Mom I know it's too late to write this But I want to apologize for listening and not following your advice For I have made a mistake and very big mistake I know this apology will not justify anything I am sorry for making you the laughing stock among other women I hate myself for tarnishing your image But let me finishing telling you this story Before I curl into a ball and and crawl into a hole Away from the judging eyes of the people in our society I feel like a fool cz you gave me all your love but I was never gratified I had to  get more from the cruel and heartless man I now call my baby daddy He said that we should not use protection, For he has every thing covered and would like to start a family with me someday A few months later the fruits of our forbidden love  have started showing People are pointing fingers calling me names and I don't know who turn to Cz the man who promised me heaven wants nothing to do with me or my baby I have thoughts of taking my life but I don't want you to suffer I know am selfish for needing your love and support more than anything right now For I know nothing about babies and am hoping, you won't turn your face from I know am to blame for everything happening in my life now For making poor decision even after you taught me well I cry myself to sleep every night cz I know that my life will come to halt My education, my friends, my party life, I have to leave every thing and focus on my baby Who is as a result of forbidden love and my stupidity and naivety The child that will take away my life and my youth My friends no longer want to be friends with me They are ashamed of me and call me the names For listening to a stupid man, even after you had warned me about these heartless men I hope that you'll find it in your heart to forgive me cz you are all I have in this life Mother am sorry for being a fool and for breaking your heart For I know you had big dreams about my future But I shattered them in just a few minutes of pleasure And for not thinking about you before making stupid decisions such as not using protection