A Moment's Weakness
I looked in the mirror
Guess what I seen
Most expect good looks
The person they want to be
Or the person by popular opinion
In my mirror
I saw the monsters within
That fights desperately for control
Surrounded by darkness
The voices of death
That says give in
Give in to the hurt
The pain that weighs on you
The fatigue from pushing thus this far
Give in and I can make it better
The relief will overwhelm
The calmness will beset you
I looked in the mirror
Guess what I seen
I saw a person
Who given in to the opinions
The charismatic thoughts of others
The negativity
The darkness
Wasn't around him
No this time
He was the darkness
A person can only hold but so much
Accept I'm sorry
But so many times
Before recognizing the feeling
I need to fight back
The frustration of giving so much
Yet never recieving
Working without a reward
Something so easily found in my darkness
Here I found happiness
I haven't felt in a long time
My anger that was over storage
Gone
Yet when I look in the mirror
I realize
I lost
This war within my being
Was to keep darkness from entering
The battles against the words give in
That's meant to be fought day to day
Now when I see myself
I see my failure
A reminder that instead of fighting
Keeping my light alive
I blew it out
For what was simple
In the moment
A moment's weakness
2019-03-09 21:58:18
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