Where Are You?
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Well it's that time again... That dreaded time to remember when, The wicked evil shit this world is filled with, Wasn't something I had to think about before, Or knew about, even.... I miss you so bad, I mean real fucking bad, I am lost... No one tells me any sort of truth, I really fucking need you... But in recent news, I verified what I always knew, The gut feeling I felt the entire time, Since the day you left, Life's been rude... I have grown accustomed to, It's presence... Apparently I force it down pretty well, Because it feels like everyone second guesses it... This ache in my chest, Apparently people think something about it, Is funny.... What is it about me that is amusing? Besides a crooked smile I get it, But God damn, aren't they fucking threw with me yet? I don't know how to handle this Justin... Where the fuck are you now that I need you? This is the one time that it's so damn crucial, I don't feel human anymore.... I don't feel whole.... What the fuck was you doing to me? I will never know..... Because to me, it's bullshit! That I can't let you go, It's destroying me! Everything has beaten me down, To the point where I wear this half ass, Humorous frown.... Jokes on me, I guess, The little pawn that I was, Even after you left, The game has went to hell, I'm sure of it... And it's like I'm playing by myself. I don't understand what the hell I did to become, The center of the Infamous "Circle Jerk Of Fun" I can't escape it... It follows me everywhere... No matter where I may run... I can't control my thoughts long enough, For my heart to stand still, To be able to get through the hurt, Try to fucking heal. © ©shantilly
Well it's that time again... That dreaded time to remember when, The wicked evil shit this world is filled with, Wasn't something I had to think about before, Or knew about, even.... I miss you so bad, I mean real fucking bad, I am lost... No one tells me any sort of truth, I really fucking need you... But in recent news, I verified what I always knew, The gut feeling I felt the entire time, Since the day you left, Life's been rude... I have grown accustomed to, It's presence... Apparently I force it down pretty well, Because it feels like everyone second guesses it... This ache in my chest, Apparently people think something about it, Is funny.... What is it about me that is amusing? Besides a crooked smile I get it, But God damn, aren't they fucking threw with me yet? I don't know how to handle this Justin... Where the fuck are you now that I need you? This is the one time that it's so damn crucial, I don't feel human anymore.... I don't feel whole.... What the fuck was you doing to me? I will never know..... Because to me, it's bullshit! That I can't let you go, It's destroying me! Everything has beaten me down, To the point where I wear this half ass, Humorous frown.... Jokes on me, I guess, The little pawn that I was, Even after you left, The game has went to hell, I'm sure of it... And it's like I'm playing by myself. I don't understand what the hell I did to become, The center of the Infamous "Circle Jerk Of Fun" I can't escape it... It follows me everywhere... No matter where I may run... I can't control my thoughts long enough, For my heart to stand still, To be able to get through the hurt, Try to fucking heal. © ©shantilly
2022-02-23 14:13:26
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