It's been a while since I talked to Micheal and having him around lightened up my mood somehow, I wouldn't say that he's the first person I'd run to when I'm feeling down but after what happened with Ryan and Amber I needed comfort from somebody other than Tessa. I hadn't talked to Amber ever since she got back from her date with Ryan and having to look at her face this morning would hurt me more.

"I'm glad I  got to see  you after a long time just know that you can count on me if you need anything" Michel said as he placed my hands in his.

Now wasn't the time to act all defensive and tough and I could tell that he knew how broken I was, I didn't want to make him feel like a rebound or anything so I tried to keep my distance so as to not lead him on but things got awkward when we hugged, it wasn't the longest hug I've ever had but it felt like it, I could feel his heart beating out of his chest and the warmth of the embrace filled the space around us, I knew he got uncomfortable so I tried to pull away but he desperately pulled me back by the hand and kissed me as his lips gently crushed on mine so tentative and mesmerizing and I helplessly sunk in his arms as I responded to his kiss trying to shake off the thoughts of Ryan and the drama that was going on. For a moment I felt comfort in his embrace, wanted in his kiss, loved in his touch, everything concerning Ryan disappeared at that time and I just wanted to enjoy the moment but I quickly pulled back after realizing exactly what I was doing, I knew I was kissing Michael but I didn't realize early enough what I was doing to him I might be leading him on without any intensions of been with him.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that" I said apologetically with my eyes looking around trying to avoid eye contact with him.


"you don't have to be sorry it was my bad, let me drive you home"


I knew he was disappointed by the tone of his voice and having him drive me home wouldn't make him feel any better, it was getting late and I really needed a ride back home so I had no choice but to accept his help.

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We were both quiet during the drive but the music from the radio filled up that awkward moment of silence, when we reached home he got out of the car and  helped me out. I didn't know what else to say to him but to thank him for been there for me, we were standing so close to each and I could hardly catch my breath, after saying our goodbyes he slowly pecked me on the cheek and my heart was beating fast, it felt like the longest peck and he finally ended it with a gentle touch on my other cheek, for a moment we locked eyes then looked away as I walked back to the house, I turned around and watched him drive off then continued my walk back home but before I could get in I saw Ryan looking straight at me with a whole lot of mixed emotions on his face.
Without any hesitation I walked up to him and just wanted to end this frustration I've been holding for a while, I felt nothing but anger and I just wanted to let it out.

"why are you doing this? Huh? So you think you're the only who can see other people and I can't. What's wrong with you, why do you keep doing this to me? This is exactly what I was afraid of....."

He kept looking at me dazed by the whole situation but before he could speak I blocked him with my harsh words, I've never reacted this way before but it felt so good to let out my anger, I was crying and letting out any word that came to my mind without thinking twice about it. I was so loud and I didn't care if anybody else heard, I trusted this man and this is what he does in return? He grabbed me by the hand and took me inside but that didn't stop me from talking, I was been so relentless but I didn't care.

"she was right, she was right, she warned me about you but I didn't listen" I kept on repeating the words with my hands in my hair while pacing around.

"Becca what are you talking about? I..."
Before he could finish his sentence I interrupted him.

"you! You betrayed me, you betrayed my trust, you slept with  her and you thought I wouldn't find out? How could you do this? You know about my past with guys and my ex step father and this is what you do? You're no different from them, you did the exact thing they did, why did you do this? Am I not good enough for you, am I too young for you or what? Where you just playing with me such that you took away my innocence? "

" Becca! Calm down and explain..... "

" what's there to explain? Isn't it all clear, everything she said about you is so true, no wonder Rachel left you in the first place and you killed her softly with your actions... "

" Becca!!! "
This time I felt the anger in his voice and it made my heart tremble, I was so scared and I was literally shaking and the place was so messed up from the things I threw on the floor.

" First of all I don't want you to bring Rachel into this and her death had nothing to do with me, you come to me being all relentless and you're not giving me the chance to explain"

I was shaking from fear, his yelling made my heart  tremble its obvious I brought the anger out of him the moment I brought up Rachel, it's a story he never wants to talk about and bringing it in this situation made him angry and I was scared of his reaction to it but I had to defend myself.
The house was filled with vociferates and yelling from the both of us, broken glasses on the floor and things scattered all over the place, dismayed by the whole situation I ran out of words and I couldn't take it anymore... I was surprised by how the neighbors couldn't hear us, we have never had such an intense altercation and I was so apprehensive about one of us ending up physically hurt. I sat in the corner of the room sobbing helplessly as I stroke my hair back and forth with my head facing the floor. How did we get like this? I started wondering if I made the right decision of been with him or not... Abruptly I heard my mom's voice behind the glass door of his living room as she called out his name, I was paralyzed with fear and he was looking at me bewildered trying to figure out what to do. Oh I swear it was the toughest moment of my life.



*sometimes things aren't always as they seem to be, thank you guys for the likes and the views I hope you enjoyed this chapter. The next chapter will be updated soon and will find out what happens after, do you think Becca and Ryan should get back together or is this the end of their love story? Feel free to let me know via comments or dm☺️*