Mom
You know that I love you
And that I don't want to let you down
So please stop looking at me, with a mad frown
You showed me and taught me, to be more independent
But I think you went farther than even you intended
I'm not really okay on my own
But I try to be to show you that I am grown
I read one of your diaries and how you were depressed
So how can you look at me and say I'm not a mess?
You've told me I'm overweight and that I should lose a few pounds
Now I can't look at myself so I just stare at the ground
You're no better than me
And as far as I can see, you're the one who needs lose some of that honesty
You tear me down and make it hard to look up
Why don't you just say it, just tell me that I suck!
I can't believe I'm saying this, and it really is true
But a part of me dies each time I become more like you
I just wanted you to be tender, and maybe give me a kiss
But because of you there are scars on my wrist
Its hard to be your daughter
And I wish that it wasn't
For you to be proud of me, well that'd be a present
You've given me panic attacks and suicidal thoughts too
That's why I never want to become like you
When I have a daughter and she's feeling down
I won't be the one who put her on the ground
In a couple of years or a decade too
I promise that I'll be a better mother than you.
2018-07-06 15:56:47
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