BREAKDOWN
It's becoming really hard
Always trying to hide how I feel
Forgeting how to laugh
And pretending to be happy.
Hoping they won't notice that it's all fake
And am terrified that someone might notice
And ask and I don't know how to explain to them
Why my heart and mind are cold
Why I can't be truly happy
It becoming harder
To always fight the urge to run
my body can't move
I am trembling,
I search for something or someone to hold on to
But I don't have the strength to move
My throat is closing and I can't shout for them to help
Even if they were to hear me what do I tell them
How do I explain how am feeling
My legs are giving away
Am trying hard to breath,
My hands are unsteady and trembling
My heart beats fast
Hot tears rolling down my face
I fight the urge to run and fight this demon
But am loosing the battle
I think I am screaming but I can really tell
Cz my world is spinning
And that's when I realize that
Am having another breakdown.
2019-05-21 08:38:47
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