I was so keen to know what had happened after I left and despite our argument I still wanted to see him, I overreacted and I just want to make things right, I don't how I was going to face him but I had to. Later that morning I waited for everybody else to leave the house then got set to go to see him, with a little hesitation I knocked on his door at least twice while pulling myself back and away from his house until he opened the door and caught me in a dumbfound situation,

"hey" he said in the lowest voice I couldn't make out a conversation from if it where someone else,

"hi, I just wanted to check up on you"

"I appreciate it but I don't think it's necessary"

"I also wanted to say I'm sorry for..."
But before I could finish my sentence he interrupted


"look Becca whatever happened last night is all in the past, and whatever I'm about to tell you has nothing to do with our argument"
"wah-what do you want to tell me?"

"I think we should break up"
The moment I heard that sentence I felt so shattered into pieces, I knew this was going to happen but I didn't know it was going to be this soon.

"You're beautiful and you still have a lot going for you,I don't regret every second I spent with you but I just don't think this is right, you'll meet a lot of guys who'll love and care for you more than I do, I'm sorry for the bad experiences I gave you and for this. I I just can't do it"

Oh my gosh, this isn't happening please tell me this isn't happening.

"we can work this out, I will soon graduate high school and I will go to college where we won't have to hide from anyone else and besides now that I'm 18 it's legal to...."

"Becca look"
He said as he held my hands,

"I can't keep doing this, for the sake of you, me, Melissa, your mother, let's just live in this in the past. I got a job offer in Florida and I'll be leaving this weekend. I'm sorry to notify you this late but I have to leave this place as soon as possible. "

My whole face was covered in tears and I couldn't catch my breath,
" Ryan.. I don't think I'll find  anybody else like you, you taught me how to love, you taught me how to be a better a person, you brought me to life, how am I going be without you, I can't do this."

He embraced me so tight and I dropped weak in his arms, I still could believe this was happening, we sat on the stairs outside with his arms still embracing me, I couldn't stop the tears from falling down and I didn't care if anybody saw us, I just wanted to hug him, each time I closed my eyes the memories kept playing back over and over, I still can't believe this is over, I can't believe he'll be leaving four days from now.



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The day before leaving we through him a farewell party, almost everybody in the neighborhood was there including Tessa and Jake , he's such a lovely man and everybody loved having him around.This party takes me back to my 18th birthday party when I confessed my love to him, I watched him every second of the party and watched why everybody loves him, I remember when he first showed up at my doorstep with a  mini chocolate cake in his hands, he was so full of smiles, so cheerful and I was too focused on fixing the mess I made with Micheal at the mall such that I didn't pay attention to him.
It was time for the last dance and shayne wards song"until you"started playing, this took me back to the time I danced with Michael and pretend it was Ryan I was dancing with, all those fantasies I made in my head while dancing to the song, it's crazy how those fantasies turned into reality and now they're memories.(chuckles)
He came to me and took me by the hand and wrapped his hand around my waist and his other hand tightly holding mine. We gazed into each other's eyes often times as we danced to the rhythm of the song, I then rested my head on his chest which takes me back to the time I laid my head on his chest after making love with him for the first time, I closed my eyes and so many memories kept replaying in head, like it was yesterday when we shook hands for the first time, like it was some hours ago when we went for a ride around town while singing along to the  songs that played on the radio, like it were minutes ago when he cooked for me the most delicious meal I've ever ate, like it was just some seconds ago when we first kissed underneath the moonlight in front of his house, tears filled my the corners of my eyes when reality hit me so hard in the face, when the daylight comes this will turn into memories.


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It has been 6 months since I last saw or heard from Ryan, school has been very stressful but I'm glad that I'm  finally studying my dream career, been in the university is not so easy but I'm glad I still have Tessa around and a couple of new friends I made, it's a whole new experience and fills different been away from home, from my mom.... Surprisingly I'm not as uptight as I used to, I've learned to party a little and have time for other things as well, interacting with people is something I have no issues with anymore and honestly I didn't think I'll ever make it on my own. Micheal has been here a couple of times and everything is cool between us, luckily I have a good and understanding boyfriend and he's ok with Michael and I been friends despite knowing my past with him, I was getting ready to go to the party that had been the daily talk for the past 2 weeks now and I'm glad it's finally here, I was looking for the necklace my mom gave me and the thought of Ryan hit me so hard, i remember when I went crazy thinking I lost it and he helped me look for it and ended up making love afterwards, I still have the paper he left me with on the day he was leaving, it has his contact details and wrapping it and putting it in my purse was bittersweet,everything about that day felt like a hard peel to swallow, we shared our last kiss and I watched him head to the airport,the wound was slowly healing but the memories were still as fresh as the beautiful roses he sent me sometimes, I wondered how he was doing so I decided to call him and hear his voice for the last time, for a while I hesitated then dialed the numbers, I took a deep breath and I was still wondering if I was doing the right thing or not.
"hello..."
His voice still sounded as melodious as before,
"h-hi"
"Becca, how've you been"
I can't believe he recognized my voice despite the time we've spent apart, it felt so amazing talking to him and I'm glad that he was doing just fine, though our conversation wasn't long it was worth it,
"I'm glad you called,"
"im glad to hear from you, I have to hang up now. Bye"
Despite hanging up my phone was still glued to my ear as I tried to hold back my tears, Tessa barged in my room feeling all hyper,
"c'mon girl I don't want to be late for the party come on everyone's waiting"
She pulled me by the hand like a kid and turned back to wipe my eyes as I shut the door.



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I just want to thank you all for been with me through this journey, I'm sorry I took so long to update these last chapters but I hope you enjoyed this story as much as I enjoyed writing it ☺️Becca's love life has been an up and down ride and honestly that's how reality is, sometimes we get what we want and sometimes we don't and if we don't just know that there's something bigger and better that's coming for us. Writing Becca's no man policy has been a long ride and I didn't think it would have this many views, likes and comments. Once again thank you all for your support 😘😘😘.