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Why is this happening?
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Yesterday i was on an exhibition and saw painting where a girl was running and everything around was red. I thought she was running from the pain to happiness. I saw painter and asked her why she draw it. She answered “there is no answer on everything, it was just my emotions, i just put on paper things that i felt”. It confused me a little bit,to be honest. How can you paint something and dont know why you are doing it even a paint like that. But then i realized that there is possibility to have no answer on question “why?”.
Life is a strange thing.
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There is a moment in your life when you dont want to meet anyone or go anywhere. You just want to lie on the bad or stare at the wall while lying on the bathroom floor. You are thinking about the choises and mistakes you have made. You should learn how to live with your decisions, but you cant... cause you are drowning and there is no one who is going to save you... save you from yourself...save you from your own chaos...
Actually you are the only one who can save you... and that is what i am going to do...
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Unlike her
I know that I was the one
Because I know all the stars in the sky
I know that I was special for you
Because with me your sadness was dying
I know that I was good for you
Because you were smiling while looking in my eyes
I know that with me you were new
Because you were lying between my thighs
Unlike her
I was by your side…
Unlike her
I was looking into your eyes
Unlike her
I was so proud of you
Unlike her
I was growing with you…
I know that I made you to feel young
Because with me you were not afraid to take a risk
I know that we were happy
Because we were lying between the bricks
I know that your tears were real
Because you have told me stories that no one knew
I knew that soon we will disappear
Because the last time I left, you did not say “see you”…
Unlike her
I am being myself
Unlike her
I am not someone else
Unlike her
I was holding your hand
Unlike her
I was not refusing to have sex
But you are still with her…
You still prefer her…
Maybe she is got something that I don’t have
I guess now you don’t care
Seems like you are somewhere
With her...
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Who am I?
I never say thank you to your compliments
I never say sorry, even if I did something that I regret
I am planning things, but act like it’s just a coincidence
I am burning my wings, without even thinking about consequence
I have sinned lots of times, but I still believe in my religion
Even with the time machine, I would have made the same decision.
I can’t decide if I want to play dirty games or cry all night.
I don’t know where to go, I don’t know which way is right.
Should I smile or should I hide my emotions?
My feelings are on fire and I am so broken
I want to sit on the bottom of the specific ocean
And scream about all the things that stayed unspoken.
HE acts like he don’t care anymore
Or maybe he is not acting at all.
She left me, like I was nothing for her before
So hard my heart it trying to be like a stone.
People can’t stand with my serious face
All the time they force me to smile
But did you know that I have been in pain?
And it was not for a while.
They always expect too much from me,
But i learnt and stopped saying sorry.
Any person in this world is replaceable,
So i try to not care about him.
Now, I am standing face to face with fully bloody moon.
I am asking to her why my life is turning monotonous
“Sweetheart, you will figure out everything so soon
It’s good for you to become dangerous “
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I want back to you
I was very drunk
When I was trying to make it all right
And when I was so tired of thinking all night
About you
I recall your every word
Suddenly I remembered all our conversations
And our every sad situation,
That were not few
You broke my heart in two
But when it heals, it still want to be back to you
Its seems crazy but its true
I should convince myself that I don’t want you
Even though I do
Cause I have no rights to have you
But I still want to go back to you
I changed my perfume
To forget that damn afternoon
You know I still want to resume
To that day when you were in my room
You know, I cut my hair
To forget that your hands were there
To be honest I am scared
Cause I still want to go back to you
With your fingers you were touching my soul
With you I had my life into control
My heart was so whole
I wish I could go back to you
You thought that I was playing
Like all the girls of my age
But try to look at me with different view
I want to go back to you
It is not another game
You know, now I am good at hiding my feeling
Nothing has really changed
But I am still scared, cause
I want to go back to you
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