I realize I have problems I know I'm not perfect I make mistakes Wrong decisions Yet they believe that I am My problems Left me rigorously searching High and low For solutions The aspects of my desires Ultimately deemed as unattainable My mistakes lead me down a dark road Twisted Deep The times I wished The hurt, pain Would end That my feelings Emotions Was non-existent So whatever I do Whatsoever It wouldn't be orchestrated My thoughts That would have me believe Intimacy and love Does in fact exsist Only no one loves you As if I live in a haven Shielded by negativity and hate A stranger to love Inexperienced to the warmth The feeling Security Desires deemed unattainable But if only for a minute Just a second There was a world Where my thoughts Wasn't my enemy Where everything Went according to plan Happened the way I wished An escape To a better world The figments Developed and produced Stirctly for imagination Perhaps hopes Have you been there The place The realization Where being transparent Was more important than holding a mirror A picture of a better you Mimicking someone Who isn't you So no one will see the flaws No one will analysize your wounds The admoralities of your pain Of your journey So no one will see the real you Someone who's locked away Only to be seen when you're alone Only nourished in a safe environment Where judgement is non-existent The secret garden where everyone is accepted I've been rejected too much Seen too much hurt From jokes that turned to bullets Laughs that turned to stones And tears that flooded The horror of the aftermath To do the unthinkable Allow others to see my scars To put down the image That makes people believe the lies I'm okay I'm good I feel fine And inside I'm struggling to survive To admit the hidden truth Something I tried to keep inside The fact that I'm broken Shattered in pieces Living in the wake of my ruins The statues of inspiration Hopes Aspirations That lay in pieces Yearning for restoration That no one hears And no one sees No one cares That the expectations and pressures Crushes what's left As I struggle to rebuild 1 brick laid Another crumbles 1 step forward 5 steps back One of the hardest Painful times in life Is when you're broken When you're lost Struggling to find the stability You once possessed To put yourself back together again And begin to heal Yet the world doesn't stop spinning Because we don't like the rotation These times won't last forever One morning We'll reach the mountain top And watch the sun shine on a new day The day I am no longer... Broken