING...
Demons in my head, do you have 'em too?
I have few of 'em,
Fuck cigarette smoke,
I do not like to smoke, hah
Because I can choke
On smoke, hah
My psyche is broken,
You don't know what's in my mind,
'Cuz my brain's already DEAD,
Listen to your premonition,
After all,
IT'S REALLY EXACT...
Yeah...
You're such a naive person,
For this behavior you will live in prison,
You cannot do what you want,
All my demons started huntin' for you,
And what will you do?
I ain't give a fuck 'bout your opinion,
Just gimme a fucking money,
Oh, ain't be afraid I ain't alone, aye
All my niggas have already occupied the throne, aye
Want me to break all your bones?
I WAS ALREADY SUFFOCATIN' FROM THE DEVIL,
YOU FUCKIN' DON'T KNOW WHAT I FELT,
I WAS STRANGLED WITH A BELT,
I DESTROY, AND TAKE IT OUT,
YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING 'BOUT ME...
Hah...
Wish you to rot in the ground...
Bitch...
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Rot yourself without me
Этот текст не войдёт в альбом "IZ₴LATI₴N". Так как и "Empty Promises". Поэтому, я их дропну как простые синглы.
You're all pieces of shit,
If you want, I will leave,
Rot yourself without me,
While I live with you, scumbags -
I feel myself like SHIT,
All of you like a fuckin' weed,
I got rid of this shit,
And you do whatev' you want...
Why are you looking at me like a jerk?
You treat me like a demon...
Hah...
You'll not take off the mask from me, hah,
SHE'S ALREADY A PART OF MY BODY...
Scars all over the body,
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ME ALREADY???
You're too blind TO SEE,
Your whole soul rots...
Will you hurt me?
Huh,
Will you be in hell?
Aye,
Can you fall in your soul in the future?
I'll make you a fracture,
And you will feel pain...
In your FUCKING BRAIN...
Flowing poison...
It's all atrocities,
BUT I'M IN BEAST MODE...
Rot...
Do you know what is in my mind?
You forgot? OR REMIND YOU?
You never saw what is inside,
My nigga hate you like all your friends,
Hah,
And he does not mind breakin' ALL YOUR HEADS,
He kills beautifully 'cuz his hands are gods,
Kill with an ax, or a sword? Choose both,
Nigga has hundreds of modes,
BEASTMODE AND OTHERS,
Go y'all fuck, MOTHERFUCKERS...
Y'all rollin' in shit, an' then rollin' in rot further!
I KNOW THAT YOU ARE MY HATER,
Last tear,
Will be spilled when I pierce you with a spear,
FUCK...
I feel your fear...
Blegh...
YOU'RE AT A DISTANCE OF 6 METERS TO HELL,
YOU'RE AT A DISTANCE OF 6 METERS TO HELL,
YOU'RE AT A DISTANCE OF 6 METERS TO HELL,
YOU'RE AT A DISTANCE OF 6 METERS TO HELL,
YOU'RE AT A DISTANCE OF 6 METERS TO HELL...
YOU WILL BURN THERE,
YOU WILL BURN THERE,
YOU WILL BURN THERE,
YOU WILL BURN THERE...
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