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No longer with me physically, But next to me spiritually, In my heart, you're always near, But that alone, just isn't enough for me. You had an innocence, your eyes warm, You could make anyone feel good, Because you seen their worth. Everyone's friend, You made us feel lucky, feel blessed, To be given the honor to know you.... One of Heaven's Best! Your smile could win anyone in the room over, Entranced, eyes sort of glossed over.... A reaction, maybe, A change in the aura.. Atmospheric coma.. You may not have realized how many, Hearts you touched. Never knew what you meant, To each one of us. You will never be forgotten, Gratefully, you will forever be cherished, Anytime someone should whisper, "A Friend Is Here Among Us", The ones who got the privilege to enjoy Your version of "Who Sings This?" Driving into work, Maybe just reminiscing, I remember how your voice sounded, When you would sing along, To damn near every single song When KSHE 95 was on.... Your corny one liners... Always trying to get a laugh, or silly grin, From anyone you could, Seemed to be your mission in life, Your friends were your home.. The devotion you had to friendship, Your friends were your home.... I admired that... I know in mine, you will always be missed. Thank you Justin, For being there always, anytime, Dropped what you were doing, didn't waste time, To help a friend out, no hesitation, You hated letting anyone down, Even if all that was needed, Was just an ear to listen, Whatever the reason... Amazing at best, Admired by many, if not, all, The epitome, Walking definition, Of what a true friend was.... You would always do the best you could, If it was in your means, Even if you were having a shitty day, You tried your best to bring happiness someone's way, at least. I hope you know it's not going to be easy, Without you here, But there will come a day, so they say, There's going to be pain, But we will know you are near, For we have the best angel heaven has got!!!! Looking down probably thinking, "Look at these fucking clowns!" But knowing you are there, Will help us pick ourselves up off the ground, As we hear your laughter surround, And within our hearts, feel proud, That an angel like you, Looking down. And this is where it gets personal... I hope you know you changed me.. I, for one, Can guarantee, That I will never be able to forget you, I just remember your smile, It seems to help, Seems to get me through, mostly, We didn't have a lot of time, But the times we did share, They're my memories to keep. No one will ever compare, I'm grateful and blessed to have that, If, nothing else. It's hard, but I think I'm getting closer, In accepting, That our memories, Are all I get to have... But I'm not complete... I'm not me. But I have them for when I need you, To come back to me, When I close my eyes to dream. I now more than ever, Appreciate the man you showed me, And the luckiest spot I ever got to be, Was beautifully placed in the company, Of a soul that was perfection and amazing To me.... You were the angel that was destined, Had to be, in charge of protecting, My soul... Was lost before you found me, But you had what it took to make me see my light, To heal a hurt, To see beyond my sights, To feel what I'd lost, Bringing that me that I liked, Right back to the top. Confidence I needed, Again, To be a good mom, And to return to you, What you were to me, A damn good friend, Through and through. You were all I had when there was no one else, And I wasn't looking, Or wanting a friend, But I fell, And now it just hurts like hell... I'll try my best, But just so you're aware, My life without you in it, It's going to be a train wreck! So please do your best, Have the patience to guide me, Even though you're shaking your head, "Oh, what the hell Uniquee...?" So please take control of the reigns, The reigns I am tired of holding, Guide me through the dark, Be my strength, Show me, What do I do? When the biggest hurt yet Was the moment I lost you? To have happiness again, A life I deserve, One I was ready, and would have willingly, combined with yours... And I will, someday, in due time, I just need you so bad, to be the light, Guide me home, Through this darkness I fight. Forever I'm indebted to you, You were my Heaven Sent, For reasons I'll never fully know, Or pretend to understand, But I know I am forever blessed, To have known you.... I'm luckier than most I guess, To have met the best, The first one that stumped me with my own "F's"..... You will never leave my heart, Or stray from my thoughts, That's how great the impact you caused... Justin Derecskey, We created a lifetime of memories In the short time we spent, So, Thank you whoever, whatever, higher power of, Greater than anyone could imagine, Or dream of, up above, I appreciate the time you allowed me to have with this beautiful soul, This amazing man... Glad to be deserving, Of even the slightest chance, To tell our story over and over again, Of how we met.... The dramatic start.... The friendship that was beautiful, But ended right when it began, But has never left my heart... I will never forget, or regret one part, You're my angel, you're my best friend, And I am a better me, For having known you, To have Heaven for a little bit, And I guess, I still do... You did it, you had me, I didn't stand a chance, You pulled me in, a whisper of words you chose to say, My heart only beats for you... Never for another will it beat the same... Your name, the tune that will forever be played, I will never love another the same, You are all that I have left, Of the me that remains.... ©shantilly