Anxiety

Catastrophe

It was 2am and I was walking in the underground When this all happened to me. I don’t remember how I crossed the street Or how I woke up from this dream. I was in front of the black door. I was standing and staring at nothing. Suddenly I felt like, that this already has happened before But it was just my anxiety. I was in silence drinking and smoking Thinking about how to end this war Those thoughts are on my neck trying to choke me But all I want is to figure out how to be loved. They don’t understand what’s going on with me Crowd! I am like the rest standing here. I just have more demons inside me Please don’t be afraid to stand near. But guys, with whom I was playing, Does not care why I am ashamed. All they want is to see me in their bed Naked and ready to be tamed. Lots of boys are begging to get my attention There is why they are ready to hear my fake stories. I let them to come closer to me but, Then I’m breaking their hearts, without saying sorry. I am amateur as my ex-lover says. But I am very professional in bad decisions. I am amateur in love and sex. But cool at tragical reactions. Maybe this all is happening because I am selfish And I think about me and that’s what I do. I often hear from you that I am careless. And there is why I can’t get along with you. I often say that I hate you. But I never loved someone, like this before. You think that I don’t respect you I promise you won’t feel this hate from me anymore. I really want to be centre of this world I want them to lie around my knees. I want to be compared with that gold That is wearing the kingdom queen. If something is not as I want, I am starting to cry But it’s not manipulation, those tears are very real. I often think about my mission in this life. How do you think? Can my life someday be an ideal?

2018-02-22 12:09:18

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ENGLISH;I am happy, when the sun shines bright and your smile is genuine.I am sad,when the rain pours down and your eyes flood with tears.I am angry,when you lie and are selfish.I am jelous,when you spend your time with everyone but me.I am excited,when I know I have a day ahead with only you.I am worried,when your promises are slipping away from my reach.I am heartbroken,when you prove to me I will forever be alone.I am scared,when my nightmares turn into a reality.I am lonely,when you walk away for good.I am so damaged,when you break my heart over and over again.. I am tired,when I feel all these emotions at once.I feel so alone,that I'm starting to like it that way.I feel too many emotions,and that's what makes me human.I feel things,and that is something I'm not capable of stopping.I am not going to hide away my emotions,because without them I mean nothing,with out them I am nothing. Lillian *Sorry about errors* RUSSIAN; Фамили счастлив, когда ярко светит солнце и "твоя улыбка искренняя". Мне грустно, когда льет дождь, а твои глаза наполняются слезами. Я злюсь, когда ты лжешь и эгоистичен. Я болею, когда ты проводишь время со всеми, кроме меня. Я взволнован, когда я знаю, что у меня впереди только один день. Я волнуюсь, когда твои обещания ускользают от моей досягаемости. Я с разбитым сердцем, когда ты Докажи мне, что я навсегда останусь один. Мне страшно, когда мои кошмары превращаются в реальность. Я одинок, когда ты уходишь навсегда. Я так поврежден, когда ты разбиваешь мне сердце снова и снова .. Я устал , когда я чувствую все эти эмоции одновременно. Я чувствую себя настолько одиноким, что мне это начинает нравиться. Я чувствую многие эмоции, и это то, что делает меня человеком. Я чувствую вещи, и это то, что я Я не собираюсь прятать свои эмоции, потому что без них я ничего не значу. Лилиан и моя дорогая подруга Фиалка Я скучаю по ультрафиолету LILLIAN xx

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